Maudlin Entry

Time is so drudery today, the pesky CLOCK moving damn slow right at my sight!! Well this week is a moodless week=)

Monday is Monday blue day
Tuesday is a clubbing day
Wednesday is a lazy day
Thursday is a holiday
Firday is a self off day
Sat & Sunday is a given holiday

So can you tell the disparates of the day above?
NO!! cos is a slack week !@%$*^&^

Last thursday and firday nth special=) WORK and home..
Saturday bought a GUESS wallet..=p
Sunday K-ing and shoppin with F.O.C
Mon, ytd met my honey boy..he said to mi now he cant without me=) I'm touched..
Love is jus so crazy!!

Well, while we were eating dinny in KFC..i asked him are u still plannin to work in SIA after ur bond? He replied, no he will either work in middle east or europe. Then i asked "then wht about mi if we are still together?" He said "of cos leave together"

But i never wan to leave this country..my friends and everything are/will be here..Nvm i dun wan to get brood over such thing first i'm still young=)

Was quite bored F.O.C is sick & pei ee can only online for awhile. then i saw liyana online..
Ytd i wrote a testimonial to Liyana and then a song jus flashed into my brain. A great song then i tried to forget but cant.. was a crazy one durin the first season of Singapore Idol. A song i will recognise the faces i missed by this song.

Alot of emotion runnin in me and jus now i chatted wit Liyana then i suddenly remember tht jo& tag in her blog and i asked her "are you still contactin joanne?" She said they exchange no. for school purposes..hmm..I'm kinda shocked not cos of they will be close in future or wht so ever
But the way she replied me thought tht i mind about it..hmm..i grown to be altruistic and i let out my ternerity to bless my friend. We all hab to agree that every stages of our life we change..but i remember and keep the one i known in my heart. Also i try to giv them the impression tht we are not drifted..

The song is a song i sang it in class to you before,Liyana, can u remember?

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowin you can always count on me,For sure
That wht friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That wht friends are for

While i typing the 6 short sentences my tears fall onto my cheek and i din regret it=)

For those who still dunno wht the song is or trying to recall, jus click the URL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhaF34Pyt9w&mode=related&search=

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Before i forget to acknowledge you, here i jus wanna say "THIS ENTRY IS FOR YOU"
and i appreciates Hui Shan and you for being there in my darkness moment.Thanks for knowin me so much and i never regret knowin you=)

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH if i had nv tell you this=)

And MS JAPAN won 2007 MISS UNIVERSE=)

Laconic Post

Omg Omg..pls dun miss Bridge to Terabithi this movie, it might be abit drudgery at first however the half-time was good..*p.s i sheared cos i can feel them in reality

I've jus decided to abstemious but not LOSE WEIGHT!! cos I've been taking varacious dinny!! It is kinda of hard so i implore those food to LEAVE ME alone

Well working in a office is vicissitudes for me..cos it really makes mi crave for SLEEP!!
So for the whole day today i hab been idling & surfing net!!

I was looking at all the
BILLIONAIRES & MILLIONAIRES
in the World & Local respectivetly=)

Recently I did a small investment=) Dun ask much!!Hopefully it works!!hehe

Hmm..did I miss out anything I wanna say? Let mi do a recap!

Tues: Went to the library & Liyana's house

Wed :Sharon(FOC) or Baby Boy

Thur: Angry wit BB..

Fir: OH...I CELEBRATED BABY BOY birthday..stayed up till Sat morning

Sat: CHIN JUN LONG BURSTDAY!! I <3>

Sun: At home slackin!!

Mon: I was in repose cos MONDAY BLUE and starting to read MY PALS BLOG!!

tues: Nag my peiee "PLS UPDATE UR BLOG" and met BABY BOY for Next

today: Had a 2 hours meeting!! crackin my brain to think of a design for the Company newsletter..& F.O,C aint free for me cos she is out wit LESY*hais*

And alot of upgrading and disturbance will be happenin in my blog allrite!! But i willdo it fast=)

Oh YA, I MISSED OUT some EXCLUSIVE NEWS!!

