One Sweet Day

I always find M.C a talented & charismatic woman. She is poise & maintainin her image as an artist=)..How my song today? hmm..this song is produced since ages but the words in the lyrics is remarkable.. At times when we wan to express your feeling by speeches it makes us nervous & uneasy. So the meaning is vague,but through song like this..i guessed is a gift from God.=)

Why so sentimental today? I miss her a thousand though she is comin back.Before she called mi half an hour ago jus now, i felt the same as her. So hard to see her live, when she told me her cousins were rather caustic towards her, i felt it..

Pay attention to the lyrics, M.C sang a phrase like this "Never had I imagined. Livin w/o your smile. Feelin & knowin you hear me. It keeps me alive"

REFRAIN(chours)
& I know u're shinin down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
& I know eventually we'll be together
One Sweet Day=)

Our story is a iconic one..We wasnt too close when we is at Sec 1. Then conflicts..It came all the way back to her again..Wow..Karma planned all this=)

Then

Back to my Family..Problem
I'm hopeless & helpless to help Sofina..I talked to Suvin in the mornin jus now after i prayed to God.I dunno wht wrong wit Sofina..I tried to think i not a bad sister but i cant..I tried to ignore tht Sofina dun wan to school but i cant

I killed millions of brain cells for her..I make an effort to pray to Lord but whether he hears me is an unknown.I realised he jus replied mi in this song by chance when i crave for this song, it says "Although the sun will never shine the same. I'll always look to a brighter day. Lord I know when I lay myself down to sleep. You will always listen as I pray."

Work aftermath(now) goin to Liyana's house..

Ytd,watch 13 Game of Death @ AMK Hub..Eee...Lousy movie anyway!!

Baby boy is coming at night, i miss him too..=)

Tml i need to come back to work & Ya ting is workin wit me on Monday..(Hopefully she'll hired for long term like me..Shared some of my burden)=)

ENJOY THE SONG!!

I'm still mad as hell and i dun hab time to go round & round & round

Hey ya..Listen to my song before you close my blog..Very nice meaningful Countrymusic=) Powerful meaning through the lyrics & Powerful singers,real impressive..It often remind mi I can never be perfect,let alone others=)..

My baby baby boy is not in town..i missin him 10 to 100 times everyday..I hope everyday is friday=) Oh..speakin about friday,I promised Liyana's to go for her chalet..She was upset when i din turned up the previous time=)..I do miss her alot..okie..Anyway she should know..

Recently, my friend list has some slight changes..Most of my friends are international from Greece(Mr NIce), Nigeria, Paris etc..All guys again..so ya'
It dont matter you are black,white or yellow if you're brown or red..LOVE is colourblind=)

My family problem=)...Firstly I would like to announce I'm a motherless kid=), maybe my family consist of my dad & me..Alot of questions runnin through my head ytd..Can i be spared to look after my dad's wife(pretty smart description) in future? Well,i will ask my dad abt it! I am ashamed of my Dad's other daughter(wit his wife), cos she is an uneducated,stubborn,snoobish,brainless freak.. I not lookin down on those who is not educated..Some uneducated ppl are street smart and well-expressed..but i jolly well know is not my dad's other daughter=) Her mum is worse..she even said "she might marry a guy wit $"..=) My rich pals hav all shaken their head, who will wan to marry a okie-looking,navie,brainless girl when you are a milllionaire?=)

The silly thing is i been puttin wit her long enough but yet she doesnt know tht i cant not challenge..I'm a freak..
She once challenged me when i criticised her youngest daughter goin to Normal Technical stream (Well, i admitted tht my bad..at least she(her youngest daughter) is determined to finish her minimum education..she managed to prove me wrong=)) tht I habe to shut my mouth till I've completed my 'N' Level=). Ytd is an unforgettenable day..She said 'If you are so good,complete your University=) We'll see who is the winner in the end.I thanked her for challengin me alot=p

Even her own mother,Mary (Dad's wife mum) agrees wit mi=)

Happy Stuffs...
My cousin is heldin her weddin in a pose Hotel on 7 july 07..
Hmmm..I chatted wit Soon Guan..We're plannin for a holiday wit a few more friends & chatted alot more things
I asked SBP for a moive today, she dunno up to wht shit..nvm I can go myself=)
Pei Ee & my secret is goin to reveal in afew more days=p
Fabin,tht handsome jap lookin brat msged me..and asked you and him haben break? Even we break,he probably nv stands a chance..though he's freakin rich (jus shifted to a house)
Lastly,i finally knocked off=)

I really miss & love him alot..Wht he msged mi on Tues(before he go) surpised me fulltime & I love him=)

Hopefully i dun miss anything/anyone out...Lastly YA TING IS my die hard fan..she will always read my blog but i nv mentions her name before=)

Muacks

Through the Rain

Click & watch the video,Thanks=)
Whenever I'm breakin apart this song helps alot

so..=)I hope you'll love it too

When you get caught in the rain with nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

(CHOURS)
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep fallin down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

(CHOURS)

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothin you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

(CHOURS)
You will make it through the rain

It is wht i been telin myself for this few days..Maybe this is really not my month=)
Hmm..I was thinkin wht i had said to FOC aka SBP on Saturday..I shouldnt be so weak, i'm very sorry to myself when i said tht..I came into this hectic world with a purpose,jus like everyone does..

