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I am really very moody now. dont bother to ask me why, cos I will say. I swear tht I am fallin apart right now, but noone there to lift me up.

I know my last blog was 2 weeks ago. I jus goin to cover a bit here & there. I apologised for this vey late entry, been mugging for my Exam. For my dream, everything I wan to be. However, I am disappointed wit my performance. I am not going to judge how I will be doin, let GOD do it. Also, I wan to thank GOD, the people he sent to comfort me; My family, Shine, Ms Chee, Hui Shan, Aqilah. Thank you, if wasnt because of you people, I doubt I could make it through. The faith, hope & love (with help), you contributed to me is PRICELESS.

I especially need to thank this person, he had been there for the past 7 month & 13 days. I kinda dependent on him, especially the Pre-Exam period; hav been treat him meanly. I cant imagine my life without him, though I really need to adapt now. How am I supposed to do it, I not very sure either. "Good Friends", my brain is spining now. Yea, jus broke up! cos I not an indian girl, tht wht he said. I doubt so, is it cos I am too sticky to him. It happens onli this time, I told him tht I am willing to giv him a break; but he rejected it. I dont know wht I hav said & done wrong, all I wan is to keep him back.

當世界，不知不覺的變了 (When everything in the world start to change)
有時後，我懷念以前的我 (Sometime I often miss the old ME)
作的夢雖然遠遠的 (Although dreams were faraway from the reality)
想像是一種快樂 (Lesser possession is a bliss)
擁有了，同時也失去什麼 (However, by gaining something, we will often lose another thing)
而眷戀，原來會帶來軟弱 (Eventually tireness will make us more vulnerable)
你讓我在霧裡成熟 (You had matured me by using your heart)
心開始曲折 (However you tore my heart apart)
我不想捨得，不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
是誰惹誰，言不由衷 (Pointless to push the blames to whoever)
說謊傷害，都是不安犯的錯 (By saying the lies because of the fear we have within)
怕抱不緊什麼 (fear of losing something important)
我不想捨得，不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
誰說割愛，才更深刻 (The moment you broke my heart is an unforgetting one)
彼此依賴是愛不是負荷 (I hoped this love is not a burden to you)
能握著手就是感動的 (By holding your hands had made me contented)

I am torn, I tried to sleep to forget everything. But I discovered I cant, in fact I was thinkin about those moments wit him. Then tears dripped, how many lonely night then I will recovered? I probably shouldnt hab love, it never been smooth. Tht is why I stayed single for 1 year plus. I am still young, should explore more first=) I need to stop thinkin about him, & move on.
I love you, Shine. Maybe good friend is better, we can still hang out. Anyway the communication thing wit your folks is another problem.

At least, I have a loving home, quarelling does happen. I am far better than the unfortunate ones. Well, EXAM OVER~~!! I need to plan for my extended study route!! Wht if i not qualified for the L&M course in Singapore? *sigh* ANYWAY, I goin to revamp my room. Buyin paints etc!!

Last Saturday, I went for the Samsung torchbearer. haha~~ "Is not easy horx, cos the blood flows downwards" haha~~ the DJ's are dashing. Met an old friend too=) Kai long~

Yesterday night, went to Oreth's house. Had lots of fun. haha~~

My next entry will be talkin abt Penal Code 377A!!, maybe tml or this weekend.

Lastly, Take care people. Especially Faby who is runnin a fever. I love you=)
Tml, goin out wit Clement

Bid here,
Adious

So Small

BLOG AGAIN!! Sorry peeps, cause you people to wait so long, was kinky busy. Finally free to take a deepen breathe; more challenges next week=) Well, EXAM IS DRAWIN NEAR~ Still preparing, half of me is scared. ASK ME WHY? nah nah, not sure too; call it Pre-Exam Illness=)

GET BACK TO WHERE I STOPPED

Last Saturday, Didnt go out wit Shine, cos he's lazy. Anyway I aint need bf to schedule my life, then I processed on with my programmes=) I went to Delifrance (Hopefully I'll will it right) to MUG for about 3 hours & I headed down to ESP for gig=) Live Sg grown band, Coolness~~ So enjoyable as though my shoulders were free from responsibilities.WOW~~Can you feel the sensation?

Sunday. Hmm, what did I do?
Oh, *tink* Was at home for the entire day=). BF BF ordered KFC for me to apologise=) So SWEET I PREDERS DIAMOND!!
POLICE CAME TO MY HOUSE~~ARGH!
"is it cos you Ripped, Raped, Killed someone", Joyce asked! Bitch, sad to say i aint so "civilise". Well, actually it got nothing to do wit my family, is my mum's friend. Long story! Not worth mentioning, but is maddening for someone who is 25 year old to be so stupid = not sensible. Beware of retribution, worst thing is she did not even fcukin apologised for putting a spot in my house!!

