BONAFIDE L.O.V.E

I was inebriated in the fun-ness this few days. Should name it as "BLISS from ALL MY ADHERENT". & I realises tht I managed to fledgle well wit the camera=) Those pesky problems I had, I jus indifference it=) Best MEDICINE~~=) Guess this entry will be a lenghty one=)

Watch kinky lots of movie=)
-Skinwalkers ---> 2& a half Stars
-Hairspray ---> 4 & a half Stars
-Ratatouille(Remy; fei fei's idol) ---> 2 & a half Stars
-Dead Silence(Mary Shaw; cant remember the whole poem) ---> 3 Stars
-Evan Almighty ---> 3 Stars
-881(Papaya) ---> 4 & a half Stars

*P.S -I'm not tryin to be a reviewer, is based on individual basis=) but DO Trust my taste; I'm good at judgin/ratin movie & people=); IS AN INBORN, cant help

Was very busy with work, first they are trainin me for the real Admin job=) No longer those PP slides only=) Kinky excited, cos "I'M A LEARNER FOR LIFE=)" Unable to take the whole day leave on FRI, so discounted by 50%, haha=)

Alot of NEWSY to share too=)

-Entertainment-
-Prince Harry getting engaged wit Gf=)
-Britney.S, still need someone to screw her mind
-Rmb to catch Mandy Moore edition of Umbrella
-David.B injuried himself & Victoria.B is the special guest for the new season of Ugly Betty
-Princess Diana is still effigy in people hearts, after 10 long years=)
-Owen Wilson is better now; be it physically / mentally=)
-ZAC EFRON IS THE TEEN CHOICE FOR HUNKIE=)
-MOVIE 881 WAS PRAISE IN THE U.S NEWS ON THUR cos it actually got nominated in the GOLDEN HORSE AWARDS(I'm kinky proud); therefore I was kinky eager to watch it=)

-World/War Related-
-The remainin 19 korean were released
-In Aug, more than 18 000 of Iraqis were killed
-The Queen is the World 23 most powerful woman=)
-3 soccer-man died within 3 weeks

-Singapore-
-I prayed for the Captain Ho=)
haha, guessed tht not counted as a news=) SORRY AR BYE=)

Friday, went to Liyana's house to help out for her Belated Burstday Party, went there about 3 plus(regretted).. So bla bla bla..Talk abt Hui Shan & Aqilah broken heart(not hard feelings), My sweet escape also=). Random-ly took some photos & very nice to know her NAFA's Pals=) Do take care of her=)




One of my all time favourite people



GOTCHA!



Me & Burstday girl..Heehee, as usual; without fail I will push her down into the pool=)



Shan & me=)






Her daddy praised me for being kinda independent=) Thanks, but seriously not very used to be a princess. I enjoyed being me, AS IN ME=)

Lovely day cos it's Teacher Day at the mitnight, cos BABY were havin his company / class celebration=) & Sat, he was borrowed by his friend, M.C!! Nvm, is M.C pre burstday celebration

1st Sept 07, I was still up(havin girl's talk still). Abit guilty tht I din go back to school so I sent a Happy Teachers' Day SMS for those teachers. So my msg goes like this: "Happy Teachers' Day, Thanks for your coachin & guidin throughout past 5 years, Sandral here & on behalf for 2006 Class 5/2".

All the teacher were so touched, I jus did my duty as part of a student & those words really comes from within=)
Especially for Mrs Logan, my form teacher cum english teacher for 2005 Class 4/7. She is always a very emotional person so she thought noone from my class remembers her, therefore she is extra touched. Her reply was: "I recieved your message last night. I am so touched. You will always be in my fond memories cos I needed you as much as I may hav helped you. As a friend thanks to you & thanks for rememberin me this day"
For this, I made the title of this entry as Bonafide love = Genuine love
I can never forget those times in CHR..I hav my zenith & nadir there, people who were awared about my major mistake i had done in my life & was there to help, I take it chance to thank you guys again. But again people changes=) so move on!!

Well, process to Sat afternoon(ytd)=), Went out wit Fei fei & his mum for movie in town. Saw Hairu at the platform, she was goin to study. Bought the tickets, ate our lunch, there's a show on the ground floor which really excites fei fei & me=) High school musical 2; MY school rocks & OMG HE WENT/RAN UP TO THE STAGE TO DANCE=) didnt managed to win the soundtrack of H.S.M 2 but really laudable=) Even now, he is still tellin his sisters about his dancin exprience=). Petite Boy, take a look at those pic=)


Prince Jun Long=)





The mum & fei fei



He is dancin on the stage





Street Photography=)





So 4.20pm, we headed to watch the movie, 881. Ask me why I giv 4 & a half Stars?
FIRSTLY, i know how to appreciate ALL ILK COED GENRES OF MUSIC. Be it, R&B, SOUL, SENTIMENTAL, HIPHOP, COUNTRYMUSIC, JAZZY, CLASSIC, ROCK & ROLL. I wont discrimate races, languages, genres & etc. This movie is really good if you really know how to appreciates it & I mus confessed tht I feel the real life scenario within. The Hokkien songs are good & even the reviewer in U.S (you can see the essay in yahoo) prasied this genre of music, he/she might not even know the language=). Abit lame & overall is excellent still=) It's worth to be as a nominater in the Golden Horse Award=) Keep it up=)

Oh, I bought the Zen Stone plus=) Pink colour~~coolness, Liyana got one for her burstday present.. I wasnt steppin her, I was eyein for tht long ago=) plus I <3 Pink=)




This thingy is really small & easy to eat=)





Cam-whore Freak!!





Dinner at Din Tai Feng=) Take a rebound train back home, Fei fei is quite well-behaved compared to the past few time I brought him out=) Home-sweet-home.




Taken by Fei fei=)





Crazy Batman!!





Babyboy was unhappy about me showering wit fei fei, but I felt is okie..=) Maybe he doesnt hab a chance to bathe wit me yet so he's jealous=) wahaha~~JK JK=)

Recieved an email, read it.

Tml programme: If my bf is not goin to acc me tml due to lazyness, will either rot at home / go east coast park wit my family. Depends how's my mood=)

Hopefully, you guys enjoyed my today entry=)
Well, bid here
Adious

Jocose Week=)

Hmm.. I love my Blog song=) Wanna know why? Cos Avril Lavigne made this song for personal reason=)

- Jus like I'll think far, & ponder & feel what happen if I gain / lose something important or even unimportant?
- Where & what is my realm, which I'm supposed to focus in years to come?
- Whether I will be a singular & eminent?

All are an unknown still, I cant prognosticated but I hav the most concern for my future.

Now, I start to ponder alot of things I have never / didnt wan to think about. First, to beware gettin hurt & secondly, to beware of people who will put a flash in the pan=)

Like this song & blog, put myself into people's shoes. I think if I ever lose my guy, like I lose some of my friends. Will I jus get over it like I got over it? Will I be able to live wit an empty heart? Will I find someone to love me like him? Will I do another stupid thing for my next bf?

But I'm pretty sure I'll miss him like mad. Like the song, when you're gone THE PIECES OF MY HEART ARE MISSING YOU. when you're gone, THE FACE I CAME TO KNOW IS MISSING. when you're gone, THE WORDS I NEED TO HEAR TO ALWAYS GET ME THROUGH THE DAY & MAKE IT OKIE, i miss you=)

I'm kinky egotist sometimes towards some things, a person who retrospect, smile when I in joy / sad, very ardent, rational yet emotional & lastly like I always say "I not ready to make nice"

Who is READY TO MAKE NICE IN THIS HECTIC WORLD? what is good & bad? where is good & bad? why & when there's good & bad? Who doesnt hav anger & sorrows? Even Gorge Bush has, not mention PM Lee or I, myself? So who is actually there to make nice?=)

I tried to be nice but I do hav my principles & pride to acknowledge=) I'm nice to a certain extent=) I spit out my disgruntled=) Frankness=)

Tomorrow, mitnight is Liyana's Birthday=)

Amorous Day

I dedicate this song to Shine=)..

Song lyrics | Avril Lavigne lyrics

Fri, Oral day=) Well it's still an unknown though is important to me but I'll take it easy=) Met Thahira & Zi Qing in school=) Coolness, I actually managed to talk for 10 mins. I hope it wont be wasted=)

Met my honey bunny in Causeway then headed to the library. Kisses, & sweetness cos I met an old-time friend=) she was from CHR NPCC too..Malati if i didnt make a mistake=)

Sat, Woke up spontaneous=) Baby got up early to study wit James aka Mistress.. Well, buzz Chrissie & she's also wonderin where to slack. So together we set our journey..
We ate healthy
We quipped
We watched HAIRSPRAY!! I hav a likeness from this movie not cos of ZAC EFRON, either is a musical movie but lastly is a inspiring & the movie i really supports=) it tells a "LOVE IS COLOURBLIND" meaning=) We danced & sang in the cinema=)
We ate our dinner in Esplanade dancin area=).. Coolness, Dancer & lots of ppl were wonderin=) But we didnt rued tht we did tht=)
She bought the same market shoes i have=)





There, she was grappin her dinner


& We were so shag when we were on the rebound train=)
THANKS GIRL, YOU BRIGHTEN ME=)

Sunday, woke up spastically early, woke my dearest up=) Left our bags in the hotel & we rushed to the starting point=) The first 6Km was okie=) but the rest were dugery!! Shine could go faster but he insisted to acc me=) sweetness=)
We completed @ about 1 hour & 45 min..not a good result=(
I go for the Standard Chartered 10km Run=)

Went back to the hotel & bathed then we headed home=)..Home alone for the whole day=)
Sweet love=)


Chatted wit Leah!!=) Sweet ass, she participated in the run too=) Talked & exchanged our opinions about our own bf=) I realised I found the nicest boyfriend i hav=)

Today, work is lackluster=) Met baby at admiratly=) We jus bid wit a kiss=)

Been watchin House of harmory since ytd=) Is acted by Maggie Q(Harmony) & Fann Wong(Mei Ling).. The story is regards a young beautiful asian girl, met this guy who is a cauasian. They fell deeply in love however, their love was forbidden in the chinese tradition. She(Mei Ling) was then pregnant so she broke her family heart & raised the child alone=) The guy also promised to be back but he dead in a crash ship=(

24 year later, the little girl grew up & went to L.A to find the dad to fufill her mum's wish. Not knowin her mum days were countable, she found the whereabout of the family of her dad. Mum dead by tht, Harmony fall in love wit the cauasian guy the dad had adopt before knowin Mei Ling=) However, the boy mum disagreed till the day she was dyin=) She told him "Son, I made you unhappy cos of my pride. Now I willing to return your freedom back to you" A love story=)

Chatting wit CK now!! Told me a spastic qiup but he is a nice chap=)

An old Italian Mafia Don is dying and he called his grandson to his bed and told him: "Grandson I wanta you to listen to me. I wanta you to take mya 45 automatic pistol, so you will always remember me".
The grandson replies: "But grandpa I really don't like guns, how about you leaving me your Rolex watch instead".
The don, angry, answers: "You lisina to me, some day you goin a be runna da bussiness, you goina have a beautiful wife, lotsa money, a biga home and maybe a couple od bambino, some day you goina come hom and maybe finda you wife in be with another man. Whata you gonna do then? Pointa to you watch and say, 'TIMES UP'"?

Got the Joke?

Sunshine after the rain

Recently kinky quarrelsome wit some pals, i'm quellin this problem. I have been pondering for days, i wont find a pretext to bring it over. I prefers to accept it; you should know i will & i wont deny tht i was irated. If you choose to disparage me / perverse is your choice & the same for where you wanna stand..