Saturday evenin I went out with Ms Chee for a dinny..hmm..She is doin fine,we crap alot and most of all she delighten me..
BORDERS is what i learnt..When i tried to giv love to my family member i must giv it happily but if i not then i dun giv..cos GIVING is a reward,happiness & bliss=)

Hmmm..Bossy requested mi to chat less durin work, do so during break=) Will do=)

Now i'm goin to meet Eloi(my godbro) to eat=)

He jus msged mi and call mi 'BABY GIRL' omg!!=) I confessed to him on Sunday Morning=)...hmm not confessin but..aiyo..dunno wat tht call..whatever

ONE LAST SECRET..9 MORE DAYS..MY IDIOT FRIEND IS COMIN BACK=)

So yesterday=)

Hmm...Went for a run from my place to his place(20min)..hmm..then i took 45 min to walk back!!!=)

Ms Chee sms-ed mi jus now..=P she said she miss me will date mi out!!wahaha!! Then peiee said the same thing to me too=) Sweet,rite? OMG!!heehee

I miss him, Ms chee, Peiee(SHE IS COMIN BACK!!) & Liyana too!!

Btw FOC got a new name from me again, tht is SBP (Si Ba Po)=)
*p.s She loves it!!!

I probably jus wan to sing=)

Lately i've been tryna fight whatever's pullin us under
It's got a hold and really makin mi wonder
What it takes to get through i gonna stick wit you, my baby
Baby, tell me. Maybe i'm foolishy over-reactin' but beenin without you I cant imagine
It jus too close to the heart & i wont stand it if were broken apart

(Chours)
Do you hear me?
Baby you gonna believe in the thing we win together
Dun ya throw in the towel
I keepin my promise to you i got ya back now
When the chips, it seem like it so hard for ya to move ahead
Jus know tht I'm by ur side
There aint no ifs, buts or maybes
I'm gonna stay down & ride for ya baby

We've been cuttin it close wit the backwards & forward
It's rockin the boat we gonna get control of this
Let's take it back to 3 Months ago
When you said we could make it throught whatever ever
Leavin is not an opinion baby NV NV
Now dun you believe tht love is worht a fight
In you is everything tht i'm missin
So giv us a chance

(Chours)
Dun you dare to tell me we gonna let it go
We've been on top for too long JUS to let it go under
I dun wanna to hear tht
I jus cant hear tht
& know whatever you take mi I'll go
I been wit you for too long to start wit another
I know you hear me
Jus tell mi you hear me

This few days i must stay really happy & forget abt the unhappy for health purpose!! Hais..Easier to say than done
I expressed my feelin and story in the song so nice to find something to comfort me still
Though I wont be keepin you..Maybe ya rite plenty of guys for me=) Let nature takes its course ya' we'll see dun prelude too fast=)

I still alive & still kickin but abit weak=) The past few days was okie..I love thursday (Study day wit him) & Firday(Fastantic 4 wit him)..hmm still pendin for another meet up=( Maybe,maybe not?..

And Sat Sentosa..Yucky Weather..Nice & fun still!! Sunday(ytd) I went to Eileen house to make dumplings (surpised rite..who the hell is her?)heehee..secret person!!Her bro looks like one of The superband winners..We chatted abit=) Hmm..Today..dwellin about something but I gonna let it GO!! and study later later joggin alone!!

I bid here but i still tell him I love him.=)Hopefully he'll see it..You think he will?Nah!! I doubt!! so byeye!!=)

Byul=Star=they=) Shine and me

We are together for 3 months finally we graspin for more place of our own and i've decided to desist but we're not goin to giv up still. I felt his "not ready to for a RS" in myself. "This time you really love,I dont know how to comfort you cos you always do all the comforting",Pei ee said. Out of so many RS, this time I finally love cos I am obsess and findin it so hard to let go..
Again i have histrionics but more toward saddness and happiness..40% for both and then 20% for MISC..

Lovin someone is so hard..Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus..It really decribles Shine & me alot=) We hab to work things out before we are really ready..When we are togehter is not only LOVE but also trust and commitment so I suggested something to him and everyone will think I'm stupid but no harm trying it=)

He is not the romantic guy,he wont do all those sweety talks but he shone my life..the sean paul look, lovely smile and most importantly my baby boy..I called him my Baby boy after tht dance wit him=) I am willing to giv myself and him a chance to start everything over but we need to understand one another first..

We had a talk ytd abt our love, he said he is stupid to let me go but i explained to him tht you didnt let mi go..i still need ur heart to move on cos i love you still and i asked "why not we become lover?" Like wht we are still but no commitment & restriction still it's optional.We still hangout to know each other more to really understand..sometimes i really wished he can tell me more and everything he tells Kiran & Joseph (Now i hope & think he will, will you?)