First I very very very proud of myself cos I left wit 26 Chapters out of 46 Chapter for my Barron Book=)

Secondly PEIEE IS COMING BACK!!

Thirdly Though I did my English but not started on MATHS=(

Forthy Great Sg Sale starting on FRIDAY!!

Fifthy Baby & I planned to go on a trip during July

Lasty I goin to chat wit HER now!!and she will read my blog!

SEE YA=)

Extant Strife

I'm so sorry cos I'm so late! I shall not post a lengthy report on why i was so harsh in my last blog on Tuesday

I quarrelled with them Again

They are very pesky sometimes and make mi to be very nasty with them

And there it goes a profligate day=)

I'm not ready to make nice..

Hais..My feeling now is unspoken..i'm feel like an angry old nag..i hate it..i hate it 10 times..Why?

This song is a good song to express myself..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwc5YSAc-7g&mode=related&search=
'FORGIVE SOUNDS GOOD,FORGET I'M NOT SURE I COULD'
'I SERIOUSLY DUN HAB TIME TO GO ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND'

Why will someone supposed to be close to me but so far to me?
Why will someone i appreciates never appreciates me?WHY!WHY! WHY!
i fcuked my life i hate it i hate it!!seriously i wan nth now!!

Sat was so fun..with pals..Sun was happy wit them!!.Fuck was i happy i feelin dubious now!!..

I apologised for my speech..but it is spinning in my head!

I not in a right state to blog..maybe tml after a good cry?
Why CRY? Everytime i quarrelled wit them i'll win without satisfaction..but crys in my dark room wit pride..

Histrionics changes

HOHOHO..hard to see me posting a blog on firday..Hmmm...tuesday & wed are 2 lackluster days..hmmm..Recently i in love wit a song by D.K - Ride For Ya..wowowowo~~~~~woooo~~
Hmmm...jus scrutintze on the lyrics and beats=)..

I feel so weak and my brain is full of him when i heard it..I was thinking if the love tht used to besiege me are gone,what, how i supposed to do? When i singin this song, i hab to admit it thwart my ego..The song is reverberating inside me..Go try listen to it;it worth..hmmm...Danity Kane - Ride for you =)

Ytd, F.O.C (SHARON) & me went to Supercut to cut our hair..hmm..i'm further layer my hair.. =) Next round i going to cut short..I stickin to this designer(hairstylist)..She's good..F.O.C. kinda tranqull i should say...While we are eating our dinner,She called..well, i almost cry wit her..I miss her i feel her saddness..everything..She the person i misses/cry so much for..The love and bond is too much..I hate to see her gettin hurt..Harm her again i'll kill you...I was so mean to curse tiff and bf to break cos this will teaches her a lesson tht relationship can NEVER compared to Kinship & Friendship...

Today,Work but meetin him so he spark my life=) I love him..might be watch a mitnight movie in CWP...=)

Tml ..SENTOSA AGAIN=)

Asset Lesson

Hmm..HI welcome to the second part of my blogging..

Sat..5 May 07

Woke up at 12 plus lunch wit F.O.C and Jun Long..F.O.C was ill..hmm..but Nitey Programme still carried on=)...Evening..Baby was studying wit mistress(JAMES) in library..I was preparing the Steamboat..Soon Guan, Pei Hao and F.O.C said delicious ..I know!heehee..Wht a small world, SG met his Primary Sch besite in my house..My sister's bf !!

Hmmm..Clubbed in St James...tour in St James..then process back to Powerhouse to Dance & dance..nth exciting..but jus tht we went home..

Sun..6 May 07

At home for the whole damn day..Feelin abit Empty...Baby Boy studyin wit Mistress again in Mistress House..OMG!!heehee..Was at home till the vaxatious F.O.C wants to see me.. We went to Admiralty Park to chat though she is sick..

