About Forbiden Owin

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When you know me, you will either love / loathe me due to my intelligence, wisdom, weirdness and level of sights . Pocket of surprises & fun . High quality & quantity of living & humor . Great taste for fashion, food, drinks & living . Enjoys gaining new knowledge and skills . Someone who love & appreciate to her heart . Indifferent to strangers' opinions about me . Only care about whom I love & how thy look at me. Straightforward . Unkind with words but kind at heart . Witty . Cunning . Romantic . Secretive . Could be Irritating . Outgoing . Humorous . Bubbly . Artistic . Creative . Stubborn . Ambitious . Mischievous . Love myself . Dislike complexity . Truth-seeker . Could say that I am jacks of most trade, yet to be master of one . The rest of her is for u to find out =)

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Moments to be remember

To a very dear friend of mine, I wont & never will I compare you with others. It is very easy to work a relationship out, that's why we are back to what we both think more comfortable. Never ask me about the future cos I cannot foresee it (If I could, I'll share). In your eyes now, he made me very happy that doesnt mean that you didnt give me sufficent happiness before.
It is like I asked for apple from both of you, he brought me 2 apples but you only brings me 1 apple. That doesnt mean that I will be unhappy cos you brought me 1 apple lesser than him, in fact I am more than happy cos you brought me 1.

I really loved you but now my love can only extent to a friend cos I have realised I not your love. I realised that I am not the one who could bring you happiness. Ask me who else can, I could only answer you that "You will definitely meet that person when the time is right" That is also why I allowed you to choose whether you wants to leave me without regrets.

So Silly Bun, move on cos I have moved on. Give me a ring if you need someone=)

My whole of last week was awesome!! & now I am having 2 tiresome weeks of holiday.
My wound is healing fast, so no worries.
My heart came back with more love than ever
My soul is whole again
My LIFE IS AT THE PRIME=D

I didnt want to think about him too much so I worked on last tuesday. The sweet thing is I was the first person he called unfortunately I was unable to pick up his calls. Bla Bla Bla~~

On Thursday, I had my Oral Exam which was a tragic I should say. The examiner asked me at the end of my session (btw I am the last person to be examined): "Did you stay in Amercia for some time?" Then I knew that "Oh God, I screwed it up!!" Well, I am taking a Cambrigde paper for christ sake!! Fcuk it..

On Friday, after Moots Competition I went to Taka to shop around for Sushi Ingredients & I finally met him at AMK Hub for movie, "12 Lotous" Then we went HOME, oh...he bought me "Diamonds"=) haha, the next morning we woke up & went to Compass Point with his mummy to shop for MORE SUSHI INGREDIENTS. Whilst his mum & i were heading home, his mum dropped him off at a bus-stop. Then, I went home to prepare the ingredients meanwhile had a "MINI" chit chat session with his dad, eventually felt pretty inspired by him.

A man who marked his word & make his name
A man who has got nothing to somebody who is so rich in everything.

Thereafter, Wayne & Chrissie came to help me & waited Desmy to come home & start the SUSHI FEAST. About 11 plus I headed home..& the following day, Sunday was lovely.
He made Sushi with the ingredients I have prepared & brought it over to my place @ 9++pm, SO SWEET RIGHT!! I melted & we took some pictures (below)

Anyway, his dad msged him to tell him tht the SUSHI feast is good=)

& Ytd, Rachel, Grace, Charles & myself went to school. Charles craved for BEANCURB so we went to Rochor to grab it, bought Beancurb for his mum & him. Aftermath, I met Chrissie & to Saragoon together. I met him in the bus-stop cos my books are damn heavy & so sweet of him=) Then, we watched DVD & had dinner (cooked by his mum) then home I go..

Here I am at home today, & I working later..
Tons of assignments piling up for me to complete..
I am seeing him tml (Wed)
Going to school & then work on Thurs
Surprise on Friday
Working on Sat
Exercising on Sun (maybe)

He bought this Crave Flower on the colourful soap for me & a green one for himself in BKK

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My Favourite Tee No. 2

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Da Diamonds

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That's him in BKK & he wants to share it wit him, so i have decided to share the love=)

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Aaaa, the Car he promised to buy for me ONE DAY!!

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That is us under void deck..

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This is my favourite pic<3>


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I am sorry that I didnt wan to take pictures wit you!! For now onwards, I promised plenty of it will be coming up=)

I missing my Liy & Shan=)
I missing YOU<3
Bid Here
Adious

Monday, August 18, 2008

Moment of Truth

Regarding the Moot Competition Exprience

Rachel & my team were knock out at the quater final cos of my lousy performance. I was super upset about it, but good thing is Rachel is the highest loser & she went on with Sharon. Hmm, when I was about to give up, my lecturer aka the Master of Moots, Anil called me & asked me to replace Tracy & move on with Grace. After some struggle with myself, I decided to go to the Semi-final meeting my ex opp, Adela & Onnicha whom I lost to!! I worked extremely hard, stood up in the library & finally my hard work paid off. I got a THIRD PLACE in the Moot Competition. My performance wasnt good to say but I guided Grace well & really GOOD herself. Our team point is 351 with only her talking & my brain is remarkable. I really feel extremely proud of myself for a moment & together with alot of encouragement from alot of my classmates & loved ones!!

I never felt as proud of myself till this part of my life, I am writting essays willingly & basically study English.

Tribute to
Desmy who was there all along to encourage me<3
Dad who has been tellin me that he is pretty proud of me..
My cliques - Grace, Rachel & Tracy..In my heart we are all winners=)
Grace, Thank you for doin a splendid job.
Tracy, Im sharing this honour with you cos it was yours in the first place!!
Rachel, you have been giving me the most support in all ways.
Vashon for reminding me of my strengths & weakness
Ezra, Charles, Lester & Cindy..The loved one & helped me alot throughout the whole mooting expriences

Thank you <3s

The past two weeks had been very hectic but fun. For Cindy's hardwork to cheer me up on 8 Aug (The Quater-final Round), she rather spend time together with Ezra, Her Bf & me @ the Mind's Cafe than her bf only. Aww how sweet!! Fortunate man, Jamie, you really have a good GF. The best part is both of them are so so fun, I could just "flirt" & joke with Jamie verbally. After the Semi-final Round, for most of us it actually had comes to an end except for Charles, Jayson, Diana & Jean. As an reward, the CEO decided to "buy" us beer. Weee, so couple of us went there Club Zara to drink with the lecturers & I went home at about 4am. Pictures for the great night will be updating soon!!!


