Just want to update you!!

Anyway, I am faraway from sadness right now, THOUGH the BBK is cancelled cos of my part & broke. I am still quite happy cos I have true people around me most of the time now plus I should be contented to be lucky than any other people!

Thank you guys & my boy!

Yuppy, let me update you my recent life!!

After the last post, my baby & I eventually fine now=) so I stayed over his place to shop for dvd for that particular weekends! We went to JB too, to buy dvd & also watched Quantum of Solace, so basically we ENJOYED!!

Last week in school!!

We had a referendum for the Law Society President & Vice President post, I wasnt hoping to get it cos I still gotta catch up for my studies. However, my J2 girls are very supportive to vote me & anyway the Head of Law society is my friend whom I named President Hu!

So I told Desmy about it...our conversation!

[Me]: The president of Law Society is President HU

[Desmy]: WHO??

[Me]: President HU!!

[Desmy]: WHO is President HU!!??

[Me]: Oh, Charles Hu

[Desmy]: Say Charles la!! You hu hu hu, I dont care know his surname!

Anyway, last thursday we started to do the Christmas Decoration for the school & baby came to help out too!

Friday, Was Christiane's 19th Birthday! Before we went to the party, we went to JB & watch MADAGASCAR 2. It was Hilarious man, unbelievable cool! Below were the pictures taken in Liquid Kitchen @ Serangoon Garden for Chrissy birthday celebration.

From Left:Wayne, Chrissy, Desmy, myself, Keith & Jansen

[From Right]: Jansen, Keith, Desmy & myself

[From Right]: Wayne, Jansen, Keith, Desmy & myself

So for the week, nothing special as I had special another weekend with Choo's family & his daddy invited me to join them to have dinner with CEO of SMRT, Ms Saw. I am very honoured & she is amazing, I would love to see myself at where she is in the future.

Yesterday

I continued to do the decoration in school with President Hu, Rachel (who stayed till 9pm) & Grace, Stef & Lydia did helped out. Please try to walk pass Stansfield College & see my humble decoration!! ahaha, oh & the DRAMA about this Secondary kiddo eating ice-cream whom step on the vicinity of my school & called the police!! Charles & myself will not be able to forget i guess=)

I met a secondary pal twice in different places which is too concidence! Karma..

Today

Baby is in the camp & today we formed our G8 comprise of President HU, Jayson, Stef, Lydia, Ezra, Grace, Rach & myself!! haha~~ good teammates to leach knowledge from & they are my motivation in school!! After school, Charles, Rach & myself went to watch Body of Lies!! Ezra went back to school to acc Lydia, *wink wink*

Anyway, President Hu is praising me too much nowsday=)

Newsy

1. Although the gathering which Liyana organised is cancelled, I am sure & looking forward to the next one!!

2. My Exam was pushed back to Jan!

3. Baby & I are not going to BBK or holiday this year but we are bound to go for a trip, I SWEAR to god man!!

4. Since we are not going for the trip, I am looking forward for my birthday celebration with my baby still!!

5. Also the school's X'mas Party!

6. I will study hard for the Exam!!

That's all for the newsy!

Lastly, I will not update this week & this Sat is Rahman's Enlistment Party which will be held in a hotel & also our 3rd Anniversary! . No doubt, staying in Desmy place...... & Happy 19th Birthday to someone I knew..

For the blog song I sharing in this entry is amazing!! Beyonce's vocal is excellent & this is desmy's recommended song which I bet all girls will understand..

Gertemp baby & friends!

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Love

Today, Im quite disappointed because the BKK trip with desmy is going to be cancelled. As his parents mentioned that the chaos there now will be more chaotic by Dec. So how I am celebrating my birthday now? I aint too sure, so lets wait & see.

Secondly, Im very sad cos I cant figured out the reasons why we are not talking much. Im not sure what is going on within him but I know I shouldnt add more fuel in him. In a relationship we are bound to quarrel so I should stay positive.

Subsequencely, I had a chat with Shine. He told me that I am probably not sure of what is love & love happens once only in a lifetime. Adding on he said he only loved once in his life, that was me. When you love & your partner breaks your heart, it aches, is tht a sign of love?

When your partner doesnt treat you well, but you dont want to leave him, is that love / reliance?

