About Forbiden Owin

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When you know me, you will either love / loathe me due to my intelligence, wisdom, weirdness and level of sights . Pocket of surprises & fun . High quality & quantity of living & humor . Great taste for fashion, food, drinks & living . Enjoys gaining new knowledge and skills . Someone who love & appreciate to her heart . Indifferent to strangers' opinions about me . Only care about whom I love & how thy look at me. Straightforward . Unkind with words but kind at heart . Witty . Cunning . Romantic . Secretive . Could be Irritating . Outgoing . Humorous . Bubbly . Artistic . Creative . Stubborn . Ambitious . Mischievous . Love myself . Dislike complexity . Truth-seeker . Could say that I am jacks of most trade, yet to be master of one . The rest of her is for u to find out =)

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Welcome to my life

I am really very moody now. dont bother to ask me why, cos I will say. I swear tht I am fallin apart right now, but noone there to lift me up.

I know my last blog was 2 weeks ago. I jus goin to cover a bit here & there. I apologised for this vey late entry, been mugging for my Exam. For my dream, everything I wan to be. However, I am disappointed wit my performance. I am not going to judge how I will be doin, let GOD do it. Also, I wan to thank GOD, the people he sent to comfort me; My family, Shine, Ms Chee, Hui Shan, Aqilah. Thank you, if wasnt because of you people, I doubt I could make it through. The faith, hope & love (with help), you contributed to me is PRICELESS.

I especially need to thank this person, he had been there for the past 7 month & 13 days. I kinda dependent on him, especially the Pre-Exam period; hav been treat him meanly. I cant imagine my life without him, though I really need to adapt now. How am I supposed to do it, I not very sure either. "Good Friends", my brain is spining now. Yea, jus broke up! cos I not an indian girl, tht wht he said. I doubt so, is it cos I am too sticky to him. It happens onli this time, I told him tht I am willing to giv him a break; but he rejected it. I dont know wht I hav said & done wrong, all I wan is to keep him back.

當世界,不知不覺的變了 (When everything in the world start to change)
有時後,我懷念以前的我 (Sometime I often miss the old ME)
作的夢雖然遠遠的 (Although dreams were faraway from the reality)
想像是一種快樂 (Lesser possession is a bliss)
擁有了,同時也失去什麼 (However, by gaining something, we will often lose another thing)
而眷戀,原來會帶來軟弱 (Eventually tireness will make us more vulnerable)
你讓我在霧裡成熟 (You had matured me by using your heart)
心開始曲折 (However you tore my heart apart)
我不想捨得,不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
是誰惹誰,言不由衷 (Pointless to push the blames to whoever)
說謊傷害,都是不安犯的錯 (By saying the lies because of the fear we have within)
怕抱不緊什麼 (fear of losing something important)
我不想捨得,不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
誰說割愛,才更深刻 (The moment you broke my heart is an unforgetting one)
彼此依賴是愛不是負荷 (I hoped this love is not a burden to you)
能握著手就是感動的 (By holding your hands had made me contented)

I am torn, I tried to sleep to forget everything. But I discovered I cant, in fact I was thinkin about those moments wit him. Then tears dripped, how many lonely night then I will recovered? I probably shouldnt hab love, it never been smooth. Tht is why I stayed single for 1 year plus. I am still young, should explore more first=) I need to stop thinkin about him, & move on.
I love you, Shine. Maybe good friend is better, we can still hang out. Anyway the communication thing wit your folks is another problem.

At least, I have a loving home, quarelling does happen. I am far better than the unfortunate ones. Well, EXAM OVER~~!! I need to plan for my extended study route!! Wht if i not qualified for the L&M course in Singapore? *sigh* ANYWAY, I goin to revamp my room. Buyin paints etc!!

Last Saturday, I went for the Samsung torchbearer. haha~~ "Is not easy horx, cos the blood flows downwards" haha~~ the DJ's are dashing. Met an old friend too=) Kai long~

Yesterday night, went to Oreth's house. Had lots of fun. haha~~

My next entry will be talkin abt Penal Code 377A!!, maybe tml or this weekend.

Lastly, Take care people. Especially Faby who is runnin a fever. I love you=)
Tml, goin out wit Clement

Bid here,
Adious

Friday, October 12, 2007

So Small

BLOG AGAIN!! Sorry peeps, cause you people to wait so long, was kinky busy. Finally free to take a deepen breathe; more challenges next week=) Well, EXAM IS DRAWIN NEAR~ Still preparing, half of me is scared. ASK ME WHY? nah nah, not sure too; call it Pre-Exam Illness=)

GET BACK TO WHERE I STOPPED

Last Saturday, Didnt go out wit Shine, cos he's lazy. Anyway I aint need bf to schedule my life, then I processed on with my programmes=) I went to Delifrance (Hopefully I'll will it right) to MUG for about 3 hours & I headed down to ESP for gig=) Live Sg grown band, Coolness~~ So enjoyable as though my shoulders were free from responsibilities.WOW~~Can you feel the sensation?

Sunday. Hmm, what did I do?
Oh, *tink* Was at home for the entire day=). BF BF ordered KFC for me to apologise=) So SWEET I PREDERS DIAMOND!!
POLICE CAME TO MY HOUSE~~ARGH!
"is it cos you Ripped, Raped, Killed someone", Joyce asked! Bitch, sad to say i aint so "civilise". Well, actually it got nothing to do wit my family, is my mum's friend. Long story! Not worth mentioning, but is maddening for someone who is 25 year old to be so stupid = not sensible. Beware of retribution, worst thing is she did not even fcukin apologised for putting a spot in my house!!

Monday-Friday (Let me cut it short by notin it point form)
- Newsletter is published=) My Own design, layout & write-up
- Tons of work DONE-ED / TO BE DONE =)
- Only one Table Tennis Session for this week due to the time constraint. Sorry to Fong Mei & Su Fang. Oppsss & Peng Li=)
- My Period is late not up to date!!
- Got praised by my COLLEAGUES that I slimmed down; at least my effort is worth while. THANKS LOVE=)
- Secretly learning the hand-on work for interior designs=) heehee=x
- Met BF BF on Thursday, while waitin for his gym session to end & I enriched myself but sadly tht I only managed to complete 1 essay=(
- Today, had a talk wit Pei Ee on phone, run aftermath
- Chatting wit Daniel, is broad day-light over his zone=)
- Monday, took a half day off to acc Chrissie for her modelling interview. GOT IN~~ greatness, she's overwhelming! We went to Sakae for a MINI Celebration, together wit Kyme. Kyme is Chrissie bestie in school, & I know why her! Cos she is fun, cool, sweet, nice, most & for all she's STRAIGHTFOWARD like us. HAHA~~ Hmm, I had mis-pronoun a word tht day, she wasnt afraid to correct me=) I APPRECIATES HER, Thanks GOD!! We were hell-love voluble, not forgettin the SINGING SESSION, GIRLS!~~

Cos every little thing I start to learn & correct it, I feel good. It's not tht I aint afraid of mockery; likewise I do. However, I placed my EGOTIST AWAY, captured everything sincerely & wit GOD's love; at least this wht I believe

Everyday's learning will be pile together to be Knowledge; Everyday feeling will increase bit by bits; Jealously & hatred increases little each day to become ..; Things might look so small but dont belittle it=)
I love Carrie's songs, cos she has a potential vocal to sing this Country-music genre. Therefore, through the BEAUTIFUL songs & voice it brought out the meaning=) INDEED BEAUTIFUL!

So enjoy the song, by turnin on ur speakers & listen hard to the lyrics, Kiddo's & Bimbo's are spared here, unless you seriously know how to appreciate=) Thanks

Last thing before I forget to speak it out to "OMG!". *I know it's catchy"Firstly I do need to thank you for praising my Vocab. & reminds me of my Grammar=)

However, People make mistakes, & I hav the fcukin guts to admit tht I did & *will change (*not a promise to you but me). I dun hav the habit of revising my blog to check for the 10% of grammar mistakes. Hmm, if you find any error, FEEL FREE COME STRAIGHT TO ME.

I'm a WEIRDO; let alone my features, be it you like it not. However to be honest, who doesnt have a Splastic side? My friends do get mad wit me for my straightforwrd sometimes, OF COS I KNOW. So love / loathe it, is their choice; I'm no lack of confidence=) I AM ME!! They CONFRONT ME WITH SENSE!! & I am REGRETFUL of not studying so FEEL FREE again to laugh at me; those words will only motivates / courages me. Sad to hear this right? *I betted you are thinkin tht you are such a nonsense thing*, ASK THE PERSON WHO IS THE BRIGDE BETWEEN US, I BELIEVED HE/SHE=) DOES KNOW SOME OF ME. SO DONT YOU DARE TO COME HERE & FCUK SHIT WIT / ABOUT ME! Well, YOU AINT THE FIRST FCUKIN INCONSIDERATE BIMBO WHO SPEAKS WITHOUT SENSES I MET. Oppsss, Almost forget tht Bimbo aka Vase = Pretty but brainless & I apologised for the rudness but is a fact

Anyway, I need to express something tht is I didnt act "English-Orientated"! I learn English SINCERELY; with hard work! Plus I quitted my "Singlish" for this, you never know how important it is to me. I come from a Chinese-speaking Family. My English isnt so BAD, but my English foundation is bad. Spending almost a year to capture truth of English, is FRUITFUL but tedious. Is my bad not to study; to fail my English! However, is not funny to me at all, I'll prove to myself tht it's not. I was @ Grade "E" but it does not applied for forever; jus like Ugly Duckling became a Beautiful Swan Anyway BIMBO wont understand it=)

BTW, you might indirectly hurt someone who really has Autism / Senile. Anyway, you managed to hurt me by sayin tht. Proving tht people like you, who discriminate those who are mentally / phyisically disabled still exists. Kids wit Autism are given a chance to stand on the same platform wit the rest. If I not wronged, Victoria Beckam is also a patient of Autism. Hmmm, FYI, everyone needs REMINDERS. Human do forget thing, dont you? Bimbo, almost 96% of this entire world population needs to be reminded. Plus all countries sets Laws / rules , so are they also classified as the SENILE type?

Hmm, I have inborn natural Street Smart, so since young I am pretty Complacent. I completed my Primary School though, I didnt bothered to pay attention in class, let alone English lesson. If you arent aware of the School Policy / Rules / whatsoever! or you aint livin at the right ERA. In Singapore, every kids need to complete 6 years in Elementary School to persue a higher level in one's Education; not applicable to genius=)

BTW, i dont deny that I look ugly in some photo I took, cos I not photogenic.=) Will try to improve=) Oh, the default of the Autistic looks might be contributed from my western-nair bloodtype too=). The nose & teeth indeed causes some differences, even compared to my Sisters=)

Bimbo, dun bothered to counteract if you cant function ABIT of your brain. So Small, applies to you too, cos YOU ARE SO SMALL WITH CRITICS. I love FACTS=) & I hate to entertain stranger cos it seem meaningless to cos you dun know me & I sure you will think tht you dont wan to know me too, am I right?

Anyway, this is a Lengthy Passage, so I DO MAKE MISTAKE! If you still got anything to say, jus email me!

Weekend Special
Sat,tml, Hari Raya Puasa=)
Going to the library to study=)

Sun
Going for the Jewellery Fashion Show & then will meet Elieen to help out wit her Marketing (Biz Marketing) Homework=) It's been ages I last seen her!! & Will make Tiramisu to bring it to Office on Monday=)

Lastly,
Is quite enjoyable for me to recall some facts I hardly remembers=)
Misses Liyana x 10 times
Pei Ee wan to take "alot-alot" of pic wit me when she's back *fake-smile*
Hui Shan love to read my blog, ASK ME WHY!!!!!! "I not sure either"
FABY aka Asshole aka BF X2, I love & miss you. I purposely placed you at the last cos you are the first I think of in the morning!