This is Grace & me on her burstday @ Fish & Co.

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This is the picture we took in the Qualifying round; From left to right, Erza, Grace, Lester, myself & Cindy

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Regarding My Sweetest Pie<3
On 9 Aug mitnight, I went to his place & sleep with his immediate order=p.. After that day itself, he started to owe me more things, keekee..
On 11 Aug, I met him, William & girl to chill at Organic Cafe. We works extremely well to twist the mind of Mr William Chin!! Thanks to William Chin, we realised that Desdral is a nice name for my child in future.
On 13 Aug, I went over to his place after school & his mummy cook fried rice for us=) We were supposed to watch dvd but we were carried away Olympic Opening, talk through some stuff. I stupidly fell down while walking down the carpet stair & slept at 1/2 plus..The next morning, he woke up to cook breakfast for me, Egg & Cheese Sandwich=)
On 15 Aug, called me at 7plus to talk to me whilst he is going to the airport.

Anyway, I love to share the joke created by Desmy & me On 12 Aug, while I am on the train back home & was talking to him
[Des]: Which stop are you at now?
[Me]: Bishan
[Des]: So you are reaching home soon?
[Me]: HUH? Haha, Soon? Hello, I am going back to Woodlands not Yio Chu Kang / Seletar Hill Both of us laughed stupidly...

I am super bored & going crazy cos he went to Thailand for holiday for 5 days!! This is the forth day & I am dying cos no one to call me. Worst of all, I cannot sleep well. I have so much to tell him when he comes back, he loves my naggings & gossips.

I was quite decent when he is not around, went drinking & headed home on friday.
Saturday, met Chrissie & Wayne to play badminton at Changi Airport, I ended up havin aches all over my body.
Ytd, chatted with Joyce & Shine, talked to Shan for a while in the morning=) Then, I was at home watching the womens table tennis match with my funny dad!!
Jus now, when I was on my way home I almost cried cos I hav a bad fall wit a wound in my kneecap. I am really angry & depressed!!


Then I have come to realise that I am the most fortunate girl on earth with Desmond Choo around=) Can you please reward me handsomely when you are back tml!!=)

The only thing I didnt do is to study during the weekends=( I gotten back my Contract Assigment 1 & is not very good cos I randomly did it & it crashed with the moots then. No heart & soul put it, yea..Now tht I hav no excuse not to do badly therefore I better do well!! I am pondering carefully about the entry to King's College in London still.Hmm, just take my time since it is till Jan 09..It is indeed a great exposure but there are alot to consider, anyway I got to work for it first too. Hmm, finally my moot is over & I will then hav more time to study=)

Tht is all I wan to update for the 2 weeks.. Anyway,
I hav changed my blog song & thanks to Vashon & Rachel for the help=)
Very sweet song from me to you & my beloved besties classmates *winks*

I need to read up for Public Law tml first & I am working tml too for a couple of hours..
Thur, I might not be goin to school cos of my Oral exam..
Friday, going to school in the evenning for Moots & hopefully I am able to see you & leave my Sat to you=)


I am missing you 987654321123456789 times <3<3
Adious
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Saturday, August 2, 2008

Wonderful Wonderful, Thank you, you<3s

First Annoucement
I managed to win the Moot Competition Qualifying round against Alvin & Lester on 1 Aug(Fri)!! Which took some of Rachel & my effort to do it, I should say the majority of the work is done by Rachel. Unfortunately, she cant make it due to Medical Reason & what I did was jus stood there & got scolded most of the time but not as worst as the another team to lose.. I underestimated this competition by doing the preparatory work a week before & since I got into the second round. I am goin to work hard for it with Rachel, Grace, Tracy & Lester.=)

Most of my clique got into the next round, like Ezra & Cindy, Grace & Tracy, Charles & Jayson. Big Congrats to them..

This is what we took before my moot=)
From left - Alvin, myself, Lester, Grace, Cindy & Ezra

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After everything, Lester, Cindy, Lester, Adela, Ornicha, Jean, Mrs Chong & myself when to celebrate Grace's burstday.. Mini lunch nothing fancy... & Brought a cake for her=) Only left wit Cindy, Grace & myself eating the cake cos most of the rest left & Lester cant eat things wit MILK!!..

I really enjoyed my week alot especially with you<3..

Well, Mon & Tues are study days & were in the library most of the time..talk to Desmy & he told me that Wayne & Chris wants to go over his place on Wed for Fodue AGAIN!! So we concluded that HE should make PASTA for us & I decided to stay over cos it is more convenient to go to school the next day=) Anyway his MUM is the cook for the pasta..

However, on Wed itself, He was held back by work & I managed to submit the skeleton of my moot earlier. So I waited for him at the nearby coffeeshop & went to his place first to take a nap.. Before taking the nap, I was told to bathe first before lying on the germ free bed!! FINE, so I did..he came back when his mum was talkin to me about the Ex-Maid thingy & her actions made me LOL. I was disturbing him before we both managed took a nap till 7 plus & woke up for dinner.. Chrissie & Wayne came shortly & went up to watch twee before grabbing the Fodue..

Then they suggested to go to John's place to drink, the excuse was "John is going back to State for good"..FINE~~ tht means it is unvoidable for me to see Andrew..is not that I really detest seeing him or bla bla bla..Well, he is jus ... & I try my best to not to be so close to him.