Grow up & move on=) The other side of this hectic world is waiting for me; i am very sure i will cross there one day

Hapless events do happens & i'm sure i have precocious & beenin far-sighted is my strength. But is saddenin tht i always so soft-hearted to friends, I will kick off this weakness cos I'm not a free door=)

I'm sure tht humans have this natural ability similar like any animals in the world. That is to be vilgiant for people who tempted to hurt them=)..(So dun try to play punk wit me=)heehee)

I am very thankful for people who really enlighten me=) Babyboy & Chrissie arealways there for me=) Liyana's heart is always inside me..I jus realised she grows mentally as she is turing 18, gladed for you, baby girl!! Joyce too, kindness of her to be so busy & she spared ample time for me.

I am relieved, like Shine said "You are so good & confident wit yourself. Why bothers about those who tryin to bring you down. You dun speak Singlish, you are improvin tremendously."

Like Zherui mentioned in his blog "Singlish is beautiful language(I truely agrees) but I need to control myself to speak Singlish cos I'm focusin on English=); I love him for sayin tht=)

Chrissie did most of the job, she is my condifant. I cried while i am grumbling, she said "Girl you'll be salient"

Liyana did the sweetest job by sayin "Whoever's not there wit ya, I always be=)"

I guessed the matter of fact is be it, I hab the right to comment or correct people anot is my choice..Hate it & Love it accept it=) DUN BE SUCH A BIGOT, OPEN UP man! We are free man & living in a free world.
"Accept those corrections & change to be a better me"(Coolness, tht my motto)

I am not being showy still cos I'm not doin good enough still..i'm probably kinky engrossed wit those words i jus learn=) but is my right still=)

Well, it was rainin like cats & dogs awhile ago=) The sun jus rose & sayin "work hard move on" to me.. & a kinky adorable palm tapped on my shoulder=) IS MY FEI FEI He is smilin & he said "RATATOUILLE" to me=) KINKY CUTE!! omg, I havin an important oral exam later, thinkin how will i fare! Baby helped me alot ytd=) Thank you=)

THIS IS BONAFIDE LOVE=)heehee

Sat, I need to find programme for my own. Probably go out to study but not till late night cos Sun is an exciting day.Shine & I are goin for Singapore Bay Run 2007 & Water Festival=) We are goin to do trackin for 12 clips!! I hav prepared the Sony Cybershot 5.1 camera wit me.. Coolness..& One of the weekdays we might be goin to Night Safrari together.. Friday is Celebration of Teachers' Day & Celebration of Liyana's burstday=) Though her burstday is on 29 Aug=)

Lovely.. Boston is indeed a nice song,so hearty..I in an exultation now=)
Bid Here.
Adious.
Muack.
Hugs.
Bye.

Augustana

INDULGE IN REMINISCENCE

I'm very sanguine with my current affair, thought things aint goin on so well..i tryin hard to obviate my sorrows but they always made a U-turn back to me=)..

Who is not cupidity coed happiness? The world is fraught wit desires..People will always crave to look/do/known as beautiful/greatly..Wht do do? I/We still need to accomodate to this hectic world. Everything is jus so nebulous..

I've got pesky so I'm in repose, I really jus wanna GETAWAY phyisically & mentally now. Yik Kiat sent me a song few days ago.

Title: Boston
Singer: Augustana

Wht a coincidence, is August now & I fell in love deeply wit this song. It really jus expressed me inside out=)

Lyrics
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed,you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field, when flowers gazed at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains,

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly her out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Now, I have the urge to study hard to join law school next year, cos I'll have alot to do & hopefully I wont stay at home.

WHY?

Cos I will meet more friends, my social life will be better. Hopefully, everything could be fine.

I find myself 10 times free. cos my work is challenage-less..
Unlike, Baby boy..Busy with work & study
Pei Ee.. Enjoying life
Liyana..Started a new chapter in life
Nevertheless, Chrissie..Plenty of new life after joinin lasalle

But wht about me? I do hab some plans but I guessed I will need to find someone else.. The Rate & Attitude proves we arent makin it=) Elimation is neccessary when it comes to sucess=)

Plus I not able to go to Sentosa cos I lost a person to acc me=) I'm sure I'll find a new one..but I found one who I met in Sentosa=) But...I jus a lazy bum

I was grubbling to Baby boy, tht I'm so lonely & my life is like a robot routine now. He is currently my only one who sparks my entire life now=)
Thank you, boy=) I guessed I can feel how Liyana felt.
Anyway ANY COMMENTS I MADE IS PUELY BASED ON MY OWN FEELING, SO NO HARD FEELING=)

Anyway, Hungry Ghost Festival..so beware=)

Hmm..Thur & Fri..Went straight home to watch Kinship=)

Sat, Went out with Sharon. But i think I bored her full-time.I feel odd; Nth much to say=)
Evening, we walked to the place where we can see fire-works. & home home home..=)

Sun, Quarrelled wit my baby boy. Cos he was kinky lazy to go town wit me, was %%^*(*(// =) He knows I was pretty unhappy about his rejection so he agreed..HAHAHA..
So we went to Billy Bomber to eat=) & the rain started to pour & so we strolled to Starbucks.
WE STAYED UNDER MY UNBRELLA, ELLA ELLA EL EL EL=)
HAHAHA..He did alot of quipping while we are walking.
Finally we settle down to study..=) I finished 5 Chapters OF MATH=)
Then we went to Suntec Carefour, shop for some stuff=)..Did some crazy stuffs & went back home=)

LOVE IS SO UNEXPRESSABLE

Then I jus realised ytd was lunar 7 month day 7=) Is the Chinese St. Valentine, I spent my day happily wit my sarang..

I was replete with love=) I really enjoy everyday wit ya..=)

I hab the skirt alr, hooha=)
Anyway I made a pact wit Chrissie=) I have lost 1cm=) coolness=)

Adious..bid here=)

Blessing in disguise

BLESSING IN DISGUISE!

KINDA CUTE TODAY..I WOKE UP LATE & UNABLE TO MEET LIYANA TO THE ART MUSEUM=( PLUS WHEN I HALF WAY TO TOWN; SHE IS ALSO HALF-WAY BACK HOME=(

SO I, AS A WEIRDO WOULDNT WAN TO GO HOME SO EARLY=)..NOONE IS FREE, BABY BOY IS WORKIN, SHA IS STUDYIN, CHRISSIE PHONE PROBLEM, PEI EE IN PERTH(WE ARE FINE NOW), CK IS GOIN FOR DRIVIN LESSON..

SO I ENDED EATIN BRUNCH ALONE..MY MEAL COSTED MI 9 BUCKS BUT I ONLY HAD 3-4 BUCKS MEAL (I WAS SUPER UBER HIGH).. THEN I COMPLAINED TO SHA THE INCIDENT.."WELL, I WAS SITTING ALONE IN THE FOODCOURT. WAS THRISTY SO WENT TO A DRINK AT A NEARBY STALL..WHILE I WAS PAYIN FOR THE DRINK, THE CLEANER CLEARED MY MEAL!!!
IS LIKE %(*()$#??)+_??//><^^%&* la!!!!!!!
THEN HE APOLOGISED TO ME & ASKED ME WHETHER HE NEED TO REPAY ME A BOWL. OF COS NOT..I HOW CAN I ASK HIM TO DO THAT" SO I WALKED OUT OF WISMA, & ROAMED AROUND..REAL BOREDOM...

BUT AFTER I HANGED UP THE CALL WITH SHA. JESUS!! I STOPPED MYSELF IN THE "SINGAPORE TOURISTS CENTRE" (FOR NTH)..THIS GUY STANDIN IN FRONT ASKED ME SOMETHING..SO WE ARE BOTH BORED & ALONE..HIT OFF & THEN *BOMB*=).. HIS NAME IS ASHELY=) 21 YEAR OLD.. COOL HOT GUY FROM ENGLAND,LONDON..(MY BOY IS COOL & HOT TOO)...

SO I BROUGHT HIM AROUND..TOWN & SENTOSA..TOOK SOME PICTURES=). SENT HIM BACK TO NEWTON STATION WHEREBY HIS HOTEL IS SOMEWHERE THERE.. I HAB 2 PICTURES WE TOOK TOGETHER & A PICTURE OF HIMSELF WHERE WE TOOK IT IN SENTOSA..



Sweet Smile=)




Cool=)




Cool hot hunkie!!



I MUX CONFESSED HIM OWNS A PAIR OF BEAUTIFUL GREY/BLUEISH EYES..& ALL THE GIRLS WHO SAW US JUS NOW, WILL CURSED & SWEARED AT ME=) EVEN SHA DID THT, (SHE CALLED ME A PIECE OF SHIT!!). HE WILL BE BACK WITH MORE FRIENDS=)

WE BIDDED WIT A GOODBYE KISS ON CHEEKS.

I TOLD BABY BOY ABT IT TOO, ASSURED HIM THT WE ARE JUS FRIENDS..& HE IS LEAVIN BACK TO LONDON TML..HE JUS BY-PASSED HERE, COS HE CANT STAND THE LONG HOURS ON PLANE, NO MORE=)

COOL!! I'LL BE ENVY BY ALOT ALOT OF GIRLS FOR LONG=) BABY BOY I STILL LOVE YOU!!

Unbelievable Finale

Why: Do you all wan to know why I started to blog?
Reason: Cos I know onli 18-20% of the brain is actually functionin' & is impossible to store all 18 years of memories in my brain. HAPPINESS? & SORROWNESS?

Therefore I call BLOG---> "Brain Level Of Gift", As GOD knows human brain is not capable to store a huge amount of vivid memories..& He knows that ME cant remember much sorrows.. But ytd a ultimate fat-man, bombed & crashed me with nothin left, such thing NEVER crossed my head for a single moment tht she who is very innocuous to me..

hmm..we were chattin then i told ask the li ping chatted wit mi on msn..then i joked & said "she will hab to stay faraway from me".. so pei ee said tht i mingle around for tell of my ilk..(is not true!)..I tried to correct her..then I mentioned about "you guys are my prestigious friends"(in my own definition is like VIP IN MY HEART) but she insisted to onli accept the prevalent dictionary explanation tht is “good, honorable people are my friends”..Oh cool, I gradually feelin fcukin sick (plus dun try & fcuk around wit me in English words, WE LEARN FROM ONE ANOTHER. DONT COME & FCUK SHIT & SHOW ME HOW WELL-SPOKEN YOU ARE COS I NOT ENVIOUS OF THT. I DUN BUY IT COS IT JUS MAKE ME FEEL HOW NARROW YOU ARE WITHIN) cos she really broke my heart & told me tht THE PERSON I KNOW SO MUCH, KNOWS NOTHIN AB. So in a moment of folly, I actually said “yea, allrite cos u are rich so I treated you as my bestie” & she made a big wow-ha sayin tht I am changed(oh pls, I the same old me so look who’s talking) explanation.

