Final Distance

Hey there, I'm back to Earth from Heaven today so I need to blog it down before everything's gone.. It is going to be a lengthy one, cos it is about 1. School, 2. Work, 3. Friends 4. Family 5. Him<3>

I told him "Hey, I love this song, First Love - Utada Hikaru!!" then I asked him "Should I changed my Blog song?"

He replied "Change it to First Love since you like it so so much"

At that moment, I am sure that who knows me the best=) & true enough my Blog song for this entry & it was once. Thanks to Ezra for sending me First Love & Charles for the sharing of nice songs=) Also, Desmy who sent me Leader of the Band. Thanks <3

1. SCHOOL!!

My relationship with my classmates are progressing smoothly with majority of them, which I am very happy about it. Lessons & Tutorial are kinda hectic now, meanwhile I am disappointed wit myself cos I would figured the situation out but I cant seem to link them together=( Now that the class for sure has got one Excellent Gossip Topic & this particular topic brought same to my cliques & myself closer EVERYDAY!!

hah, it is DA GENIUS in Stansfield College, Dip in law 2008. Try talkin to him, wow~~ Trust me, only weirdo like me wouldnt mind to communicate with him. He is the smartest weirdo I have ever met, he is very resourceful however wrong thing at the wrong time. Though I laughed at him but I hoped I am able to do something to help.

Oh, I really need to share this joke wit all of you by DA GENIUS. On Thur morning, before Criminal Lecture start, we (Lester, Da Genius, Rachel, Grace, Tracy & myself) were having little chit chat session. Talking about the weather in Singapore is rather cold at 2a.m, suddenly DA GENIUS asked a RANDOM QUESTION "So does it snow?"

For a moment, I thought I heard wrongly so I stood up & asked him to repeat himself. So he repeated "I mean, does Singapore snow at 2a.m in the morning?"

The rest of them are giggling & I THINK there is a need to explain to him & I said "My dear, Singapore wont snow, NEVER snow, basically CANT SNOW cos if it does The world will end!!"

Then he asked "WHY?"

I was boiling inside, COMON 4 year-old Singapore toddler could answer it too, he is 21 year old & 100% pure Singapore breed!! I said "Darling, Singapore cant snow cos of the location, we are near the EQUATOR & the lowest degree Singapore can get to is probably 18degree. It is impossible to snow cos it need to be 0degree to froze / snow"

23/7 - Wed, Charles, Rachel, Grace & myself went to watch Red Cliff=) Wow~~ It is damn nice!!!

25/7 Friday, the Law Society member aka Recreation Committees organised an outing to the High Court/Supreme Court for a hearing. We dressed formally as we were told, so Charles & myself looks like couples as according to people. Vashon looks like CEO of a MNC, the turn up rate was fine, the pity thing is DA GENIUS cant come. Outing aftermath, we (Charles, Cindy, Erza, Grace, Lester, Rachel & myself) went to Pastamania with 4 more classmates & then only WE went to Anderson for dessert. Talked about DA GENIUS, who called Lester on the Thurs evening & said "Lester, I doubt I am going to the High Court with you guys cos I am going to the Supreme Court!"

Well, I LAUGH OUT LOUD!! cos in SINGAPORE, High Court is the same as Supreme Court!!!! WTF, anyway,we all went to our individual ways aftermath.

2. Work=(

So I had to go to work, WHAT A Friday!! I hasnt been so depressed for this year 2008 & had served more than 500 customers I think this is the first mishap, luckily there is FIONA to make it better for me. Thanks to her=) I shall not get into the details cos it is pointless to blog about adults who are so TYPICALLY Singaporean. Eeee~~ Disgusts me full time, call me if you wanna to know the story.

3. Friends @.@

Randomly, met Miho @ my work place. She is the another only ladies who were in the Tiger Brewery Tour with me when I went there with Kola & firends. Very nice of her to remember me. She is old but young-looking still, half Japanese & local.

Met Liyana to school on 22/7 - Tuesday... Yet to see Hui Shan, on this coming Friday to Sentosa!!! Met Chrissie & Wayne at Desmy's place yesterday..

I gotten an piece of not so good news for Weida that Yong Sheng's dad had passed away on last Sunday. I am sending my late condolences here on behalf of the class, with many love & bless you<3

4. Family 0_0

Soso, didnt really get to see my sisters this day especially I wasnt at home ytd. My feifei is fine=) Dad is good, I hope my mum is too... T.B.C...

5. Everyday, Yesterday & Him = Finally Found <3

Well, My week probably wont ends this spendid without him, talking to me, teasing me, comforting me, joking with me or vice versa. Ytd, we broke the ice for not seeing each other for 2 entire weeks.

I wanted to go Sentosa ytd, however I was too lazy/tired to go. He called me @ 1 plus in the afternoon, talked & bla bla bla...Concluded that I will go Bishan to buy Chicken rice for him, his parents & myself then meet him @ 7pm (after his soccer) at the bus-stop opposite J8. Then after dinner is Fodue time!!

So I did abit of revision & dicovered my MENSES=( is here before I went out. I brought & bought some fruits with me & then Q up for the Chicken rice (half chicken & 4 packet of rice). He msg-ed/called me at the correct time, 7.10pm when I just finished buyin everything. He said his firend will be givin him a lift to Bishan & will reached @ 10 min or so.. GREAT!! He reached 50-55min later & I was kinda pissed off cos I have not taken any meal & the Chicken rice smell was driving me crazy.

When we reached his place, Lesley was overwhelming to see me so he decided to give me a few scratches. Then quickly set up for dinner, left some chicken for Chrissie cos she love it too & his family & myself start eating.. After dinner, we both & his mum were in the kitchen washing dishes & cutting fruits for the Fodue. His parents offered me the Durian Pancake but I decided to give to Chrissie cos she like it too. About 11p.m then we started to eat the Fodue, which is super unhealthy & HE will NEVER STOP to disturb me. I asked him to pour a GLASS of water, he came out wit a BOWL of water & I stared at him!!! He wants me to drink water like Lesly, his dog!! Argh~~ Of cos, he changed a glass for me & after the Fodue, we went up to watch 2 movies, meanwhile he INSISTED that we should watch a little part of GARFIELD sence!!!