However, he was "shocked" to see me & he mentioned my name umpteen times like "Sandral Owin" which was kinda irritating.. Then asked me some question regarding my current life. The only GOOD THING with Andrew in my eyes is that he helped girls to put on blanket when we are cold... The part where I can get a moment of peace is when Desmy asked me to go down to hav a small chit chat.. But then, he was kinda high alr..
Anyway, we went back to his place @ 2plus /3 to bathe & sleep..Reluctantly work up @ 8 to bathe & purposely ask Desmy to make Sandwich for me=D haha, then I head back to school=) Late though but I <3>
Thanks <3

Friday evening I watched very going Filiphino movie in Crunchyroll, When love Begins..
The leading Actor & Actress (Ben & Michelle)


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The leading actress said something so true & I have the same thought as her "I dont wan to have relationship cos in the end you just burt each other. There should be no expectation cos the more expectation, the more hurt & disappointment. & afterall nothing lasts forever, so I dont believe in love anymore"

Another quote is "Its very important that whoever becomes your spouse, above all should be also your BEST FRIEND cos there will come a point that the romance will be gone but the friendship of the couple still remains"

I like this movie alot cos it talks about some part of my life now. & I am using the song as my Blog Song - One Hello by Gary Valenciano

Yesterday, was working & decided to work on next Fri & Sat(maybe) only.. Work aftermath, when I was supposed / about to call that Darling Boy, he called which is so so so SWEET. Cos he set the alarm to wake up to call me..how lovely is he..
Thank you <3

Today, went to Rachel's place for the Moot Discussion & it is heading somewhere=) Aftermath, I walked to ECP for a moment of peace & I kinda miss the beach alot.. Took some pictures

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Goal & Important Event for the upcoming week..

1. Finish 3 assigment BY 5th Aug which is like 2 days more..
2. Prepare sufficently for Moot Competition
3. Watch The Mummy
4. Sentosa=)
5. Club wit my classmates=D

Lastly, still missing you & thank you for lovin me=)
Bid Here
Adious

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Final Distance

Hey there, I'm back to Earth from Heaven today so I need to blog it down before everything's gone.. It is going to be a lengthy one, cos it is about 1. School, 2. Work, 3. Friends 4. Family 5. Him<3>

I told him "Hey, I love this song, First Love - Utada Hikaru!!" then I asked him "Should I changed my Blog song?"
He replied "Change it to First Love since you like it so so much"
At that moment, I am sure that who knows me the best=) & true enough my Blog song for this entry & it was once. Thanks to Ezra for sending me First Love & Charles for the sharing of nice songs=) Also, Desmy who sent me Leader of the Band. Thanks <3


1. SCHOOL!!
My relationship with my classmates are progressing smoothly with majority of them, which I am very happy about it. Lessons & Tutorial are kinda hectic now, meanwhile I am disappointed wit myself cos I would figured the situation out but I cant seem to link them together=( Now that the class for sure has got one Excellent Gossip Topic & this particular topic brought same to my cliques & myself closer EVERYDAY!!

hah, it is DA GENIUS in Stansfield College, Dip in law 2008. Try talkin to him, wow~~ Trust me, only weirdo like me wouldnt mind to communicate with him. He is the smartest weirdo I have ever met, he is very resourceful however wrong thing at the wrong time. Though I laughed at him but I hoped I am able to do something to help.

Oh, I really need to share this joke wit all of you by DA GENIUS. On Thur morning, before Criminal Lecture start, we (Lester, Da Genius, Rachel, Grace, Tracy & myself) were having little chit chat session. Talking about the weather in Singapore is rather cold at 2a.m, suddenly DA GENIUS asked a RANDOM QUESTION "So does it snow?"

For a moment, I thought I heard wrongly so I stood up & asked him to repeat himself. So he repeated "I mean, does Singapore snow at 2a.m in the morning?"
The rest of them are giggling & I THINK there is a need to explain to him & I said "My dear, Singapore wont snow, NEVER snow, basically CANT SNOW cos if it does The world will end!!"
Then he asked "WHY?"

I was boiling inside, COMON 4 year-old Singapore toddler could answer it too, he is 21 year old & 100% pure Singapore breed!! I said "Darling, Singapore cant snow cos of the location, we are near the EQUATOR & the lowest degree Singapore can get to is probably 18degree. It is impossible to snow cos it need to be 0degree to froze / snow"

23/7 - Wed, Charles, Rachel, Grace & myself went to watch Red Cliff=) Wow~~ It is damn nice!!!

25/7 Friday, the Law Society member aka Recreation Committees organised an outing to the High Court/Supreme Court for a hearing. We dressed formally as we were told, so Charles & myself looks like couples as according to people. Vashon looks like CEO of a MNC, the turn up rate was fine, the pity thing is DA GENIUS cant come. Outing aftermath, we (Charles, Cindy, Erza, Grace, Lester, Rachel & myself) went to Pastamania with 4 more classmates & then only WE went to Anderson for dessert. Talked about DA GENIUS, who called Lester on the Thurs evening & said "Lester, I doubt I am going to the High Court with you guys cos I am going to the Supreme Court!"

Well, I LAUGH OUT LOUD!! cos in SINGAPORE, High Court is the same as Supreme Court!!!! WTF, anyway,we all went to our individual ways aftermath.


2. Work=(
So I had to go to work, WHAT A Friday!! I hasnt been so depressed for this year 2008 & had served more than 500 customers I think this is the first mishap, luckily there is FIONA to make it better for me. Thanks to her=) I shall not get into the details cos it is pointless to blog about adults who are so TYPICALLY Singaporean. Eeee~~ Disgusts me full time, call me if you wanna to know the story.


3. Friends @.@
Randomly, met Miho @ my work place. She is the another only ladies who were in the Tiger Brewery Tour with me when I went there with Kola & firends. Very nice of her to remember me. She is old but young-looking still, half Japanese & local.

Met Liyana to school on 22/7 - Tuesday... Yet to see Hui Shan, on this coming Friday to Sentosa!!! Met Chrissie & Wayne at Desmy's place yesterday..

I gotten an piece of not so good news for Weida that Yong Sheng's dad had passed away on last Sunday. I am sending my late condolences here on behalf of the class, with many love & bless you<3


4. Family 0_0
Soso, didnt really get to see my sisters this day especially I wasnt at home ytd. My feifei is fine=) Dad is good, I hope my mum is too... T.B.C...