I NOT ANGRY WITH HER WITH THE URGUEMENT, IS JUS SO UNBELIEVABLE THT YOU DOUBTED ME=)
I AM ALWAYS SO FERRID FOR THIS FRIENDSHIP; I AM VERY BLUNT WIT MY WORDS MOST OF THE TIME BUT I ALWAYS MINGLE MY WORDS RUDENTLY. IS NOT BEING APOLOGISETIC, YOU CAN ACTUALLY THINK TO CURE THIS VULNERABLE HEART..your excuses & speeches did maladjusted me ytd, on top of all you broke my freakin heart. I NEVER NEVER FORGET A SINGLE WORDS WE SAY BEFORE YOU LEFT..YOU CAN TRY TO RECALL WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM/CAN BE THEN YOU THINK TWICE TO FCUK SHIT WITH ME..I HAB NEVER GRUMBLED ABT ALL UR CHANGES(ASK OTHERS SINCE YOU CANT BELIEVE IN ME ANYMORE)..I AM VEXED IN THIS POINT OF VIEW, MAYBE YOU NEVER NOTICE IT..BUT YOU WORDS/ACTIONS WILL BRING A BIG IMPACT TO ME(RIGHT NOW YOU HAVOC ME)

I ASKED LIYANA WHETHER I SUCH PERSON AS YOU THINK I AM. WHT A ANSWER; IS NOT COS SHE PRAISES ME BUT I AMUSED BY A PHRASE SHE SAID "WE ARE FRIENDS COS WE ARE". IS NOT THT SHE IS RICH SO I CHOSE HER TO BE MY FRIEND..COS OF A POOR INCIDENT HAPPENED TO ME SO WOW..=)PLUS A TUMOIL CHANGE HAPPENED TO ME!!

CHATTING WIT CHRISTIANE, SHE IS QUIPING TO ME now=) she is talkin about those creepy classmates & I MULTITASKIN NOW=) LISTENIN TO DONT MATTER=)

I BROKE MY HEART PLUS I RUNNIN A HIGH FEVER 39C=) BLESS ME=)

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

Unbelievable

MORE THAN WORDS=)

08.09.2007(THURSDAY AKA PUBLIC HOLIDAY)
Celebrated Blink Blink Birthday..bought him a special present whereby most of the ladies will love love love it; whereas the guys loathe loathe loathe it..So i duress him to hold the roses..HE SHOULD KNOW IS NOT A CHAGRIN ANYWAY=).. I LOVE HIM 1000 TIMES AS A FRIEND FOREVER=) THE GANG WERE LESS VOLUBLE but i must praise myself for always being a good tour-guide=)

The fireworks wasnt so delicious as i thought..but a good day did ends well=)




THIS PIC HAS NEVER SLIP OUT OF MY MIND...WHENEVER I LOOK AT IT, PLENTY OF MEMORIES WILL UNBEKNOWNST COME BACK..ESPECIALLY THE PART I REACH THE TOP OF THE MOUNT JATAN WAITING FOR HER(THEM) TO REACH TOO..I FEEL HAPPY & PROUD OF THEM & MYSELF..PEI EE IS A NEVER SPORTY GIRL..BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAY SHE FINISHES HER 2.4KM WITHIN 16MIN 30SEC..I'M PROUD OF HER...I KNOW IS MY CREDITO, BUT SHE TRIED HER VERY BEST TO MAKE HERSELF & ME PROUD..=) IS TRUE WHEN PEOPLE SAYS "A PICTURE CAN SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS"=)

08.10.2007
I SLACKIN AT HOME..COS MY DEAR FRIEND FORGET THT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DRINK..STUPID ARSEHOLE..!! Forgiven cos I hab something on impt on sat=)


08.11.2007
OUR FRIST GETAWAY TRIP TOGETHER..WELL, IS JUS MALAYSIA BUT THE MOMENTS WE SPENT IS WORTH..
OH..THIS TRIP IS UNBEKNOWNST MY PARENTS KNOWIN=) WE WENT TO JUSCO, WATCHED RUSH HOUR 3..KINKY CHRIS TUCKER & JACKIE CHAN NEVER FAIL TO EXCITE ME=)
DID ABIT OF SHOPPIN=)..Bought the Donkins Doughnuts!!


Dinner aftermath=)
Sha commented tht "I'm too sweet in the picture." But isnt tht supposed to be? Who wont enjoy & have fun jus wit your beloved one? Hmm, maybe she havent meet a guy who can make her smile within her heart yet..


08.12.2007 Sunday
Oh..I thought is Sha family day ytd, so I didnt bothered to bother her..Ended up with Chrissie..She knows my pattern alr..(the habit of being late most of the time)
Then we went to DTF to hav our lunchy..nothing special anyway..But I'm pretty much amused with our fashion & artistic taste=)
Ok..our outfits was totally different from each other but we both wore shoes=)..chilly chill cute.. She was wearin a long sleeve cotton shirt in the damn hot sun..so we decided to shop..finally she bought something in M&G..& I eyed on a dress only 50 bucks..but some personal reason I hesitated to buy..

Bypass AX..(this will excite Ms Boon) Love at one sight with this dress..very costy but second last piece..can you imagine how dearly it is? I tried it out..& chrissie took a pic..the salegirl tempted me..But i ended walkin out of the shop. However I dail my papa no. to ask him to giv me $$ for the skirt & i went back for a reserved till next week=)!!


First costly dress I gonna to hab!

Went to the Art Museum=)Chrissie enjoyed it as much as I do..is so hard to get someone appreciates Arts like I do.. Will be goin with Liyana again on Wed..See Chrissie hab time to go wit us=)

Walk walk walk to B&J(city hall) together..we was beseiged by those causasian guys around us..=) LOVE=)


Lastly, Went back to P.S to meet my honey honey boy..& This blog song is all meant for him=)

Adious (Mexcian = Bye), I bid here

RIGHT THUR

OH OH OH..RIGHT THUR!! I longed to hab this freakin nice song!!=) SHAHRUL SENT IT TO ME.. THOUSAND OF SWEET KISSES TO YOU..

NA-TION-AL DAYZ!!!
MY FA-VOU-RIT-E NATIONAL SONG IS "THIS IS MY COUNTRY,THIS IS MY HOME, THIS IS MY FUTURE, THIS IS MY LIFE, THIS IS MY FAMILY, THIS ARE MY FRIENDS, WE ARE SINGAPORE, SINGAPOREAN!!"

ASK ME WHY I LIKE TO CUT MY WORDS TODAY..ACTUALLY I NOT TOO SURE..I KINDA HIGH TODAY!!..OMG, ASK ME WHY!! I AINT KNOW TOO..

YTD NIGHT, LIYANA, SUN SHAN & ME MET UP FOR MOIVE..WHT MOIVE? THE BORNE ULTIMATE..NICE? THE PEOPLE ACCOMPANIED ME MAKE THE MOVIE NICE=).. I LOVE 8/8/07
WHILE WE ARE WALKIN THT DISTANCE TOWARDS THE INTERCHAGE..WE SAW THE MADDIE..TALKIN TO HIMSELF..THEN HE STALKED ME? HEEHEE.. ANYWAY TOOK A BUS RIDE, MET/SAW A HUNKIE.. CANT FALL ASLEEP..UNKNOWN REASON..CHATTED WITH EILEEN. SAW AVALINE ONLINE, SHE IS BACK IN SINGAPORE..DIN CHAT FOR LONG COS SHE HAV BIZ TO DO LATER=)..

SHA WENT TO ZOUK, CLUBBIN? KINDA TIRED.. IS TEMPTING BUT AINT SEDUCTIVE ANYMORE..

MY SARANG & I ARE FINE..AS IN SITUATION.. DEEP DOWN I AM DOUBTIN MYSELF..FORGET IT..SAY NO MORE ABOUT LOVE..

FCUK SHIT, I BOUGHT THE ADIDAS SHOES,I HAB NOT TOUCHES IT!!..IS SO SHIT!!

I CURRENTLY READIN THIS BOOK, RECOMMENDED BY LIYANA ORETH "THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS", COOL BOOK..CHRIS GARDENER IS COOL & HANDSOME NO DOUBT IS AN AFRICA AMERCIAN..NICE SHIT..I RESPECT HIM WHOLEHEARTLY..

HMM..I SHARE MY UPCOMIN EVENTS..
TODAY CELEBRATIN MY BLINK BLINK BURSTDAY, BOUGHT ROSES FOR HIM..COLLECTIN IT SOON.. COOLNESS..

TML, I TOOK AN OFF DAY=) FRIDAY..DRINKIN WIT ASH

SAT, GOIN TO JB WIT SHINE..

SUN, SENTOSA?

I BID HERE=) ENJOY MY FAVOURITE SONG

What a day=)

Let me talk about how I actually spent my days since Last Wed=)

Wednesday is too long for me to recall=)..Maybe cos nth fun to talk about..
Thursday Work..then went to CWP & watch movie=)
Friday Work & I came home to pack/tidy my room=)
Saturday Went out with Sha..twosome=)

Firstly, singing & shoppin=) bought an adidas track shoes..BUT I REALLY PREFERS ANOTHER ONE!!..Forget it!
Secondly..Movie..Oh..kinda scary!! Disturbia..=)
Lastly..down to my favourite spot? Sweet ppl make a good guess!!=)
Yeah!! GOT IT!!!..DRINK..Something happened..BUT I DID A SWEET ESCAPE!!!
you wan to know WHY??!! heehee..cos I AM A REAL BAD GIRL=) I DIDNT MEAN FOR YOU TO GET HURT=)...

Sunday..So yesterday=)..
Tuition for tht kiddy..=( Then sang at AMK KBOX with BLINK BLINK, DARREN(artist wow) & last but not least SBP(I think I need to change her name to a better one)

Oh..I AM SO OUTDATED & SLOW!! I ACTUALLY DUNNO THIS VERY FUNNY SHOW WHICH THE 3 OF THEM ARE ALL WATCHIN..FCUKERS!! THEY DIDNT WAN TO SHARED THE TITLE OF THE VARIETY SHOW WITH ME!! ANYWAY I WILL/COMFIRM WILL CATCH IT LATER.. THIS SENTENCE, TER & DAR KEEP ON SAYIN TO MAKE ME LAUGH & SHA KNOWS HOW TO SAY IT TOO!! "你命不好，感动不到天！！"

I know I didnt mention someone very impt above..Ms Boon,rite? Cos of my forgetness I nelegected her..I feeling real bad about it..=) She knows it..I KNOW; YOU KNOW=)

Today..Ms Boon called.. supposed to go to meet Liyana's..but I'm at home typin in this blog entry..why?
Cos someone I thought someone I wan to see, wan to see me too..But is all I thought.. I wan to catch the 7pm show & wan to see him..All I askin him is to acc me home to watch it & then we will study together..But he said "I cant study at home"..I think he hates my house freakin much=).. He rejected it & went to the lib.. I thought he will study for long..However after my show, I took a cab to the lib..& searched around like a stupid idiot (I bet God is mockin at me still) for him..end up I recieved a msg "Huh? I alr on my way home..no mood to study"..

Is okie..din blame him..I am stupid & egotist..din bother to ask, hopin to giv him a surprise in the lib..But i ended up becomin a laughin stock.. Whatever I wan to do for him, it all seem too much.. & I need to confess something..On my way home, I been thinkin he might be standin outside my doorstep to giv me a surprise.. But jus is a fantasy..

Jus like this song.."Doin too much"..I eating my dinny & think through alot rite now.. It is more than feasible tht "原来爱本来就不公平"

bid here

Hey you

Hey you by Madonna=)
She sang this on 7/7/7 LIVE EARTH CONCERT=)

First love yourself then love someone else=)

Hey You Lyrics

Monday
Gym aftermath Work

Tuesday(Ytd)
Met Shine=)..Library aroma=)

Wed(Today)
Boring day!!