Friday, October 5, 2007

Angel brought me here

Once, I prayed hard (whining) to GOD while I was pretty emotional unstable. I asked him to send an angel to brighten my life, nv thought that it really came true. Now my life wit him around, to shine, dote, love me: I really felt secure in his presence.

This blog song is especially for him=) Thank you Bf Bf


Song lyrics | Hate That I Love You lyrics

Sorry, no photo to show to you guys. Though Pictures tell a million story, I sure using imagination could make our brain expose to more things. Haha~~

If you had read my blog, you might think tht I sound like a philosopher. But if you are a first-timer to view my blog, tht's me=)
Anyway, some of my friends do heel my advices / copy my steps? Whatever way you want to interept it=).. Jus treat it like I am sharing my knowledge to a certain extent to people.

Some people might be thinking that I am bullshitting. "So be it; is your loss"

Some people feedback to me that my blog is very useful, as my words do open people heart & soul=) Thank you=)

"some people wan to all~~~~" haha~~

Sunday, went to Mother's Mary house. My tiramisu is good=)..Especially my boy, he finished all by himself.

Mon, initially WE meet to run in the stadium. However, I ran by my own time & target, jus nice when I finishes 10 rounds he then arrives. Cool~, He did ran A Round. Anyway, I SHRINKED & the credit goes to MY BOO Thabk you, asshole=)

Tues to Wed=) Bla X3. Kinky busy dealin with the newsletter thingy, I hav tons of thing to complete before Dec. My colleagues askin me "Can you be extend to work there anot?" My answer is "It all really got to depend alot, be it internal / external factor." =) Hard for me to leave you guys though, but time will heals everything.

Thur
Work aftermath, while I was waiting for my faby to finish his gym did a mini shoppin=) Haha, is expensive though but is discounted. lala~~

Friday aka today
Well, I am paranoid of what I wan to do it. The factual is tht I am a fast & good learner
My maturity has grown to be faraway from Kiddo & Bimbo from my age=) So I know wht I am capable for, however I hav to confess I have spilt personalities. Maybe I'll figure it out first, then I will further interept it.

Sat
Going out wit my Honey Bunny=)

Sun
Study

Monday
Half day work, will go to east coast to pay the deposit of the chalet & will accompany Chrissie for interview / audition

The rest will update you=)

Bid here
Adious=)

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Nuance me=)

Omg, So long I didnt blog!! ARGH!! now I hab to brainstorm everything from scretch! Definitely a lenghty one. Be well-prepared~

Start from Wed, my 6th anniversary. Nth special though. People was tired so ya=) & plus I was still sick..

Thur & Fri, bla bla bla.

Sat, when to Botanic Garden @ noon. Before tht, we took (in fact me) consumed a varacious of Brench(FYI, Breakfast + Lunch). Well, it took us 4 hours to stroll the entire park! Partically cos of the Orchid too, they are too amazing so we took a slow glance! Faby could be a good gardener too!! Rite~~ I remember a tree we come by, a look-alike pamelo thingy in the tree so i am so curious (as usual). So I read the description of the plant, is a Bat house & it produces a strong SHIT smell. Argh!!! RUNAWAY~~

& my asshole FABY had this interminable sayin that he brought a DOG out, sadly he means ME!! Thanks alot, I'll take this as a compliment!

Aftermath, we went back to town & did a window shoppin. We played pool & eat our dinner then went straight home, kinda early I thought but is only me=)

Bonafide Love


Wow, I can blend wit the flowers=)


Last Sunday, I stayed at home. Joyce chatted wit me, Eve & Alivine, they are the little DEVILS~~~

Monday - Friday was okie, cos too busy wit work.

Some Man thouti (Vase in Tamil) tryin to be smart, probably next life=) You jus made me sick, Those Msian Country Girls are so kuku. Girls go CLUBBIN with tee, anyway only 1 out of 4 has a snow white face (average-looking) so ya know how the rest of the 3 look like=) Sad to say, Bimbo's are not my match. I hate to say tht those GIRLS has very poor english foundation, althought mine is no much better. But they are 5 years older than me, & they aint got any idea how to spell "CORNER". & if they think I am interested wit tht "Rich Cheena MaMa", SORRY AR BYE He is too ugly & useless to me + not my cup of tea!

Thursday, I had a long dinning time wit Fong Mei, she is SWEET; pure sweet=) Ignorance is Bliss She said I so smart to know alot of thing however " It might not be a apple in my eyes though in the people eyes it is". Try to posses it, you'll feel wht I'm feelin.

Friday, work aftermath I had my dinny wit my FAVOURITE BOY @ IMM. Cant decide where to eat so we gamed, HAHA sounds puerile but we got an anwser. We headed to Cafe Cartel=) We hab lots of quippin & guessed wht We thought of askin each other to go pubbin / clubbin. Haha, so cute rite=) main course, drink, lasty his favourite cheese cake=) This is L.O.V.E, I hope this love is everlasting, god knows=)

Saturday, Yesterday. Well, I did something which need alot of courage to do. I had it all for 18 years soon. I planned / reminded myself, "Hey girl, you are never gonna to do tht to her no matter how she treated you for past 18 years, the favouritism she showered for my siblings but not to me, the mental & physical hurt she given me, my tireness & everything I WANTED TO SWALLOW IT ALL INSIDE, IN FACT I HAD" But so happened it jus lose control, I did everything & everything out of good intention. She exclaimed she doin it for the family too, but she not. I am sick & tired of her. She, as a mother NEVER taught me anything much useful & I, as a daugther was tryin to lease the misunderstand & wan her to do something useful wit her own limbs, Am I wrong? When I pushed her, She was yeaning to the neighbours, bla bla bla. How abt my sister? She never uttered a single word. I am potiental in almost everything I DO, why she detest me so much? If I didnt nagged at her from the past, she probably gambled the whole house away too? I never mind her biased / love me less cos I too immume to it. When she said I hate you the most, it doesnt really hurts cos is expected. But when I hit her, it's all guilt & I stayed wit the lord for few hours. I wasnt really mean to do it, my ah yi knows. She knows I am not impulsive, is jus a moment of folly. If I really mean to i could hav killed her. Well, God say everything happened for a purpose. I do believe it, I kneeled down & prayed for help ytd. I not afraid of retribution, in fact I tired of living too. Can anyone giv me a pretext to live on?

For this, I msg-ed Pei Ee.

I hav my lunch, & I strolled around to the Sg Museum. Everythin is so fine there, wasted to reach there late, cos the History museum was closed alr=( Then I did some shoppin=).

Finally, I re-bought the ingredients for tiramisu, is a success this time=)

Sunday, goin to Mother Mary's house today=)

EDITED, P.S* I have to admit tht I am too lazy to use photobucker therefore I actually deleted the friendster thingy & now photos are unable to view, I'm sorry ppl=)

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Arrangement Of God

I started to ponder How long I have been studying the word of LIFE & How long I can successfully guaduates from here? I always believed tht a person who might be lowly educated but could still guaduates / studies "The Word of LIFE" can still make a name in future.
*Is Proven=)
Well, This might be too Chimilogic for people or young kiddo to understand. What is Life? Spending time of urs, spending ur parents $, surfing net aimlessly, live & die for a partner? Have this thoughts come across through the kiddos in my generations. People often think "I study hard so I'll lead a good life", Well is true; I TOTALLY AGREE but I have hidden & inborn talents for sure. People could only see the skin of myself in the past. But now I do discover potiental in me, well Lucky ME=) I have yet alot to know, I'm thankful to God who arranged me to have so much time to ponder.

"Rich BUT brainless Kid"
People in Sg are richer now, therefore kids are benefited. Majority of the kid "Rich But brainless Kid" cos of alot of factor. Not cos they are stupid, in fact they aint.

Well, probably enjoyed to much good life, is time to further my independence-ism to
70% alr (daddy said tht to me). My independence-ism currently stops at:
- I work for my own expenses BUT neednt contribute to the house-fee
- I got the privileges to hangout BUT need to report still
- I pay for my own bills BUT stay in my Dad's HOUSE for RENT FREE
- I still a very lucky kid, cos I still have my dad to fall onto

He hopes that I'll be able to work out a RETIREMENT plan myself, cos he knows I've the ability to. You people must be thinkin he's quippin rite, but i dun.
He trust me cos I learn how to fall down & pick myself up, however I didnt share some expriences of mine to him cos I bet he will feel 100% heartbroken=).
I chose my way of living & actions so the consequences, of cos=).

Yeah, I not a vase who online & beg for $$. With my figure RITE NOW, doomed if I'm a model. Neither can I be a rich "TAI,TAI", is damn unrealistic in SINGAPORE!!
I owns NOTHING rite now, but a brain full wit knowledges, "IT THIS I'M SURE TO OVERCOME NOTHING WIT ALOT OF THINGS"

Back to YTD NIGHT!! He said do a good job wit ur planning, the workings especially wit regards to $$. You might be tempted to go the wrong way!

*Is PROVEN too!

Will do my best, been doin some touring wit some investments.com today. & Brainstormin wit regards of biz thingy. I was askin my dad about the Driving Lesson thingy, definitely not a problem to me. People need 25 Lessons for training maybe 20 for me=). I aint quippin=) Well, plannin & aimming is an interminable thingy to do in life; IN MY LIFE AT THE VERY LEAST.

Well, let me diverse our attention to my Company a little, well I'm workin in this Construction Firm. They are doin / tryin hard to be listed rite now, outcome -> NOT SURE? Hmm, for 15 years, means 1992 till now, 2007. I supposed alot of thing should be done were done, changes are necessary. But I need to pin out some wrong changes in within myself. This Co. should OPEN UP, THOUGH THEY ARE WEARING WESTERN MADE DESIGN WEAR however, THEIR MINDSETS ARE STILL VERY VAIN. is so wrong, some thing we should change MUST made an effort to CHANGE. They hired some people with certi. but without expriences FOR A HIGH POST.!! They only listens to the buzzin voice rather than open up to Logicial & Practical Scream!!

A worker who works in the office stole the $$ which belongs to those workers(about 2K), well reported to the police alr. He definitely cant leave Sg wit his passport & not Hotels, etc. I guessed GOD wan to remind me how fortunate I am, to be ME again=)

Blesses them.

My next co. I make sure I be in an MNC co.; I AM LIBERAL SO is definitely more benefit to be in an open up environment.! Speakin about OPENING UP, Vannessa Hudgens Nudity Scandalious Photo's.. Some supported but some declined it.
Hmm, as for me? I am liberal, I seriously hope not to WEAR MY BRA OUT ON STREET ONE DAY WITH NOONE STARIN AT ME. COMON, get a life.. people, I dun mind to take some nude pic of myself to see but IF it happens to spread in the NET, I DONT MIND but jus a wishful party that people DONT CRITIC!!

Been studyin BUT LITLLE due to the fuckin FLU!

Sat's FAULT!!
I went to the ADMIN store to do housekeepin(All the dust & bacteria managed to break up my immune system) Fcuk Shit!! Work aftermath, met my faby to IKEA!! well, bought a PINK STUDY LAMP. Will be RE-VAMPIN my room after exam=) To be elaborate!!

& I rejected Chrissie cos I alr hav date wit Faby alr, I'm sorry girl!! I WILL MAKEUP!!

Sun!
Sick & Stay at home=) to Sleep & Chatted wit JOYCE & EVE.
JOYCE is love=) She consoles, comforts, embraces me INSIDE OUT=) thanks BABE!! she is not a BIMBO!! Though she is in Mel, but Heart still here ABIT!! the REST STILL BAISED FOR GUYS!! SORRY AR BYE!! Bitch!