5. Everyday, Yesterday & Him = Finally Found <3
Well, My week probably wont ends this spendid without him, talking to me, teasing me, comforting me, joking with me or vice versa. Ytd, we broke the ice for not seeing each other for 2 entire weeks.

I wanted to go Sentosa ytd, however I was too lazy/tired to go. He called me @ 1 plus in the afternoon, talked & bla bla bla...Concluded that I will go Bishan to buy Chicken rice for him, his parents & myself then meet him @ 7pm (after his soccer) at the bus-stop opposite J8. Then after dinner is Fodue time!!

So I did abit of revision & dicovered my MENSES=( is here before I went out. I brought & bought some fruits with me & then Q up for the Chicken rice (half chicken & 4 packet of rice). He msg-ed/called me at the correct time, 7.10pm when I just finished buyin everything. He said his firend will be givin him a lift to Bishan & will reached @ 10 min or so.. GREAT!! He reached 50-55min later & I was kinda pissed off cos I have not taken any meal & the Chicken rice smell was driving me crazy.

When we reached his place, Lesley was overwhelming to see me so he decided to give me a few scratches. Then quickly set up for dinner, left some chicken for Chrissie cos she love it too & his family & myself start eating.. After dinner, we both & his mum were in the kitchen washing dishes & cutting fruits for the Fodue. His parents offered me the Durian Pancake but I decided to give to Chrissie cos she like it too. About 11p.m then we started to eat the Fodue, which is super unhealthy & HE will NEVER STOP to disturb me. I asked him to pour a GLASS of water, he came out wit a BOWL of water & I stared at him!!! He wants me to drink water like Lesly, his dog!! Argh~~ Of cos, he changed a glass for me & after the Fodue, we went up to watch 2 movies, meanwhile he INSISTED that we should watch a little part of GARFIELD sence!!!

Chrissie & Wayne headed home after the movies at about 4.30am & we went back to sleep. As usual, his snoring=) Woke up for breakfast at 11am today with his mum. His mummy is damn nice, I didnt bring my toothbrush cos I didnt really plan to stay so she giv me one. She drove us to AMK to eat, we saw a very chubby baby & she started to describe DESMOND baby time!! HAHA~~

Oh, regarding the essay..He binded himself to hand it to me by coming Friday..


6. Important upcoming event & my goals for the week.
1. Finish my assisgement asap
2. Tuitorial Questions
3. Moot Competition on Friday
4. Wedding Daze
5. The Mummy - Tomb of the Dragon Emperor
6. 8.8.08 - The Opening of Olympic 2008
7. "GCE" O level Oral Exam=) in Aug

I have finished reading My Sister's Keeper=)
I think it is kinda heavy for today=) I am going to do my work now, will update soon!

I am missing you alot, my silly <3

Bid Here

Adious

Friday, July 18, 2008

Once again, another week is gone

Nothing very special & good happened recently cos I didnt get to see him=( Been thinkin alot recently.."What are we actually meant to each other?"

He answered: "You are Garfield & I am me!!" DUMMY HIPPO!!"

Still love so shhhh..He kinda irritated me wit "Oh, you make used of me!!" Of course, none of us know that is true, I talked to you cos I love=) I NEED to see you soon soon soon<3

Studies is alright, I need to re-structure the concept about Contract apart from him, the rest are so-so.. Moot Competition is yet to be done.. I shall start it tml!!

Classmates are loved=) Haha.. Before Grace, Rachel, Tracy & myself went for movie - The Dark Knight yesterday, Ezra, Charles, Andy & us were munching lunch together=)

First, we Gossip.. Second, we Gossip..Lastly, nevertheless, we GOSSIP=) haha..then we talked about the future, goals & aims..& Abusing of HUSBAND ahah~~

The Dark Knight is awesome!! Please dont miss it!! Rachel died=( Heath Ledger as the joker is great!! Bless & with love, the talented dies young

My Sisters' Keeper too=) I cried & learnt alot from the book.

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Sentosa is postponed to 1 August aka my Moot Com.!!! Argh~~

Today I am goin to work till 2am. Argh!! Some people are naturally screwed up, thinks tht SENIORITY would make them formidden, FCUK YOU, I dont buy that. Shame on them, not owning a skill of own yet they thinks that they are geunis..My foot!! Showing them, CAPABILITY is the word!! I think I goin to work on Fri only for next week.

Tml & Sunday, will start researchin on my Moot Competition & Revision.

Fei fei & me=)

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Spastic ASS!!

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Missing you dearly
Bid Here
Adious

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I am just dedicating another song to you<3... ...

Gentle reminder, in case you guys have not read the yesterday's post, STROLL down!!

Well, I am jus here to change my blog song JUS FOR YOU=) Thanks to Shan!!
Yesterday during work, I am super tired but seeing you brightens my life. It is not that I detest you but I dont wan you to see me IN MESS!!

I HATE that you are pampering / spoiling me too much, BUT I thank you & love you for that cos I know everyday I am loved.
I HATE that the fact you came into my life at such a right time.
I told myself that I merely know you for a couples of month, cos I HATE the fact I falling deeply for you.
I HATE that the many many topics with you cos it keeps me in supense about when it will end. I HATE the fact that I am not in dream.
I HATE the fact is we are so DIFFERENT, cos the theory of mine!!
I HATE that my FRIENDS could tell I am in love.

You are NOT the rebound of my previous date. Trust me, you are loved for you are you. Everytime, I recall the day we met, the day we first hang out, the day I hav a crush on you, I told myself that "Ah...LUCKY, IT HAPPENED!!" I thank GOD for everyday becos you are here... ...

Cos I know you are someone who appreciates, you somehow could recall the movies we hav watched together, SO FAR. You have been a WONDERFUL LISTENER compared to me, whereas I am a FULL-TIME WHINNER!! =( Sorry for that..

I am changing my blog song for you, a LITTLE thing I could do compared the MANY thing you did for me. It is called Finally Found by Honeyz..