TILL I CHATTED WITH ...BASKET=) aka Zherui

hmmm..things happens..shit too=) Expects the unexpected=) I felt tht we really hab alot of common points.=)
Happy Clubbin tonight..Grab BLOGGAL!!=)

I goin to P.S to buy a stuff..then will visit the book stores=)
Book Marathon!!

Hey you!!=) LOVE MY BLOG SONG=)
ACCEPT ME..I'M THIS MAD=)

Bid here...

Satisfaction

Happy Weekends=) I was havin BLUEY during work!! REAL BLUEY=) & also real busy=) No time to whim=)

Anyway, I grew fearful of my neighbour(the mummie of the kid i am tuitorin for)!! Everyday, she asks me to giv tuition for the kid!!.OMG!

I LOVE SATURDAY, 28JULY07
MORNING, TUITION=(
EVENING=) MEET MY HONEY BOY=) SPENT MY WHOLE DAY WIT HIM=) HAD BREAKFAST TOGETHER=) ON CLOUD NINE=) SORRY TO BE SO MUSHY BUT EVERY WORD I GOIN TO SAY I MEANT IT=)
I LOVE SPENDIN EVERY SINGLE MOMENTS JUS WIT YOU=) You never need to know how much you meant to me, cos i hav nth to hide from you alr=)

IS SO UNBELIEVABLE, & I DONT WAN TO LET IT GO
SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL, FLOWIN DOWN LIKE A WATERFALL
I FEEL YOU ALWAYS BEEN, FOREVER A PART OF ME
& IS SO UNBLIEVABLE TO FINALLY BE IN LOVE=)

Can you guess guess guess the title of the song? hmmm, tml it'll be my blog song=)

SUNDAY, STAYED AT HOME ALMOST FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY=(
WANTED TO GO TRACKIN BUT THT IDIOT CLUBBED LAST NIGHT plus THE WEATHER WAS DOIN HIM A FAVOUR!!

AVALINE IS BACK TO NEW YORK=) BUT SHE IS COMIN BACK NEXT WEEK
HMM...SHE REQUESTED ME TO HELP HER TO DO SOMETHING..IS A FOREVER & THOUSANDS "NO-NO"
HE KNOWS I WONT WAN TOO, SO JUS GIV UP ON THE IDEA=) WELL,SOMEONE(HE) CONFESSED TO ME AGIAN..QUITE TOUCHY when someone said "you means alot to the person"..BUT YA HE SHOULD KNOW..

MONDAY..BLUE DAY!!
Chatted wit SBP aka SHARON..I asked her whether she wan to go REDANG/BALI/LANGKAWI on 8/9 AUG to 12 AUG..but saddy reply=( Goin to ask Shine & Chrissie, but no good feelin=) IS okie this sat we are goin for a shoppin spread=)!!=p

I JUS WANNA GETAWAY=) Hmm..i suddenly rmbs BLINK BLINK BURSTDAY IS AROUND THE CORNER=) & LIYANA'S TOO=)

Speakin about LIYANA..SHE POSTPONED OUR DATE!! TO 6 AUG, BUT I GIV HER CHANCE =)..
Pei Ee is sick nowaday, please take care=) I THINK SHE MISSES ME THEREFORE SHE IS SO ILL=)

Yong An is so faithful to me=) He will read my blog & asks me how am i=) so sweet ya=)

anyway I bid here!!

Tribute=)

My new blog song=), i find it very meaningful=) Wht it about? Find out urself=) I know the translations still not so good, hopefully you guys will bear wit it=)
Is a song who sang tributin for the lost friends who alr parted the world, alot of principles & meaning of life to see for yourself=)

当你在穿山越岭的另一边 (When we are apart)
我在孤独的路上没有尽头 (Loneliness block my vision ahead)
一辈子有多少的来不及 (How many regrets we hav in a lifetime)
发现已经失去最重要的东西, 恍然大悟早已远去 (When we realised we had lost the most impt thing)
为何总是在犯错之后 才肯相信错的是自己 (Why we only then admitted our mistakes after we are wrong)
他们说这就是人生 (They said it is call as LIFE)
试著体会试著忍住眼泪 (Try to stop the tears)
还是躲不开应该有的情绪 (Or run away from your emotions)
我不会奢求世界停止转动 (I wont ask the world to stop spinin cos of me)
我知道逃避一点都没有用 (I know tht runaway is useless)
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里 (During this period especially the night)
还是会想起难忘的事情 (I will still recall those unforgettable time)
我想我的思念是一种病 (I think Memories is a illness)
久久不能痊愈 (Which cant be heal even forever)

当你在穿山越岭的另一边 (When we are apart)
我在孤独的路上没有尽头 (Loneliness block my vision ahead)
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸 (Sometimes I could senses you breathin at my ear)
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息 (Or even your heartbeat)
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心 (We tend to forget people around us needs love & concern)
藉口总是拉远了距离 (Excuses always make us drift apart)
不知不觉无声无息 (Without us noticing it)
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违 (We always grumbled about everything)
却不愿意回头看看自己 (But we will not think for ourself)
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情 (We never think about the stupid thing we had done)
也许是上帝给我一个试炼 (Maybe is an arrangement from GOD)
只是这伤口需要花点时间 (We all need time to heal our scars)
只是会想念过去的一切 ( But can only recap the past)
那些人事物会离我远去 (All the impt thing/people left me faraway)
而我们终究也会远离 (& one day the same thing will happen to us)
变成回忆 (Then we will also become memories)
oh 思念是一种病 (Memories is a illness)
oh 思念是一种病一种病 (Memories is a illness)
多久没有说我爱你 (So long I didnt said I love you)
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人 (So long you didnt hug those people whom we loved)

当这个世界不在那黱美好 (When the world is not beautiful)
只有爱可以让他更好 (Only love can make one better)
我相信一切都来得及 (I believe is still not too late for everything)
别管那些纷纷扰扰 (Ignore those disturbance)
别让不开心的事停下了脚步 (Dont allow unhappiness to distract you)
就怕你不说就怕你不做 (Jus be afraid for your failure)
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及(Stop being regretful but not tryin to mend it)

Is a Funny joke=),View it!!
http://i131.photobucket.com/albums/p317/fantasy787/funny-pic-perfect-husband.jpg

Well..wed, I met Shine wit FEI FEI=) They were so fun=)

Thursday,(ytd) I realised tht in life there is alot of thing beyond my control/beyond from wht i can do now=(. & I finally exprienced the true world of cruelty & inhuman.People will really do everything to get the things they want. But they didnt realise tht the methods they are usin is so wrong. With God blessings=)

But I always bear this in mind "those kind souls will stay good, those bad ones will have their retributions & hope they will learn from their mistakes=)"
I know Jessica will be good=)

*P.S My period jus arrived=)

This video is done by some creative frencho=)



Friday,today..
Kinda busy today..Eileen & Jeremo LAST DAY=( People came here to comfort me still=) Is part & an parcle(i hope i get it right) of life..

I am goin to study at home later & watchin Twee=)

Tml,out wit SHINE from his ceremory=)
Sunday, goin to sentosa(most probably) or runnin in a reservior=)

Weary & Scary Exprience

Hmm..RECAP FIRST!!

Monday=) hmm..I met Baby Boy on Monday=).Dinner & he walked home wit me (i almost wanted to type "he walked me home")...Nice Monday=) He has his own method of ROMANTIC..he not a cut out for guys who gives roses / sweet talk everyday..LOVE IS UNEXPRESSED=)

I created a new FEI FEI SONG for my bro=)
" My fei fei lies over the ocean.
My fei fei lies over the sea.
My fei fei lies over the ocean.
Oh bring back my FEI FEI to me=)"

Tuesday=) Boring day in work...more & more responsibilities on my shoulder=(. PLUS I got whacked by my EMO BRO!! IDIOT!! COS I DIN BRING BABY BOY HOME TO PLAY WIT HIM!! OMG..my bro fall for my man!!=)/=( ...Anyway we promised him to let him see him today, but is all depends on Shine whether he is free nots..=)

When Liyana knew abt it, she actually mocked at me..Will be meetin her on Monday=) Miss her lots & she said something sweet to me

Shine went out wit his poly friend (a she), was kinda jealous(i could feel it). I wanted to proble about it but I should jus take it easy...he is not mine now afterall

Wednesday=) I realised how LOVE should works..but i cant figure out why it works like that=(.. I cant deny I learn more during work compare to school..I enjoyed both=)..Cos I love to collect knowledge..

I realised how to recognise people who are good & bad + to see them clearly.. I jus hab the ability & Karma to see,hear,explore it=)

Oh Eileen is leavin us on Friday=) I hopes is for good=)

I know i getting greedy but ... i jus miss him=) ..goin to meet him wit FEI FEI later=)

Wonderful Weekends & Full of love

Nice classical start,RITE? My favorite song "ALL MY LIFE"..Who am i actually dedicating to? "YOU KNOW WHOSsss!!"
You turned my life around yoy pick me up when i was down=)

When should i start to update you guys=)Oh oh..Wednesday=)

Actually nothin special=)..until Friday..Pei Ee went back=) Hmmm.. Everything is inside my heart=)

Saturday, was tuitoring in the morning=) Christiane msged me to go for shoppin but I need to celebrate SBP burstday's so i asked her to join=) Had Fun, especially during Movie time!! Chrissie started a line "COOL, I LOVE HORROR MOVIE" but she ended up lying / leanin on my RIGHT ARM!! & SBP she is covering her ugly FACE WITH HER NIKY JACKET=) *TIMID!!* please dun say out wht i did=)!!

Chilled in STARBUCKS, with more ppl..DARREN,PEI HAO, COLIN, JOYCE, SBP & CHRISSIE.. Chrissie & me was fishin as usual , the rest of them drank some acid so they SELDOM talk=) .. I actually forget the freakin cake so chrissie & me separated from the rest of them to buy the cake=) I brought in the cake at 11.59 is a planned thing=)

OH OH OH, recieved a fcukin cool compliment from my bestie(chrissie)..tht why i always love honest & straightforward ppl=) She said i hab a nice vocal,Thanks girl! + my voice is so clear & comfortable to listen=)
tOOk some pictures, the atmosphere could be better wit Blink BLink & Soon Guan I bet=)

Sunday=) Stay at home to rot & watched NATIONAL TREASURE=)

Monday, Today
Things goin well for Baby Boy & me=) Raymond King said this to me, this is one factual about Love & Marriage=)

"Your another one should love you(ur good) & love you for ur bad too=)"
I asked BB wht is my bad points & whether is he tryin to love it anot?
I got a satifyin reply=)

You must be wonderin who the hell is Raymond King=). He is the boss of the Carrot Cake shop @ Taka(One of Liyana's fav food) + 14 more outlets=) My idol , advicer, nice, kind designer & father of 2=)...

He told me this story about his niece, I think I need to share it=)

His Niece (currently workin in Seagate, let me named her, Grace) met this guy few year ago.He is an Airforce engineer & got deeply in love.But he is goin to U.S for work so he decided to ask her hand from her parents..So Grace eventually agreed, when they settle down in L.A..This guy got curious & hooked up by the different culture there=) Hmm..Exhangin spouse for Sex=) Grace dun like the arrangement cos Sg'rean we practiced different culture=) She decided to Divorce wit HIM..He begged her to stay wit him,you know=) but Grace INSISTED on her decision. So he knows tht he no longer can hold her heart, He eventually asked alot of guys to rape her up. THIS A REAL STORY. Grace called home, she was fetch & held back to Singapore to heal her broken wound..It left her a big lesson=) Is not about the Heart matter & also she no longer can produce a kid!! I CURSIN & SWEARIN AT THE MAN WHO DID THIS TO HER!!.. i hope she will find someone who truely love her & she will not be afraid to give him her hands again..

