I am much better now & apologised for making those who cares about me to worry for me. After all what's done is done, although very bothered & scared. I am sure I not going to do good & get to good University in UK now, but being able to go there & start afresh is a bonus to me.
Indeed, too many things are happening around me, it is very annoying & distracting. However so, life has to move on. I am going to move faster & better=) To people who dont appreciate the truth, really I wouldnt be bothered. I am tired of staying with dummies & I doing everything in my means not to!! I couldnt fall asleep ytd after chatting with a secondary school friend; not too close but had a crush on him before. He given me a question, a tough one & he is still a debater!!
The conversation goes like this & started off by Man U!! ;
[Me]: I think it is true to aim for the moon & even if I fail I will for on the stars!
[Him]: I still think you aiming too high, if law is your moon, what is your stars? Have you thought about it?
[Me]: Hmm, good thought & I will start thinking!
This question haunts me the whole night & I finally found the answer. Honestly, all this while (past one year or so) it seem like a dream to me. A dream which is too beautiful to be true, & often I asked myself was I being not realistic enough? I have the courage to study what I always wanted, I am enjoying it. That is the thing, I will do anything & everything for it because I am driven. Dreams doesnt come this far, I, myself, make things come this far. Reading a thousand pages of Book is not a lovable thing, but I love it. I fell in love with it than I ever fall for any guys.
Unfortunately, MY STARS WILL STILL BE LAW!! Miser, you are right that if others have done it, I could. The fact is I am not working hard enough. I will not heel your advice to do any other things, because law is something I am coping good at & I will do well in the future. Being realistic is one good thing but I believed I able to push myself to a limit. Studying in the middle of the night is a joke & only jokers will do it. I am very willing to be that joker no 1!! If I am failing, I will re-take till I pass, just like how I did for my English & I never a mockery since then. I have a goals in life that I want to fulfil, no matter how many turns & circle I have to make, I will make it there.
Miser, if you dont like your course, change it now!! Trust me, do something you like & you will do it good in time to come. Please, stop bahaving like a chinese!! Speak nicely & praise when you want to!! Chinese always think that acting cool is very cool, that is why you are so bad with love!! You should learn from more from Cauasians, 그렇죠 (alright)?
To my excellent friends & love, I couldnt have come this far without you. I was told that I am able to make you guys smile, but little that you know, I smiled because I have each & everyone of you. I start to believe in friends, who are honest, straightforward, matured & beautiful in own every own way, at times we argues & get mad but we are very sincere, at least that what I think. So, on Firday my tickets for Angels & Demon will be on you guys!! *Wink*
Boyfriend, boyfriend, Thanks for being for patience throughout this tough period of my time. When my faith & belief is challenged, you challenged me=) I changed; I will only have 2 instead of 7=) You & Kim Hyun Joong, 알았 (okie)! I am going crazy over KHJ & I am determined to learn Korean when I start University!! I am dying & meeting him is my goal too!! Girls, you aint my match, shoo shoo!! Haha, obssessive now for an 우상 (idol).
Haha..I finished watching BOF ytd, studied very little but good thing is I've done some of my revision of Common Law & Contract Law. After my exam, I have to take 2 more test & my driving licence too=) I am going to work too; I hate to slack meanwhile. I earn $$ & determine to silm down more!! Most of the time, I am drinking tea now & quit eating!! Now I am still goin to study right away, this is a song from BOF which I am totally in love for it as for now!! Yearning Heart has Pretty Lyrics & driving me crazy, click to hear out the whole song!!
내 하나의 사랑, 죄송합니다 와 고맙습니다! (My loves one, Thank you & Sorry)
생일 축하합니다, fei fei (Jun Long)
Bless you
Adious
TaTa