Monday...Ytd..7 May 07

Work..then to library and walk around and home=)

This is my summary abt tht friendship..

"The drudery friendship makes me feel so acrimonious and i started to be perceive of alot more things..Being perverse is not the way to quell this...I dubious abt this friendship.. I implored GOD for an answer..and i think he replied me..
We are cognizant abt the stuation ; i do even u dont..so what did you comment?
It can only construe you aint interested..if you're goin to read this, is actually premonition tht you either treat this as nothing or you'll express it as you are not at fault..is okie,who likes to be thwart rite?
Is jus a pretext to cajole myself ; let mi be the sinister then you are bound to earn condolence then..
The promulgate of the conflict is surfacin clearly in front of us and became rampant..I cant duress the rest to listen and be convinced by my story..But still hab some confidants who still makes me not seen as a fiasco=)"- Sandral Owin=)

Hmmm..cried when i reach home, luckily Baby Boy is online to comfort me..Enought to stable my emotions..i glad he was there wit me and now=) hmm..Chatted wit my 4 confidants..they are different but alike=) i love them alot..

Today..8 May 07

Work and blogged 2 long piece of essay today..goin out to dine wit a friend later..miss my boy still should be meetin him..will be revisin my studies in the office after publishin this=)

Thanks for wastin ur time wit mi..

Delinquent Journal

I been thinkin how to start today entry! Start from firday or now..Hmm..not last firday=) is the Last firday of April=)..My friend especially tht nagger is forcin me to write something now! Okie Okie i shall write the overdue one first.

Sat..28/4/07

When back home about 1 plus after our drinking and Buk Kut Teh session=) Not so bad..all of us were quite voluble especially Cai Yu after the drinkz=)..Hopefully there a next round,ya'? Wow..F.O.C improved in her drinking skill, is laudable!

Oh..Remembered..Sat afternoon was replete wit sweat=). F.O.C and me, we both woke up late..but still managed to rush there for the beautiful hot sun.Hmm..her mum and aunt are waiting for us, she is reprehensible for our lateness!!=x

*AHEM* anyway volleyball is the main purpose tht motives mi to go to Sentosa..hehe..Siloso Beach is my hideout soon goin to be Cafe de mar..that is a freakin glomourous place, the beautiful pool =) and people there are nice like mad..After a day of volley training, is impressive tht both of us improved..WELL DONE, OWIN=)

For our dinny, we hab stingray(F.O.C. fav)..hmmm..not bad!! Then musical foundain is the finale of the day..remmeber to watch it if feasible when u spendin ur day there=). Lastly we all hab to revert to our island..heehee BY CABLE CAR!! F.O.C was completely straight inside..WAHAHA!!

Sun..29/04/07

As usual went out wit my honey boy=)

Mon..30/04/07

My whole mind was excited abt SPIDERYMAN!! PETER PARK=) WEE..met my Spidyboy after his gym=)

Tuesday..1 May 07

Out wit Honey boy, F.O.C and Ronnie!! 3 of us were late cos of F.O.C again..she is never goin to change but is okie cos is uique,ya' ? So dun change!!Stay the same!!..Nice movie..and we processed to shoppin in pair then meet up for dinny in Fish & Co. ..

Dinny aftermath, Sharon urged to leave,follow by Ronnie..THEN left my baby boy and me for our own sweet time=)

Wed..2 May 07

Back achin in the morning so missed work..Met Chirstiane for the first time ( i was late) =)..Nice girl..We hab alot on common..so the day is like interminable for us..Eat,Drink AND walk..She haben not been to Orchard for a long time..Btw she's not a local..we met BabyBoy.,he was catchin Spidery again wit colleages this time.Wasted of money!

I brought Christiane to Clark Quay by foot=). Look around;being looked too..Then clubbed in Phunk Bar for awhile chatted wit Lousie(BOSS there). Hmm...alot of malay..Christiane was eyein at a malay boy but ya nth happened=)..We took the second last train home..and i alighted at Khatib for the last train..cos MY BOY is in there=)

Thursday...3 May 07

Jus Work..nth special..and study..