Lyrics

I can't believe you're here with me
And now it seems my world's complete
And I never want this moment to end
I close my eyes and still I see
My dreams become reality
And now I know how it feels to be in love
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
I think it's time for you to hear these lines

(Chorus)
'Cos there's something I want to say
I finally found what I've been looking for
And now you know I'm going to love you more
Hold me tight 'cos it's always been you(It's always been you)
To think that you were always there (always there)
To be my friend and wipe away my tears
Now it's clear that it's always been you

Sometimes you don't expect that friends
Can become lovers in the end
Only God knows what the future will bring
So hold me close and don't let go
'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?
And we're gonna be together for eternity
I prayed so many nights that you would come my way
An angel from above to light my darkest day
A love so strong it can't be wrong

(Chorus)

(This time) this time I'm gonna make sure it turns out right
I wanna be your everything and by your side
For the rest of my life
(This love)This love feels the way that love should be
Look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise

(Chorus) X3


Also,
I have brought the song I posted ytd to here, in case some peeps will love it!! It is a very JAZZY song by a Indonesian Band~~

Me & my Boyfriend - Mocca

Me and my boyfriend - Mocca


Lastly, Im still waiting for my essay & miss you still<3

Liyana & Shan: Our next outing is coming up soon!!! Alrighty..
Vidya: Sweetie, I am not angry wit you

Bid Here
Adious

Friday, July 11, 2008

Boyfriendsss!!

Friday is today, I am super shag. I am basically not goin to do anything today cos I going not to work later..

I will start my tuitorial questions Tommorrow & Sunday!! I was thinking how I could excel in my studies, after days of pondering. I hav decided to call my 4 subjects as my boyfriends. I very a very good / smart way to discover "How guys works?" etc. Of cos, I cant share such a wide topic with you guys here, it is an inborn=p

Anyway, I use the method on my studies to get to a higher / highest level since this method has helped me to enter / build my knowledge for lots of guys. Therefore, I could sense the usefulness of it. However, this time I need to take care of 4 + 1, total 5 boys=)

Planner for tommorrow & sunday!
1. Complete & Read thru of notes for the 4 (Within an 1 hr)
2. Start reading the question & research (App. 1 an half hr)
3. Compile & Write the essay (3 hrs)
4. Do the question(s) which I am supposed to find out (2hr)
5. Read thru & research for Moot's

Argh, It's looks easier than doing.. Wht I am lacking is more DETERMINATION..

Anyway, VASHON talked to me!!! Yah-ness!! Haha, OMG she is such a nice person=)=)
I love Erza as a friend cos he is simply honest to me, cos I believe as friends honestly is very impt. Whether should I change wht I am anot is up to me, As FRIENDS we learn from one another.

Being pointed out for the bad points of ourselves might seem an insult, but it is also BETTER to be pointed out THAN backstabbed, Right? I loathe the feeling of being commented behide my back, cos I love to grow. I desipes people who comments behide my back, arrogant, self-centered & so full of themselves.

They are jus simply SMALL, the worst kind of the society.

Hmm, Wed is a fine day, cos Desmy came to here to eat But Kut Teh wit me=) Everyday is LOVE cos wit him around. But I find tht our topic is getting narrower daily, it is cos he is tired of me?

Yesterday aka Thur is a nice day cos school aftermath Charles, Mrs Chong & myself went to Funan mall to see wht lappy should we buy=) hmm, lovely!! Thanks her for my glass of PEACH ME UP=)

Mrs Chong mentioned about the "Literate & Uneducated" & "Illiterate & Educated" comparsion is something I will never forget. It is true that we all have 2 Age, "The Birth Age" & "The Mental Age"=)

I woke up readin the BBC.com.. The HoC is so different in UK, they questioned the PM like WOW~~

All thanks to Andy, we all are going to Rachel's place to sing on coming Thursday!!

Anyway, my latest blog song - Me & my boyfriend is a random search, stay tune. It is a nice & sweet song sang by a Indonesian Band!! Wow~~ So Jazzy=)

Missing all my loves & the one & only love<3
Bid Here
Adious

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Nothing much

If you could have just realise that we should stop running away, it would be nice for both of us, isnt it?
It is always for you, I think my world is much more meaningful.
It is always for you, I find myself saying spastic words to.
It is always for you, I am sure I will commit myself to.
It is always for you, I dont wan to run away from.
It is always for you, I hate to wake up from this dream.
It is always for you, I am so afraid you will know & dont know.
I have been a hitch-ress, advicing people is my forte. However, only myself knows that is my weakness.



Back to my life!!
Ezra & myself are currently dicussing about the soldier who took the rifle out of camp, well is it merely a discussion but GOOD ONE..Such a pity one, he should be in his prime now, anyway Wht to do! Wht's is done cannot be undone.

As a Law student, now while we are getting the concept of the law. I personally think I am seeing more blacker side of the way government in various countries works, which somehow grossed me but I hav to accept it.
Chris knows, I might be part of the black side too.

Anyway, a newsy to share..
A 70-year-old woman given BIRTH to a twins in India!!
Desmy said "Wow, she must be strong!!"

Yesterday, only a handful of the class brought the correct book to school. I, being the confused one brought the wrong book=) dumb dumb!! Concepts for the my 4 new BFs are still blur!! haha~~

Dont get into the wrong idea, my 4 BFs are - Criminal, Public, Common, Contract=)

I told Desmy that I have learn a meaningful latin phrase & he asked me to blog it out ..

"Promissory e stoppel" which means Let the decision stand

School aftermath was equally cool cos I met Liyana & Shan. Gossip, Talking are the never ending thing to do... Good times flies extremely fast=) But every minute is loved...

I am lookin forward to Sentosa wit my 2 NO CHOICE but besties & ROLL to school with Liyana~

Now I am goin to read my Fav Book - My Sister's Keeper

Bid Here

Adious

Saturday, July 5, 2008

I have a question to ask... ...

Why everyone is telling me "I think that you & him needs HELP!!" & "I seriously dont know what's going on between both of you"?

Do we really have problem(s) which needed help, COS I cant see the PROBLEM? We are CLOSE FRIENDS maybe more than that..ya, it is so simple & why you guys are trying to CONFUSE me!!!

JEEZ, Please Enlighten me...