Chrissie & Wayne headed home after the movies at about 4.30am & we went back to sleep. As usual, his snoring=) Woke up for breakfast at 11am today with his mum. His mummy is damn nice, I didnt bring my toothbrush cos I didnt really plan to stay so she giv me one. She drove us to AMK to eat, we saw a very chubby baby & she started to describe DESMOND baby time!! HAHA~~

Oh, regarding the essay..He binded himself to hand it to me by coming Friday..

6. Important upcoming event & my goals for the week.

1. Finish my assisgement asap

2. Tuitorial Questions

3. Moot Competition on Friday

4. Wedding Daze

5. The Mummy - Tomb of the Dragon Emperor

6. 8.8.08 - The Opening of Olympic 2008

7. "GCE" O level Oral Exam=) in Aug

I have finished reading My Sister's Keeper=)

I think it is kinda heavy for today=) I am going to do my work now, will update soon!

I am missing you alot, my silly <3

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Once again, another week is gone

Nothing very special & good happened recently cos I didnt get to see him=( Been thinkin alot recently.."What are we actually meant to each other?"

He answered: "You are Garfield & I am me!!" DUMMY HIPPO!!"

Still love so shhhh..He kinda irritated me wit "Oh, you make used of me!!" Of course, none of us know that is true, I talked to you cos I love=) I NEED to see you soon soon soon<3

Studies is alright, I need to re-structure the concept about Contract apart from him, the rest are so-so.. Moot Competition is yet to be done.. I shall start it tml!!

Classmates are loved=) Haha.. Before Grace, Rachel, Tracy & myself went for movie - The Dark Knight yesterday, Ezra, Charles, Andy & us were munching lunch together=)

First, we Gossip.. Second, we Gossip..Lastly, nevertheless, we GOSSIP=) haha..then we talked about the future, goals & aims..& Abusing of HUSBAND ahah~~

The Dark Knight is awesome!! Please dont miss it!! Rachel died=( Heath Ledger as the joker is great!! Bless & with love, the talented dies young

My Sisters' Keeper too=) I cried & learnt alot from the book.

Sentosa is postponed to 1 August aka my Moot Com.!!! Argh~~

Today I am goin to work till 2am. Argh!! Some people are naturally screwed up, thinks tht SENIORITY would make them formidden, FCUK YOU, I dont buy that. Shame on them, not owning a skill of own yet they thinks that they are geunis..My foot!! Showing them, CAPABILITY is the word!! I think I goin to work on Fri only for next week.

Tml & Sunday, will start researchin on my Moot Competition & Revision.

Fei fei & me=)

Spastic ASS!!

Missing you dearly

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I am just dedicating another song to you<3... ...

Gentle reminder, in case you guys have not read the yesterday's post, STROLL down!!

Well, I am jus here to change my blog song JUS FOR YOU=) Thanks to Shan!!
Yesterday during work, I am super tired but seeing you brightens my life. It is not that I detest you but I dont wan you to see me IN MESS!!

I HATE that you are pampering / spoiling me too much, BUT I thank you & love you for that cos I know everyday I am loved.
I HATE that the fact you came into my life at such a right time.
I told myself that I merely know you for a couples of month, cos I HATE the fact I falling deeply for you.
I HATE that the many many topics with you cos it keeps me in supense about when it will end. I HATE the fact that I am not in dream.
I HATE the fact is we are so DIFFERENT, cos the theory of mine!!
I HATE that my FRIENDS could tell I am in love.

You are NOT the rebound of my previous date. Trust me, you are loved for you are you. Everytime, I recall the day we met, the day we first hang out, the day I hav a crush on you, I told myself that "Ah...LUCKY, IT HAPPENED!!" I thank GOD for everyday becos you are here... ...

Cos I know you are someone who appreciates, you somehow could recall the movies we hav watched together, SO FAR. You have been a WONDERFUL LISTENER compared to me, whereas I am a FULL-TIME WHINNER!! =( Sorry for that..

I am changing my blog song for you, a LITTLE thing I could do compared the MANY thing you did for me. It is called Finally Found by Honeyz..

Lyrics

I can't believe you're here with me

And now it seems my world's complete

And I never want this moment to end

I close my eyes and still I see

My dreams become reality

And now I know how it feels to be in love

I prayed so many nights that you would come my way

An angel from above to light my darkest day

I think it's time for you to hear these lines

(Chorus)

'Cos there's something I want to say

I finally found what I've been looking for

And now you know I'm going to love you more

Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you(It's always been you)

To think that you were always there (always there)

To be my friend and wipe away my tears

Now it's clear that it's always been you

Sometimes you don't expect that friends

Can become lovers in the end

Only God knows what the future will bring

So hold me close and don't let go

'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?

And we're gonna be together for eternity

I prayed so many nights that you would come my way

An angel from above to light my darkest day

A love so strong it can't be wrong

(Chorus)

(This time) this time I'm gonna make sure it turns out right

I wanna be your everything and by your side

For the rest of my life

(This love)This love feels the way that love should be

Look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise

(Chorus) X3

Also,
I have brought the song I posted ytd to here, in case some peeps will love it!! It is a very JAZZY song by a Indonesian Band~~

Me & my Boyfriend - Mocca




Lastly, Im still waiting for my essay & miss you still<3

Liyana & Shan: Our next outing is coming up soon!!! Alrighty..
Vidya: Sweetie, I am not angry wit you

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Boyfriendsss!!

Friday is today, I am super shag. I am basically not goin to do anything today cos I going not to work later..