Friday..4 May 07

Hmm..I really cant remembered cos it was an Amicable day=)

Catch Up wit my next blog..after you finished this=)..I appreciates it=)

Interminable Hood

Heehee..Sorry i did not blog ytd cos ytd was lackluster; didnit contact wit pei ee etc. Ytd after i knock off from work, went straight to the library and study wit F.O.S.=)

Wondering who the hell is F.O.S. rite? Hmm,nevertheless she is SHARON CHEONG!!
What F.O.S. means? It means Fatty Oily Sharon=)
I bet that she loves it!!Cos i even composed a song chorus for her ytd..

F.O.S. chorus:

"S.O.S. please someone help me. It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
F.O.S. is makin this hard, I can't take it, see it dont feel right
S.O.S. please someone help me It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
F.O.S. are makin this hard You got me tossin and turnin and cant sleep at night"

Then i met my baby boy..chit chat abit.I walk home wit him heehee..cos he needs to go home to study.

Today..

I was clearin my mailbox in friendster i discovered a mail by a pal 2 years ago...is a quiz abt me..i find it very funny when they described about me..looks like i've changed..So i resend it to some of my close friends to do..If they happens to recieve it..i hoped tht they will keep some copy of tht which is done by me or friends.Then 2 years later,look at it again..You will feel wht i felt..heehee..

Stuying in the office now;cos i not goin to the library.WHY? Cos i goin to chill later!Pubbing..hmm..cos i cant stayed at home..

Missing him...long weekends..Lookin forward to TUESDAY cos SPIDY 3 is comin to town!!

Disarmament Words

Hmm..see i actually forget to blog yesterday...Actually my ytd was dull, i'm absent from work cos i lazy to wake up! So i was slacking at home for the whole long day. Wht did i actually do? I watched TV,chatted On-line and sleep.Time passed slow, almost got die from boredom. Nowaday i'm into CountryMusic, there's 2 two i want to recommend. First is Jesus, take the wheel by one of the Amercian Idol Winner,Carrie Underwood and Not ready to make nice by Dexis Chicks. Their lyrics are amazing.

So what have i done for today? What am i doing now? What i going to do later?

I woke up at 6 plus in the morning then i wake my Baby Boy up. When i saw my sisters brushing their teeths in the toilet, i was surpised. Not cos they hab not been brushing their teeths but they finally go to school.=) So i actually said : "THE DRAGONS ARE BACK!",i dont know why i said tht but i managed to make them smile..So a great start in the morning..

Sms-in with my Boy has becomin a habit/hobby for me.I dont whether he likes it anot but i seriously hope tht i'm not disturbing him/ his studies. He recently kept this mistress, who is very close wit him.They studying together but nvm for his studies i'll forgive him.=)
Jane (Bossy) gave mi some work to do but i still so free now. Chatted with some friends/dudes jus to kill time. In fact, i'm chatting wit Wee Tiong now and recently i am also a part-time promoter for an ex-classmate (Fatty *wink wink we know who is it).

Now i actually wondering who actually viewed my blog faithfully for good or bad purpose. Anyway i'm fine with it, If i a person who is loved by others there'll be people who hates me, so why bothers jus carry on wit our stuffs.=)

I going to FATTY later, she'll be going through some Math Questions with me. We hab alot to catch up!
Anyway, i missing you my boy!

Rampant Events

I hab a bad habit tht is "too busy to blog in weekends", is it good or bad? Up to you to judge it..I jus wan to use my weekends to the fullest!!=p

Thurs..19/04/07

Wht a day!I missed work cos i was too lazy to go..Fatty(SHARON) and me went to Phunk Bar to drink and St James to dance..DQ(me) was extremely on cloud nine, eventually an icon.Was feelin kinda down but after i talked to my babyboy..We are back to our haloyon now=)

Friday..20/04/07

Woke up for work and my mind is full of his images..Work was lackluster but was corroporated by Baby Boy..Biggest blood loser=) some relevent people will be able to understand it!!
*Ahem*

Anyway, he went out wit colleages AKA friends.. so overall i was bored..