Lots of blessings=)

Might be meetin Baby Boy for dinner & tuitorin the kid again cos tml is his ORAL=)

Corner of Love

I'm watchin the set of drama series..=) I find it meaningful, I felt the same way as him(the main character, qin tai)..Life & Love should be full of excitment, i shouldnt predict anything but let nature takes it's course=)

I wanted to see him alot & so hab some thoughts to meet him=) But is okie..I doubt we hab anything more to say or do anymore=) Just friends..He probably wont see this cos he wont jus accidently drop by my blog unless i ask him to..

Only myself knows how I actually feel deep down..How should I decribe myself? I am kinda secretive, I dont like to snatch things from anyone, I am weird=) Plus when I'm hurt I will still pretend tht I fine, tht's me..So noone will really understand how I feel about everything..I am very observative..I like to proble out all the changes around me..But I will only keep to myself=) I dun even share wit Pei Ee or Liyana=).. I am vulnerable but I had cultivated another fact for others, so they wont believe it=) I hav a sacreful friends.. People chose to loathe me more..but doesnt mean those who hangs around wit me are my friends=) People changes=) I hab alr found some so I'm content=)

Simply I hates, but I jus dont whim it out=)..Cos I will only choose to whim more & it will only show the ugly side of me=)

I miss him=)Though is time to knock off..I still miss him=)

Only fool like me will speak wit no actions..Only fool like me wont wan to continue/start another chapter of life..Only fool like me will choose to love..& remember to think about wht actually happened to us for the past few months..
Well we broke up 1 month, 1 week & 1 day..=)But it's hurt alot when I think of him still...I hate it..I hate it..but I still need to accept it=)

Corner with love

Hmm..been enjoying & thinkin alot..Well enjoying wat? & thinkin about wat?

Enjoyin life=)
Thinking about him & situation=)

I asked him a silly question ytd..I gotten a very disappointed answer=) But is okie, I not goin to think about it, no more..Let fate & God choose it..I'm kinda tired about the arrangement they planned for me. Tired of losin someone so dearly..=) I'm tryin very hard not to think about him. I think friends is a better choice now for u & me.

Corner with love=) very meaningful song, it's like urgin me to sing out loud to him
Too bad is a chinese song, you cant understand but i trying my best to translate it to you,ya=)

I will pretend to move on alone, love is waiting for me.
You left ur dearly smile & move on, & it keeps me alive=)
I will move on strongly & I wont be fearful anything in front.
I always wanted to tell you this, Happiness wont slipped off easily & you will find happiness in the next chapter of your life

Shine
Whehter to find the beautiful of love by meeting who in Corner with love
Whether I will be meetin/be with you again at Corner wit love
At the next corner of love, i hope you find only laugher,no tears
Maybe from strangers to understanding, I might belong to you
I dont wan to disppoint love & you. So from now till future,you are my only beautiful

Love
Sandral

This is a very lousy translation!!=( But it come from my heart

Well,
Fri..
Went singing wit Elieen.& brought Ms Boon back to my house to sleep.We went up to Liyana house but Oreth's family are fast asleep=) Then we went to eat prata at mitnight=) & walked home.Then we knocked out at about 4.30am=)

Sat..
& woke up about 11 ..Pei Ee told me, I actually hit her face while I was sleepin=)Went to Vivo wit Boon & SBP..Unable to watch a single movie on tht day!! Almost tear down all the cinema & DARREN!! This idiot told me "STILL HAB SEAT AVAILABLE FOR MY WIFE IS A GANGSTER 3 AT 7.15 IN CINE!!" WE 3 ARSE rushed down by CABBIE!!

BTW..I WAS CARRYIN A KUKU BACKPACK SO IT'S MAKES ME LOOK LIKE A KUKU!! Saw Shine in Lido..We did texted, he said he misses me everyday(though i am overjoyed) but i guessed in order not to hab anymore fancy ideas for him.. I will tell myself this "Maybe he cant forget some pretty woman he met before so he thinks he miss/ even loved&like me before=)"..Nice thought rite=)

We went to East coast to cycle=) ..10 of us cycled from East Coast to Changi Village..heehee=) AS AUSUAL OUR BUTT IS THE MOST INNOCENT VICTIM=(

Sun..
Got back home at around 10 in the morning...Bathe & had our breakfast..Then Pei ee headed BACK home=)..i send a testi. to Liyana, Pei ee, SBP & Blink Blink=) wanted to send one to him, but =).So i hab been sleepin like a dead log all day long..

Till this mornin, he woke mi up=) But as asual he wont reply my onli msg of the day=) wht to do=)

Liyana will be readin this so =)

Relaxzzzz!!

YoYoYo..I'm havin evening/weekends maddness now!!!..WHY? I dont really know the actual answer. I'm listenin to "ONE SWEET DAY"..I really feel like singin to you,Shine=)..sounded navie..In fact i feel like singing now!!...

Oh let me do a recap first..
Tuesday, evening..ALMOST VOMITTED DURING DINNER...cos NIGGA made me to!!..OMG..he kept on sayin "I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU".. OMG, as though it's free!! (it is free)hahaha*lame* Of cos i debated with him, showed him my true colour!!=)
Talkin abt L.O.V.E ..i onli mentioned it to a couple of people like... ... ...=)

Wednesday, Work 8am to 6pm. Work aftermath I went to SBP house..Bored*

Thursday(YTD), WOW!!Display of feelings!! My sister(stupid no.2) brought me anger & ANGER...My phone got terminated cos she can afford to pay her own bill!! $700 la..WELL DONE..ASK STUPID NO.1 TO PAY FOR HER, SEE HOW LONG SHE CAN ACTUALLY SUPPORT HER=) NVM, I change to a temp new no. alr=)..not sure how long i'll be in Sg too=) I'm praying for the best cos I know GOD will not bear to see me suffers=)

Evening, met my grandma & went back to CWP to meet Pei Ee & SBP.. I did a funny action. SHOUTED IN the foodcourt..COS SBP dun wan to pass me the phone!! IDIOT!! OH..I actually played the "shut up" game=) so sweet rite!!=) OMG..8.40PM MY HARRY POTTER!! we are late by a few minutes=)..I hab to make a confession tht I AM CLUSMY. I asked SBP "PEE & WATER LESS WATER!! COS THE MOVIE IS 2 HOURS & A HALF" BUT I finished drinkin the green tea..!!& need to rush to the loo!! IDIOTIC B.I.T.C.H=)

Harry Potter & the order of phoniex=)
I watched EVERY MOVIE w/o fail!! I DYIN TO WATCH THE NEXT MOVIE OF POTTER!!=) I love him=) *p.s i think a cute guy was sittin nearby me durin the movie=)*

Talkin abt Guy..Was chattin wit Zherui alot nowadays..We really click & he is a EMO dude=)=x heehee Then i concluded something as it is PROVEN!!

* GIRLS will always remember those simple & little sweet things BUT GUYS will never do tht!!..

Today, IS FIRDAY, the 13.. chatted wit Shine..my only BABY BOY IN THE WORLD..I asked him whether he miss me. His answer is a little but i doubt cos he jus wan to console me i guessed=) Then i said, Well i dun hab to tell you abt myself then cos it doesnt really matter to you cos you wont feel anything too. He answered, you can still say.. I replied "i dunno". But i really miss him alot though i dun wan to say it out to him..I still love him alot probably many external factor will help mi to distract his shadow for a couple of days..But I jolly well know I'll still end up Missin him..

I'm nth to him now.*Listenin to "DONT FORGET ABT US".
M.C sang..There is only one ME & YOU & how we used to shine..You will always be in my heart...Silly me...

I hab to admit tht i'm actually very vulnerable is jus tht I never like to be seen tht way=) Is okie=)

Pei ee is stayin in my house tonight=) Sweet.. I love you still alot..I will change my song to "DONT FORGET ABOUT US by M.C" first=)

A Dream or In Dream

Hmm..kinda enjoyed myself for the past few days!!Especially ytd?=)

Thur & Fri!!
I guessed nothing special..I really hope tht conversation wit him did not exist=(..What's done is done..Pray for the best=)

BTW..I chatted wit PRINSTEN!!Talked about Baby Boy & me..I suddenly lost my mind then I confessed to him i once fancied him!! He was kinda suprised but he said he still wan to hang out wit me to catch up ONE SWEET DAY=)

Sat..
Happy & touchin day=)..my cousin got married to a good & rich man. She is wit him for 4 long years..plus they went to Paris before..SO SWEET right..I was holdin on to my tears, sounded silly is it? For tht moment, i really feel like gettin married!!

Ling Lee(2005 MSU contestant currently is a mediacorp actress) is her MC cum Bridemaid..OMG..I MUST CONFESSED THT IS SHE PRETTY & NICE TO PEOPLE..While i was chattin wit her outside the ballroom..Felicia Chin was walkin towards us..She is tall & pretty too=) but she went to the ballroom next us..SAF Celebration..OH OH OH..i was at Mandrain Hotel...

We had our Family Photo taken=) Big 'Chin' family=) Dont PLAY PLAY!!
FREAKIN GOOD RED WINE!!But my stupid no.2 sister dunno how to appreciate it..she vomit the wine on the table..how disgraceful!!

I was kinda drunk tht day too!! Drunk really too much..but is for the happiness=)

Sun..
All of them went to AH MA'S HOUSE at noon..Was chattin wit YONG AN..SUDDENLY A 'WE' word!! I went out for a movie wit him..didnt really regret cos the great is a freat laugher movie..

My wife is a gangster 3 ..IS A JOKE LA!!..freakin funny TRANSLATORS!! Yong An & me LOVE LOVE LOVE it !!..WORTH WATCHIN!! SO GRAB YOUR TICKETS IN CATHAY NOW=)
We went to MS to eat DUCK RICE...A BRAINWAVE of DARON Quek story's P.O.P to my head=)

Mon=)..IS A HAPPINESS!
i woke up early..@ 9 AM not for work purposes..=)
GUESS?
I MET PEI EE..omg..!!I miss her like mad..no matter wht her appearance become!! i still will love her forever=) This is True Love.!! We did something but it still seem too little to mi..I miss her like mad..I hope GOD would extented the 4pm to 10pm..=)..But i'm contented..I need to record everything down to make sure i wont forget

9 JULY 07
met her outside Boots & Shoes at 10.50..Then we head down to CityHall to enjoy DTF.. We Q up for the Donut House!! However the service is so SLOW though we are at the first 20!! But we decided to giv up & 12.45PM we marched away!! ABIT ABIT REGRETFUL!! BUT IS OKIE!!..I NOT MEANT TO Q up for nonsense!!=x I not very expressive but our actions & movements while we were eatin DTF..i so happy she still remembers the very little thing of me=)

Then i meet Sharon to pass her something..& i helped her to painted shoe again !!
SBP NEXT TIME U MUST PAY ME SERVICE CHARGE!! IF NOT I DUN FRIEND U ALR!! CHEWED DURIANS IN HER HOUSE, COOL RITE=)

Tuesday..Now..Funny day..
Zherui(from friendster) showed in a BABY ALLY whatever video!!Freakin cute !! We chats alot but kinda sad cos we might never meet cos he is goin to US to study very soon=) I find he a understandable guy..maybe cos we click=)..All the Best dudezz!!

My heart & mind is still full of him=) i mean Baby boy..
oH..CHATTED WIT LIYANA TOO!!=)

My song is Never had a dream come true..? WELL i dreamt about him ytd..the lyrics jus pop into my head..