I will start my tuitorial questions Tommorrow & Sunday!! I was thinking how I could excel in my studies, after days of pondering. I hav decided to call my 4 subjects as my boyfriends. I very a very good / smart way to discover "How guys works?" etc. Of cos, I cant share such a wide topic with you guys here, it is an inborn=p

Anyway, I use the method on my studies to get to a higher / highest level since this method has helped me to enter / build my knowledge for lots of guys. Therefore, I could sense the usefulness of it. However, this time I need to take care of 4 + 1, total 5 boys=)

Planner for tommorrow & sunday!
1. Complete & Read thru of notes for the 4 (Within an 1 hr)
2. Start reading the question & research (App. 1 an half hr)
3. Compile & Write the essay (3 hrs)
4. Do the question(s) which I am supposed to find out (2hr)
5. Read thru & research for Moot's

Argh, It's looks easier than doing.. Wht I am lacking is more DETERMINATION..

Anyway, VASHON talked to me!!! Yah-ness!! Haha, OMG she is such a nice person=)=)
I love Erza as a friend cos he is simply honest to me, cos I believe as friends honestly is very impt. Whether should I change wht I am anot is up to me, As FRIENDS we learn from one another.

Being pointed out for the bad points of ourselves might seem an insult, but it is also BETTER to be pointed out THAN backstabbed, Right? I loathe the feeling of being commented behide my back, cos I love to grow. I desipes people who comments behide my back, arrogant, self-centered & so full of themselves.

They are jus simply SMALL, the worst kind of the society.

Hmm, Wed is a fine day, cos Desmy came to here to eat But Kut Teh wit me=) Everyday is LOVE cos wit him around. But I find tht our topic is getting narrower daily, it is cos he is tired of me?

Yesterday aka Thur is a nice day cos school aftermath Charles, Mrs Chong & myself went to Funan mall to see wht lappy should we buy=) hmm, lovely!! Thanks her for my glass of PEACH ME UP=)

Mrs Chong mentioned about the "Literate & Uneducated" & "Illiterate & Educated" comparsion is something I will never forget. It is true that we all have 2 Age, "The Birth Age" & "The Mental Age"=)

I woke up readin the BBC.com.. The HoC is so different in UK, they questioned the PM like WOW~~

All thanks to Andy, we all are going to Rachel's place to sing on coming Thursday!!

Anyway, my latest blog song - Me & my boyfriend is a random search, stay tune. It is a nice & sweet song sang by a Indonesian Band!! Wow~~ So Jazzy=)

Missing all my loves & the one & only love<3
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Nothing much

If you could have just realise that we should stop running away, it would be nice for both of us, isnt it?

It is always for you, I think my world is much more meaningful.

It is always for you, I find myself saying spastic words to.

It is always for you, I am sure I will commit myself to.

It is always for you, I dont wan to run away from.

It is always for you, I hate to wake up from this dream.

It is always for you, I am so afraid you will know & dont know.

I have been a hitch-ress, advicing people is my forte. However, only myself knows that is my weakness.

Back to my life!!

Ezra & myself are currently dicussing about the soldier who took the rifle out of camp, well is it merely a discussion but GOOD ONE..Such a pity one, he should be in his prime now, anyway Wht to do! Wht's is done cannot be undone.

As a Law student, now while we are getting the concept of the law. I personally think I am seeing more blacker side of the way government in various countries works, which somehow grossed me but I hav to accept it.

Chris knows, I might be part of the black side too.

Anyway, a newsy to share..

A 70-year-old woman given BIRTH to a twins in India!!

Desmy said "Wow, she must be strong!!"

Yesterday, only a handful of the class brought the correct book to school. I, being the confused one brought the wrong book=) dumb dumb!! Concepts for the my 4 new BFs are still blur!! haha~~

Dont get into the wrong idea, my 4 BFs are - Criminal, Public, Common, Contract=)

I told Desmy that I have learn a meaningful latin phrase & he asked me to blog it out ..

"Promissory e stoppel" which means Let the decision stand

School aftermath was equally cool cos I met Liyana & Shan. Gossip, Talking are the never ending thing to do... Good times flies extremely fast=) But every minute is loved...

I am lookin forward to Sentosa wit my 2 NO CHOICE but besties & ROLL to school with Liyana~

Now I am goin to read my Fav Book - My Sister's Keeper

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I have a question to ask... ...

Why everyone is telling me "I think that you & him needs HELP!!" & "I seriously dont know what's going on between both of you"?

Do we really have problem(s) which needed help, COS I cant see the PROBLEM? We are CLOSE FRIENDS maybe more than that..ya, it is so simple & why you guys are trying to CONFUSE me!!!

JEEZ, Please Enlighten me...

Well, I am over the moon when people start viewing my blog & tell me that "Hey, your blog is very meaningful" not cos of the fame I have but is when I am able to share my knowledge / expriences with each individual.. & I am not a blogger who jus blogs about BGR & FRIENDSHIP cos I am a learner for life!!

"NEVER BE STINGY WHEN IT COMES TO KNOWLEDGE" cos when you share, you will learn!

Anyway, Thanks for reading my idiotic blog=)

I have changed my blog song to classic song but with a new hippy melody, the original singer was Ben E. King. This version is by Kim Ah Jung (200 Pound Beauty) & the song is Stand By Me=)

Everyday is a LEARNING day, believe it anot!! The moment we steps out of our house, is the matter of WHEN it will comes to your realisation & till then DONT BELITTLE it!!

Hmm, on thursday morning on my way to school, while I was in the lift it stopped at a certain floor (i think is 7th storey) a maid & 2 kids came in. It is obvious that the maid is sending the elder boy to school & no one is at home so the younger one have to tag along.

My story starts here, the younger boy stepped on one of my foot & I didnt moved cos I am afraid that he will fall. When he turned back and look at me, I realised that he is a different kid; not normal. I have asked myself what I will do if I am the parents of that child? The answer is I am not as strong to take the blow that my kid is different & I respect the parents... ...

On the same day, school aftermath for most of my classmate is probably home sweet home time. It is different for Ezra, Charles & myself cos we will go for lunch & talk. On wednesday, when the three of us decided to munch, we asked Diana to join us. Honestly speaking, we got to know more about her & she have shared us a lot of knowledge about Homosexual Community. Therefore, on Thursday, our special guest was Mrs Chong / Mdm Hee, she is 62 this year. She talked about her past 32 years in Aust., her 2 kids, love, the political issues, health & her anxious-ness over the capability to study Law.

