This year, it is indeed a special year where I truely felt that I am bliss. Thinking back, I changed to really appreciates small / tiny stuff, cry much more even for the slightly happy things in life, lost count with those smil on my face, prayed for forgiveness every single day and feels truely bliss. Also enjoy the song whilst reading this lengthy entry=)
I went to a talk with Mrs Chong last month, he spoke about destiny and etc. He sorted my thoughts and truely open me up. I didnt go there to look for an answer to a particular question and yet I was enlighted. What truely got me is that the topic on Causes and Consequences. For that, I prepared for all the consequences that I am needed to face for all the bad deeds I done.
You might start to wonder, what about the good things? Well, sadly most of the goodness you've done will get the consequences instantly (Think about it yourself). There is ONE good thing that I did for myself in this entire 20 years (I mentioned it before & I need to mention it again) - Studying law. The consequence that I gotten is meeting friends, and for that I am very very thankful already. Second good thing I have done is a right clique; I can never forget the very first day of school, sitting beside Tracy and behide us are Grace and Rachel. The three of them are quite different from me due to the things I exposed and today we click perfectly together still.
And guess what else, IF I didnt meet them on tht very day I wouldnt imagine the consequences. Together with them, I studied, not say hard but I did put in my Heart, and met nice friends and formed a clique too. See, we are all ONE Person who needed to carry out plentiful of roles. Like myself, I am not a good daughter but I am pretty good in every other roles that I am involved. So, we are people with many many flaws and got together in such a big group. Christ, it aint easy but we are did/doing and will do a good job together.
Once, I was disappointed with Friendship which is sadly the only ship I could count on because my Kinship sank way before I could admit that and Relationship is not stable facing the big sea. Nevertheless, we all need love to somehow get thing settle. When love is involved, the courage plays the biggest role and following by trust. I stood firm with my decisions and really really found great and funny people whom I know that I could count on. With this one and only Sandral Owin's Heart, I am very very thankful on this very day to:
1. People who help me by accompanying me thru the storms I faced; like the real help and God forbids me to forget what happened in the past;
2. People who forgo me in the past and make me a tough person today;
3. People whom came / come /coming across all woks of life and helping me by fate and faith;
4. People who gave me joy instead of I giving them, really really treasure all my heart and I pray for them on a regular basis:
a) Rachel (I know how much you wish to be here)
b) Grace (Thanks for everything yesterday and you did an amazing planning)
c) Tracy (Stop falling sick and start to be stronger physical)
d) Stephenie (Very appreciated for your physical and mental encouragement, I still keeping the paper you wrote for me)
e) Lydia (You are such a whinner and think positively and stronger. With all your flaws I still love you alot)
f) Kayyathiri (You are a nice nice friend and fan of mine)
g) Sarah (I also sense you close although you are so far away)
h) Ezra (The implusive protector of mine and given me joy in alot of ways)
i) Charles (I am grateful that you have been there always)
j) Desmond (Thank you for your every every everything you gave me)
k) Mrs Chong (Being with you, I feel that I have a family member and stay healthy)
As for kinship, I am speechless and I have assigned a task to complete before the end of my life. Trust me, I am tough and will be tougher enough to overcome it. Since, I have been different and came to where I am standing. To be more extreme, it is something that I will achieve so anticipate for that day to come.
Regarding myself and future, I promised myself to complete my LLB in Law by 2013 latest with a Second Upper Honours. Pray, Play and Participate Well for Everything and Anything. As for the rest, I can only look forward to and there is nothing else for me to do until then. Some says "Expected the Unexpected" yet again "The more you expecting, the more the disappointment" so JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE.
What else can I say, I told myself that "Well, I have a bunch of good friends and they WILL wish me and WONT forget my birthday even if they DIDNT asked me out!". The truth is I should trust my six sense & had a great celebration yesterday, all thanks to them! Honestly, I am so touched and thankful for everything yesterday. I love you each and everyone of you. Hey, I will cry if you all tries to forget my 21st!!
p.s My Lawyer bought me Royce Chocolate, so sweet!
I am flying to BKK tomorrow like FINALLY and touching down on Thursday Morning
~ So Excited and Wee~~
18 December 2009 - Xmas Gathering=) Until then we shall see one another again.
Love all of you
Thank you
Bid Here
See you
Adious
Your Faithfully,
Sandral Owin