Then I started to question myself whether I really know what is love? & what is it? I dated 11 bloody times in my life plus still dating 1, but did I loved someone before or now? I am so confused, so I started to recall from 1 to 11 & the 12 who is desmy.

Zac is nonetheless the first love but it is counted more as puppy love.

Jameson is the first guy who broke my heart, I did begged him to stay but I should say it is reliance. I relied on him cos I needed love.

Prinsten is my secret love but it is more like admiring cos I didnt came cross such perfect guy.

The rest of the guys in the 10 should classified as like.

As for Shine, I am still going to insist that it is love & I am so sorry I broke the promise cos there werent signs from you so I thought you have moved on. I not trying to pin point any mistake but I just wan you to know if you had show me some sign to wait, things could be different.

Desmond is doubtless the love, I do love him from my mind, heart & soul. This song describes how I confused I am. I am so fearful that all this will come to a stop one day. I know even I have the strength & courage to continue, the question is do my partner has?

I am going to school at least to do some work, so less time to ponder the confusion. I recieved a msg today & felt kinda terrified, I cant help but figuring what lies within the heart & mind of one. I hope to finish my summary of Criminal Law this week!! Although Exam has been postponed a month back, it will not going to make me stop working hard!

女儿红 (给我一首歌的时间) by Jay Chow

[Phrase I]
The rain has fallen from the sky destructively poetic.
You say you don’t understand why we hold hands now.
I’ve dried myself off in silence, Regretfully rinsed off.
Considering that if I’ve done wrong, that is because I’m afraid to make mistakes again.
Being together is called a dream.
Having broken up is called pain.
Is it that the painful part is not having to complete the dream?
The aftermath of losing my way is something I can bear.
But where is the final exportation liking only then having.

[Chorus]
Can you give me the time to sing this song?
To make the tight embrace I give you becomes forever
In my heart, You do not need the fear to lose sleep.
If you want to forget I also can lose recalled.
Can you give me time to sing this song?
Only after hearing the end of the story then say “goodbye.”
The tears you've given me, lets keep it till the rainy day
Crossed line which you delimit, I've decided to have a brave ending

Repeat [Phrase I] & [Chorus]

You said I shouldn’t I shouldn’t shouldn’t have told you that I love you now.
How must I prove that I don’t have the strength to lie to you?
Oh please tell me whether can act of suspending calculates to the act of forsaking?
I only have the sweet memories of that one day.

[Chorus]

The End

Love my baby so much & Thanks to my friends
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I am not ready to make nice (2)

Anyway, ignore the tagboard previous entries & I apologised for some inconsiderate bypasses coarse language but for the time being I cant remove it of evidences purposes.
Dont stop tagging as long as it is concerning entries matter. Dislike it, BLOCK it as I have mentioned in my introduction that I'm not ready to make nice; Indescrible but when you know me well, you either end up lovin' or loathin' me.=)

For my English, do CORRECT me if I have made any mistake, cos there is nothing to be shameful about. The only shameful thing is that when you dont know, you pretend that you do.

I LOVE to learn & Improve as I believed that "Humble is the way to success, being proud will lead to destruction"
Meanwhile, I urged all reader to be more OBJECTIVE in your opinion cos I am a HUMAN and human tend to make mistake!

To Fabian / Fabien, grow up & I seriously dont have the time to bother about you. If you need care & concerns, hire a NANNY!! Alright..

For the rest of the comments or critics, email me or message me thru my facebook.
P.S - Tribute(s) can inform me in any options or all=)

By the way, normal peoples' IQ ranges from 80 - 100 & geniuses range from 160 -200. My IQ is 115.

I AM SO BLESSED!!

I am very thankful to my friends truely to stood by me, especially 1 person who I need to affirm. Trust me, I felt so fortunate & without them I cannot imagine. Looking back on where we first met, I cannot escape & I cannot forget. I mean seriously, I used to have friends who backstabbed me, etc. Pretty glad that I have moved on since then, cos today I exprienced what TRUE FRIENDS mean. It means;

1. Tell you straight to the face your negative points

2. Take your happiness & sorrows as theirs

3. Will never ask / suggest you to do silly & stupid things

To my friends especially Ezra, Charles, Rachel & Grace; I will probably a lifetime to forget about you guys cos to forget about Grace the reflected image, Rachel comes it, same thing about Ezra & Charles. We all witnessed who sat at a corner in the class=)

To many whom may be concerned what happened in Mr Muralii's office, remains there. Muralii, Ezra & myself have a plan, for sure it will be executed. Therefore from today onwards, this goal is for Ezra & myself to shoot. I trust Mr Muralii & so does his assurance.