First, she talks about the spouse of every individual SHOULD BE different / opposite of ourselves which is seriously true!! I always tell people that your half should be the opposite of you to cover your imperfection. Herself as an example, Her husband & her are simply different in life, except for some hobbies which bonded them together. Secondly, I personally think that apart from the memorising part, she should be better than most of us in the class cos of her worldly exposure. So if she has so much to worry about, I should be trembling at most of the time. Lastly, her strong power of going to study a specific course is a motivation to we(the young people), TELLING us that we shouldnt stop here. Cos dispite of her not so good health, she has to endure the medicine & manage her work, be it school & house work!!

Then my realisation comes about!! That PEOPLE like the kid I met in the lift, Mdm Hee do not hav the choice to born different & not healthy. But they still live up their heads & face / cherish their lives alot. An extraordinary man I like to bring up is The Treeman, when he was 15 year-old, he has a cut & gotten a weird infection & tree branches all over himself. His wife left him & the 2 children, & he works HARD in a circus troupe.

This is him




Well, I went to P.S to watch




It is simply touching, & it is true that the dog can keep their promises more than any human being. Well, simply ask yourself, how many Simple Promises to make is live up to Expectation? I have to be very honest that for me very little!! & the song is absolutely sweet; Time after time=) & I met Charles in P.S..haha~~

Was pissed with Desmy ytd cos I waited for him like an idiot, & he almost missed the movie date cos of his hangover. See, I not angry cos he went clubbing / drinking cos no rights for me to be but is his irresponsibility which I am disappointed about. No matter what, I demands an APOLOGY before any conversation should start. I barely talk to himself until we met Jansen who help to lighten the atmosphere. I called Hui Shan & share my anger with her but it seems like she is trying to put good words for him to make me less angry. I bought JODI's book, The Sisters' Keeper which Rachel recommended!!

I told Bree that I was dressing is a TURN OFF in DBO ytd, & simply screwed up my image cos I didnt have the intention to club / drink at all. She is so sweet to comfort me, haha.. I am sorry to miss the clubbing session wit you today!! I will make up!!

Jansen, the cute one.. was pretty sweet to comfort about my attire too!! He is going to shave his long hair on Wed & start his 2 years of service..He told me alot of things about Desmy on the way to MOS which I sorta know it but it proves that Desmy has such a dear friend. William put alot of nice word to simmer my anger for him too=) I dont know what's going on but it seem like everyone took DESMY'S PILL=)

There were only Wen Hao, Jansen, Desmy & myself, on top of this alot of their friends..After all the clubbing, we decided to go Macdy for munch, funny stuff & talking about girls!! The funniest thing Jansen did is to take pictures of a girl who looks like Hannah Motana SECRETLY!! Wen Hao & myself got to jus assume Jansen left his BALLs at home. Wen Hao, on the other hand sat far away from that girl could hear her conversation which is a joke. I WAS SITTING so near to her yet I didnt hear it!! JEEZ!! Last joke for the day is between Desmy & Jansen, Jansen tries to feed me a fries & Desmy was saying "You dare to feed her!!" bla bla bla..Anyway it is an act only..

So Wen Hao & myself took a cab home & when I was about to reach home I recieved a Pirvate no. & literally scares me out of my bra..it was Desmy who called immediately when he reached home=)

Today, I chatted wit Zac & Shine who I miss alot alot!! haha, talkin to Desmy now, currently an idiot who is tryin hard to cook his lunch=) I am going to work later!! Haha..

Tml, I have to stay at home to figure out the Rule of Law!! Haha.. & Monday, Contract law & Sweet lunch meeting with my 2 besties

Do visit my Friend's Online Shop!! http://ziro-loves.blogspot.com/

Lastly, I love to share with you all 2 Chinese Song regarding Universal Love, & when I heard it it usuallly makes me feel like crying ... My Vulnerability =)

爱 因为在心中

手牵手




I will be missing you alot, my stupid <3
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Forte

Argh!! School is Awesome to a LARGE extent.. maybe there is a issue which is bothering me in class..

Well, due to my bluntness, I have ask a too liberal to a classmate on the first day of school & might cause the female classmates to think that I am a bimbo now man=(

Why did I say tht? Cos it is proven, while I was havin lunch wit another classmate to today..

Long Story & Lots of Hard work to be put in, to show them the better side of me.. Hopefully, they will giv me a chance to do so.

My opposition, Class Head, Mr Ezra, he did me 2 great favours. Firstly, he apologised to Vashon(The girl who I have accidently hurted) on behalf of me. Secondly, he reminded me that Singapore is still a conservative country & he convinced me by making me guilty..

Well, I am a BIT stubborn dudey.. When senses are carrying into my ears, it will goes to my head though I dont admit cos my ego. But deep down I might possibility accepted your point of view. & my dad repriminded me for it, Andrew (The DJ) nagged & laughed at me about it.

THANKS EZRA, my opposition, I am looking towards a great year in school!! All these days after having lunch wit you, I am surprised that you have something good about me to say..HAHA~~ & I must say you are very unqiue individual / friend!!=)

& my CLIQUE.. Grace, Rachel & Tracy..YOU GUYS are the best!!

Classes are super interesting, after learning Law, it is MY FORTE. I may not the best in class at least I managed to perform the best of me. Today, I hav a new set of goals to carry out promply in my life..

Mon - Contract Law -
Tues - Public Law - Powerful, Loud Lecturer!!
Wed aka today - Common law & Reasoning - Rather confusing, but it is managable!!

We are basically learning English, Mature Thinking, Theory & I never find lesson could be so fun=) I am looking forward to Criminal Law tml!! & will be meeting Andy to school=) Not to forget Charles=)

Well, they are all smart people & I dont want to be left out so I will be WORKING HARD!!

Ytd, I hav a gust of happiness flowing inside my veins & I hav the time to go down to church to pray.. Well, a funeral was taking place in the church & mixture of thoughts start to float out of my mind... ... I guessed this is called Human Vulnerability...

Newsy are all abour ANWAR & SEX scandal daily on the Straits Times.. .. ARGH!!!!