YOU ALWAYS BE THE DREAM THT CONFUSED MY HEAD..Enjoy it..i'll blog tml again=)

BTW i goin to meet my friend now=)He is dyin to see mi=)
Coco is leavin soon back to France to study..i will miss you allrite=)
Lasty I really miss you alot alot still but i know it'll not change anything..

Is not another day like you think..=)

KONICHIIWA..brightens my day alot today=)..no sacrafice no gain..hmmm..i am so happy today, in fact now i am still..

Firstly, i longed to see her come back..but it seem not impt to you but she is impt to me..'SHORT & NICE TRIP BACK'..my one & only friend=x...Few months ago, i still remember i fell my first tear in front of the public. I hate her for turnin me so EMO..i cursed her to be my best friend forever=) Before she called in the morning, i cried while i was bathin.. I dont wan to meet her wit others not cos i am selfish, cos i hab alot to tell her..plus we will be pretty EMO i guess=) MR NICE, HUNKIE & ASH they cant stand me..hmm..especially MR NICE..he asked me for soup ytd i was over-whelmed abt her return=)

Secondly, 5 DAYS I HAVEN BEEN SEEIN HIM..i miss him too..i stopped tellin him mushy mushy stuff cos he probably not interested anymore=).. Read his horoscopes & it says that he probably needs more time to realise my importance in his life..I really hopes time will help but not worsen it..=) I'M REALLY WORK HARD & PRAYIN HARD...i told him i wan to see him as a more capable man..

I still like you alot SIR SHINE SAMUAEL=) (thriple S) aka Baby Boy=)

Thirdly,more suitors are comin back..i seriously think they are blind to like me..plus i told them is kinda impossible already!! They are still so determined..
Especially my ex...he jus realised my importance now..Boy, is kinda late..I in love wit Triple S so ya'..So i really hope they'll move on!!..

If Baby Boy tells me he no longer interested in me..i probably hab to giv up=( I think some ppl are hopin him to break my heart..but i do hab faith in him=) Afterall, I'm not so bad so no reason he should dumped me=)

Well, Sat is a big day..my cousin(zhu jie jie) finally wan to settle down..With lots of loves..


Lasty, a lengthy recap=)
Fri!!
Liyana, have one a friend tht day!! but luckily tht i din disappoint her..she knows i would..Bestie=)

Sat!
I so happy in the morning=) Then afternoon chilled with 2 hunkies..THREESOME..YUP!! We watched TRANSFORMERS =) half-way through the movie i was crying=) Kiat knows why!! Then he left us to walk around..But soon after he left, Shah needs to go off too..(ended up meeting dream girl) so sweet rite!!

Sun!
Was chattin wit a liberal girl from NYC..wowowowow..I cant tell how liberal she & her guy is!! She is in SG for 4 more weeks' doin some filmings=) Then I gotten back a long lost friend..He is becomin a pilot soon=) congrats, Ass!!

Ass told me he likes me i was kinda shocked!!he is a good catch but i told him the same thing=)

Mon!
Brought Ya ting to work!She is abit pesky cos she kept on askin me to cook!! Well..kinda nelgected Eileen abit=( Sorry Girl!! plus I'm finishin my NEWSLETTER!! Hope it'll be a success=)

Baby boy was sick..din wan to disturb him=(

Tues!
I suddenly rmb some hypocrites still surroundin me=) Hmm..nvm i'll jus close an eyes..Been thinkin the success of life still..COMON which idiot in my age will think something like tht..is so chimilogic(self-creation)=)

Chatted wit PRINSTEN abt Harry Potter..is so ridiculous tht we couldnt remember we watched H.P. & the goblet of fire!!Kinda sad

Received some nasty comments abt J.R(writer) but i still appreciates her to be so imginative..unlike some others will only dream abt some useless stuffs..Her fiction thingy is makin big bucks,dudes!
BTW HARRY POTTER is coming out 12 july!!searchin for someone to watch it wit me still!! ASAP!!=)

Received some good comments for myself too..=)

Cooked soup for ppl!!

Wed!!(today)
Hmm..i need to consult a doctor regardin my weight reduce thingy..kinda serious..BTW I'M NOT SO PREUILE TO BE ON DIET..

Chatted wit Hunkie, i found him pretty similar like me..even we chatted abt music,sport,ambition & wish..

Saw SBP's blog, i'm happy to see her & friend back together=)
Was surfin the net & readin news..Saw Hilton speechin for 4th july event,she said "dont drink & drive" makes me lol=)
Then Italy designed a beach "ONLY FOR LADY!!" wht am i supposed to do when i go there=x...
Singapore gettin abit hectic now too..Killin spouses!! Fantastic man!!

I'm a NEWS FREAK nowaday..Kinda Lazy today, this week!!..pretty slack!! I'll hab to find be 'HARDWORKIN' next week!!

Hope to see him today if not *sigh*
I'll hab to bid here..lots of love=)

FTY
I might change my song tml=)

One Sweet Day

I always find M.C a talented & charismatic woman. She is poise & maintainin her image as an artist=)..How my song today? hmm..this song is produced since ages but the words in the lyrics is remarkable.. At times when we wan to express your feeling by speeches it makes us nervous & uneasy. So the meaning is vague,but through song like this..i guessed is a gift from God.=)

Why so sentimental today? I miss her a thousand though she is comin back.Before she called mi half an hour ago jus now, i felt the same as her. So hard to see her live, when she told me her cousins were rather caustic towards her, i felt it..

Pay attention to the lyrics, M.C sang a phrase like this "Never had I imagined. Livin w/o your smile. Feelin & knowin you hear me. It keeps me alive"

REFRAIN(chours)
& I know u're shinin down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
& I know eventually we'll be together
One Sweet Day=)

Our story is a iconic one..We wasnt too close when we is at Sec 1. Then conflicts..It came all the way back to her again..Wow..Karma planned all this=)

Then

Back to my Family..Problem
I'm hopeless & helpless to help Sofina..I talked to Suvin in the mornin jus now after i prayed to God.I dunno wht wrong wit Sofina..I tried to think i not a bad sister but i cant..I tried to ignore tht Sofina dun wan to school but i cant

I killed millions of brain cells for her..I make an effort to pray to Lord but whether he hears me is an unknown.I realised he jus replied mi in this song by chance when i crave for this song, it says "Although the sun will never shine the same. I'll always look to a brighter day. Lord I know when I lay myself down to sleep. You will always listen as I pray."

Work aftermath(now) goin to Liyana's house..

Ytd,watch 13 Game of Death @ AMK Hub..Eee...Lousy movie anyway!!

Baby boy is coming at night, i miss him too..=)

Tml i need to come back to work & Ya ting is workin wit me on Monday..(Hopefully she'll hired for long term like me..Shared some of my burden)=)

ENJOY THE SONG!!

I'm still mad as hell and i dun hab time to go round & round & round

Hey ya..Listen to my song before you close my blog..Very nice meaningful Countrymusic=) Powerful meaning through the lyrics & Powerful singers,real impressive..It often remind mi I can never be perfect,let alone others=)..

My baby baby boy is not in town..i missin him 10 to 100 times everyday..I hope everyday is friday=) Oh..speakin about friday,I promised Liyana's to go for her chalet..She was upset when i din turned up the previous time=)..I do miss her alot..okie..Anyway she should know..

Recently, my friend list has some slight changes..Most of my friends are international from Greece(Mr NIce), Nigeria, Paris etc..All guys again..so ya'
It dont matter you are black,white or yellow if you're brown or red..LOVE is colourblind=)

My family problem=)...Firstly I would like to announce I'm a motherless kid=), maybe my family consist of my dad & me..Alot of questions runnin through my head ytd..Can i be spared to look after my dad's wife(pretty smart description) in future? Well,i will ask my dad abt it! I am ashamed of my Dad's other daughter(wit his wife), cos she is an uneducated,stubborn,snoobish,brainless freak.. I not lookin down on those who is not educated..Some uneducated ppl are street smart and well-expressed..but i jolly well know is not my dad's other daughter=) Her mum is worse..she even said "she might marry a guy wit $"..=) My rich pals hav all shaken their head, who will wan to marry a okie-looking,navie,brainless girl when you are a milllionaire?=)

The silly thing is i been puttin wit her long enough but yet she doesnt know tht i cant not challenge..I'm a freak..
She once challenged me when i criticised her youngest daughter goin to Normal Technical stream (Well, i admitted tht my bad..at least she(her youngest daughter) is determined to finish her minimum education..she managed to prove me wrong=)) tht I habe to shut my mouth till I've completed my 'N' Level=). Ytd is an unforgettenable day..She said 'If you are so good,complete your University=) We'll see who is the winner in the end.I thanked her for challengin me alot=p

Even her own mother,Mary (Dad's wife mum) agrees wit mi=)

Happy Stuffs...
My cousin is heldin her weddin in a pose Hotel on 7 july 07..
Hmmm..I chatted wit Soon Guan..We're plannin for a holiday wit a few more friends & chatted alot more things
I asked SBP for a moive today, she dunno up to wht shit..nvm I can go myself=)
Pei Ee & my secret is goin to reveal in afew more days=p
Fabin,tht handsome jap lookin brat msged me..and asked you and him haben break? Even we break,he probably nv stands a chance..though he's freakin rich (jus shifted to a house)
Lastly,i finally knocked off=)

I really miss & love him alot..Wht he msged mi on Tues(before he go) surpised me fulltime & I love him=)

Hopefully i dun miss anything/anyone out...Lastly YA TING IS my die hard fan..she will always read my blog but i nv mentions her name before=)

Muacks

Through the Rain

Click & watch the video,Thanks=)
Whenever I'm breakin apart this song helps alot

so..=)I hope you'll love it too

When you get caught in the rain with nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

(CHOURS)
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep fallin down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

(CHOURS)

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothin you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

(CHOURS)
You will make it through the rain

It is wht i been telin myself for this few days..Maybe this is really not my month=)
Hmm..I was thinkin wht i had said to FOC aka SBP on Saturday..I shouldnt be so weak, i'm very sorry to myself when i said tht..I came into this hectic world with a purpose,jus like everyone does..

Saturday evenin I went out with Ms Chee for a dinny..hmm..She is doin fine,we crap alot and most of all she delighten me..
BORDERS is what i learnt..When i tried to giv love to my family member i must giv it happily but if i not then i dun giv..cos GIVING is a reward,happiness & bliss=)

Hmmm..Bossy requested mi to chat less durin work, do so during break=) Will do=)

Now i'm goin to meet Eloi(my godbro) to eat=)

He jus msged mi and call mi 'BABY GIRL' omg!!=) I confessed to him on Sunday Morning=)...hmm not confessin but..aiyo..dunno wat tht call..whatever

ONE LAST SECRET..9 MORE DAYS..MY IDIOT FRIEND IS COMIN BACK=)

So yesterday=)

Hmm...Went for a run from my place to his place(20min)..hmm..then i took 45 min to walk back!!!=)

Ms Chee sms-ed mi jus now..=P she said she miss me will date mi out!!wahaha!! Then peiee said the same thing to me too=) Sweet,rite? OMG!!heehee

I miss him, Ms chee, Peiee(SHE IS COMIN BACK!!) & Liyana too!!

Btw FOC got a new name from me again, tht is SBP (Si Ba Po)=)
*p.s She loves it!!!