Eve asked me to join the Sat Party in her house, still considering=)*wink*

Monday
Work, wit the Flu, work aftermath I went to buy Ingredients for the Tiramisu for my BF!!=) 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY
He does remember, thanks love=)

Tues, today.
Goin to KNOCK OFF SOON!! work is dull. Meetin my FABY for movie in town. THANKS TO LIYANA. LOVE HER, I quipped to Faby that She knows TML is the 6 months anni. so gave us a nice date. Anyway not true, but THANKS LOVE

okie, bid here
Adious=)

Friday, September 14, 2007

ATTITUDE is 100%

HiYA!! people people..EVERYDAY OF OUR LIVE, AT LEAST I ENJOY THE SIMPLE & SWEET LIFE NOW.

Okie, Wed Club nothing much to mention. The partyin is fun=) I met my Faby before headin to St James..Sweet Love i REPLETE wit L.O.V.E..

Thur I stayed at home for the whole day=)

Today, back to work..Busy busy busy.. Shit no mood to blog now.. cos I'm catchin a Twee Programme=)

Hmm.. Tml work till noon Meeting my Faby around 3=)

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Once a upon a time=)

I'll make my entry short & sweet today(now I waiting for the bus to fatch me home)

Sun, is a cool enjoyable day. Fat fat 1, 2, 3 & bf went for SWIMMIN.. my ALL-TIME FAVOURITE; not cos I love to swim cos I hab a likeness for the sun=) Coolness,=)

Monday, was busy but I am very sleepy (Monday-Bluey) Anyway was good still. Work aftermath, met my honey bunny to jog in the stadium. Well, I cant jog well wit his presence!! Then Dinny & Home Sweet Home!!

Chatted wit Chrissie & Liyana. Chrissie!!! OMG, she is insanity high!! Gosh, "densi is so dashin..He...He..I..cant sleep today" Is so sweet to be in love with the correct person, is the sweetest thing you ever tasted!!

19 Sept 07 IS OUR 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY=)

Today 09.11.2007
Memorable day for the world, U.S, my dad & my family(some onli!!) Well, my dad's burstday, his age is disclose here!! & is the 911 WTC incident, I guessed no one will forget this lifetime. I prayed this mornin for this day=), Is take no lifetime for me to forget though it doesnt concern me directly.. Gosh!! I worked OT today. You know why? Cos I not goin to be here on Thursday & therefore!! Rushin the Workers' Payroll!! 3/4 done!!=)

I'm clubbin tml. Love my boy*WINKS* He is such a cutey ass piey!!

SHORT ENTRY RITE=)
P.S* I realised tht Sha doesnt know I'm very expressive; even in songs=) Hmm..tht's sad..
Anyway, Had ponder about the friendship problem. Well, decided to forget abt the unhappy thing. Jus let nature takes its course, allrite.Gosh, who ask me born wit a softy heart=) & BTW, I jus wan to send my blog song to you, to express wht I feel=) Nothin big deal though=)

Bid Here
Adious=)

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Everyday=)

I finally willing to change my blog song. Past few days was good=) except I still tryin to accept something that I doubt I can=) & gracious, I AM REALLY VERY VERY HYPERACTIVE=)Sorry, baby I love you too much so I hope to enjoy alot more thing wit you=) to hav more memories together=)
But.. shit happens all the time=)

Nothing special again, I onli workin till DEC 07=) I gonna plan my next work/ activities / etc=)

Ytd, dinnin with Sharon=). Again, common=) Oh ya, I got the high school musical 2(H.S.M2) from her.. I prefer part 1=) cos Troy is dancin like robot=) But Fat Fat & me really enjoy those song.

Today, well wanted to study but again=) Chrissie dated me out cos she knows I am lonely.. Cos boy .. so I ..(Anyway was past) However, I sad & sick to go town so=) thought of stayin at home. But I went to Msia to walk around ALONE=) bought 2 packets of gummy back.. Haha~~ giv my boy 1 packet=)

Jus now, I was watchin H.S.M 2 wit Fat Fat.. Wee~~ Kinky thing both of us were dancin like maddie=) Cuteness. Took some pictures=) WE ARE REPLETE WITH LOVE!!!

A nice picture always need a good photographer=)


When I heard my favourite song, I know that we belong; so you are the music in me=)


Sweet Kisses; Sweet FAT FAT~~


YEAHNESS=) nananana~ nananana~~ yeah!!


Everyday, Fat fat knows how to sing this song too!! OMG~~ Crap!! I love to enjoy everyday of my life too wit those lovely people; everyone who love me everyday=)

So, Everyday of our lives wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight. While we're young and keep the faith. Everyday, from right now gonna use our voices and scream out loud & take my hand together we will celebrate~~



Song lyrics | High School Musical 2 lyrics

Shuan was fcukin mean & snobbish. I hate to say this but too much. I personally think is ur problem to be upset. But you need not criticise me & then said "I never mean it". Freak~~ I dun run for speed; I run to overcome my personal timin. So dun come & fcuk shit wit me wit ur SAF thingy. Nasty spoilt Brat!!

As for Chrissie, will pay back a date to you=) Love study hard=)

Hopefully, rain will be faraway cos we are goin to swim TOMORROW!! Wee~~~

<3 MY SARANG SHINE
Adious
Bid Here=)

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

When dark cloud starts to retreat

Allrite, I'm BACK~~~ was kniky tedious struggling wit my work this few days. But remember "Nothing comes free; there is a price to pay for everything".

Well, I dont mind sacrificin my time for knowledge=), it pays off in future. So treatin it as a long time investment=)

I AM VERY FORTUNATE TO BE ME=) COS I LEARN & LEARN, PLUS I SURPRISES OTHERS WITH MY KNOWLEDGE=)..back to this later. Now allow me to reminisce my happening events.

Sunday, Supposed to be a sad day. But is still managed to move on=)
Skip the saddening stuff. (Cos my baby ass promises try to make it not happen)
STEAMBOAT~~~ & BBQ @ HOME. THINKIN how it can happened rite. NAH NAH NAH, we hav this pot thingy like the one in seoul garden=) Wow, everyone hav voracious appetitte. Coolness, my almond(self-made) was sellable aftermath & ice-cream=) Thinkin to hab one more at 11 Sept!! Not to celebrate the 911 incident!! nothin happenin/happy to do it!! Anyway is my Daddy's Burstday, so see how the bugdet from the three of us first.

& I called Yik Kiat to complain/grumble about my bf!!!^**($??>://##. Though of Cold War-in wit him, but decided to giv him a chance, SORRY AR BYE~~~

End of Sunday=)

Monday
No MONDAY-BLUEY=)Too busy to have=) Cool-ness, learnt new Admin stuffs, no longer focusin on PP slides!! Anyway, my colleagues asked me how can I read others' from their daily behaviour & body language=) So, I simply answered "I dunno, is inborn(:" Too me there is much pros & cons to be different, at times is difficult to know a confidant at my age=) So take it easy, anyway I jus think tht is disgust me sometimes to see humans negative side but is to make sure I'm vigliant enough=)

Wee~~ After Work, met my baby ass for the thumbdrive=), bought for him the RAMY'S(I not sure too) Burger from the night-market=). His all-time favourite..He is so cute=), like an Asshole!!..

Tuesday(YTD)
Another fruitful day=) Plus Free KFC Lunch=) However, I'm so wasteful cos I miss the skin. Maybe I gotten sick of it=) Hmmm, my boss & colleagues quipped alot.

Like I was feeling sad for the Captain Ho who died after finishes the run & I personally thinks tht he is quite good-lookin but too bad. My boss said: "HELLO, you better dun sighed / think of him cos later he pester you as a ghost plus is the Hungry ghost festival right now!! Worse come to worse, you might need to marry a chicken!!" Haha~~

NEWSY
- Brangeline ready for another or in fact the fifth kid!!
- Britney Spear, a lamer is back to music industy!! OMG, she is so ... now
- U.S Adventure Millionare LOST? coolness!!
- Oh, A Sg armyman who kept his rife(belongs to govt) at home, & when for movie wit the gf who claimed she is turnin into a lebian!!
Coolness, too many jokers around..

I hav the upcomin movieline list till Aug 08..Coolness..=) Oh, I been trainin for my Triathlon & Marathon plus my exams in Oct end is packin my life=)
I ran 5km for 30min=) My boss said'"Sandral, you can go NS to collect 400 bucks for the IPPT thingy"=) But not enough / good to me yet=) Runnin aftermath, met an uncle who plays basketball, we chatting. He was voluable=), told me alot of stuffs & the one theory I hav to agree is "One's body language is a formula to life".

Haha, I managed to shake off some weight=)wee~~~

Wed(Today)
Still managable=)
Meeting my honey bunny later=)

Adious, bid here=)

Saturday, September 1, 2007

BONAFIDE L.O.V.E

I was inebriated in the fun-ness this few days. Should name it as "BLISS from ALL MY ADHERENT". & I realises tht I managed to fledgle well wit the camera=) Those pesky problems I had, I jus indifference it=) Best MEDICINE~~=) Guess this entry will be a lenghty one=)

Watch kinky lots of movie=)
-Skinwalkers ---> 2& a half Stars
-Hairspray ---> 4 & a half Stars
-Ratatouille(Remy; fei fei's idol) ---> 2 & a half Stars
-Dead Silence(Mary Shaw; cant remember the whole poem) ---> 3 Stars
-Evan Almighty ---> 3 Stars
-881(Papaya) ---> 4 & a half Stars

*P.S -I'm not tryin to be a reviewer, is based on individual basis=) but DO Trust my taste; I'm good at judgin/ratin movie & people=); IS AN INBORN, cant help

Was very busy with work, first they are trainin me for the real Admin job=) No longer those PP slides only=) Kinky excited, cos "I'M A LEARNER FOR LIFE=)" Unable to take the whole day leave on FRI, so discounted by 50%, haha=)

Alot of NEWSY to share too=)

-Entertainment-
-Prince Harry getting engaged wit Gf=)
-Britney.S, still need someone to screw her mind
-Rmb to catch Mandy Moore edition of Umbrella
-David.B injuried himself & Victoria.B is the special guest for the new season of Ugly Betty
-Princess Diana is still effigy in people hearts, after 10 long years=)
-Owen Wilson is better now; be it physically / mentally=)
-ZAC EFRON IS THE TEEN CHOICE FOR HUNKIE=)
-MOVIE 881 WAS PRAISE IN THE U.S NEWS ON THUR cos it actually got nominated in the GOLDEN HORSE AWARDS(I'm kinky proud); therefore I was kinky eager to watch it=)

-World/War Related-
-The remainin 19 korean were released
-In Aug, more than 18 000 of Iraqis were killed
-The Queen is the World 23 most powerful woman=)
-3 soccer-man died within 3 weeks

-Singapore-
-I prayed for the Captain Ho=)
haha, guessed tht not counted as a news=) SORRY AR BYE=)

Friday, went to Liyana's house to help out for her Belated Burstday Party, went there about 3 plus(regretted).. So bla bla bla..Talk abt Hui Shan & Aqilah broken heart(not hard feelings), My sweet escape also=). Random-ly took some photos & very nice to know her NAFA's Pals=) Do take care of her=)




One of my all time favourite people



GOTCHA!



Me & Burstday girl..Heehee, as usual; without fail I will push her down into the pool=)



Shan & me=)






Her daddy praised me for being kinda independent=) Thanks, but seriously not very used to be a princess. I enjoyed being me, AS IN ME=)

Lovely day cos it's Teacher Day at the mitnight, cos BABY were havin his company / class celebration=) & Sat, he was borrowed by his friend, M.C!! Nvm, is M.C pre burstday celebration

1st Sept 07, I was still up(havin girl's talk still). Abit guilty tht I din go back to school so I sent a Happy Teachers' Day SMS for those teachers. So my msg goes like this: "Happy Teachers' Day, Thanks for your coachin & guidin throughout past 5 years, Sandral here & on behalf for 2006 Class 5/2".