My campus moved to SIC building & tht means I am closer to Liyana's Campus~~~ Haha...
I love my true BESTIEs=) Shan & Liyana cos they are my pole & I will always try to be there when they needs me!! I am dying to see yousss~~ I am not a lovers' pet & stop trying to seduce him!!!

To Fabian, I didnt wan to show my indifference to our friendship but due to your immaturity & your inconsideration which fails our friendship. As much as your FRIENDS are more important than bitches like me, I apologised sincerely. As much as I am told myself that I will wan to Cherish all Friendships, from the past failure Friendships if my friends failed me I see no NEED to be bothered about it. I DID gave you & them an extra chance...

You know why? If I am that LOUSY which you think / assume I am, then there will be not people who like me.. If so, are you going to say the people who like me as a friend are lousy too?

Sadly, I dont think this way cos I am a positive person. I am going to say that the people who fails me, just like you who is just not meant to befriend wit me / to say our views collided & you are not being flexible enough=)

Trust me, LOATHING me wont make you happy=)

Lastly, I am going to see Desmy the day AFTER tml for movie & candlie-light dinny!! RIGHT~~
& I have not talk to him for the entire day=(

I have change my BLOG SONG to LOVE SONG.. Despite of the new friends I jus know, you are still the only one=)
Hope you guys will enjoy it & School I come tml=)

I am missing my friends & you<3
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All for LOVE

The time now is 12:12pm, my burstday=) & I'm eating Dragonfruit *yummy*

Everything I want to blog is ALL ABOUT LOVE

This is a lengthy one cos there are 3 long chapters about my LOVEs i am going to blog about, it is never going to be one type of RANDOM LOVE where young girls think tht is LOVE.

Without LOVE, my life couldnt be so wonderful

Without LOVE, my heart probably will stop beating

Without LOVE, my smile cannot be this bright

The best of the best is that I have all to LOVE...

When you truely LOVE someone, you will hate the one as much as you love.

When you truely LOVE someone, you jus need to think of the one to forget all the unhappiness.

When you truely LOVE someone, the LOVE will grow.

I would love to quote an example - My family Love, though is not ALL yet but it always start from little.

On Thursday (26 June 08), My dad & myself were in the living room, watching TV & using com respectively. My beloved brother was in the room closing the door (assuming he turned on the air-con & was watching TV).

Suddenly I smelled a strong burning & then my dad went into the room, a gust of black smoke coming out of the room. So I ran across the smoke & saw my brother was trying to put off the fire. He tried to keep mute for his mistake which is something my dad & myself think it's super hilarious. Luckily, the fire wasnt that huge however we had a hard time clearing up the mess.

The fact is my brother he found a box of matchstick @ the nearby playground couples of day ago. He is playful & smart enough to play INSIDE the room while he is watching the television. The cutest thing is that he went to my room to sleep & I had to carry him back to his room after we cleaned the room.

The moral of the story is that though we both were angry about the playing fire thingy but we love it as much as we loathes it. By thinking he is trying to put of the fire himself, my dad & myself were laughing over it while we are wiping the windows.

Why did I say I have ALL TO LOVE, cos I'm able to love myself & FRIENDS to LOVE.

On wed (25 June 08), I decided to love / indugle myself & meanwhile TRYING to use the minimum amount of money, which is something I'm proud that I managed to do both but still I spent an unnecessary $14 buck @ Butter Fac. *Argh* on ONLY A GLASS OF WHISKY.

Bree is LOVED, so so love. She spotted a guy from far whom I hardly can see, saying that he looks good which I cannot denied after I have seen him close=) HOW CLOSE? We DANCED!! He is hot, half jap. & best part he is a dance instructor!! We did exchanged no. but nothing will be happening to us cos I am in LOVE wit <3>

Talked to DJ Andrew when he is busy, well he looks better in real~~ Shino (the hottie jap) wasnt the only person we got to know, there is his friends aka Biz partner, Julian & Taddi. They are all Awesome people~~, no joke REAL AWESOME Devils!!

Sadly, Bree & friends gotten leave to home & Butter Factory is kinda dull so I took a cab back to Clarke Quay, Attica. Haha, I was dancing wit myself not long after a causasian danced wit me & BEST PART - Free flow of drinks which makes me tispy. & if you guys think I am dull cos I didnt take a single picture!! YOU ARE WRONG, I remembered that camera are flashing BUT I was too high to exchange no. & so i hav no pictures to post.

I almost got abducted by one of them, luckily YONG AN, literally came to my resuce. So I went to Boat Quay to munch & the uncles took care of me & my belongings. I waited for the first train, impressively I reached home safe & sound.

Speaking of friends, I am missing the TWO ANGELS on the top of my friends' list=)

& Joyce, Shine, BREE, my clique in school!!

Lastly Chocolate Kola, I am going to see you soon I promise!!

The last kind of LOVE - Love for someone who is capable to make the heart beats rapidly & stop instantly

The one I have so much of affections for, the one I truely want to wrote this blog to & all thanks to him for all the beautiful LOVE songs I posted.

He likes to listen to FM 95.0 before he sleeps & truely there are alot of nice LOVE Songs. Now that I am addicted to it, I decided to find a Song JUST FOR HIM. I have the habit of finding a SONG which is represents my love for my bf/the one i love. So I was listening to the FM 95.0 for the past one week, I still cant find a suitable song for him.

Then I realised the reason behind the fruitless hardwork is that; -

He is the creator of the sentences I constructed

He is the love song I am searching for

He is the lyrics who is inside my heart

He is the melody who plays within me

He is the more than the rivers that run the land.

He is the unlimited star who shines my heart

He is the sweet who never melts inside my mouth

He is the love who never rest to keep me strong

He is the everything of nothing in my eyes

This super sweet BLOG SONG I'm sharing is playing inside my heart by Bryan Adams - All for love

You stood in front of me @ my workplace after I hung up the phone with you for less than 30min yesterday. Though I am super exhuasted after work, I cant help to smile when I think about you. The future is so unknown, I didnt wan to keep hopes inside myself cos I wan you to be the last person who disappoints me cos I am not your kind of slim, short hair girls=)

Teaching Pan Pan English is an achievement, I found a perfect way for her to master English & now she is more motivated to learn. =)

As much as I am looking forward to start school on Monday, I cant wait to see you & the moive on Friday=p

Argh, I am working today & I doubt I will wan to club tonight!! Sorry to disappoint you, Devil Andrew~~

Tml, will be watching movie - "Wanted" with Shine=) & will catch the TV show Narnia with Fei Fei as promised.