I probably jus wan to sing=)

Lately i've been tryna fight whatever's pullin us under
It's got a hold and really makin mi wonder
What it takes to get through i gonna stick wit you, my baby
Baby, tell me. Maybe i'm foolishy over-reactin' but beenin without you I cant imagine
It jus too close to the heart & i wont stand it if were broken apart

(Chours)
Do you hear me?
Baby you gonna believe in the thing we win together
Dun ya throw in the towel
I keepin my promise to you i got ya back now
When the chips, it seem like it so hard for ya to move ahead
Jus know tht I'm by ur side
There aint no ifs, buts or maybes
I'm gonna stay down & ride for ya baby

We've been cuttin it close wit the backwards & forward
It's rockin the boat we gonna get control of this
Let's take it back to 3 Months ago
When you said we could make it throught whatever ever
Leavin is not an opinion baby NV NV
Now dun you believe tht love is worht a fight
In you is everything tht i'm missin
So giv us a chance

(Chours)
Dun you dare to tell me we gonna let it go
We've been on top for too long JUS to let it go under
I dun wanna to hear tht
I jus cant hear tht
& know whatever you take mi I'll go
I been wit you for too long to start wit another
I know you hear me
Jus tell mi you hear me

This few days i must stay really happy & forget abt the unhappy for health purpose!! Hais..Easier to say than done
I expressed my feelin and story in the song so nice to find something to comfort me still
Though I wont be keepin you..Maybe ya rite plenty of guys for me=) Let nature takes its course ya' we'll see dun prelude too fast=)

I still alive & still kickin but abit weak=) The past few days was okie..I love thursday (Study day wit him) & Firday(Fastantic 4 wit him)..hmm still pendin for another meet up=( Maybe,maybe not?..

And Sat Sentosa..Yucky Weather..Nice & fun still!! Sunday(ytd) I went to Eileen house to make dumplings (surpised rite..who the hell is her?)heehee..secret person!!Her bro looks like one of The superband winners..We chatted abit=) Hmm..Today..dwellin about something but I gonna let it GO!! and study later later joggin alone!!

I bid here but i still tell him I love him.=)Hopefully he'll see it..You think he will?Nah!! I doubt!! so byeye!!=)

Byul=Star=they=) Shine and me

We are together for 3 months finally we graspin for more place of our own and i've decided to desist but we're not goin to giv up still. I felt his "not ready to for a RS" in myself. "This time you really love,I dont know how to comfort you cos you always do all the comforting",Pei ee said. Out of so many RS, this time I finally love cos I am obsess and findin it so hard to let go..
Again i have histrionics but more toward saddness and happiness..40% for both and then 20% for MISC..

Lovin someone is so hard..Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus..It really decribles Shine & me alot=) We hab to work things out before we are really ready..When we are togehter is not only LOVE but also trust and commitment so I suggested something to him and everyone will think I'm stupid but no harm trying it=)

He is not the romantic guy,he wont do all those sweety talks but he shone my life..the sean paul look, lovely smile and most importantly my baby boy..I called him my Baby boy after tht dance wit him=) I am willing to giv myself and him a chance to start everything over but we need to understand one another first..

We had a talk ytd abt our love, he said he is stupid to let me go but i explained to him tht you didnt let mi go..i still need ur heart to move on cos i love you still and i asked "why not we become lover?" Like wht we are still but no commitment & restriction still it's optional.We still hangout to know each other more to really understand..sometimes i really wished he can tell me more and everything he tells Kiran & Joseph (Now i hope & think he will, will you?)

Though my hearts really breaks still lover is nth ( neither friends nor BGR ) so when he meet another girl he can still move on same to me( tht why he's prepared but i not) Cos i never think abt him leavin me..i will hab to slowly think abt it..in case=)..But will I leave him? My friends think so but i dont know..I'm happy and good wit him, i wont find another one like him..maybe
All of this has no 100%=) So we will go on like tht..Well if it works out, I'll treat it as a bonus but if it's dont, I'll be prepared..

I feared so i held on tightly and I didnt think abt his feeling but I am still young if he's not mine we both still moves on=) cos i hab They(Star) to accompany me=) so i jus dun think too much!!

HOW'S MY BLOG SONG? I hab been listenin to it..i'm still practicing it..so one day I can sing to you,Baby Boy!!

Let me translate the chours for you..since i dont know what we will become=) together anot we hab to work as one and see!for 2 years+? maybe=)!!heehee...ARGH!! i said no tears for myself today but i am crying now..Such a baby rite!!..

Pei ee & Sharon / Liyana, please dont feel for me cos i choose my way..i never feel like lovin so much so let me be navie or in dream for the time being..jus stand by me so tht if i feel like crying i still know who to find!!=)

I really hope to see you later=)go home together?

Shine, my baby boy this is for u (dun pause my blog song or it change to the next song click it back cos those words comes from within)

Don't be hurt too much. They(star) hug me tight, pamper me and comfort me.
Telling me to go to sleep

Though I'm exhausted to the point where I'm cant walk
Though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love(you) that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I wont cry though my eyes filled with tears
I want to laugh like those stars

I want to cherish all my happy moments wit you, deep inside my heart like those countless numbers of star, forever

Sarangheiyo..*muacks
It's a new start of love so i still crave to hear you say "I love you, i miss you etc.Whatever you like jus tell me"=) I'll wait till the day u wish to touch me wit your heart and open arms

Is a lengthy Blog=) But all of it comes from within..
Sunday Fantastic 4 pls pls pls remember!!!=)

Sunshine After the Rain

RAIN DROPS WERE FALLING ON MY HEAD!!

Hmm..was strugglin with myself and the demon in me for the past few days..Things finally got better today!!=) Well, after talkin to some chaps. I realised some hidden people are actually very vulnerable though strong in the appearance.I guessed he know who is he " Jus dun think too much =)" and I knew hidden secret and knowledges of someone=). Most of all, I know who am i. It surpises me alot when i know i'm the choosen one!! Praise the Lord!! Rite..

I am myself, I should put myself in pirority! Why should I care about people who doesnt bothers me..I should jus impress myself..Sunday I streamed down town and went to a Church..I bowed down to Christ I found the potiental power. I prayed to him,I can feel him..=)

Weewee Pls pls pls enjoy my song!!! I am learning how to sing "Byul" now!!=)

wow

Though i'm a BLOG - DUMMY, i figured out how to put a song ..OMG!! OMG..=)

Phlegmatic words

SENTOSA WAS FUN=) ABOUT THE REST OF THE THING..I'll blog it tml or something cos is still very vivdly to me..i s jus anathema i guessed..It makes mi feel upless (Down) & i'm replete wit questions. When i cognizant of doubts i'll never stop to figure out why,wht,when,how etc..I not tryin to exacerbate the situation, is jus tht i am a harbinger..

I not askin for more..I am vexed!!..we are now amicable but i really think tht not all!..let me think first=)

Wht should I name this?

Hmm..I love Wednesday 6 june 07!! Cos I went out wit Liyana..We are splastic lame!! Took a train to Taka to eat KFC!!=) Then Starhub for Green Tea Frappe..Omg..i love it..however Good times always flies fast though i wished to hold back tht few hours..We Bitched!! alot and she said "How I wish to see how we become in 10 years time" . 10 yearly time, we all gonna be 28=).

I still remember as we talked all night abt the rest of our lives.Where and what we gonna be when we are 25. We hopes our story never ends..=) I felt tht my life is simplify now at least I will feel bored..My lifestyle was too good..but i really prefer wht i habin now..a baby boy, Pei ee, Liyana & shrek, Sharon and my family..

I learning to be more humble from my boy. I've learnt how to miss people who truely care for me. I learn how Shrek family can manage so peacefully. From Sharon, I learn how to be nice..she is very nice to me=)

I thanked God for this.=) I'm contented..Thank you..at the very least they are true to me and I am true to them..That enough i guessed..Memories are meant to be keep, I kept Seng Leng,Shu Yi, Mei zhi and alot more in my inner safebox..when I'm free I can open the safe and feel something from there..=)

18 years in this hectic world, after i struggled for 4 years plus. Finally I've some facts about Life..Proud of myself..At least I hav not been spendin my life bitchin and pin pointin at others and forget abt myself.. God made me and i chose my destiny, i am confident to say I will be a success in life cos i do hab supporters like them in life...

Tml ..Sentosa!! and Sunday Facial in New York!! Wowowo!!

Gtg..knocked off!!Take care!

THIS IS WHY I'M HOT

OMG, i always in love for BABY BOY!! but today i'm in love wit "THIS IS WHY I'M HOT!!"=x NEVER tell him!!=)

Anyway we are more than fine now!!still very very love him!!-->is tht english?!
nah!!is okie to made a small mistake!!

I goin out wit Liyana aka Princess Fiona later for dinny...i love her
Pei ee and FOC dun get too jealous okie!! Especially FOC you see me almost EVERYDAY!!I'm *S&T of you=) As for Pei,she hear my beautiful voice almost everyday so allrite!!

*p.s SICK & TIRED!!

Tht King of Fcuker is really one!!LEF he can forget his brothers' housewarming so whatsoever is on SATURDAY..fcuk..FOC is happy for NTH!! we change the outing to NEXT SAT 16 OF JUNE!! Tht Smelly Shrek is another king!!He keep on tellin me he has to work!!he is so fcuk! ARGH!

THIS IS WHY I'M HOT!!

Chatted wit SL, BLINK BLINK, LEF(short chat), NAZ, Liyana
I could tell who are the real friends!

hmm,anything i abit concerned abt got something to do wit last firday after Cafe Delma!!FOC should know about it..
The conversation started when i said "A guy who wan to know mi from Friendster is drivin a PORCHE".
Someone shouted "DRIVING A PORCHE IS SO LOW CLASS!!" when she isnt drivin a car though her BF could afford it cos RICH MAN KID!! of course my reaction was "WTF".So i told her there is onli 100 - 150 PORCHE-ian in Sg is whereas the NISSAN-ian is countless!! Then little cute someone made me wanna strangle her when she didnt answer my question PLUS tells me this "NO,People who drives TOYOYA is more than People who drives NISSAN!!"

wah..she talks like an ASS!!i can stand girls who is stupid but not when girls who are STUPID and wan to act sophisticated!! I FULL TIME LOATHE THEM!! plus she is like freakin proud when her BF seem useless to mi=) Never debates wit a Lawyer!!

I released the anger i owned!!=) hmm..ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!!
Missing baby and i dyin to see Liyana!!=)

Interject Love

My heart is inert and elusive now..ytd some symptomatic told mi something is imminent between US.. MY WHOLE BRAIN is thinkin about Mary J.Blige..

TOO STRONG FOR TOO LONG,AND I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU BABY!
AND I WAITING FOR YOU TO GET HOME, COS I CANT SLEEP WITHOUT YOU BABY
IF ANYBODY WHO'S EVER LOVE, WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN

ARGH!! WHERE IS THE ROOT OF THE CONFLICT? MY PAST/ ME NOW / WHT?!! i never wan to leave you why you crashed my heart like nobody's business again!!

Be it no. 10 or not is never important and matters to me or i truely loved who too..BUT I LOVE YOU NOW..i losin half of me cos i've jus lose you..it matters too much to me..i love you more than anyone/anything in the world can you feel that?

I hope to se you later!! Let GOD decide my fate..

Maudlin Entry

Time is so drudery today, the pesky CLOCK moving damn slow right at my sight!! Well this week is a moodless week=)

Monday is Monday blue day
Tuesday is a clubbing day
Wednesday is a lazy day
Thursday is a holiday
Firday is a self off day
Sat & Sunday is a given holiday

So can you tell the disparates of the day above?
NO!! cos is a slack week !@%$*^&^

Last thursday and firday nth special=) WORK and home..
Saturday bought a GUESS wallet..=p
Sunday K-ing and shoppin with F.O.C
Mon, ytd met my honey boy..he said to mi now he cant without me=) I'm touched..
Love is jus so crazy!!