Monday-Friday (Let me cut it short by notin it point form)
- Newsletter is published=) My Own design, layout & write-up
- Tons of work DONE-ED / TO BE DONE =)
- Only one Table Tennis Session for this week due to the time constraint. Sorry to Fong Mei & Su Fang. Oppsss & Peng Li=)
- My Period is late not up to date!!
- Got praised by my COLLEAGUES that I slimmed down; at least my effort is worth while. THANKS LOVE=)
- Secretly learning the hand-on work for interior designs=) heehee=x
- Met BF BF on Thursday, while waitin for his gym session to end & I enriched myself but sadly tht I only managed to complete 1 essay=(
- Today, had a talk wit Pei Ee on phone, run aftermath
- Chatting wit Daniel, is broad day-light over his zone=)
- Monday, took a half day off to acc Chrissie for her modelling interview. GOT IN~~ greatness, she's overwhelming! We went to Sakae for a MINI Celebration, together wit Kyme. Kyme is Chrissie bestie in school, & I know why her! Cos she is fun, cool, sweet, nice, most & for all she's STRAIGHTFOWARD like us. HAHA~~ Hmm, I had mis-pronoun a word tht day, she wasnt afraid to correct me=) I APPRECIATES HER, Thanks GOD!! We were hell-love voluble, not forgettin the SINGING SESSION, GIRLS!~~

Cos every little thing I start to learn & correct it, I feel good. It's not tht I aint afraid of mockery; likewise I do. However, I placed my EGOTIST AWAY, captured everything sincerely & wit GOD's love; at least this wht I believe

Everyday's learning will be pile together to be Knowledge; Everyday feeling will increase bit by bits; Jealously & hatred increases little each day to become ..; Things might look so small but dont belittle it=)
I love Carrie's songs, cos she has a potential vocal to sing this Country-music genre. Therefore, through the BEAUTIFUL songs & voice it brought out the meaning=) INDEED BEAUTIFUL!

So enjoy the song, by turnin on ur speakers & listen hard to the lyrics, Kiddo's & Bimbo's are spared here, unless you seriously know how to appreciate=) Thanks

Last thing before I forget to speak it out to "OMG!". *I know it's catchy"Firstly I do need to thank you for praising my Vocab. & reminds me of my Grammar=)

However, People make mistakes, & I hav the fcukin guts to admit tht I did & *will change (*not a promise to you but me). I dun hav the habit of revising my blog to check for the 10% of grammar mistakes. Hmm, if you find any error, FEEL FREE COME STRAIGHT TO ME.

I'm a WEIRDO; let alone my features, be it you like it not. However to be honest, who doesnt have a Splastic side? My friends do get mad wit me for my straightforwrd sometimes, OF COS I KNOW. So love / loathe it, is their choice; I'm no lack of confidence=) I AM ME!! They CONFRONT ME WITH SENSE!! & I am REGRETFUL of not studying so FEEL FREE again to laugh at me; those words will only motivates / courages me. Sad to hear this right? *I betted you are thinkin tht you are such a nonsense thing*, ASK THE PERSON WHO IS THE BRIGDE BETWEEN US, I BELIEVED HE/SHE=) DOES KNOW SOME OF ME. SO DONT YOU DARE TO COME HERE & FCUK SHIT WIT / ABOUT ME! Well, YOU AINT THE FIRST FCUKIN INCONSIDERATE BIMBO WHO SPEAKS WITHOUT SENSES I MET. Oppsss, Almost forget tht Bimbo aka Vase = Pretty but brainless & I apologised for the rudness but is a fact

Anyway, I need to express something tht is I didnt act "English-Orientated"! I learn English SINCERELY; with hard work! Plus I quitted my "Singlish" for this, you never know how important it is to me. I come from a Chinese-speaking Family. My English isnt so BAD, but my English foundation is bad. Spending almost a year to capture truth of English, is FRUITFUL but tedious. Is my bad not to study; to fail my English! However, is not funny to me at all, I'll prove to myself tht it's not. I was @ Grade "E" but it does not applied for forever; jus like Ugly Duckling became a Beautiful Swan Anyway BIMBO wont understand it=)

BTW, you might indirectly hurt someone who really has Autism / Senile. Anyway, you managed to hurt me by sayin tht. Proving tht people like you, who discriminate those who are mentally / phyisically disabled still exists. Kids wit Autism are given a chance to stand on the same platform wit the rest. If I not wronged, Victoria Beckam is also a patient of Autism. Hmmm, FYI, everyone needs REMINDERS. Human do forget thing, dont you? Bimbo, almost 96% of this entire world population needs to be reminded. Plus all countries sets Laws / rules , so are they also classified as the SENILE type?