All the teacher were so touched, I jus did my duty as part of a student & those words really comes from within=)
Especially for Mrs Logan, my form teacher cum english teacher for 2005 Class 4/7. She is always a very emotional person so she thought noone from my class remembers her, therefore she is extra touched. Her reply was: "I recieved your message last night. I am so touched. You will always be in my fond memories cos I needed you as much as I may hav helped you. As a friend thanks to you & thanks for rememberin me this day"
For this, I made the title of this entry as Bonafide love = Genuine love
I can never forget those times in CHR..I hav my zenith & nadir there, people who were awared about my major mistake i had done in my life & was there to help, I take it chance to thank you guys again. But again people changes=) so move on!!

Well, process to Sat afternoon(ytd)=), Went out wit Fei fei & his mum for movie in town. Saw Hairu at the platform, she was goin to study. Bought the tickets, ate our lunch, there's a show on the ground floor which really excites fei fei & me=) High school musical 2; MY school rocks & OMG HE WENT/RAN UP TO THE STAGE TO DANCE=) didnt managed to win the soundtrack of H.S.M 2 but really laudable=) Even now, he is still tellin his sisters about his dancin exprience=). Petite Boy, take a look at those pic=)


Prince Jun Long=)





The mum & fei fei



He is dancin on the stage





Street Photography=)





So 4.20pm, we headed to watch the movie, 881. Ask me why I giv 4 & a half Stars?
FIRSTLY, i know how to appreciate ALL ILK COED GENRES OF MUSIC. Be it, R&B, SOUL, SENTIMENTAL, HIPHOP, COUNTRYMUSIC, JAZZY, CLASSIC, ROCK & ROLL. I wont discrimate races, languages, genres & etc. This movie is really good if you really know how to appreciates it & I mus confessed tht I feel the real life scenario within. The Hokkien songs are good & even the reviewer in U.S (you can see the essay in yahoo) prasied this genre of music, he/she might not even know the language=). Abit lame & overall is excellent still=) It's worth to be as a nominater in the Golden Horse Award=) Keep it up=)

Oh, I bought the Zen Stone plus=) Pink colour~~coolness, Liyana got one for her burstday present.. I wasnt steppin her, I was eyein for tht long ago=) plus I <3 Pink=)




This thingy is really small & easy to eat=)





Cam-whore Freak!!





Dinner at Din Tai Feng=) Take a rebound train back home, Fei fei is quite well-behaved compared to the past few time I brought him out=) Home-sweet-home.




Taken by Fei fei=)





Crazy Batman!!





Babyboy was unhappy about me showering wit fei fei, but I felt is okie..=) Maybe he doesnt hab a chance to bathe wit me yet so he's jealous=) wahaha~~JK JK=)

Recieved an email, read it.

Tml programme: If my bf is not goin to acc me tml due to lazyness, will either rot at home / go east coast park wit my family. Depends how's my mood=)

Hopefully, you guys enjoyed my today entry=)
Well, bid here
Adious

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Jocose Week=)

Hmm.. I love my Blog song=) Wanna know why? Cos Avril Lavigne made this song for personal reason=)

- Jus like I'll think far, & ponder & feel what happen if I gain / lose something important or even unimportant?
- Where & what is my realm, which I'm supposed to focus in years to come?
- Whether I will be a singular & eminent?

All are an unknown still, I cant prognosticated but I hav the most concern for my future.

Now, I start to ponder alot of things I have never / didnt wan to think about. First, to beware gettin hurt & secondly, to beware of people who will put a flash in the pan=)

Like this song & blog, put myself into people's shoes. I think if I ever lose my guy, like I lose some of my friends. Will I jus get over it like I got over it? Will I be able to live wit an empty heart? Will I find someone to love me like him? Will I do another stupid thing for my next bf?

But I'm pretty sure I'll miss him like mad. Like the song, when you're gone THE PIECES OF MY HEART ARE MISSING YOU. when you're gone, THE FACE I CAME TO KNOW IS MISSING. when you're gone, THE WORDS I NEED TO HEAR TO ALWAYS GET ME THROUGH THE DAY & MAKE IT OKIE, i miss you=)

I'm kinky egotist sometimes towards some things, a person who retrospect, smile when I in joy / sad, very ardent, rational yet emotional & lastly like I always say "I not ready to make nice"

Who is READY TO MAKE NICE IN THIS HECTIC WORLD? what is good & bad? where is good & bad? why & when there's good & bad? Who doesnt hav anger & sorrows? Even Gorge Bush has, not mention PM Lee or I, myself? So who is actually there to make nice?=)

I tried to be nice but I do hav my principles & pride to acknowledge=) I'm nice to a certain extent=) I spit out my disgruntled=) Frankness=)

Tomorrow, mitnight is Liyana's Birthday=)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Amorous Day

I dedicate this song to Shine=)..

Song lyrics | Avril Lavigne lyrics

Fri, Oral day=) Well it's still an unknown though is important to me but I'll take it easy=) Met Thahira & Zi Qing in school=) Coolness, I actually managed to talk for 10 mins. I hope it wont be wasted=)

Met my honey bunny in Causeway then headed to the library. Kisses, & sweetness cos I met an old-time friend=) she was from CHR NPCC too..Malati if i didnt make a mistake=)

Sat, Woke up spontaneous=) Baby got up early to study wit James aka Mistress.. Well, buzz Chrissie & she's also wonderin where to slack. So together we set our journey..
We ate healthy
We quipped
We watched HAIRSPRAY!! I hav a likeness from this movie not cos of ZAC EFRON, either is a musical movie but lastly is a inspiring & the movie i really supports=) it tells a "LOVE IS COLOURBLIND" meaning=) We danced & sang in the cinema=)
We ate our dinner in Esplanade dancin area=).. Coolness, Dancer & lots of ppl were wonderin=) But we didnt rued tht we did tht=)
She bought the same market shoes i have=)





There, she was grappin her dinner


& We were so shag when we were on the rebound train=)
THANKS GIRL, YOU BRIGHTEN ME=)

Sunday, woke up spastically early, woke my dearest up=) Left our bags in the hotel & we rushed to the starting point=) The first 6Km was okie=) but the rest were dugery!! Shine could go faster but he insisted to acc me=) sweetness=)
We completed @ about 1 hour & 45 min..not a good result=(
I go for the Standard Chartered 10km Run=)

Went back to the hotel & bathed then we headed home=)..Home alone for the whole day=)
Sweet love=)


Chatted wit Leah!!=) Sweet ass, she participated in the run too=) Talked & exchanged our opinions about our own bf=) I realised I found the nicest boyfriend i hav=)

Today, work is lackluster=) Met baby at admiratly=) We jus bid wit a kiss=)

Been watchin House of harmory since ytd=) Is acted by Maggie Q(Harmony) & Fann Wong(Mei Ling).. The story is regards a young beautiful asian girl, met this guy who is a cauasian. They fell deeply in love however, their love was forbidden in the chinese tradition. She(Mei Ling) was then pregnant so she broke her family heart & raised the child alone=) The guy also promised to be back but he dead in a crash ship=(

24 year later, the little girl grew up & went to L.A to find the dad to fufill her mum's wish. Not knowin her mum days were countable, she found the whereabout of the family of her dad. Mum dead by tht, Harmony fall in love wit the cauasian guy the dad had adopt before knowin Mei Ling=) However, the boy mum disagreed till the day she was dyin=) She told him "Son, I made you unhappy cos of my pride. Now I willing to return your freedom back to you" A love story=)

Chatting wit CK now!! Told me a spastic qiup but he is a nice chap=)

An old Italian Mafia Don is dying and he called his grandson to his bed and told him: "Grandson I wanta you to listen to me. I wanta you to take mya 45 automatic pistol, so you will always remember me".
The grandson replies: "But grandpa I really don't like guns, how about you leaving me your Rolex watch instead".
The don, angry, answers: "You lisina to me, some day you goin a be runna da bussiness, you goina have a beautiful wife, lotsa money, a biga home and maybe a couple od bambino, some day you goina come hom and maybe finda you wife in be with another man. Whata you gonna do then? Pointa to you watch and say, 'TIMES UP'"?

Got the Joke?

Friday, August 24, 2007

Sunshine after the rain

Recently kinky quarrelsome wit some pals, i'm quellin this problem. I have been pondering for days, i wont find a pretext to bring it over. I prefers to accept it; you should know i will & i wont deny tht i was irated. If you choose to disparage me / perverse is your choice & the same for where you wanna stand..

Grow up & move on=) The other side of this hectic world is waiting for me; i am very sure i will cross there one day

Hapless events do happens & i'm sure i have precocious & beenin far-sighted is my strength. But is saddenin tht i always so soft-hearted to friends, I will kick off this weakness cos I'm not a free door=)

I'm sure tht humans have this natural ability similar like any animals in the world. That is to be vilgiant for people who tempted to hurt them=)..(So dun try to play punk wit me=)heehee)

I am very thankful for people who really enlighten me=) Babyboy & Chrissie arealways there for me=) Liyana's heart is always inside me..I jus realised she grows mentally as she is turing 18, gladed for you, baby girl!! Joyce too, kindness of her to be so busy & she spared ample time for me.

I am relieved, like Shine said "You are so good & confident wit yourself. Why bothers about those who tryin to bring you down. You dun speak Singlish, you are improvin tremendously."

Like Zherui mentioned in his blog "Singlish is beautiful language(I truely agrees) but I need to control myself to speak Singlish cos I'm focusin on English=); I love him for sayin tht=)

Chrissie did most of the job, she is my condifant. I cried while i am grumbling, she said "Girl you'll be salient"

Liyana did the sweetest job by sayin "Whoever's not there wit ya, I always be=)"

I guessed the matter of fact is be it, I hab the right to comment or correct people anot is my choice..Hate it & Love it accept it=) DUN BE SUCH A BIGOT, OPEN UP man! We are free man & living in a free world.
"Accept those corrections & change to be a better me"(Coolness, tht my motto)

I am not being showy still cos I'm not doin good enough still..i'm probably kinky engrossed wit those words i jus learn=) but is my right still=)

Well, it was rainin like cats & dogs awhile ago=) The sun jus rose & sayin "work hard move on" to me.. & a kinky adorable palm tapped on my shoulder=) IS MY FEI FEI He is smilin & he said "RATATOUILLE" to me=) KINKY CUTE!! omg, I havin an important oral exam later, thinkin how will i fare! Baby helped me alot ytd=) Thank you=)

THIS IS BONAFIDE LOVE=)heehee

Sat, I need to find programme for my own. Probably go out to study but not till late night cos Sun is an exciting day.Shine & I are goin for Singapore Bay Run 2007 & Water Festival=) We are goin to do trackin for 12 clips!! I hav prepared the Sony Cybershot 5.1 camera wit me.. Coolness..& One of the weekdays we might be goin to Night Safrari together.. Friday is Celebration of Teachers' Day & Celebration of Liyana's burstday=) Though her burstday is on 29 Aug=)

Lovely.. Boston is indeed a nice song,so hearty..I in an exultation now=)
Bid Here.
Adious.
Muack.
Hugs.
Bye.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Augustana

INDULGE IN REMINISCENCE

I'm very sanguine with my current affair, thought things aint goin on so well..i tryin hard to obviate my sorrows but they always made a U-turn back to me=)..

Who is not cupidity coed happiness? The world is fraught wit desires..People will always crave to look/do/known as beautiful/greatly..Wht do do? I/We still need to accomodate to this hectic world. Everything is jus so nebulous..

I've got pesky so I'm in repose, I really jus wanna GETAWAY phyisically & mentally now. Yik Kiat sent me a song few days ago.

Title: Boston
Singer: Augustana

Wht a coincidence, is August now & I fell in love deeply wit this song. It really jus expressed me inside out=)

Lyrics
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed,you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field, when flowers gazed at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains,

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly her out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Now, I have the urge to study hard to join law school next year, cos I'll have alot to do & hopefully I wont stay at home.

WHY?

Cos I will meet more friends, my social life will be better. Hopefully, everything could be fine.