Saturday..21/04/07

Went out wit Fatty(Sharon Cheong Xuan'er) *She loves people to call her this=) Am i rite to say tht, Fatty?heehee..Watched a very puerile movie and i think all of you are privy to know tht freaking movie, please avoid watchin it...Nightmare Detective..The one who suggested to watch this movie actually dozed off in the cinema..Fatty Bitch!!=p..Japanese horror movie!!what to do..

Then we walked to Esplanade to slack & chit chat..Sg is bored, but let's be upbeat and live well..


Speaking of Life, Virginia Tech accident was a tragey. Well i pity the innocence lives' who was slain..But i concerned more about why Cho's was so negative about life..Look at the big side, I had learnt about "People are only concerned about the conclusion not processes". Is excatly the wrong way to look at things/situations.Human feelings are whimsical and fragile, I could feel his fury when he was being deride. But i could not figure out why or rather how people could actually compressed and compile such anger. I cant and never will i, feasibility first i am voluble so i hab no major problems on communicating.None of us here enjoy being disparage,like him but he chose to quill it in an armed rebellious cos in this game he is wielding and he is prepared to lose everything. It's laudable for his act meanwhile he is a fiaso to Felu De Se and did not reticent his thoughts to the world.

Sunday..22/04/07

Was very angry wit my Babyboy..He woke up late and almost spoiled our date..(one & only date wit him) acted very belligerent toward him..but end up i forgive him wit my pals help..was comfortin Peiee wit Sharon..I know she do need alot of encouragements but i wish tht she can really be more independent on her emotion..She'll be fine..she strong enough,furthermore she is growing stronger,rite Peiee?

So i went out wit my Sexy Baby Boy..I love him but he is shy to declare..hmm..but he'll wishper to mi secretly..heehee..sweet thing...We watched 200 pounds beauty,is worth watching..pls dun miss it especially wit ur love one..

Monday..is today..23/04/07

Working and studying now..bossy not here yet..will be studyin wit Baby Boy later ..I missin him now=p

Silly Short love story

I remember the day i met him in club..He is cute he is hard to resists..But i made a mistake to flirt around.i sux..but i love him..for days i really start to love him i really did..but i kept this from him..i sorry..

"I thought you would keep mi a chance but i wont blame you for comtemptin mi cos of this mistake..But i wan you to know if you can ever forgive but not forget mi..giv mi a call or sms mi..my heart will still be wit you...Baby"..You seriously is the best joy god gave me so far..I love you thousands time..

Now i going home to let out and go chillin myself/wit sharon...

Quell?

Well now i gonna to wrote a short and sweet entry. My blog is quite sellable today,thanks for the support people..Very important new "LIYANA GOT INTO NAFA"...
I quarrelled wit my mum today...etc..definitely makes me abit saddening but i always hab my BabyBoy to count on!!
Then went to work,wrote the previous blog;Up and down- Time flies..Studied wit my Baby in the library but still like time is still not enough for us...
For Sha, i didnt expect you to say tht to her..But well done!!
For Pei ee,I tried so lazy to call you..maybe tml..=)
For Ya ting,thanks for calling mi..out of the 4 you are the onli one who called mi for good..
For Liyana, Once again u are reminded,we(you and me) are going out..CLEAR!!
For Yit Kiat,Jia you jia you...
For Baby boy..so sweet still..Love you *muacks

Tml i will update my blog..nite!

Vague life

I know i know is monday today..forgive me, i getting older..i can forget abt my username..hmm..i guessed it also can be a reason why i blogging cos i need to write down alot of things before i start to forget them.Seriously i forgotten some stuffs like how my friends look like now..except Sha(Fatty),Joyce,Pei Ee(i still take out the picture),Baby boy(Shine).Anyway i wont hav much friends left now.Anyway let me first recap what i did for the past 4 days;the story will continue from there.