Well, while we were eating dinny in KFC..i asked him are u still plannin to work in SIA after ur bond? He replied, no he will either work in middle east or europe. Then i asked "then wht about mi if we are still together?" He said "of cos leave together"

But i never wan to leave this country..my friends and everything are/will be here..Nvm i dun wan to get brood over such thing first i'm still young=)

Was quite bored F.O.C is sick & pei ee can only online for awhile. then i saw liyana online..
Ytd i wrote a testimonial to Liyana and then a song jus flashed into my brain. A great song then i tried to forget but cant.. was a crazy one durin the first season of Singapore Idol. A song i will recognise the faces i missed by this song.

Alot of emotion runnin in me and jus now i chatted wit Liyana then i suddenly remember tht jo& tag in her blog and i asked her "are you still contactin joanne?" She said they exchange no. for school purposes..hmm..I'm kinda shocked not cos of they will be close in future or wht so ever
But the way she replied me thought tht i mind about it..hmm..i grown to be altruistic and i let out my ternerity to bless my friend. We all hab to agree that every stages of our life we change..but i remember and keep the one i known in my heart. Also i try to giv them the impression tht we are not drifted..

The song is a song i sang it in class to you before,Liyana, can u remember?

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowin you can always count on me,For sure
That wht friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That wht friends are for

While i typing the 6 short sentences my tears fall onto my cheek and i din regret it=)

For those who still dunno wht the song is or trying to recall, jus click the URL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhaF34Pyt9w&mode=related&search=

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Before i forget to acknowledge you, here i jus wanna say "THIS ENTRY IS FOR YOU"
and i appreciates Hui Shan and you for being there in my darkness moment.Thanks for knowin me so much and i never regret knowin you=)

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH if i had nv tell you this=)

And MS JAPAN won 2007 MISS UNIVERSE=)

Laconic Post

Omg Omg..pls dun miss Bridge to Terabithi this movie, it might be abit drudgery at first however the half-time was good..*p.s i sheared cos i can feel them in reality

I've jus decided to abstemious but not LOSE WEIGHT!! cos I've been taking varacious dinny!! It is kinda of hard so i implore those food to LEAVE ME alone

Well working in a office is vicissitudes for me..cos it really makes mi crave for SLEEP!!
So for the whole day today i hab been idling & surfing net!!

I was looking at all the
BILLIONAIRES & MILLIONAIRES
in the World & Local respectivetly=)

Recently I did a small investment=) Dun ask much!!Hopefully it works!!hehe

Hmm..did I miss out anything I wanna say? Let mi do a recap!

Tues: Went to the library & Liyana's house

Wed :Sharon(FOC) or Baby Boy

Thur: Angry wit BB..

Fir: OH...I CELEBRATED BABY BOY birthday..stayed up till Sat morning

Sat: CHIN JUN LONG BURSTDAY!! I <3>

Sun: At home slackin!!

Mon: I was in repose cos MONDAY BLUE and starting to read MY PALS BLOG!!

tues: Nag my peiee "PLS UPDATE UR BLOG" and met BABY BOY for Next

today: Had a 2 hours meeting!! crackin my brain to think of a design for the Company newsletter..& F.O,C aint free for me cos she is out wit LESY*hais*

And alot of upgrading and disturbance will be happenin in my blog allrite!! But i willdo it fast=)

Oh YA, I MISSED OUT some EXCLUSIVE NEWS!!

First I very very very proud of myself cos I left wit 26 Chapters out of 46 Chapter for my Barron Book=)

Secondly PEIEE IS COMING BACK!!

Thirdly Though I did my English but not started on MATHS=(

Forthy Great Sg Sale starting on FRIDAY!!

Fifthy Baby & I planned to go on a trip during July

Lasty I goin to chat wit HER now!!and she will read my blog!

SEE YA=)

Extant Strife

I'm so sorry cos I'm so late! I shall not post a lengthy report on why i was so harsh in my last blog on Tuesday

I quarrelled with them Again

They are very pesky sometimes and make mi to be very nasty with them

And there it goes a profligate day=)

I'm not ready to make nice..

Hais..My feeling now is unspoken..i'm feel like an angry old nag..i hate it..i hate it 10 times..Why?

This song is a good song to express myself..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwc5YSAc-7g&mode=related&search=
'FORGIVE SOUNDS GOOD,FORGET I'M NOT SURE I COULD'
'I SERIOUSLY DUN HAB TIME TO GO ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND'

Why will someone supposed to be close to me but so far to me?
Why will someone i appreciates never appreciates me?WHY!WHY! WHY!
i fcuked my life i hate it i hate it!!seriously i wan nth now!!

Sat was so fun..with pals..Sun was happy wit them!!.Fuck was i happy i feelin dubious now!!..

I apologised for my speech..but it is spinning in my head!

I not in a right state to blog..maybe tml after a good cry?
Why CRY? Everytime i quarrelled wit them i'll win without satisfaction..but crys in my dark room wit pride..

Histrionics changes

HOHOHO..hard to see me posting a blog on firday..Hmmm...tuesday & wed are 2 lackluster days..hmmm..Recently i in love wit a song by D.K - Ride For Ya..wowowowo~~~~~woooo~~
Hmmm...jus scrutintze on the lyrics and beats=)..

I feel so weak and my brain is full of him when i heard it..I was thinking if the love tht used to besiege me are gone,what, how i supposed to do? When i singin this song, i hab to admit it thwart my ego..The song is reverberating inside me..Go try listen to it;it worth..hmmm...Danity Kane - Ride for you =)

Ytd, F.O.C (SHARON) & me went to Supercut to cut our hair..hmm..i'm further layer my hair.. =) Next round i going to cut short..I stickin to this designer(hairstylist)..She's good..F.O.C. kinda tranqull i should say...While we are eating our dinner,She called..well, i almost cry wit her..I miss her i feel her saddness..everything..She the person i misses/cry so much for..The love and bond is too much..I hate to see her gettin hurt..Harm her again i'll kill you...I was so mean to curse tiff and bf to break cos this will teaches her a lesson tht relationship can NEVER compared to Kinship & Friendship...

Today,Work but meetin him so he spark my life=) I love him..might be watch a mitnight movie in CWP...=)

Tml ..SENTOSA AGAIN=)

Asset Lesson

Hmm..HI welcome to the second part of my blogging..

Sat..5 May 07

Woke up at 12 plus lunch wit F.O.C and Jun Long..F.O.C was ill..hmm..but Nitey Programme still carried on=)...Evening..Baby was studying wit mistress(JAMES) in library..I was preparing the Steamboat..Soon Guan, Pei Hao and F.O.C said delicious ..I know!heehee..Wht a small world, SG met his Primary Sch besite in my house..My sister's bf !!

Hmmm..Clubbed in St James...tour in St James..then process back to Powerhouse to Dance & dance..nth exciting..but jus tht we went home..

Sun..6 May 07

At home for the whole damn day..Feelin abit Empty...Baby Boy studyin wit Mistress again in Mistress House..OMG!!heehee..Was at home till the vaxatious F.O.C wants to see me.. We went to Admiralty Park to chat though she is sick..

Monday...Ytd..7 May 07

Work..then to library and walk around and home=)

This is my summary abt tht friendship..

"The drudery friendship makes me feel so acrimonious and i started to be perceive of alot more things..Being perverse is not the way to quell this...I dubious abt this friendship.. I implored GOD for an answer..and i think he replied me..
We are cognizant abt the stuation ; i do even u dont..so what did you comment?
It can only construe you aint interested..if you're goin to read this, is actually premonition tht you either treat this as nothing or you'll express it as you are not at fault..is okie,who likes to be thwart rite?
Is jus a pretext to cajole myself ; let mi be the sinister then you are bound to earn condolence then..
The promulgate of the conflict is surfacin clearly in front of us and became rampant..I cant duress the rest to listen and be convinced by my story..But still hab some confidants who still makes me not seen as a fiasco=)"- Sandral Owin=)

Hmmm..cried when i reach home, luckily Baby Boy is online to comfort me..Enought to stable my emotions..i glad he was there wit me and now=) hmm..Chatted wit my 4 confidants..they are different but alike=) i love them alot..

Today..8 May 07

Work and blogged 2 long piece of essay today..goin out to dine wit a friend later..miss my boy still should be meetin him..will be revisin my studies in the office after publishin this=)

Thanks for wastin ur time wit mi..

Delinquent Journal

I been thinkin how to start today entry! Start from firday or now..Hmm..not last firday=) is the Last firday of April=)..My friend especially tht nagger is forcin me to write something now! Okie Okie i shall write the overdue one first.

Sat..28/4/07

When back home about 1 plus after our drinking and Buk Kut Teh session=) Not so bad..all of us were quite voluble especially Cai Yu after the drinkz=)..Hopefully there a next round,ya'? Wow..F.O.C improved in her drinking skill, is laudable!

Oh..Remembered..Sat afternoon was replete wit sweat=). F.O.C and me, we both woke up late..but still managed to rush there for the beautiful hot sun.Hmm..her mum and aunt are waiting for us, she is reprehensible for our lateness!!=x

*AHEM* anyway volleyball is the main purpose tht motives mi to go to Sentosa..hehe..Siloso Beach is my hideout soon goin to be Cafe de mar..that is a freakin glomourous place, the beautiful pool =) and people there are nice like mad..After a day of volley training, is impressive tht both of us improved..WELL DONE, OWIN=)

For our dinny, we hab stingray(F.O.C. fav)..hmmm..not bad!! Then musical foundain is the finale of the day..remmeber to watch it if feasible when u spendin ur day there=). Lastly we all hab to revert to our island..heehee BY CABLE CAR!! F.O.C was completely straight inside..WAHAHA!!

Sun..29/04/07

As usual went out wit my honey boy=)

Mon..30/04/07

My whole mind was excited abt SPIDERYMAN!! PETER PARK=) WEE..met my Spidyboy after his gym=)

Tuesday..1 May 07

Out wit Honey boy, F.O.C and Ronnie!! 3 of us were late cos of F.O.C again..she is never goin to change but is okie cos is uique,ya' ? So dun change!!Stay the same!!..Nice movie..and we processed to shoppin in pair then meet up for dinny in Fish & Co. ..

Dinny aftermath, Sharon urged to leave,follow by Ronnie..THEN left my baby boy and me for our own sweet time=)

Wed..2 May 07

Back achin in the morning so missed work..Met Chirstiane for the first time ( i was late) =)..Nice girl..We hab alot on common..so the day is like interminable for us..Eat,Drink AND walk..She haben not been to Orchard for a long time..Btw she's not a local..we met BabyBoy.,he was catchin Spidery again wit colleages this time.Wasted of money!

I brought Christiane to Clark Quay by foot=). Look around;being looked too..Then clubbed in Phunk Bar for awhile chatted wit Lousie(BOSS there). Hmm...alot of malay..Christiane was eyein at a malay boy but ya nth happened=)..We took the second last train home..and i alighted at Khatib for the last train..cos MY BOY is in there=)

Thursday...3 May 07

Jus Work..nth special..and study..

Friday..4 May 07

Hmm..I really cant remembered cos it was an Amicable day=)

Catch Up wit my next blog..after you finished this=)..I appreciates it=)