I find myself 10 times free. cos my work is challenage-less..
Unlike, Baby boy..Busy with work & study
Pei Ee.. Enjoying life
Liyana..Started a new chapter in life
Nevertheless, Chrissie..Plenty of new life after joinin lasalle

But wht about me? I do hab some plans but I guessed I will need to find someone else.. The Rate & Attitude proves we arent makin it=) Elimation is neccessary when it comes to sucess=)

Plus I not able to go to Sentosa cos I lost a person to acc me=) I'm sure I'll find a new one..but I found one who I met in Sentosa=) But...I jus a lazy bum

I was grubbling to Baby boy, tht I'm so lonely & my life is like a robot routine now. He is currently my only one who sparks my entire life now=)
Thank you, boy=) I guessed I can feel how Liyana felt.
Anyway ANY COMMENTS I MADE IS PUELY BASED ON MY OWN FEELING, SO NO HARD FEELING=)

Anyway, Hungry Ghost Festival..so beware=)

Hmm..Thur & Fri..Went straight home to watch Kinship=)

Sat, Went out with Sharon. But i think I bored her full-time.I feel odd; Nth much to say=)
Evening, we walked to the place where we can see fire-works. & home home home..=)

Sun, Quarrelled wit my baby boy. Cos he was kinky lazy to go town wit me, was %%^*(*(// =) He knows I was pretty unhappy about his rejection so he agreed..HAHAHA..
So we went to Billy Bomber to eat=) & the rain started to pour & so we strolled to Starbucks.
WE STAYED UNDER MY UNBRELLA, ELLA ELLA EL EL EL=)
HAHAHA..He did alot of quipping while we are walking.
Finally we settle down to study..=) I finished 5 Chapters OF MATH=)
Then we went to Suntec Carefour, shop for some stuff=)..Did some crazy stuffs & went back home=)

LOVE IS SO UNEXPRESSABLE

Then I jus realised ytd was lunar 7 month day 7=) Is the Chinese St. Valentine, I spent my day happily wit my sarang..

I was replete with love=) I really enjoy everyday wit ya..=)

I hab the skirt alr, hooha=)
Anyway I made a pact wit Chrissie=) I have lost 1cm=) coolness=)

Adious..bid here=)

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Blessing in disguise

BLESSING IN DISGUISE!

KINDA CUTE TODAY..I WOKE UP LATE & UNABLE TO MEET LIYANA TO THE ART MUSEUM=( PLUS WHEN I HALF WAY TO TOWN; SHE IS ALSO HALF-WAY BACK HOME=(

SO I, AS A WEIRDO WOULDNT WAN TO GO HOME SO EARLY=)..NOONE IS FREE, BABY BOY IS WORKIN, SHA IS STUDYIN, CHRISSIE PHONE PROBLEM, PEI EE IN PERTH(WE ARE FINE NOW), CK IS GOIN FOR DRIVIN LESSON..

SO I ENDED EATIN BRUNCH ALONE..MY MEAL COSTED MI 9 BUCKS BUT I ONLY HAD 3-4 BUCKS MEAL (I WAS SUPER UBER HIGH).. THEN I COMPLAINED TO SHA THE INCIDENT.."WELL, I WAS SITTING ALONE IN THE FOODCOURT. WAS THRISTY SO WENT TO A DRINK AT A NEARBY STALL..WHILE I WAS PAYIN FOR THE DRINK, THE CLEANER CLEARED MY MEAL!!!
IS LIKE %(*()$#??)+_??//><^^%&* la!!!!!!!
THEN HE APOLOGISED TO ME & ASKED ME WHETHER HE NEED TO REPAY ME A BOWL. OF COS NOT..I HOW CAN I ASK HIM TO DO THAT" SO I WALKED OUT OF WISMA, & ROAMED AROUND..REAL BOREDOM...

BUT AFTER I HANGED UP THE CALL WITH SHA. JESUS!! I STOPPED MYSELF IN THE "SINGAPORE TOURISTS CENTRE" (FOR NTH)..THIS GUY STANDIN IN FRONT ASKED ME SOMETHING..SO WE ARE BOTH BORED & ALONE..HIT OFF & THEN *BOMB*=).. HIS NAME IS ASHELY=) 21 YEAR OLD.. COOL HOT GUY FROM ENGLAND,LONDON..(MY BOY IS COOL & HOT TOO)...

SO I BROUGHT HIM AROUND..TOWN & SENTOSA..TOOK SOME PICTURES=). SENT HIM BACK TO NEWTON STATION WHEREBY HIS HOTEL IS SOMEWHERE THERE.. I HAB 2 PICTURES WE TOOK TOGETHER & A PICTURE OF HIMSELF WHERE WE TOOK IT IN SENTOSA..



Sweet Smile=)




Cool=)




Cool hot hunkie!!



I MUX CONFESSED HIM OWNS A PAIR OF BEAUTIFUL GREY/BLUEISH EYES..& ALL THE GIRLS WHO SAW US JUS NOW, WILL CURSED & SWEARED AT ME=) EVEN SHA DID THT, (SHE CALLED ME A PIECE OF SHIT!!). HE WILL BE BACK WITH MORE FRIENDS=)

WE BIDDED WIT A GOODBYE KISS ON CHEEKS.

I TOLD BABY BOY ABT IT TOO, ASSURED HIM THT WE ARE JUS FRIENDS..& HE IS LEAVIN BACK TO LONDON TML..HE JUS BY-PASSED HERE, COS HE CANT STAND THE LONG HOURS ON PLANE, NO MORE=)

COOL!! I'LL BE ENVY BY ALOT ALOT OF GIRLS FOR LONG=) BABY BOY I STILL LOVE YOU!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Unbelievable Finale

Why: Do you all wan to know why I started to blog?
Reason: Cos I know onli 18-20% of the brain is actually functionin' & is impossible to store all 18 years of memories in my brain. HAPPINESS? & SORROWNESS?

Therefore I call BLOG---> "Brain Level Of Gift", As GOD knows human brain is not capable to store a huge amount of vivid memories..& He knows that ME cant remember much sorrows.. But ytd a ultimate fat-man, bombed & crashed me with nothin left, such thing NEVER crossed my head for a single moment tht she who is very innocuous to me..

hmm..we were chattin then i told ask the li ping chatted wit mi on msn..then i joked & said "she will hab to stay faraway from me".. so pei ee said tht i mingle around for tell of my ilk..(is not true!)..I tried to correct her..then I mentioned about "you guys are my prestigious friends"(in my own definition is like VIP IN MY HEART) but she insisted to onli accept the prevalent dictionary explanation tht is “good, honorable people are my friends”..Oh cool, I gradually feelin fcukin sick (plus dun try & fcuk around wit me in English words, WE LEARN FROM ONE ANOTHER. DONT COME & FCUK SHIT & SHOW ME HOW WELL-SPOKEN YOU ARE COS I NOT ENVIOUS OF THT. I DUN BUY IT COS IT JUS MAKE ME FEEL HOW NARROW YOU ARE WITHIN) cos she really broke my heart & told me tht THE PERSON I KNOW SO MUCH, KNOWS NOTHIN AB. So in a moment of folly, I actually said “yea, allrite cos u are rich so I treated you as my bestie” & she made a big wow-ha sayin tht I am changed(oh pls, I the same old me so look who’s talking) explanation.

I NOT ANGRY WITH HER WITH THE URGUEMENT, IS JUS SO UNBELIEVABLE THT YOU DOUBTED ME=)
I AM ALWAYS SO FERRID FOR THIS FRIENDSHIP; I AM VERY BLUNT WIT MY WORDS MOST OF THE TIME BUT I ALWAYS MINGLE MY WORDS RUDENTLY. IS NOT BEING APOLOGISETIC, YOU CAN ACTUALLY THINK TO CURE THIS VULNERABLE HEART..your excuses & speeches did maladjusted me ytd, on top of all you broke my freakin heart. I NEVER NEVER FORGET A SINGLE WORDS WE SAY BEFORE YOU LEFT..YOU CAN TRY TO RECALL WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM/CAN BE THEN YOU THINK TWICE TO FCUK SHIT WITH ME..I HAB NEVER GRUMBLED ABT ALL UR CHANGES(ASK OTHERS SINCE YOU CANT BELIEVE IN ME ANYMORE)..I AM VEXED IN THIS POINT OF VIEW, MAYBE YOU NEVER NOTICE IT..BUT YOU WORDS/ACTIONS WILL BRING A BIG IMPACT TO ME(RIGHT NOW YOU HAVOC ME)

I ASKED LIYANA WHETHER I SUCH PERSON AS YOU THINK I AM. WHT A ANSWER; IS NOT COS SHE PRAISES ME BUT I AMUSED BY A PHRASE SHE SAID "WE ARE FRIENDS COS WE ARE". IS NOT THT SHE IS RICH SO I CHOSE HER TO BE MY FRIEND..COS OF A POOR INCIDENT HAPPENED TO ME SO WOW..=)PLUS A TUMOIL CHANGE HAPPENED TO ME!!

CHATTING WIT CHRISTIANE, SHE IS QUIPING TO ME now=) she is talkin about those creepy classmates & I MULTITASKIN NOW=) LISTENIN TO DONT MATTER=)

I BROKE MY HEART PLUS I RUNNIN A HIGH FEVER 39C=) BLESS ME=)

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Unbelievable

MORE THAN WORDS=)

08.09.2007(THURSDAY AKA PUBLIC HOLIDAY)
Celebrated Blink Blink Birthday..bought him a special present whereby most of the ladies will love love love it; whereas the guys loathe loathe loathe it..So i duress him to hold the roses..HE SHOULD KNOW IS NOT A CHAGRIN ANYWAY=).. I LOVE HIM 1000 TIMES AS A FRIEND FOREVER=) THE GANG WERE LESS VOLUBLE but i must praise myself for always being a good tour-guide=)

The fireworks wasnt so delicious as i thought..but a good day did ends well=)




THIS PIC HAS NEVER SLIP OUT OF MY MIND...WHENEVER I LOOK AT IT, PLENTY OF MEMORIES WILL UNBEKNOWNST COME BACK..ESPECIALLY THE PART I REACH THE TOP OF THE MOUNT JATAN WAITING FOR HER(THEM) TO REACH TOO..I FEEL HAPPY & PROUD OF THEM & MYSELF..PEI EE IS A NEVER SPORTY GIRL..BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAY SHE FINISHES HER 2.4KM WITHIN 16MIN 30SEC..I'M PROUD OF HER...I KNOW IS MY CREDITO, BUT SHE TRIED HER VERY BEST TO MAKE HERSELF & ME PROUD..=) IS TRUE WHEN PEOPLE SAYS "A PICTURE CAN SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS"=)

08.10.2007
I SLACKIN AT HOME..COS MY DEAR FRIEND FORGET THT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DRINK..STUPID ARSEHOLE..!! Forgiven cos I hab something on impt on sat=)


08.11.2007
OUR FRIST GETAWAY TRIP TOGETHER..WELL, IS JUS MALAYSIA BUT THE MOMENTS WE SPENT IS WORTH..
OH..THIS TRIP IS UNBEKNOWNST MY PARENTS KNOWIN=) WE WENT TO JUSCO, WATCHED RUSH HOUR 3..KINKY CHRIS TUCKER & JACKIE CHAN NEVER FAIL TO EXCITE ME=)
DID ABIT OF SHOPPIN=)..Bought the Donkins Doughnuts!!


Dinner aftermath=)
Sha commented tht "I'm too sweet in the picture." But isnt tht supposed to be? Who wont enjoy & have fun jus wit your beloved one? Hmm, maybe she havent meet a guy who can make her smile within her heart yet..