Thur..12/4/07
Upbeat me

Sha & me went to Clinic on Wed night.I not a kiddo;so underage party is not my cup of tea..We drank a few cups..Wow,she improved in drinkin but i'm still better.My babyboy was so damn worried (caring) for me,i can drink!!So SIP(sleep in peace)..We processed to St James.nth special,but the DJ hab to been improving..blending of music SUX?hmm..alot of ugly duckling trying to hook me..i was dancing on the stage with some unknow people who knows how to dance.6 - 8 of some (friends) came up to surround mi in a circle and wan to dance wit me..i slapped their hands and went to the floor..One of their friend came to us me,why i only dance wit indian and malay

Guys who are interested to hook me in club..give up..cos i'm hooked by Babyboy..He can dance well,cute,better lookin compared to the Chinese guys.

Guys who are interested to dance wit mi in club,if you're jus gonna find satisfaction,leave me alone.I dance cos i dance well and i simply love to..

But at last,i was dancing wit a Malay guy who really enjoy dancin jus like me..People apt look at us...i like the way they looked at us cos form their eyes they told mi they love how the way we danced.Comment me wit innuendo cos i used to girls being envious;eventually jealous of me..

I guessed they enjoyed the gathering without me ytd=) cos there is still someone there to pretend /act as me.

Fir..13/12
Avid me

Working as usual..but hectic work..

Work aftermath i went to Novena Square to wait wit Mr Shine;meanwhile i was studying.He is gyminbut not focused,you wan to know why i know?Cos i'm his distractor..so i told he...dun pester me until 9pm(the time he usually come out from the gym).But while i was walkin to the toilet (about 8pm) i saw this sweet little thing in NB shop.High tide so i went to the toilet first cos when i came out he told mi "you asked mi not to disturb you till 9 pm so i thought of walkin around first."
Omg i was touched by his stupid but sweet behavior.He's intoxicating me.Then dinner time, took the train and walk me home!=)

Sat..14/12
Belligerent me

Sha and i were so ethu wit words today...so we went to the LIBRARY in orchard..My babyboy went to play tennis wit his classmates.Well,something happened between Kris and her;partly cos of me but i not feeling guitly at all.Why should i ?But she feel me as first class enemy;jus like the rest of the childish girl does.

If there is someone who is willing to translate this message to her,i'll appreciate the person. :
"I think you are only puerile to hate me cos i never want to 'do the many bad things you think i did to you'.Jus cos i accidently told Ter about the testi. from the guy from club,both of you cant patch.Seriously your attitude and the way you managed your relationship regardless on love or friends is wrong,let alone ur life.He left cos of you,cos he cant stand the way you are.You have all the rights to hate me more(from the moment you know abt this message) but stop going around tell people i'm the destroyer between you and Ter or Sha.They like me cos i sensible,if someone disagree come straight to me wit evidences and tell me.But i show my witness,trust me i outbeat you in character-wise.Even now i dont treat you as my enemy,not at all.Like i always say "i not going to hate any one &feel miserable.Let it be..by all means."'

FYI
My relationship wit Yating,Sengleng,Shuyi,Meizhi are wrecked now.I'm tired of their hobo mindset.My heart for friendship is not a hotel.Shuyi told me is a misunderstanding,is she able to tell me wht kind of misunderstanding we all hab.She cant;or think she tht i smart enough to sensed/know what's going on.What i know is,they assumed i busy wit work so not asking mi out..Well,blame on myself..But dont loathe the people around mi too,they're kind too.

Back to Kris,
"i telling you so much here not cos i wan to prove to you i'm sophisticated or i've won etc.But i wan you to realise nature will not stay/change for you;you change better/worse for the nature..i might be the one who influenced Sha but i not the one who change her.She chosed her life,i told her you dun hab to defend for me jus stick to your heart.All the "bestfriend" thing are bullshit..when u can click wit tht person you jus can,when you cant no matter how you tried is not going to change..Holding on the other's life is saragey.If you cared about your assuming "bestie",Listen to her heart..Go listen to Beyonce 'LISTEN';Dreamgirl soundtrack.She sang out wht she wan to say to you.I never tried to snatch her away from you."Now,for myself,you hurted me when you said i your enemy is like throb."