Lastly, I want to post some random picture of you, MR DESMY<3>

Hey tht's me!!

Desmy<3

Bid Here

Adious

Love Aroma

I had an awesome weekends, thanks L.O.V.E.S & CLEO

Due to work, I slept @ 5am on Saturday & I woke up @ 10am to prepare for the CLEO Swimsuit Photoshoot. Chrissie isnt able to make it, so I went with Liyana, Aqilah, Tasha, Denna & Nasriah.

This is the very first time, Liyana & me hangout in Sentosa during weekends.. Bad for you Hui Shan, you shall wait for next year. I love the both of you 987654321 times=)

However I in the letter "O" which is thousand miles away from their letter "C" & "L" (well, thousand miles is exaggerating), fortunately I AM NOT ALONE & not forgetting the guy who applied SUN BLOCK lotion for me=)

I believed that Friendship should be something like us; never hesitiate to give
& take - I understand the little time we have so we never will waste it
away. Thats why we are still friends & we will still be=)

Allow the picture to say the sparkers..

Liyana & Myself







From left; Liyana, Aqilah, Nasriah , Tasha, Denna & myself

Just me & you~~ All thanks to Bree & Kim




From left; Bree, Bree's friend, Kim, myself & Mr Photographer




The affinity to know one another; I look simply ugly in this picture!!

Lastly, we will like to thank CLEO




I really need to thank for 987654321 times cos I met 1 nice girls & 1 click!! That is Kim & Bree=)
Bree is fun-ness & loved, the best of best is she is a paralegal who works in a law firm though she is majored in English. We are so alike for all the differences, she doesnt look 22 & she is simply fun. The best part, a new PARTY partner isnt it absolute cool-ness. I cant wait to go clubbing wit her~~

Photoshoot was a success, REMEMBER to purchase the next issue of CLEO Mag=D

Photoshoot aftermath, I parted from the rest & went to Cafe Del Mar & know 2 girls from UK & staying in Sg, Awesome cool-ness=)

Then on my way home, Desmy called & I am super hungry cos I didnt munch anything for the whole day=( Bla Bla Bla~~ Ordered pastamania & watch Lord of the Ring I with fei fei~~ Talked to Desmy with anger cos my mum really pisses me 123456789 times & I really feel like crying but again with him there will only be smiles & there goes my day.... ....

On Sunday, I wanted to go for a walk & so I asked Desmy along, so he suggested to do so in the evening, FINE~~ haha, no hard feelings.

Watched the show "Age of Miracle" and I cried badly, wanna know why? Cos it shows how great is the love of a mother & the reason I cried was tht maybe I longed for this love too long BUT never will I get it full=) Maybe...

Went AMK hub to meet Desmy & I was a bit late (I sweared is A BIT!!), then we went to Bishan Park to stroll. Everything was nice until the Bull Frog came into the picture..I had a gust of feeling to hold him tight but how courageless I am.. Anyway it was a nice walk to be remember.. ..

Ytd, was spendin the whole day to ponder my project @ home, My stupid brain cant think wht to write for a last question!! I also wondered why Desmy & myself have so much to share... haha

Today, before I wrote this blog & change my blog song due to retrospecting, haha, Close to you by Carpenter, I was woke up by Jazyln & I woke Desmy up=). Anyway, the lyrics is so sweet and makes me wannabe close to you too=) hah~~

I have received my GCE "O" level English timetable & I am officially starting school in 6 DAYS time!!! *Nervous*

I have also recorded a song weeks back, My Valentine with the original singer in the backgroud. It is jus a random recording, maybe I spoilt the song though I hoped I dont.. plus I can only convert to 1 min... Do feedback to me~~

Gotta work later=)

I love my NEW & OLD FRIENDS & YOU<3
Bid Here
Adious

Whole Again

I always tell myself that "No one is perfect including myself but it never stops me from doing better."

With this, I would love to address something regarding to a tag message, which i received on 17 June 08 by (: saying "correct your grammar before you use big vocab words.please."

I reflected & immediately replied (: "Do quote me an example for me to change, cos it is not an easy task to see own's mistake/s at times."

I wanted to fcuk "(:" up but is pointless cos it is jus a nasty, pitiful person. I love to give you a name "Miss (:", by not revealing your name I am pretty sure, & at the same time I am findin it super absurb about you still loathing me. Oh please, carry on your life & stop hating, you are just making yourself looking like a pathetic soul. I jus wan to tell it that is nothing shameful to use your fcuking name unless you have something to hide from me. Never you look down on someone who read pychology books, I studied body language & learnt how brains work. Well, maybe I am not the best but I am bounce to be right about it.

I really appreciates you if you truely commentted on my English for good means, I wont even hate you like how you hate me. If you are my friend, I will love you as my friend; If you dont wan, I will love you for who you are so jus speak out your name. However, if you were commentting it JUST for the sake of commentting, I feeling sorry for you. You have to learn to grow up, SERIOUSLY.

Because the way you commentted MY GRAMMAR / ENGLISH, it is as though I am the most disgraceful human being on earth to use the language, ENGLISH. In fact, you are simply JEALOUS about my success from the way you are showing it, of cos not to say I am FLAWLESS. You know, a proper sentencing is always better than no proper sentencing. This is a mistake which millions of people are still making & yet you utter NOTHING about it. Plus, I did not use BIG VOCAB as you mentioned, if you cant this peanut english I used in my blog, I cant help but feel sad for you. This again, has proven your limited knowledge.

Again, I need not your apology which I know you obviously THINK you dont owe me one. TRUE, you actually owe yourself & your parents millions of apology instead cos you aint halfway there to learn the ART OF LIFE & wanna know why I know this? Cos you dont even hav the cheek to use your owe name, the name where your parent planted their.