08.12.2007 Sunday
Oh..I thought is Sha family day ytd, so I didnt bothered to bother her..Ended up with Chrissie..She knows my pattern alr..(the habit of being late most of the time)
Then we went to DTF to hav our lunchy..nothing special anyway..But I'm pretty much amused with our fashion & artistic taste=)
Ok..our outfits was totally different from each other but we both wore shoes=)..chilly chill cute.. She was wearin a long sleeve cotton shirt in the damn hot sun..so we decided to shop..finally she bought something in M&G..& I eyed on a dress only 50 bucks..but some personal reason I hesitated to buy..

Bypass AX..(this will excite Ms Boon) Love at one sight with this dress..very costy but second last piece..can you imagine how dearly it is? I tried it out..& chrissie took a pic..the salegirl tempted me..But i ended walkin out of the shop. However I dail my papa no. to ask him to giv me $$ for the skirt & i went back for a reserved till next week=)!!


First costly dress I gonna to hab!

Went to the Art Museum=)Chrissie enjoyed it as much as I do..is so hard to get someone appreciates Arts like I do.. Will be goin with Liyana again on Wed..See Chrissie hab time to go wit us=)

Walk walk walk to B&J(city hall) together..we was beseiged by those causasian guys around us..=) LOVE=)


Lastly, Went back to P.S to meet my honey honey boy..& This blog song is all meant for him=)

Adious (Mexcian = Bye), I bid here

Thursday, August 9, 2007

RIGHT THUR

OH OH OH..RIGHT THUR!! I longed to hab this freakin nice song!!=) SHAHRUL SENT IT TO ME.. THOUSAND OF SWEET KISSES TO YOU..

NA-TION-AL DAYZ!!!
MY FA-VOU-RIT-E NATIONAL SONG IS "THIS IS MY COUNTRY,THIS IS MY HOME, THIS IS MY FUTURE, THIS IS MY LIFE, THIS IS MY FAMILY, THIS ARE MY FRIENDS, WE ARE SINGAPORE, SINGAPOREAN!!"

ASK ME WHY I LIKE TO CUT MY WORDS TODAY..ACTUALLY I NOT TOO SURE..I KINDA HIGH TODAY!!..OMG, ASK ME WHY!! I AINT KNOW TOO..

YTD NIGHT, LIYANA, SUN SHAN & ME MET UP FOR MOIVE..WHT MOIVE? THE BORNE ULTIMATE..NICE? THE PEOPLE ACCOMPANIED ME MAKE THE MOVIE NICE=).. I LOVE 8/8/07
WHILE WE ARE WALKIN THT DISTANCE TOWARDS THE INTERCHAGE..WE SAW THE MADDIE..TALKIN TO HIMSELF..THEN HE STALKED ME? HEEHEE.. ANYWAY TOOK A BUS RIDE, MET/SAW A HUNKIE.. CANT FALL ASLEEP..UNKNOWN REASON..CHATTED WITH EILEEN. SAW AVALINE ONLINE, SHE IS BACK IN SINGAPORE..DIN CHAT FOR LONG COS SHE HAV BIZ TO DO LATER=)..

SHA WENT TO ZOUK, CLUBBIN? KINDA TIRED.. IS TEMPTING BUT AINT SEDUCTIVE ANYMORE..

MY SARANG & I ARE FINE..AS IN SITUATION.. DEEP DOWN I AM DOUBTIN MYSELF..FORGET IT..SAY NO MORE ABOUT LOVE..

FCUK SHIT, I BOUGHT THE ADIDAS SHOES,I HAB NOT TOUCHES IT!!..IS SO SHIT!!

I CURRENTLY READIN THIS BOOK, RECOMMENDED BY LIYANA ORETH "THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS", COOL BOOK..CHRIS GARDENER IS COOL & HANDSOME NO DOUBT IS AN AFRICA AMERCIAN..NICE SHIT..I RESPECT HIM WHOLEHEARTLY..

HMM..I SHARE MY UPCOMIN EVENTS..
TODAY CELEBRATIN MY BLINK BLINK BURSTDAY, BOUGHT ROSES FOR HIM..COLLECTIN IT SOON.. COOLNESS..

TML, I TOOK AN OFF DAY=) FRIDAY..DRINKIN WIT ASH

SAT, GOIN TO JB WIT SHINE..

SUN, SENTOSA?

I BID HERE=) ENJOY MY FAVOURITE SONG

Monday, August 6, 2007

What a day=)

Let me talk about how I actually spent my days since Last Wed=)

Wednesday is too long for me to recall=)..Maybe cos nth fun to talk about..
Thursday Work..then went to CWP & watch movie=)
Friday Work & I came home to pack/tidy my room=)
Saturday Went out with Sha..twosome=)

Firstly, singing & shoppin=) bought an adidas track shoes..BUT I REALLY PREFERS ANOTHER ONE!!..Forget it!
Secondly..Movie..Oh..kinda scary!! Disturbia..=)
Lastly..down to my favourite spot? Sweet ppl make a good guess!!=)
Yeah!! GOT IT!!!..DRINK..Something happened..BUT I DID A SWEET ESCAPE!!!
you wan to know WHY??!! heehee..cos I AM A REAL BAD GIRL=) I DIDNT MEAN FOR YOU TO GET HURT=)...

Sunday..So yesterday=)..
Tuition for tht kiddy..=( Then sang at AMK KBOX with BLINK BLINK, DARREN(artist wow) & last but not least SBP(I think I need to change her name to a better one)

Oh..I AM SO OUTDATED & SLOW!! I ACTUALLY DUNNO THIS VERY FUNNY SHOW WHICH THE 3 OF THEM ARE ALL WATCHIN..FCUKERS!! THEY DIDNT WAN TO SHARED THE TITLE OF THE VARIETY SHOW WITH ME!! ANYWAY I WILL/COMFIRM WILL CATCH IT LATER.. THIS SENTENCE, TER & DAR KEEP ON SAYIN TO MAKE ME LAUGH & SHA KNOWS HOW TO SAY IT TOO!! "你命不好,感动不到天!!"

I know I didnt mention someone very impt above..Ms Boon,rite? Cos of my forgetness I nelegected her..I feeling real bad about it..=) She knows it..I KNOW; YOU KNOW=)

Today..Ms Boon called.. supposed to go to meet Liyana's..but I'm at home typin in this blog entry..why?
Cos someone I thought someone I wan to see, wan to see me too..But is all I thought.. I wan to catch the 7pm show & wan to see him..All I askin him is to acc me home to watch it & then we will study together..But he said "I cant study at home"..I think he hates my house freakin much=).. He rejected it & went to the lib.. I thought he will study for long..However after my show, I took a cab to the lib..& searched around like a stupid idiot (I bet God is mockin at me still) for him..end up I recieved a msg "Huh? I alr on my way home..no mood to study"..

Is okie..din blame him..I am stupid & egotist..din bother to ask, hopin to giv him a surprise in the lib..But i ended up becomin a laughin stock.. Whatever I wan to do for him, it all seem too much.. & I need to confess something..On my way home, I been thinkin he might be standin outside my doorstep to giv me a surprise.. But jus is a fantasy..

Jus like this song.."Doin too much"..I eating my dinny & think through alot rite now.. It is more than feasible tht "原来爱本来就不公平"

bid here

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Hey you

Hey you by Madonna=)
She sang this on 7/7/7 LIVE EARTH CONCERT=)

First love yourself then love someone else=)



Monday
Gym aftermath Work

Tuesday(Ytd)
Met Shine=)..Library aroma=)

Wed(Today)
Boring day!!

TILL I CHATTED WITH ...BASKET=) aka Zherui

hmmm..things happens..shit too=) Expects the unexpected=) I felt tht we really hab alot of common points.=)
Happy Clubbin tonight..Grab BLOGGAL!!=)

I goin to P.S to buy a stuff..then will visit the book stores=)
Book Marathon!!

Hey you!!=) LOVE MY BLOG SONG=)
ACCEPT ME..I'M THIS MAD=)

Bid here...

Monday, July 30, 2007

Satisfaction

Happy Weekends=) I was havin BLUEY during work!! REAL BLUEY=) & also real busy=) No time to whim=)

Anyway, I grew fearful of my neighbour(the mummie of the kid i am tuitorin for)!! Everyday, she asks me to giv tuition for the kid!!.OMG!

I LOVE SATURDAY, 28JULY07
MORNING, TUITION=(
EVENING=) MEET MY HONEY BOY=) SPENT MY WHOLE DAY WIT HIM=) HAD BREAKFAST TOGETHER=) ON CLOUD NINE=) SORRY TO BE SO MUSHY BUT EVERY WORD I GOIN TO SAY I MEANT IT=)
I LOVE SPENDIN EVERY SINGLE MOMENTS JUS WIT YOU=) You never need to know how much you meant to me, cos i hav nth to hide from you alr=)

IS SO UNBELIEVABLE, & I DONT WAN TO LET IT GO
SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL, FLOWIN DOWN LIKE A WATERFALL
I FEEL YOU ALWAYS BEEN, FOREVER A PART OF ME
& IS SO UNBLIEVABLE TO FINALLY BE IN LOVE=)

Can you guess guess guess the title of the song? hmmm, tml it'll be my blog song=)

SUNDAY, STAYED AT HOME ALMOST FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY=(
WANTED TO GO TRACKIN BUT THT IDIOT CLUBBED LAST NIGHT plus THE WEATHER WAS DOIN HIM A FAVOUR!!

AVALINE IS BACK TO NEW YORK=) BUT SHE IS COMIN BACK NEXT WEEK
HMM...SHE REQUESTED ME TO HELP HER TO DO SOMETHING..IS A FOREVER & THOUSANDS "NO-NO"
HE KNOWS I WONT WAN TOO, SO JUS GIV UP ON THE IDEA=) WELL,SOMEONE(HE) CONFESSED TO ME AGIAN..QUITE TOUCHY when someone said "you means alot to the person"..BUT YA HE SHOULD KNOW..

MONDAY..BLUE DAY!!
Chatted wit SBP aka SHARON..I asked her whether she wan to go REDANG/BALI/LANGKAWI on 8/9 AUG to 12 AUG..but saddy reply=( Goin to ask Shine & Chrissie, but no good feelin=) IS okie this sat we are goin for a shoppin spread=)!!=p

I JUS WANNA GETAWAY=) Hmm..i suddenly rmbs BLINK BLINK BURSTDAY IS AROUND THE CORNER=) & LIYANA'S TOO=)

Speakin about LIYANA..SHE POSTPONED OUR DATE!! TO 6 AUG, BUT I GIV HER CHANCE =)..
Pei Ee is sick nowaday, please take care=) I THINK SHE MISSES ME THEREFORE SHE IS SO ILL=)

Yong An is so faithful to me=) He will read my blog & asks me how am i=) so sweet ya=)

anyway I bid here!!