Well, I am over the moon when people start viewing my blog & tell me that "Hey, your blog is very meaningful" not cos of the fame I have but is when I am able to share my knowledge / expriences with each individual.. & I am not a blogger who jus blogs about BGR & FRIENDSHIP cos I am a learner for life!!

"NEVER BE STINGY WHEN IT COMES TO KNOWLEDGE" cos when you share, you will learn!

Anyway, Thanks for reading my idiotic blog=)

I have changed my blog song to classic song but with a new hippy melody, the original singer was Ben E. King. This version is by Kim Ah Jung (200 Pound Beauty) & the song is Stand By Me=)

Everyday is a LEARNING day, believe it anot!! The moment we steps out of our house, is the matter of WHEN it will comes to your realisation & till then DONT BELITTLE it!!

Hmm, on thursday morning on my way to school, while I was in the lift it stopped at a certain floor (i think is 7th storey) a maid & 2 kids came in. It is obvious that the maid is sending the elder boy to school & no one is at home so the younger one have to tag along.

My story starts here, the younger boy stepped on one of my foot & I didnt moved cos I am afraid that he will fall. When he turned back and look at me, I realised that he is a different kid; not normal. I have asked myself what I will do if I am the parents of that child? The answer is I am not as strong to take the blow that my kid is different & I respect the parents... ...

On the same day, school aftermath for most of my classmate is probably home sweet home time. It is different for Ezra, Charles & myself cos we will go for lunch & talk. On wednesday, when the three of us decided to munch, we asked Diana to join us. Honestly speaking, we got to know more about her & she have shared us a lot of knowledge about Homosexual Community. Therefore, on Thursday, our special guest was Mrs Chong / Mdm Hee, she is 62 this year. She talked about her past 32 years in Aust., her 2 kids, love, the political issues, health & her anxious-ness over the capability to study Law.

First, she talks about the spouse of every individual SHOULD BE different / opposite of ourselves which is seriously true!! I always tell people that your half should be the opposite of you to cover your imperfection. Herself as an example, Her husband & her are simply different in life, except for some hobbies which bonded them together. Secondly, I personally think that apart from the memorising part, she should be better than most of us in the class cos of her worldly exposure. So if she has so much to worry about, I should be trembling at most of the time. Lastly, her strong power of going to study a specific course is a motivation to we(the young people), TELLING us that we shouldnt stop here. Cos dispite of her not so good health, she has to endure the medicine & manage her work, be it school & house work!!

Then my realisation comes about!! That PEOPLE like the kid I met in the lift, Mdm Hee do not hav the choice to born different & not healthy. But they still live up their heads & face / cherish their lives alot. An extraordinary man I like to bring up is The Treeman, when he was 15 year-old, he has a cut & gotten a weird infection & tree branches all over himself. His wife left him & the 2 children, & he works HARD in a circus troupe.

This is him

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Well, I went to P.S to watch

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It is simply touching, & it is true that the dog can keep their promises more than any human being. Well, simply ask yourself, how many Simple Promises to make is live up to Expectation? I have to be very honest that for me very little!! & the song is absolutely sweet; Time after time=) & I met Charles in P.S..haha~~

Was pissed with Desmy ytd cos I waited for him like an idiot, & he almost missed the movie date cos of his hangover. See, I not angry cos he went clubbing / drinking cos no rights for me to be but is his irresponsibility which I am disappointed about. No matter what, I demands an APOLOGY before any conversation should start. I barely talk to himself until we met Jansen who help to lighten the atmosphere. I called Hui Shan & share my anger with her but it seems like she is trying to put good words for him to make me less angry. I bought JODI's book, The Sisters' Keeper which Rachel recommended!!

I told Bree that I was dressing is a TURN OFF in DBO ytd, & simply screwed up my image cos I didnt have the intention to club / drink at all. She is so sweet to comfort me, haha.. I am sorry to miss the clubbing session wit you today!! I will make up!!

Jansen, the cute one.. was pretty sweet to comfort about my attire too!! He is going to shave his long hair on Wed & start his 2 years of service..He told me alot of things about Desmy on the way to MOS which I sorta know it but it proves that Desmy has such a dear friend. William put alot of nice word to simmer my anger for him too=) I dont know what's going on but it seem like everyone took DESMY'S PILL=)

There were only Wen Hao, Jansen, Desmy & myself, on top of this alot of their friends..After all the clubbing, we decided to go Macdy for munch, funny stuff & talking about girls!! The funniest thing Jansen did is to take pictures of a girl who looks like Hannah Motana SECRETLY!! Wen Hao & myself got to jus assume Jansen left his BALLs at home. Wen Hao, on the other hand sat far away from that girl could hear her conversation which is a joke. I WAS SITTING so near to her yet I didnt hear it!! JEEZ!! Last joke for the day is between Desmy & Jansen, Jansen tries to feed me a fries & Desmy was saying "You dare to feed her!!" bla bla bla..Anyway it is an act only..

So Wen Hao & myself took a cab home & when I was about to reach home I recieved a Pirvate no. & literally scares me out of my bra..it was Desmy who called immediately when he reached home=)

Today, I chatted wit Zac & Shine who I miss alot alot!! haha, talkin to Desmy now, currently an idiot who is tryin hard to cook his lunch=) I am going to work later!! Haha..

Tml, I have to stay at home to figure out the Rule of Law!! Haha.. & Monday, Contract law & Sweet lunch meeting with my 2 besties

Do visit my Friend's Online Shop!! http://ziro-loves.blogspot.com/

Lastly, I love to share with you all 2 Chinese Song regarding Universal Love, & when I heard it it usuallly makes me feel like crying ... My Vulnerability =)

爱 因为在心中




手牵手




I will be missing you alot, my stupid <3
Bid Here
Adious

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Forte

Argh!! School is Awesome to a LARGE extent.. maybe there is a issue which is bothering me in class..

Well, due to my bluntness, I have ask a too liberal to a classmate on the first day of school & might cause the female classmates to think that I am a bimbo now man=(

Why did I say tht? Cos it is proven, while I was havin lunch wit another classmate to today..