If you wan to thank me, PLEASE DONT. I cant afford to accept it, & I owed you a "Thank you" for readin me up. & I will really appreciate if you could tell me my mistakes & TAG WIT YOUR NAME.=)

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Back to myself, I hav to admit that I didnt really put this four days in good use. Though I started Question 5 & 6 but yet to be completed. I guessed the 5 things I did was watched a good movie in crunchyroll named "Love is elsewhere", went for a jog, met a nice uncle & chatted wit my cousin & Liyana.

I did not include reading cos it is inside my life. Reading the paper is & will be something I continue to do everyday. Storybooks are superb, lesser woman fiction & more of law & pychology books. Working is indeed fun & school is startin in a week's time. Weee, I am doubious nervous about it, thinking about the grades I probably be scoring is making me jumped out of my bra.

I met a uncle on the train ytd to work, I lend him my paper to read & before he alighted the train, we start talking & plus he gave me his blessing in life. =)

When I was chatting which Cousin Wei Wen, I told myself to tht I will obtain my degree! He is working in IMH now, chatted about some crazy stuff.

I am very proud of Liyana, very very proud & happy cos she found something she is good @ and scored an "A". Continue to work hard & Hui Shan, we both wants you to finish your Diploma!! We have faith in you!! Hmmm, I wondered wht will we become in years to come....

I jus had a tuff with Desmy & William, which it is really pissing!! Not worth mentioning.. It will be fine, anyway, I am booking a Costa sand chalet in Sentosa for my birthday!!

I changed my blog song cos the lyrics "Looking back on where we first met" makes me think about the first day I know the greatest people I known in my life.

Thanks peeps..

Working tml & I am going to Sentosa for the CLEO magazine national record with Chrissie!!

I missing YOU & all my friends=)

Bid Here

Adious

About the First man in my life

15 June 08, Sunday aka Fathers' Day
I find Fathers' Day much more important than Mothers' Day. The reason behide is probably I am closer to my daddy. The love my mum cant / didnt want to give me is all given by my dad. My mum always gave me the ilk of feeling that my dad loves me too much & so she is not happy about it. However, the fact is that she is the one being biased most of the time.

My problem wit my mum's immaturity is never going to work out. My only confidant @ home is my dad, sometimes my 2 sisters (but rarely). He trained me to be strong physically & mentally(this was trained by my mum more often). The 2 best thing I learnt from him is "Silence is Golden" & "Toleration", which is true. For Example, when my mum & sisters started to yell at one another(which does happens). He was just happened to be sitting there wit me quietly, you can sense the powerfulness of this 2 factors.

Mr David Chin is one of the factors I wanted to work hard to be SOMEBODY one day. When I am SOMEBODY one day, the full credit is meant for him & doubtless about the returning of gratitutes to him & probably MORE. Afterall, he gave me full support for my education though I given him plenty of troubles.

I am looking forward meanwhile I do often questioned myself. Anway, I seriously dont know which day & year to wait but I hope he can always meet till that day. That VERY DAY...

I will never forget years back he first laid his hand on my cheeky cheek when he caught me red-handed dating with a guy. His ART OF FARTING & the jokes are ... tsk tsk ... Those times he was asked to go to school to personally sign the Reddish report book, I am so sorry for all those craps & so thankful for all the laughers.

Deep inside, I always carry a prayer that he will be always healthy & if God wants to punish him for whatever things he has done wrong, please cast it on me cos one of my fears is to lose him. Losing my dad is also mean losing myself, my family. We are not particulary loaded, he was the solo bread winner of the family. He makes things works, as a human making mistakes is inevitable.

I cant figured out why my sisters simply cant get along well wit him. I could see the sadness when they decided not to carry on their education, he obviously cares for them. Which sensible parents would not want their children to do well?

I need him there to tell me I made him proud.
I need him there when my pathway is so uncertain.
I need him there when I am recieving all my results, my diploma, my degree etc.
I need him there to talk & confort me.
I need him there to judge my bfs.
I need him there to walk with me at the aisle of the church.
I need him there to watch over my kids.
I need him there for all aspects of my life.

You are the best father in the world & I love you, at the very least RESPECTABLE inside me. We had a mini breakfast celebration ytd. =)

Today, Hui Shan asked me to remove the anti-span in my Tag Board which alot of people were asking me to. So finally I did it=) I am going to work later which is an awesome thing!! I cant wait to step into the bar ASAP!! hah=)

Speaking about Ytd..14 June 08, Saturday
Singapore Vs Saudi match for the World Cup qualifying round when the hopes of all Singaporeans World Cup dream is finally over. Excellent defence done by Singapore, 2 - 0 for the final verdict.

Talked to Desmy the love on phone for a while(actually quite long I guess) then he went to club again. Incentive drinking for 3 days in a row, he probably wan to demage his body which is something I never will do to myself. Laughers & friendly Bickering are almost never ending in our conversations which is something happening & make me wan to cherish it more=)

13 June 08, Friday
FRIDAY the THIRTEEN, is nothing special to me. Just that, my class was cancelled & I wasnt told about it! So my clique & myself were all WTF-ing. Then, it is also a fruitful day to me when to Kinokuniya & Borders to read up some books. & I am super determined to buy all the Agatha Christie's Books!! All thanks to Rachel for introducing her into my life=) Awesome writer.. A friend of mine is asking me to write my own book which I feel that I simply cant make it.

My dad told he wants to bring my 2 cousins home from the orphanage which is really noble of him I thought. But he MIGHT need me to share MY ROOM wit one of them & which bothers me alot. Well, if it is for temporarily I WOULDNT MIND but I doubt & never I share my room people for a long period of time! Help Help~~~ Was having Insomnia cos Desmy didnt talk to me & Alvin called to talk to me. Well, some great surprises from him, like him managed to quit smoking=) etc.. Nice talking=)

12 June 08, Thursday
Met Chrissie for dinner & she patronized my workplace too. ahah~~ & waited for me to knock off=) what a kind soul...Girl Talk etc=)

Everyone is telling me that my last entry to you is so sweet & romantic.
Lastly, I have been slacking!! I need to do my project work, brace up Miss Owin!!