Friday, July 27, 2007

Tribute=)

My new blog song=), i find it very meaningful=) Wht it about? Find out urself=) I know the translations still not so good, hopefully you guys will bear wit it=)
Is a song who sang tributin for the lost friends who alr parted the world, alot of principles & meaning of life to see for yourself=)

当你在穿山越岭的另一边 (When we are apart)
我在孤独的路上没有尽头 (Loneliness block my vision ahead)
一辈子有多少的来不及 (How many regrets we hav in a lifetime)
发现已经失去最重要的东西, 恍然大悟早已远去 (When we realised we had lost the most impt thing)
为何总是在犯错之后 才肯相信错的是自己 (Why we only then admitted our mistakes after we are wrong)
他们说这就是人生 (They said it is call as LIFE)
试著体会试著忍住眼泪 (Try to stop the tears)
还是躲不开应该有的情绪 (Or run away from your emotions)
我不会奢求世界停止转动 (I wont ask the world to stop spinin cos of me)
我知道逃避一点都没有用 (I know tht runaway is useless)
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里 (During this period especially the night)
还是会想起难忘的事情 (I will still recall those unforgettable time)
我想我的思念是一种病 (I think Memories is a illness)
久久不能痊愈 (Which cant be heal even forever)

当你在穿山越岭的另一边 (When we are apart)
我在孤独的路上没有尽头 (Loneliness block my vision ahead)
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸 (Sometimes I could senses you breathin at my ear)
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息 (Or even your heartbeat)
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心 (We tend to forget people around us needs love & concern)
藉口总是拉远了距离 (Excuses always make us drift apart)
不知不觉无声无息 (Without us noticing it)
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违 (We always grumbled about everything)
却不愿意回头看看自己 (But we will not think for ourself)
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情 (We never think about the stupid thing we had done)
也许是上帝给我一个试炼 (Maybe is an arrangement from GOD)
只是这伤口需要花点时间 (We all need time to heal our scars)
只是会想念过去的一切 ( But can only recap the past)
那些人事物会离我远去 (All the impt thing/people left me faraway)
而我们终究也会远离 (& one day the same thing will happen to us)
变成回忆 (Then we will also become memories)
oh 思念是一种病 (Memories is a illness)
oh 思念是一种病一种病 (Memories is a illness)
多久没有说我爱你 (So long I didnt said I love you)
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人 (So long you didnt hug those people whom we loved)

当这个世界不在那黱美好 (When the world is not beautiful)
只有爱可以让他更好 (Only love can make one better)
我相信一切都来得及 (I believe is still not too late for everything)
别管那些纷纷扰扰 (Ignore those disturbance)
别让不开心的事停下了脚步 (Dont allow unhappiness to distract you)
就怕你不说就怕你不做 (Jus be afraid for your failure)
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及(Stop being regretful but not tryin to mend it)

Is a Funny joke=),View it!!
http://i131.photobucket.com/albums/p317/fantasy787/funny-pic-perfect-husband.jpg

Well..wed, I met Shine wit FEI FEI=) They were so fun=)

Thursday,(ytd) I realised tht in life there is alot of thing beyond my control/beyond from wht i can do now=(. & I finally exprienced the true world of cruelty & inhuman.People will really do everything to get the things they want. But they didnt realise tht the methods they are usin is so wrong. With God blessings=)

But I always bear this in mind "those kind souls will stay good, those bad ones will have their retributions & hope they will learn from their mistakes=)"
I know Jessica will be good=)

*P.S My period jus arrived=)

This video is done by some creative frencho=)



Friday,today..
Kinda busy today..Eileen & Jeremo LAST DAY=( People came here to comfort me still=) Is part & an parcle(i hope i get it right) of life..

I am goin to study at home later & watchin Twee=)

Tml,out wit SHINE from his ceremory=)
Sunday, goin to sentosa(most probably) or runnin in a reservior=)

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Weary & Scary Exprience

Hmm..RECAP FIRST!!

Monday=) hmm..I met Baby Boy on Monday=).Dinner & he walked home wit me (i almost wanted to type "he walked me home")...Nice Monday=) He has his own method of ROMANTIC..he not a cut out for guys who gives roses / sweet talk everyday..LOVE IS UNEXPRESSED=)

I created a new FEI FEI SONG for my bro=)
" My fei fei lies over the ocean.
My fei fei lies over the sea.
My fei fei lies over the ocean.
Oh bring back my FEI FEI to me=)"

Tuesday=) Boring day in work...more & more responsibilities on my shoulder=(. PLUS I got whacked by my EMO BRO!! IDIOT!! COS I DIN BRING BABY BOY HOME TO PLAY WIT HIM!! OMG..my bro fall for my man!!=)/=( ...Anyway we promised him to let him see him today, but is all depends on Shine whether he is free nots..=)

When Liyana knew abt it, she actually mocked at me..Will be meetin her on Monday=) Miss her lots & she said something sweet to me

Shine went out wit his poly friend (a she), was kinda jealous(i could feel it). I wanted to proble about it but I should jus take it easy...he is not mine now afterall

Wednesday=) I realised how LOVE should works..but i cant figure out why it works like that=(.. I cant deny I learn more during work compare to school..I enjoyed both=)..Cos I love to collect knowledge..

I realised how to recognise people who are good & bad + to see them clearly.. I jus hab the ability & Karma to see,hear,explore it=)

Oh Eileen is leavin us on Friday=) I hopes is for good=)

I know i getting greedy but ... i jus miss him=) ..goin to meet him wit FEI FEI later=)

Monday, July 23, 2007

Wonderful Weekends & Full of love

Nice classical start,RITE? My favorite song "ALL MY LIFE"..Who am i actually dedicating to? "YOU KNOW WHOSsss!!"
You turned my life around yoy pick me up when i was down=)

When should i start to update you guys=)Oh oh..Wednesday=)

Actually nothin special=)..until Friday..Pei Ee went back=) Hmmm.. Everything is inside my heart=)

Saturday, was tuitoring in the morning=) Christiane msged me to go for shoppin but I need to celebrate SBP burstday's so i asked her to join=) Had Fun, especially during Movie time!! Chrissie started a line "COOL, I LOVE HORROR MOVIE" but she ended up lying / leanin on my RIGHT ARM!! & SBP she is covering her ugly FACE WITH HER NIKY JACKET=) *TIMID!!* please dun say out wht i did=)!!

Chilled in STARBUCKS, with more ppl..DARREN,PEI HAO, COLIN, JOYCE, SBP & CHRISSIE.. Chrissie & me was fishin as usual , the rest of them drank some acid so they SELDOM talk=) .. I actually forget the freakin cake so chrissie & me separated from the rest of them to buy the cake=) I brought in the cake at 11.59 is a planned thing=)

OH OH OH, recieved a fcukin cool compliment from my bestie(chrissie)..tht why i always love honest & straightforward ppl=) She said i hab a nice vocal,Thanks girl! + my voice is so clear & comfortable to listen=)
tOOk some pictures, the atmosphere could be better wit Blink BLink & Soon Guan I bet=)

Sunday=) Stay at home to rot & watched NATIONAL TREASURE=)

Monday, Today
Things goin well for Baby Boy & me=) Raymond King said this to me, this is one factual about Love & Marriage=)

"Your another one should love you(ur good) & love you for ur bad too=)"
I asked BB wht is my bad points & whether is he tryin to love it anot?
I got a satifyin reply=)

You must be wonderin who the hell is Raymond King=). He is the boss of the Carrot Cake shop @ Taka(One of Liyana's fav food) + 14 more outlets=) My idol , advicer, nice, kind designer & father of 2=)...

He told me this story about his niece, I think I need to share it=)

His Niece (currently workin in Seagate, let me named her, Grace) met this guy few year ago.He is an Airforce engineer & got deeply in love.But he is goin to U.S for work so he decided to ask her hand from her parents..So Grace eventually agreed, when they settle down in L.A..This guy got curious & hooked up by the different culture there=) Hmm..Exhangin spouse for Sex=) Grace dun like the arrangement cos Sg'rean we practiced different culture=) She decided to Divorce wit HIM..He begged her to stay wit him,you know=) but Grace INSISTED on her decision. So he knows tht he no longer can hold her heart, He eventually asked alot of guys to rape her up. THIS A REAL STORY. Grace called home, she was fetch & held back to Singapore to heal her broken wound..It left her a big lesson=) Is not about the Heart matter & also she no longer can produce a kid!! I CURSIN & SWEARIN AT THE MAN WHO DID THIS TO HER!!.. i hope she will find someone who truely love her & she will not be afraid to give him her hands again..

Lots of blessings=)

Might be meetin Baby Boy for dinner & tuitorin the kid again cos tml is his ORAL=)

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Corner of Love

I'm watchin the set of drama series..=) I find it meaningful, I felt the same way as him(the main character, qin tai)..Life & Love should be full of excitment, i shouldnt predict anything but let nature takes it's course=)

I wanted to see him alot & so hab some thoughts to meet him=) But is okie..I doubt we hab anything more to say or do anymore=) Just friends..He probably wont see this cos he wont jus accidently drop by my blog unless i ask him to..

Only myself knows how I actually feel deep down..How should I decribe myself? I am kinda secretive, I dont like to snatch things from anyone, I am weird=) Plus when I'm hurt I will still pretend tht I fine, tht's me..So noone will really understand how I feel about everything..I am very observative..I like to proble out all the changes around me..But I will only keep to myself=) I dun even share wit Pei Ee or Liyana=).. I am vulnerable but I had cultivated another fact for others, so they wont believe it=) I hav a sacreful friends.. People chose to loathe me more..but doesnt mean those who hangs around wit me are my friends=) People changes=) I hab alr found some so I'm content=)

Simply I hates, but I jus dont whim it out=)..Cos I will only choose to whim more & it will only show the ugly side of me=)

I miss him=)Though is time to knock off..I still miss him=)

Only fool like me will speak wit no actions..Only fool like me wont wan to continue/start another chapter of life..Only fool like me will choose to love..& remember to think about wht actually happened to us for the past few months..
Well we broke up 1 month, 1 week & 1 day..=)But it's hurt alot when I think of him still...I hate it..I hate it..but I still need to accept it=)

Monday, July 16, 2007

Corner with love

Hmm..been enjoying & thinkin alot..Well enjoying wat? & thinkin about wat?

Enjoyin life=)
Thinking about him & situation=)

I asked him a silly question ytd..I gotten a very disappointed answer=) But is okie, I not goin to think about it, no more..Let fate & God choose it..I'm kinda tired about the arrangement they planned for me. Tired of losin someone so dearly..=) I'm tryin very hard not to think about him. I think friends is a better choice now for u & me.

Corner with love=) very meaningful song, it's like urgin me to sing out loud to him
Too bad is a chinese song, you cant understand but i trying my best to translate it to you,ya=)

I will pretend to move on alone, love is waiting for me.
You left ur dearly smile & move on, & it keeps me alive=)
I will move on strongly & I wont be fearful anything in front.
I always wanted to tell you this, Happiness wont slipped off easily & you will find happiness in the next chapter of your life

Shine
Whehter to find the beautiful of love by meeting who in Corner with love
Whether I will be meetin/be with you again at Corner wit love
At the next corner of love, i hope you find only laugher,no tears
Maybe from strangers to understanding, I might belong to you
I dont wan to disppoint love & you. So from now till future,you are my only beautiful

Love
Sandral

This is a very lousy translation!!=( But it come from my heart

Well,
Fri..
Went singing wit Elieen.& brought Ms Boon back to my house to sleep.We went up to Liyana house but Oreth's family are fast asleep=) Then we went to eat prata at mitnight=) & walked home.Then we knocked out at about 4.30am=)

Sat..
& woke up about 11 ..Pei Ee told me, I actually hit her face while I was sleepin=)Went to Vivo wit Boon & SBP..Unable to watch a single movie on tht day!! Almost tear down all the cinema & DARREN!! This idiot told me "STILL HAB SEAT AVAILABLE FOR MY WIFE IS A GANGSTER 3 AT 7.15 IN CINE!!" WE 3 ARSE rushed down by CABBIE!!

BTW..I WAS CARRYIN A KUKU BACKPACK SO IT'S MAKES ME LOOK LIKE A KUKU!! Saw Shine in Lido..We did texted, he said he misses me everyday(though i am overjoyed) but i guessed in order not to hab anymore fancy ideas for him.. I will tell myself this "Maybe he cant forget some pretty woman he met before so he thinks he miss/ even loved&like me before=)"..Nice thought rite=)

We went to East coast to cycle=) ..10 of us cycled from East Coast to Changi Village..heehee=) AS AUSUAL OUR BUTT IS THE MOST INNOCENT VICTIM=(

Sun..
Got back home at around 10 in the morning...Bathe & had our breakfast..Then Pei ee headed BACK home=)..i send a testi. to Liyana, Pei ee, SBP & Blink Blink=) wanted to send one to him, but =).So i hab been sleepin like a dead log all day long..

