About Forbiden Owin

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When you know me, you will either love / loathe me due to my intelligence, wisdom, weirdness and level of sights . Pocket of surprises & fun . High quality & quantity of living & humor . Great taste for fashion, food, drinks & living . Enjoys gaining new knowledge and skills . Someone who love & appreciate to her heart . Indifferent to strangers' opinions about me . Only care about whom I love & how thy look at me. Straightforward . Unkind with words but kind at heart . Witty . Cunning . Romantic . Secretive . Could be Irritating . Outgoing . Humorous . Bubbly . Artistic . Creative . Stubborn . Ambitious . Mischievous . Love myself . Dislike complexity . Truth-seeker . Could say that I am jacks of most trade, yet to be master of one . The rest of her is for u to find out =)

Monday, April 26, 2010

You Reap What You Sow

"One reap what one sow"

One believed this is told to many across through all religions. You should have heard it but do you understand it?

Today, one would like to share with you a story involving a mother, she has 3 daughters which one hopes some kind soul will publicise it. She dislike the eldest for some unexplained reasons and hence she conveniently assumed that the eldest daughter always hates her. She doted the second daughter like the pearl of her life, whatever wrong things that the second daughter done legally or morally is always right in her eyes. She used to doted the younger daughter for she was the slower and weaker amongst the three but no longer so for no reasons.

Thus, the younger daughter drifted apart from the family and being emotionally instability, helplessly needed a pillar for herself because she has yet to know her potential for everything in this life. The second daughter being spoiled, is an almost hopeless person; quit school at sixteen (Most silly thing, she was about to take her GCE "N" level) and dated guys who are useless and in a moment of spite decided to become a single mother of one baby girl, she pretends to be smart ass, rich rag and pretty person with a layer of thick powder. The elder one being the outcast daughter, only have a motto which is to learn everything, especially the wrong things to do things right and hence be different and very successful person person. Hence, she rebelled, indifference and wants to make a different and to outshines amongst all she make sure she score the best. She forced herself to think like an adult in her teens just trying to be in the same wavelength as her mother, hoping that she will like her one good day.

Apparently, all of her effort goes down to drain because the mother never appreciates it. Perhaps, the reason is that she is uneducated but when the youngest daughter wants to go back to school, she seem to be quite happy about it. The mother said that since the eldest one love to study and always trying to leech the husband off to finish her degree, yet unable to get any scholarship is a true disgrace. If what the mother said about unable to try a scholarship is a disgrace, what about the second daughter being an uneducated, brainless single mother who thinks she is god-damn pretty and the world owes her and her baby girl a living?

The eldest daughter has observed the mother for years silently and managed to find out the root of the problem and whatever she is going to type out are the truth and most of the truth are affirmed by the daughters of the mother and her husband. It is accepted that the eldest daughter is not at fault most of the time and all her faults are the mistakes of her mother (You reap what you sow), hence the mother never should have the eldest daughter. She wanted to be accepted by her husband family and hence she needed a male heir. Whilst loving the child in her stomach for ten months, she learns how to hate aftermath. The mother thinks that the eldest one is a jinx to her, do you not agree that it is her own greed that caused her to have a jinx?

The eldest one figured out that the mother was never in the mothers' wavelength as she is a person who refused and stopped thinking properly for almost half of her life. She felt for the mother before because if it was not for her, she might not be in this pitiful state. Come to think of it, the fault lies on the day the mother who naively thinks that marriage solved everything that she need to solved and even the things she needed physically, mentally and financially. Thus, it is the mother's action which caused her own pathetic and poor drama today.

The eldest daughter figured out that the mother hates the eldest child because she was not able to get loved even till today, twenty-one year later. Also, she figured out that why the mother was not loved because she has the slightest idea of love. The greatest love is giving and when you truly mastered it then you will experienced love. However, it does not suffice to learn love because we are expected to learn to feel everything. Thus, we born 'are expected to' not 'to expect' anything from the world, do you not agree?

The eldest daughter figured out that the mother expect all her children supposed to be like her not better than her, was unable to acknowledge and accept the fact that any of her daughters were to be better than her. It is not difficult to be better than the mother because she has no idea to sew, clean the house properly, and most importantly cooks awfully. All the eldest daughter was trying to do was learning all the mother's flaws to help her out and make her like her a little, fortunately it is the negative impact. Who do you blame when any of your daughters were to born smart than you?

The eldest daughter figured out and confronted her directly because she tried all the methods and no improvement were made. It is within the power of everyone that who the mother pushed the blames on. Yes, everyone but herself. She blames on her father whom died when she was young, her step-father who abused her and her mother for having too much kids hence she is unable to learn and do anything that she should. BLA BLA BLA~

If we followed the above theory, all the three daughters should become a clone of the mother? How do you explained only one who is the second daughter has cloned her, not the eldest and the youngest? The two daughters are not fantastic nevertheless they are trying to figure out how to be a better person in life, it is not a right thing to do?

Of course, the eldest and youngest daughters are nevertheless capable to clone her, but they chosen not to. Today, they are taking their time to pick the right one and make a good judgment in their life and soar high. They are going to have a better life compared to the second sister for sure, as they have the power to make choices. Life is like a game of chest with privileges for those who cherish their life even you do not have any choice left, God will definitely give you a good one.

In my previous entry, one mentioned that you should treat yourself well and whilst treating yourself well, hurt none. Sometimes, we are really need to be generous to those who are unkind to us. God will be fair, one is telling you that you are the one and only person who is responsible and be responsible for the things you have done. You either acknowledge and accept all your punishments or stay where you are and always whine about it.

With regards to everything that happened between my mother and me, one is not sorry about it at all. She tried her best to revenge on us for all she did not have and nothing, attempt to make us handicapped. All one did was to defend myself; make myself very strong, sensible and serious. God is fair, we cannot have everything in the world and hence we always will sacrifice someone /something somehow. It is the reason why I have everything I needed but a mother.

Just as this song - Because of you, to my mother who is the one I spoke of above to make me what I am now. Of course, I will continue to spread my wings and soar high.

Do not worry about me, I am cool as I have learnt how precious is myself and tears are to so she does not deserved my tears to fall because of you (the mother). By the way, I do not hate her as what she thinks at all, neither the past nor now because to me she carries no value in my heart.

If you think one deserved to be punished because one let you down, betray you, insulted you and etc for no reason, you just wait and see. One have gathered all the wrong actions and awaits for my punishments, one truly hope it will come soon and perhaps that is the reason why one always thinks that of dying being so young.

Love you
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Owin

*P.S - I am reading The dairy of Anne Frank, planning for the trip with my good friends and praying for them who are going to take their exam. I was asked to accept a promotion today which I am considering about.