I want to try Gogo Beanz, can someone bring me there!!

I need to go Sentosa & Clubbing!!
& I am missing you=)

Bid here
Adious

My heart of the matter II

Hey, if you have not read yesterday entry, stroll down FIRST! Then come back to read this entry=)

I always so envious of Joyce, she is so beautiful & demure in my eyes. I am so happy for her cos her bf is proposing to her. I always think proposal should be a secret but he chose to keep her in suspense which literally makes me really excited too. I asked Joyce, when that will be my turn to be with a guy who truely loves me as much as I love him? I guessed each individual will have their different ilk to luck. My love luck is not here yet=)

Though I am a fussy person but to a certain extent, I dont set a overboard criteria. I wanted my "him" very simple than alot of them, unfortunately I seldom meet the correct one. I was looking forward for someone to fill the imperfection of me. In him, I learnt, I think, I observed & I am changing. He might be unware about it, but with him I am just ME. The normal girl who is so normal, & in his arms I feel very safe. =)

This song & entry is for a special person living inside my heart. I was struggling what to blog for him. If you are reading this, I jus wan you to know:

You are not a secret, well if you are, you are an OPEN SECRET. I dont know how much I stood in your heart, is not that I wouldnt care but I think I should share mine cos I wanted to. The little things you done which might seem tiny to you / others but somehow, sometimes it just brighten up my day. I really hate & love you=)

"Someone gonna make the first move" So I choose to be the one, cos I couldnt afford to lose such dearly person. I am silly to try not to offend a friend of mine, but I think I should respect my heart. I could let go of my pride for once, cos I never wan to live with regrets again.

I hope to keep you in my pocket forever but forever is still so far. I hope to be the one you are waiting for. I hope my method of loving you would be right for you. I hope you felt the same as me, but it never will. & Hope you will enjoy the song.

I chose this song very wisely for you & JUST FOR YOU. It tells how I feel for you & wit your intelligence I am sure you can feel it too. I never regret knowing you, I never will cos you are the most wonderful SOULMATE I ever know. Though I think there is alot more for me to say but I think I shall stop here.

& Sir, I want my ESSAY asap<3

Sometimes when we touch by Olivia (Original singer - Dan Hill)

You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

In what you say or do

I'm only just beginning

To see the real you

(Chorus)

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold you till I die

Till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me
subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through all the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

Im just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

(Chorus)

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

And I know how hard you try

I watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

(Chorus)

Going to eat dinny wit Chris & then to work=)

Bid Here

Adious

My heart of the matter

My computer broke down for a couple of days, had alot of fun without it still

5 May 08 - Last Thur

Went to Liyana's place, hah.. watch 3 movies - Kingdom of Heaven, Rush Hour 3 & National Treasure 2..I cooked the dinner of the day & with the acc. of Isaaz, Aqilah & 3 of her cousins..

We had joy, we had fun, we had season in the sun=)

I had A RIDE TO HELL.. Dear friend, William called me cos he cant find Desmy.

William only called me for 2 things / people; 1-When he cant contact Desmy & 2-For r/s thingy..

He mentioned that he can get a car for a ride so he is askin Desmy & me to join..Aiya, I will cut the long story. Anyway my phone rang @ 2.40am & drag my ass out..Before I went out, I PRAY!! I reached home safety @ 5 plus in the morning..

6 May 08 - Last Friday

Went to Rachel's place for project work but ended up in her Karaoke room.. Thanks to Tracy, & for the first time we saw the bubbly side of her..hah~~

Met Desmy for dinner..we went to a park & I saw the swing..I fancy swinging alot hah SINCE YOUNG.. *I am young @ heart!!*

So there goes a day=)

7 May 08 - Last Sat

Woke up by my dad for the replay of Soccer match, Sg vs Uzb.

Aftermath, Dad drove us to Bishan to munch. Then they shopped around & to watch moive, I went to Taka for Desmy soccer match.. Drizzling & I was there an hour before I saw Desmy's team play.. Anyway, their team got in to the TOP 16 & such a pity cos they are the TOP 4. Anyway it is good enough though, in my eyes it is fantastic=)

He wants to go William's place to bathe, ALRIGHTY.. When William & girl went to bathe, we had a cat fight in his room involving a puppy. William's mum thought we are toring his room, hah.. Well, anyway I am the ultimate winner=) ahah.. We went to the coffeeshop to munch..

Home we go..

8 May 08 - Sun

I woke up @ 11am to prepare to go out..for Kung fu Panda wit TBC staff.. Desmy said he will be reachin @ 3pm but he reached @ 3.20pm..Tht really pissed me off a little, cos I loathe the feeling of being asked "Where your partner?" "Why he not here yet, etc" .. & The problem wit guys is to them it is nothing, cos most of the time they come later!!

Rosey & me(was bitting food).. Rose is super funny man, she intro his 2 sons to me as though she wants to sell the sons to me..hah

The group & Panda..

Movie aftermath, we were lost where to go..We ended up @ St James for a glass of mocktail each..=) hah.. Home sweet home..

9 May 08 - Mon

First day of work @ Harris Bar..heehee..I love working cos less time to whine=) With Desmy's acc to & fro work<3>

10 May 08 - Tues aka ytd..

Menses day..Fortunately, Desmy msged me to save me from dirtying my bed on time=) I had bad crumps, foul-tempered & Sensitive ytd.. I love Desmy to talk about Samuel, those jokes & the pissing side of him make him so CUTE=x..

Anyway, I had a slight fever yesterday=(

Everything about him is very love, I am so courageless to tell him though I think I have plenty to tell him. Sharing my daily life with him is the one of the thing can make me loved, but I am fearful I bored him most of the time. Time flies...

Today, I am going to start to write something for my Project & CK must always distub me when I am blogging!!

I am working tml!!

My heart of the matter..

Actually I dont know what exactly I want for love.. I am lost..I need my light!!

I probably continue next time if I can!!

Bid here

Adious