Till this mornin, he woke mi up=) But as asual he wont reply my onli msg of the day=) wht to do=)

Liyana will be readin this so =)

Friday, July 13, 2007

Relaxzzzz!!

YoYoYo..I'm havin evening/weekends maddness now!!!..WHY? I dont really know the actual answer. I'm listenin to "ONE SWEET DAY"..I really feel like singin to you,Shine=)..sounded navie..In fact i feel like singing now!!...

Oh let me do a recap first..
Tuesday, evening..ALMOST VOMITTED DURING DINNER...cos NIGGA made me to!!..OMG..he kept on sayin "I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU".. OMG, as though it's free!! (it is free)hahaha*lame* Of cos i debated with him, showed him my true colour!!=)
Talkin abt L.O.V.E ..i onli mentioned it to a couple of people like... ... ...=)

Wednesday, Work 8am to 6pm. Work aftermath I went to SBP house..Bored*

Thursday(YTD), WOW!!Display of feelings!! My sister(stupid no.2) brought me anger & ANGER...My phone got terminated cos she can afford to pay her own bill!! $700 la..WELL DONE..ASK STUPID NO.1 TO PAY FOR HER, SEE HOW LONG SHE CAN ACTUALLY SUPPORT HER=) NVM, I change to a temp new no. alr=)..not sure how long i'll be in Sg too=) I'm praying for the best cos I know GOD will not bear to see me suffers=)

Evening, met my grandma & went back to CWP to meet Pei Ee & SBP.. I did a funny action. SHOUTED IN the foodcourt..COS SBP dun wan to pass me the phone!! IDIOT!! OH..I actually played the "shut up" game=) so sweet rite!!=) OMG..8.40PM MY HARRY POTTER!! we are late by a few minutes=)..I hab to make a confession tht I AM CLUSMY. I asked SBP "PEE & WATER LESS WATER!! COS THE MOVIE IS 2 HOURS & A HALF" BUT I finished drinkin the green tea..!!& need to rush to the loo!! IDIOTIC B.I.T.C.H=)

Harry Potter & the order of phoniex=)
I watched EVERY MOVIE w/o fail!! I DYIN TO WATCH THE NEXT MOVIE OF POTTER!!=) I love him=) *p.s i think a cute guy was sittin nearby me durin the movie=)*

Talkin abt Guy..Was chattin wit Zherui alot nowadays..We really click & he is a EMO dude=)=x heehee Then i concluded something as it is PROVEN!!

* GIRLS will always remember those simple & little sweet things BUT GUYS will never do tht!!..

Today, IS FIRDAY, the 13.. chatted wit Shine..my only BABY BOY IN THE WORLD..I asked him whether he miss me. His answer is a little but i doubt cos he jus wan to console me i guessed=) Then i said, Well i dun hab to tell you abt myself then cos it doesnt really matter to you cos you wont feel anything too. He answered, you can still say.. I replied "i dunno". But i really miss him alot though i dun wan to say it out to him..I still love him alot probably many external factor will help mi to distract his shadow for a couple of days..But I jolly well know I'll still end up Missin him..

I'm nth to him now.*Listenin to "DONT FORGET ABT US".
M.C sang..There is only one ME & YOU & how we used to shine..You will always be in my heart...Silly me...

I hab to admit tht i'm actually very vulnerable is jus tht I never like to be seen tht way=) Is okie=)

Pei ee is stayin in my house tonight=) Sweet.. I love you still alot..I will change my song to "DONT FORGET ABOUT US by M.C" first=)

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

A Dream or In Dream

Hmm..kinda enjoyed myself for the past few days!!Especially ytd?=)

Thur & Fri!!
I guessed nothing special..I really hope tht conversation wit him did not exist=(..What's done is done..Pray for the best=)

BTW..I chatted wit PRINSTEN!!Talked about Baby Boy & me..I suddenly lost my mind then I confessed to him i once fancied him!! He was kinda suprised but he said he still wan to hang out wit me to catch up ONE SWEET DAY=)

Sat..
Happy & touchin day=)..my cousin got married to a good & rich man. She is wit him for 4 long years..plus they went to Paris before..SO SWEET right..I was holdin on to my tears, sounded silly is it? For tht moment, i really feel like gettin married!!

Ling Lee(2005 MSU contestant currently is a mediacorp actress) is her MC cum Bridemaid..OMG..I MUST CONFESSED THT IS SHE PRETTY & NICE TO PEOPLE..While i was chattin wit her outside the ballroom..Felicia Chin was walkin towards us..She is tall & pretty too=) but she went to the ballroom next us..SAF Celebration..OH OH OH..i was at Mandrain Hotel...

We had our Family Photo taken=) Big 'Chin' family=) Dont PLAY PLAY!!
FREAKIN GOOD RED WINE!!But my stupid no.2 sister dunno how to appreciate it..she vomit the wine on the table..how disgraceful!!

I was kinda drunk tht day too!! Drunk really too much..but is for the happiness=)

Sun..
All of them went to AH MA'S HOUSE at noon..Was chattin wit YONG AN..SUDDENLY A 'WE' word!! I went out for a movie wit him..didnt really regret cos the great is a freat laugher movie..

My wife is a gangster 3 ..IS A JOKE LA!!..freakin funny TRANSLATORS!! Yong An & me LOVE LOVE LOVE it !!..WORTH WATCHIN!! SO GRAB YOUR TICKETS IN CATHAY NOW=)
We went to MS to eat DUCK RICE...A BRAINWAVE of DARON Quek story's P.O.P to my head=)

Mon=)..IS A HAPPINESS!
i woke up early..@ 9 AM not for work purposes..=)
GUESS?
I MET PEI EE..omg..!!I miss her like mad..no matter wht her appearance become!! i still will love her forever=) This is True Love.!! We did something but it still seem too little to mi..I miss her like mad..I hope GOD would extented the 4pm to 10pm..=)..But i'm contented..I need to record everything down to make sure i wont forget

9 JULY 07
met her outside Boots & Shoes at 10.50..Then we head down to CityHall to enjoy DTF.. We Q up for the Donut House!! However the service is so SLOW though we are at the first 20!! But we decided to giv up & 12.45PM we marched away!! ABIT ABIT REGRETFUL!! BUT IS OKIE!!..I NOT MEANT TO Q up for nonsense!!=x I not very expressive but our actions & movements while we were eatin DTF..i so happy she still remembers the very little thing of me=)

Then i meet Sharon to pass her something..& i helped her to painted shoe again !!
SBP NEXT TIME U MUST PAY ME SERVICE CHARGE!! IF NOT I DUN FRIEND U ALR!! CHEWED DURIANS IN HER HOUSE, COOL RITE=)

Tuesday..Now..Funny day..
Zherui(from friendster) showed in a BABY ALLY whatever video!!Freakin cute !! We chats alot but kinda sad cos we might never meet cos he is goin to US to study very soon=) I find he a understandable guy..maybe cos we click=)..All the Best dudezz!!

My heart & mind is still full of him=) i mean Baby boy..
oH..CHATTED WIT LIYANA TOO!!=)

My song is Never had a dream come true..? WELL i dreamt about him ytd..the lyrics jus pop into my head..

YOU ALWAYS BE THE DREAM THT CONFUSED MY HEAD..Enjoy it..i'll blog tml again=)

BTW i goin to meet my friend now=)He is dyin to see mi=)
Coco is leavin soon back to France to study..i will miss you allrite=)
Lasty I really miss you alot alot still but i know it'll not change anything..

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Is not another day like you think..=)

KONICHIIWA..brightens my day alot today=)..no sacrafice no gain..hmmm..i am so happy today, in fact now i am still..

Firstly, i longed to see her come back..but it seem not impt to you but she is impt to me..'SHORT & NICE TRIP BACK'..my one & only friend=x...Few months ago, i still remember i fell my first tear in front of the public. I hate her for turnin me so EMO..i cursed her to be my best friend forever=) Before she called in the morning, i cried while i was bathin.. I dont wan to meet her wit others not cos i am selfish, cos i hab alot to tell her..plus we will be pretty EMO i guess=) MR NICE, HUNKIE & ASH they cant stand me..hmm..especially MR NICE..he asked me for soup ytd i was over-whelmed abt her return=)

Secondly, 5 DAYS I HAVEN BEEN SEEIN HIM..i miss him too..i stopped tellin him mushy mushy stuff cos he probably not interested anymore=).. Read his horoscopes & it says that he probably needs more time to realise my importance in his life..I really hopes time will help but not worsen it..=) I'M REALLY WORK HARD & PRAYIN HARD...i told him i wan to see him as a more capable man..

I still like you alot SIR SHINE SAMUAEL=) (thriple S) aka Baby Boy=)

Thirdly,more suitors are comin back..i seriously think they are blind to like me..plus i told them is kinda impossible already!! They are still so determined..
Especially my ex...he jus realised my importance now..Boy, is kinda late..I in love wit Triple S so ya'..So i really hope they'll move on!!..

If Baby Boy tells me he no longer interested in me..i probably hab to giv up=( I think some ppl are hopin him to break my heart..but i do hab faith in him=) Afterall, I'm not so bad so no reason he should dumped me=)

Well, Sat is a big day..my cousin(zhu jie jie) finally wan to settle down..With lots of loves..


Lasty, a lengthy recap=)
Fri!!
Liyana, have one a friend tht day!! but luckily tht i din disappoint her..she knows i would..Bestie=)

Sat!
I so happy in the morning=) Then afternoon chilled with 2 hunkies..THREESOME..YUP!! We watched TRANSFORMERS =) half-way through the movie i was crying=) Kiat knows why!! Then he left us to walk around..But soon after he left, Shah needs to go off too..(ended up meeting dream girl) so sweet rite!!

Sun!
Was chattin wit a liberal girl from NYC..wowowowow..I cant tell how liberal she & her guy is!! She is in SG for 4 more weeks' doin some filmings=) Then I gotten back a long lost friend..He is becomin a pilot soon=) congrats, Ass!!

Ass told me he likes me i was kinda shocked!!he is a good catch but i told him the same thing=)

Mon!
Brought Ya ting to work!She is abit pesky cos she kept on askin me to cook!! Well..kinda nelgected Eileen abit=( Sorry Girl!! plus I'm finishin my NEWSLETTER!! Hope it'll be a success=)

Baby boy was sick..din wan to disturb him=(

Tues!
I suddenly rmb some hypocrites still surroundin me=) Hmm..nvm i'll jus close an eyes..Been thinkin the success of life still..COMON which idiot in my age will think something like tht..is so chimilogic(self-creation)=)

Chatted wit PRINSTEN abt Harry Potter..is so ridiculous tht we couldnt remember we watched H.P. & the goblet of fire!!Kinda sad

Received some nasty comments abt J.R(writer) but i still appreciates her to be so imginative..unlike some others will only dream abt some useless stuffs..Her fiction thingy is makin big bucks,dudes!
BTW HARRY POTTER is coming out 12 july!!searchin for someone to watch it wit me still!! ASAP!!=)

Received some good comments for myself too..=)

Cooked soup for ppl!!

Wed!!(today)
Hmm..i need to consult a doctor regardin my weight reduce thingy..kinda serious..BTW I'M NOT SO PREUILE TO BE ON DIET..

Chatted wit Hunkie, i found him pretty similar like me..even we chatted abt music,sport,ambition & wish..

Saw SBP's blog, i'm happy to see her & friend back together=)
Was surfin the net & readin news..Saw Hilton speechin for 4th july event,she said "dont drink & drive" makes me lol=)
Then Italy designed a beach "ONLY FOR LADY!!" wht am i supposed to do when i go there=x...
Singapore gettin abit hectic now too..Killin spouses!! Fantastic man!!

I'm a NEWS FREAK nowaday..Kinda Lazy today, this week!!..pretty slack!! I'll hab to find be 'HARDWORKIN' next week!!

Hope to see him today if not *sigh*
I'll hab to bid here..lots of love=)

FTY
I might change my song tml=)