Long Story & Lots of Hard work to be put in, to show them the better side of me.. Hopefully, they will giv me a chance to do so.

My opposition, Class Head, Mr Ezra, he did me 2 great favours. Firstly, he apologised to Vashon(The girl who I have accidently hurted) on behalf of me. Secondly, he reminded me that Singapore is still a conservative country & he convinced me by making me guilty..

Well, I am a BIT stubborn dudey.. When senses are carrying into my ears, it will goes to my head though I dont admit cos my ego. But deep down I might possibility accepted your point of view. & my dad repriminded me for it, Andrew (The DJ) nagged & laughed at me about it.

THANKS EZRA, my opposition, I am looking towards a great year in school!! All these days after having lunch wit you, I am surprised that you have something good about me to say..HAHA~~ & I must say you are very unqiue individual / friend!!=)

& my CLIQUE.. Grace, Rachel & Tracy..YOU GUYS are the best!!

Classes are super interesting, after learning Law, it is MY FORTE. I may not the best in class at least I managed to perform the best of me. Today, I hav a new set of goals to carry out promply in my life..

Mon - Contract Law -
Tues - Public Law - Powerful, Loud Lecturer!!
Wed aka today - Common law & Reasoning - Rather confusing, but it is managable!!

We are basically learning English, Mature Thinking, Theory & I never find lesson could be so fun=) I am looking forward to Criminal Law tml!! & will be meeting Andy to school=) Not to forget Charles=)

Well, they are all smart people & I dont want to be left out so I will be WORKING HARD!!

Ytd, I hav a gust of happiness flowing inside my veins & I hav the time to go down to church to pray.. Well, a funeral was taking place in the church & mixture of thoughts start to float out of my mind... ... I guessed this is called Human Vulnerability...

Newsy are all abour ANWAR & SEX scandal daily on the Straits Times.. .. ARGH!!!!

My campus moved to SIC building & tht means I am closer to Liyana's Campus~~~ Haha...
I love my true BESTIEs=) Shan & Liyana cos they are my pole & I will always try to be there when they needs me!! I am dying to see yousss~~ I am not a lovers' pet & stop trying to seduce him!!!

To Fabian, I didnt wan to show my indifference to our friendship but due to your immaturity & your inconsideration which fails our friendship. As much as your FRIENDS are more important than bitches like me, I apologised sincerely. As much as I am told myself that I will wan to Cherish all Friendships, from the past failure Friendships if my friends failed me I see no NEED to be bothered about it. I DID gave you & them an extra chance...

You know why? If I am that LOUSY which you think / assume I am, then there will be not people who like me.. If so, are you going to say the people who like me as a friend are lousy too?

Sadly, I dont think this way cos I am a positive person. I am going to say that the people who fails me, just like you who is just not meant to befriend wit me / to say our views collided & you are not being flexible enough=)

Trust me, LOATHING me wont make you happy=)

Lastly, I am going to see Desmy the day AFTER tml for movie & candlie-light dinny!! RIGHT~~
& I have not talk to him for the entire day=(

I have change my BLOG SONG to LOVE SONG.. Despite of the new friends I jus know, you are still the only one=)
Hope you guys will enjoy it & School I come tml=)

I am missing my friends & you<3
Bid Here
Adious

Saturday, June 28, 2008

All for LOVE

The time now is 12:12pm, my burstday=) & I'm eating Dragonfruit *yummy*

Everything I want to blog is ALL ABOUT LOVE

This is a lengthy one cos there are 3 long chapters about my LOVEs i am going to blog about, it is never going to be one type of RANDOM LOVE where young girls think tht is LOVE.

Without LOVE, my life couldnt be so wonderful
Without LOVE, my heart probably will stop beating
Without LOVE, my smile cannot be this bright
The best of the best is that I have all to LOVE...

When you truely LOVE someone, you will hate the one as much as you love.
When you truely LOVE someone, you jus need to think of the one to forget all the unhappiness.
When you truely LOVE someone, the LOVE will grow.

I would love to quote an example - My family Love, though is not ALL yet but it always start from little.

On Thursday (26 June 08), My dad & myself were in the living room, watching TV & using com respectively. My beloved brother was in the room closing the door (assuming he turned on the air-con & was watching TV).

Suddenly I smelled a strong burning & then my dad went into the room, a gust of black smoke coming out of the room. So I ran across the smoke & saw my brother was trying to put off the fire. He tried to keep mute for his mistake which is something my dad & myself think it's super hilarious. Luckily, the fire wasnt that huge however we had a hard time clearing up the mess.

The fact is my brother he found a box of matchstick @ the nearby playground couples of day ago. He is playful & smart enough to play INSIDE the room while he is watching the television. The cutest thing is that he went to my room to sleep & I had to carry him back to his room after we cleaned the room.

The moral of the story is that though we both were angry about the playing fire thingy but we love it as much as we loathes it. By thinking he is trying to put of the fire himself, my dad & myself were laughing over it while we are wiping the windows.


Why did I say I have ALL TO LOVE, cos I'm able to love myself & FRIENDS to LOVE.

On wed (25 June 08), I decided to love / indugle myself & meanwhile TRYING to use the minimum amount of money, which is something I'm proud that I managed to do both but still I spent an unnecessary $14 buck @ Butter Fac. *Argh* on ONLY A GLASS OF WHISKY.

Bree is LOVED, so so love. She spotted a guy from far whom I hardly can see, saying that he looks good which I cannot denied after I have seen him close=) HOW CLOSE? We DANCED!! He is hot, half jap. & best part he is a dance instructor!! We did exchanged no. but nothing will be happening to us cos I am in LOVE wit <3>

Talked to DJ Andrew when he is busy, well he looks better in real~~ Shino (the hottie jap) wasnt the only person we got to know, there is his friends aka Biz partner, Julian & Taddi. They are all Awesome people~~, no joke REAL AWESOME Devils!!

Sadly, Bree & friends gotten leave to home & Butter Factory is kinda dull so I took a cab back to Clarke Quay, Attica. Haha, I was dancing wit myself not long after a causasian danced wit me & BEST PART - Free flow of drinks which makes me tispy. & if you guys think I am dull cos I didnt take a single picture!! YOU ARE WRONG, I remembered that camera are flashing BUT I was too high to exchange no. & so i hav no pictures to post.