"Ownership" which he spent a precious lesson on it, that proves how precious it is to him. I thanked God for this lecturer to let me see how demonic and angelic he can be=)

I thank my Desmy for helping me all these while & I am delighted to see you. You promised to push me throught so you better mark your words. Love Love, see ya tml again!!

Forgive sounds good, forget Im not sure I could but they said time will heal everything so Im waiting

"Im not ready to make nice, cos Im not ready to back down. Im still mad as hell but I dont have time to go round & round & round. Plus its too late to make it right & I probably wouldnt if I could"

Lastly, I despises those so called gentry whom behaves like low-class bustard, they just irritates my eyesight

Love baby & I will update when I am free!!

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A message to That Someone who mis-interpret me

As a sick & unwell person today, while recieving a very pleasant news with Channel Newsasia. I have also recieved news which are not very pleasant, on top of it, that makes a sick person untolerable to stand such nonsense which I will shortly come to that!

Now, Thank GOD for Senate Barrack Obama to be America 44th Elected-President!!

I personally have a thing for Africian-American but of course it is beside the point. It started off from the battle between Hillary & him, then I supported Hillary because I would love to see woman leading the soverign & also Africian-Americian can never get this far. After Hillary lost, well surprisingly that Amercia is changing. I followed up alot of Senator Obama Speech, through his eyes if I can see his sincerely, no doubt that the Amercian cant. Amercian are sick of all the gimmick, they are demanding actions now & the focus of the global economy is on Amercia today. Therefore it is pointless for a "not so good" party to sit in the House for another 4 years because it simply will not make a huge different. John McCain make that Concession Speech after the result was reveal, I will say that he is incredible for him being so calm & the love for his country is unselfish.

Well, I shall not talk much about my opinion cos some people who reads my blog today probably thinks that I am a bullshiter. Not surprisely, cos we are bound to face such people everyday in life. Plus, I am quite sure that this few days, this blog will have some unexpected readers whom will be reading my blog entries from either Narrow or Netural perspective. The reason for me typing this blog entry is to save me the troubles I MIGHT be facing tomorrow, so I might as well clear all the doubts today.

I am not extremely stupid even though I joked most of the time. However, never see me as a fool because you are not good enough to see what I am capable of. Right now, I just want to be an ordinary student in school who is tring to improve as much as I can to get my Diploma. So hate me or love me I dont care, but I dont want some lecturers to loathe me cos it will affect my studies. Well, even if they do it is not my bad, it is just that they probably not professional enough.

Anyway, this is a PERSONAL BLOG about my life, my thoughts & views, try not to read any sentence that I have wrote to me because I knew what I have written.

My first regard is about my title of my written scripts, "Mockery Exam". As my Criminal lecturer has wrote on my script that "You indeed make a mockery of yourself in this exam", which I really agree with her. Yet I hav to disagree with what my Common Law lecturer made a statement regarding this in the class, because I personally has no slight intention to mock at any of my mentor.

My second issue with regards to a sentence i blogged in my ytd's entry;

"ii) Studies - As I mentioned above, I am the one to blame for not studying enough & didnt hav a smoking r/s wit some of my lecturer, so who to blame.."

If someone took this seriously, that person is either gulity-minded or has nothing better to do to mis-interpret it. Why did I put "a smoking r/s with some of my lecturer" but not eating with them, it is because smoking is the only thing I dont do. All tht statement made is to say I did not spent enough time with my lecturers!! That is all, so I cannot understand why people are complicating things.

Moreover, I barely have close contact with them in my life, not in the past, not now & not even later in the future!! As a "Nobody" to THAT someone who had made a fuss out of my blog, I should say that I am very impressive to become "Somebody" now. May be THAT someone fancy to be infamous, Seriously I dont.

The last issue is regard to That someone & so called "Class Politics" which literally made me sick about it. People might see this as a mean one, by all means cos it is intolerable to see it happened, happens & happening again in a class less than half a year together.