Hmm, I have inborn natural Street Smart, so since young I am pretty Complacent. I completed my Primary School though, I didnt bothered to pay attention in class, let alone English lesson. If you arent aware of the School Policy / Rules / whatsoever! or you aint livin at the right ERA. In Singapore, every kids need to complete 6 years in Elementary School to persue a higher level in one's Education; not applicable to genius=)

BTW, i dont deny that I look ugly in some photo I took, cos I not photogenic.=) Will try to improve=) Oh, the default of the Autistic looks might be contributed from my western-nair bloodtype too=). The nose & teeth indeed causes some differences, even compared to my Sisters=)

Bimbo, dun bothered to counteract if you cant function ABIT of your brain. So Small, applies to you too, cos YOU ARE SO SMALL WITH CRITICS. I love FACTS=) & I hate to entertain stranger cos it seem meaningless to cos you dun know me & I sure you will think tht you dont wan to know me too, am I right?

Anyway, this is a Lengthy Passage, so I DO MAKE MISTAKE! If you still got anything to say, jus email me!

Weekend Special
Sat,tml, Hari Raya Puasa=)
Going to the library to study=)

Sun
Going for the Jewellery Fashion Show & then will meet Elieen to help out wit her Marketing (Biz Marketing) Homework=) It's been ages I last seen her!! & Will make Tiramisu to bring it to Office on Monday=)

Lastly,
Is quite enjoyable for me to recall some facts I hardly remembers=)
Misses Liyana x 10 times
Pei Ee wan to take "alot-alot" of pic wit me when she's back *fake-smile*
Hui Shan love to read my blog, ASK ME WHY!!!!!! "I not sure either"
FABY aka Asshole aka BF X2, I love & miss you. I purposely placed you at the last cos you are the first I think of in the morning!

Angel brought me here

Once, I prayed hard (whining) to GOD while I was pretty emotional unstable. I asked him to send an angel to brighten my life, nv thought that it really came true. Now my life wit him around, to shine, dote, love me: I really felt secure in his presence.

This blog song is especially for him=) Thank you Bf Bf


Song lyrics | Hate That I Love You lyrics

Sorry, no photo to show to you guys. Though Pictures tell a million story, I sure using imagination could make our brain expose to more things. Haha~~

If you had read my blog, you might think tht I sound like a philosopher. But if you are a first-timer to view my blog, tht's me=)
Anyway, some of my friends do heel my advices / copy my steps? Whatever way you want to interept it=).. Jus treat it like I am sharing my knowledge to a certain extent to people.

Some people might be thinking that I am bullshitting. "So be it; is your loss"

Some people feedback to me that my blog is very useful, as my words do open people heart & soul=) Thank you=)

"some people wan to all~~~~" haha~~

Sunday, went to Mother's Mary house. My tiramisu is good=)..Especially my boy, he finished all by himself.

Mon, initially WE meet to run in the stadium. However, I ran by my own time & target, jus nice when I finishes 10 rounds he then arrives. Cool~, He did ran A Round. Anyway, I SHRINKED & the credit goes to MY BOO Thabk you, asshole=)

Tues to Wed=) Bla X3. Kinky busy dealin with the newsletter thingy, I hav tons of thing to complete before Dec. My colleagues askin me "Can you be extend to work there anot?" My answer is "It all really got to depend alot, be it internal / external factor." =) Hard for me to leave you guys though, but time will heals everything.

Thur
Work aftermath, while I was waiting for my faby to finish his gym did a mini shoppin=) Haha, is expensive though but is discounted. lala~~

Friday aka today
Well, I am paranoid of what I wan to do it. The factual is tht I am a fast & good learner
My maturity has grown to be faraway from Kiddo & Bimbo from my age=) So I know wht I am capable for, however I hav to confess I have spilt personalities. Maybe I'll figure it out first, then I will further interept it.

Sat
Going out wit my Honey Bunny=)

Sun
Study

Monday
Half day work, will go to east coast to pay the deposit of the chalet & will accompany Chrissie for interview / audition

The rest will update you=)

Bid here
Adious=)