I almost got abducted by one of them, luckily YONG AN, literally came to my resuce. So I went to Boat Quay to munch & the uncles took care of me & my belongings. I waited for the first train, impressively I reached home safe & sound.

Speaking of friends, I am missing the TWO ANGELS on the top of my friends' list=)
& Joyce, Shine, BREE, my clique in school!!
Lastly Chocolate Kola, I am going to see you soon I promise!!


The last kind of LOVE - Love for someone who is capable to make the heart beats rapidly & stop instantly

The one I have so much of affections for, the one I truely want to wrote this blog to & all thanks to him for all the beautiful LOVE songs I posted.

He likes to listen to FM 95.0 before he sleeps & truely there are alot of nice LOVE Songs. Now that I am addicted to it, I decided to find a Song JUST FOR HIM. I have the habit of finding a SONG which is represents my love for my bf/the one i love. So I was listening to the FM 95.0 for the past one week, I still cant find a suitable song for him.

Then I realised the reason behind the fruitless hardwork is that; -

He is the creator of the sentences I constructed
He is the love song I am searching for
He is the lyrics who is inside my heart
He is the melody who plays within me
He is the more than the rivers that run the land.
He is the unlimited star who shines my heart
He is the sweet who never melts inside my mouth
He is the love who never rest to keep me strong
He is the everything of nothing in my eyes

This super sweet BLOG SONG I'm sharing is playing inside my heart by Bryan Adams - All for love

You stood in front of me @ my workplace after I hung up the phone with you for less than 30min yesterday. Though I am super exhuasted after work, I cant help to smile when I think about you. The future is so unknown, I didnt wan to keep hopes inside myself cos I wan you to be the last person who disappoints me cos I am not your kind of slim, short hair girls=)

Teaching Pan Pan English is an achievement, I found a perfect way for her to master English & now she is more motivated to learn. =)

As much as I am looking forward to start school on Monday, I cant wait to see you & the moive on Friday=p

Argh, I am working today & I doubt I will wan to club tonight!! Sorry to disappoint you, Devil Andrew~~
Tml, will be watching movie - "Wanted" with Shine=) & will catch the TV show Narnia with Fei Fei as promised.

Lastly, I want to post some random picture of you, MR DESMY<3>

Hey tht's me!!

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Desmy<3

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Bid Here
Adious

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Love Aroma

I had an awesome weekends, thanks L.O.V.E.S & CLEO

Due to work, I slept @ 5am on Saturday & I woke up @ 10am to prepare for the CLEO Swimsuit Photoshoot. Chrissie isnt able to make it, so I went with Liyana, Aqilah, Tasha, Denna & Nasriah.

This is the very first time, Liyana & me hangout in Sentosa during weekends.. Bad for you Hui Shan, you shall wait for next year. I love the both of you 987654321 times=)

However I in the letter "O" which is thousand miles away from their letter "C" & "L" (well, thousand miles is exaggerating), fortunately I AM NOT ALONE & not forgetting the guy who applied SUN BLOCK lotion for me=)

I believed that Friendship should be something like us; never hesitiate to give
& take - I understand the little time we have so we never will waste it
away. Thats why we are still friends & we will still be=)


Allow the picture to say the sparkers..

Liyana & Myself

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From left; Liyana, Aqilah, Nasriah , Tasha, Denna & myself

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Just me & you~~ All thanks to Bree & Kim

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From left; Bree, Bree's friend, Kim, myself & Mr Photographer

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The affinity to know one another; I look simply ugly in this picture!!

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Lastly, we will like to thank CLEO

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I really need to thank for 987654321 times cos I met 1 nice girls & 1 click!! That is Kim & Bree=)
Bree is fun-ness & loved, the best of best is she is a paralegal who works in a law firm though she is majored in English. We are so alike for all the differences, she doesnt look 22 & she is simply fun. The best part, a new PARTY partner isnt it absolute cool-ness. I cant wait to go clubbing wit her~~

Photoshoot was a success, REMEMBER to purchase the next issue of CLEO Mag=D

Photoshoot aftermath, I parted from the rest & went to Cafe Del Mar & know 2 girls from UK & staying in Sg, Awesome cool-ness=)

Then on my way home, Desmy called & I am super hungry cos I didnt munch anything for the whole day=( Bla Bla Bla~~ Ordered pastamania & watch Lord of the Ring I with fei fei~~ Talked to Desmy with anger cos my mum really pisses me 123456789 times & I really feel like crying but again with him there will only be smiles & there goes my day.... ....

On Sunday, I wanted to go for a walk & so I asked Desmy along, so he suggested to do so in the evening, FINE~~ haha, no hard feelings.

Watched the show "Age of Miracle" and I cried badly, wanna know why? Cos it shows how great is the love of a mother & the reason I cried was tht maybe I longed for this love too long BUT never will I get it full=) Maybe...

Went AMK hub to meet Desmy & I was a bit late (I sweared is A BIT!!), then we went to Bishan Park to stroll. Everything was nice until the Bull Frog came into the picture..I had a gust of feeling to hold him tight but how courageless I am.. Anyway it was a nice walk to be remember.. ..

Ytd, was spendin the whole day to ponder my project @ home, My stupid brain cant think wht to write for a last question!! I also wondered why Desmy & myself have so much to share... haha

Today, before I wrote this blog & change my blog song due to retrospecting, haha, Close to you by Carpenter, I was woke up by Jazyln & I woke Desmy up=). Anyway, the lyrics is so sweet and makes me wannabe close to you too=) hah~~

I have received my GCE "O" level English timetable & I am officially starting school in 6 DAYS time!!! *Nervous*

I have also recorded a song weeks back, My Valentine with the original singer in the backgroud. It is jus a random recording, maybe I spoilt the song though I hoped I dont.. plus I can only convert to 1 min... Do feedback to me~~


My Valentine - Sandral

Gotta work later=)
I love my NEW & OLD FRIENDS & YOU<3
Bid Here
Adious