I had a lunch session with That someone & 2 friends of mine not too long after the school just started, I vividly remember a sentence made by That someone about classmates disliking That someone, what I taught then was probably that class were quite extreme looking at thing. However, as I look back for today, the same thing is happening in my very own class. I didnt get involved with it, but my cliques & I saw things the way we are seeing. Well, now that involving ME & only ME in the picture which is very much hilarious because I have strictly nothing against anyone.

One thing you must know about me is that I dont like to keep grudges like you do or anyone else in the world, because it simply brings me Nowhere. Plus I have plenty more concerns to be bothered about and I am never jealous about who is the highest in class, etc. I dont set my own pace according to others pace, BECAUSE "Different people are meant to be / do different things and I definitely has a use for this world" so why would I bothered about your results?

My anger for this Mockery Exam is that I didnt start to revise earlier & harder enough. Moreover, I do know where I stand cos I do not stand proudly at where I am so why would I compared. You are standing nowhere near me, cos of your proudness, self-centeredness, wildness & all this has to be put a stop, speaking on behalf of our fellow classmate who has the same thoughts as me. Fundamental rule which I never taught by my mum like any other kids which is "You want to be respected, you jolly respect others"; never classified people.

People are bound to make mistakes, so do I. Correct yourself & move on, you can get a PHD in Law, so what when you know nothing about life. If you want to get a PHD or at least your LLB which is what I am looking forward to, stop wasting your time being a puppet. Put your creative thinking more to your studies rather than who is talking about you today & tml cos it will lead you to nowhere.

I could have spend my time resting & slightly more on my studies for my next exam to hold less disappointment for myself & my dad to take it. Nevermind anyway, so be it now. I do not wish be interviewed unneccessary for my personal good. If this much is put forward to you & you still have any problem, feel free to confront me or email me. If you want to apologise to me, save it=)

Those who are interested for my latest update, please refer to my previous entry..Thank you

God Bless You

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My baby & me=)

I am quite sick today; sore eye lid & throat due to heatness & sadden heart due to the atrocious mockery results, so I decided to take a rest to refresh myself. I was thinking what good in my life to make my life brighter for today;

i) Family - So so, barely talk to my mum & didnt get to see my sisters for a while & monetary issues are greatly involved most of the time but I am quite immune about it, so nothing amazing..

ii) Studies - As I mentioned above, I am the one to blame for not studying enough & didnt hav a smoking r/s wit some of my lecturer, so who to blame..

iii) Friendship - I sorta hav the pool of people whom i can click with & I thanked them for being part of me today cos without them I probably still be a failure. Speaking of them could indeed brighten me a bit cos this bunch of people are the one i truely named them as close FRIENDS, & this time I have faith with my choice..

Ezra, Charles, Rachel, Grace, Tracy & Lydia shares the same goals, how I wished some of us get chosen to the same University in England can at least warm my heart in that cold country. I shall not think so far now cos I really need to buck up alot to choose a University there. & my baby is here to kick my ass through too!!

This blog song, I used to dedicate to a person who was very dear to me it has been a while I actually feel happy listening to it. May be it is because I dont feel a slight pain in my heart, or I have forget the love for her. Anyway, I sang this song happily to him cos he has really been a true friend of mine, not just because I am deeply in love wit him..

Thank you you Desmond Choo for loving me. We celebrated his significant birthday at his place, & every minute with him melts my heart. Although there are times where we argued etc, but almost nothing can destroy our love; not even time. The slideshows will show you how happy i hav been for the past one month

The Formula One 2008

Southern Ridge Walk

These pictures were taken by Chrissie for her assisgment with Wayne & Desmy resting at Cafe Delma at Sentosa

This is his birthday celebration at his garden. I made him a cake & all his close friends

Seletar Country Club lovebird Celebration

Well, I think the pictures are according to the chroniclogical.. Anyway, I didnt study for the whole day cos I am quite sick..eaten my medical, drink my herbal tea & sour plum (which is very sour).

This year, I am not goin to celebrate my birthday in town. Desmond & myself are going to Bangkok for a 4D 3N Free & Easy trip, which both of us are very excited!! So I am going to study hard before the trip comes for my trip sponorship & for the good grades!!! haha..

I miss my baby & friends (Thanks for Charles's disturb & concern)
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