To the person who is going to translate this to her,
If you dont know/(loathed) me cos you dont know why either.."You jus dont know how complexity the situation is"
If you happens to know me well and you are not helping at all.."You are jus a life typical piece of SHIT"=)

Ytd..Sun..15/4
(is there any word like "Simplistic")me=)

Out wit my Babyboy,i'm so proud of him cos he using the chopsticks in the correct way..Brench
in Ding Tai Feng(DTF)..the fun and joy is there wit him.We watched 'Wild Hog' together,laughted like hell...He is innocuous to me but i the oppsite to him..heehee..I feel like this relationship looks like marriage than a couple..he is as sweet as sugar..most of the sweet people/things start wit S.For eg,"Sandral"..heehee.We studied in the MACdy together..

I showed & told him i hab a lucky star which shines and give mi my luck and life..
He replied mi "Lesbian Star,he say if tht star is not goin to shine you.You hab me too."
Love you Silly Baby boy

Innocuous Owin

It is a brainstorm tht i wanting to feel why people love to blog. Well,is okie i can treat this as a exprience.People who knows me,probably know I never agree to this puerile "blog thingy".
It is kinda relaxing when i start to type this,I listening to "Be Without You-MaryJ Blige". This is one of my hits. My feeling is so hard today but i enjoy the melody now.

"Too strong for too long, I be waiting up until you get home, Anybody who ever love, ya jus know wht i feel, Too hard to fake it, nth can replaced it."
I'm attracted to this song jus becos of one phrase,"Anyone who ever love, ya jus know wht i feel". I felt the same as her song, maybe i jus fell out of love (not the bf/gf thing, cos my bf is good) is friendship.

We had our haloyon when we were in school, seriously i misses those days. If we (joanne & me) didnt hav a big stir-up then i not be isolated,and i probably wouldnt met Liyana & Hui Shan.

Many things might not happened at all, but i glad it did. I dont know why but I jus glad it did!

What is my gist of blogging?People who knows,I think i know who are they already in my heart.
I guessed is true that i a person who hav compassion for myself,at least. Well, now it you find my blog lackluster, this anit for you.

I still remembered last year, we went to school etc, cos nth special. Till the day,i met my doom (nightmare), all of them supported me through.I felt the warmth of every single one of them, dudes i appreciate deep down. Today i feel cold but i used to makin my ownself warm, so it doesnt matters much.

Hey i really enjoyed using SHARON(FATTY) MP3..Suddenly I hab a flashback for 17 jan 2007, the very first time/period i wept so badly.A plenny of thoughts were in my head then & back, my life really plays like a drama.Sometimes it seem to be to dramatic,I dun even wan to exprience it. Whenever,wherever i play this song "I Promise-Stacie Orrico",I think of her.Looks like the song had found a owner in my heart.

I never like to dominate the friendship i hav(had) but is for them to believe it. Now i really care after my confrontation ytd,JUS LET IT BE.I'm not a superwoman who can control situation beyond my ability.I been played out once,ultimately i know i can make my way through again.Probably i was to belligerent to her but i jus wants to end this preposterous arguement.I was perfectly poise when i confronted her ytd.You probably think tht i out of my mind,but i not,i felt the throb when i typed those thing. But i always prefers to end misery and start afresh(truely happy-go-lucky).

Like today,the ratio of "I'm going to Shuyi Birthday Celebration" to spoil their mood to "I'm not going" is 3:1.Happy 18th Birthday to her again;wishing her charming comes soon.Same to Shane;Happy 21th Birthday to you. For me i will hab fun dancing in the clubs.

Love you baby boy; jus love you for who you are
Be Back tml (might hab something exciting)