Though my hearts really breaks still lover is nth ( neither friends nor BGR ) so when he meet another girl he can still move on same to me( tht why he's prepared but i not) Cos i never think abt him leavin me..i will hab to slowly think abt it..in case=)..But will I leave him? My friends think so but i dont know..I'm happy and good wit him, i wont find another one like him..maybe
All of this has no 100%=) So we will go on like tht..Well if it works out, I'll treat it as a bonus but if it's dont, I'll be prepared..

I feared so i held on tightly and I didnt think abt his feeling but I am still young if he's not mine we both still moves on=) cos i hab They(Star) to accompany me=) so i jus dun think too much!!

HOW'S MY BLOG SONG? I hab been listenin to it..i'm still practicing it..so one day I can sing to you,Baby Boy!!

Let me translate the chours for you..since i dont know what we will become=) together anot we hab to work as one and see!for 2 years+? maybe=)!!heehee...ARGH!! i said no tears for myself today but i am crying now..Such a baby rite!!..

Pei ee & Sharon / Liyana, please dont feel for me cos i choose my way..i never feel like lovin so much so let me be navie or in dream for the time being..jus stand by me so tht if i feel like crying i still know who to find!!=)

I really hope to see you later=)go home together?

Shine, my baby boy this is for u (dun pause my blog song or it change to the next song click it back cos those words comes from within)

Don't be hurt too much. They(star) hug me tight, pamper me and comfort me.
Telling me to go to sleep

Though I'm exhausted to the point where I'm cant walk
Though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love(you) that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I wont cry though my eyes filled with tears
I want to laugh like those stars

I want to cherish all my happy moments wit you, deep inside my heart like those countless numbers of star, forever

Sarangheiyo..*muacks
It's a new start of love so i still crave to hear you say "I love you, i miss you etc.Whatever you like jus tell me"=) I'll wait till the day u wish to touch me wit your heart and open arms

Is a lengthy Blog=) But all of it comes from within..
Sunday Fantastic 4 pls pls pls remember!!!=)

Sunshine After the Rain

RAIN DROPS WERE FALLING ON MY HEAD!!

Hmm..was strugglin with myself and the demon in me for the past few days..Things finally got better today!!=) Well, after talkin to some chaps. I realised some hidden people are actually very vulnerable though strong in the appearance.I guessed he know who is he " Jus dun think too much =)" and I knew hidden secret and knowledges of someone=). Most of all, I know who am i. It surpises me alot when i know i'm the choosen one!! Praise the Lord!! Rite..

I am myself, I should put myself in pirority! Why should I care about people who doesnt bothers me..I should jus impress myself..Sunday I streamed down town and went to a Church..I bowed down to Christ I found the potiental power. I prayed to him,I can feel him..=)

Weewee Pls pls pls enjoy my song!!! I am learning how to sing "Byul" now!!=)

wow

Though i'm a BLOG - DUMMY, i figured out how to put a song ..OMG!! OMG..=)

Phlegmatic words

SENTOSA WAS FUN=) ABOUT THE REST OF THE THING..I'll blog it tml or something cos is still very vivdly to me..i s jus anathema i guessed..It makes mi feel upless (Down) & i'm replete wit questions. When i cognizant of doubts i'll never stop to figure out why,wht,when,how etc..I not tryin to exacerbate the situation, is jus tht i am a harbinger..

I not askin for more..I am vexed!!..we are now amicable but i really think tht not all!..let me think first=)

Wht should I name this?

Hmm..I love Wednesday 6 june 07!! Cos I went out wit Liyana..We are splastic lame!! Took a train to Taka to eat KFC!!=) Then Starhub for Green Tea Frappe..Omg..i love it..however Good times always flies fast though i wished to hold back tht few hours..We Bitched!! alot and she said "How I wish to see how we become in 10 years time" . 10 yearly time, we all gonna be 28=).

I still remember as we talked all night abt the rest of our lives.Where and what we gonna be when we are 25. We hopes our story never ends..=) I felt tht my life is simplify now at least I will feel bored..My lifestyle was too good..but i really prefer wht i habin now..a baby boy, Pei ee, Liyana & shrek, Sharon and my family..

I learning to be more humble from my boy. I've learnt how to miss people who truely care for me. I learn how Shrek family can manage so peacefully. From Sharon, I learn how to be nice..she is very nice to me=)

I thanked God for this.=) I'm contented..Thank you..at the very least they are true to me and I am true to them..That enough i guessed..Memories are meant to be keep, I kept Seng Leng,Shu Yi, Mei zhi and alot more in my inner safebox..when I'm free I can open the safe and feel something from there..=)

18 years in this hectic world, after i struggled for 4 years plus. Finally I've some facts about Life..Proud of myself..At least I hav not been spendin my life bitchin and pin pointin at others and forget abt myself.. God made me and i chose my destiny, i am confident to say I will be a success in life cos i do hab supporters like them in life...

Tml ..Sentosa!! and Sunday Facial in New York!! Wowowo!!

Gtg..knocked off!!Take care!

THIS IS WHY I'M HOT

OMG, i always in love for BABY BOY!! but today i'm in love wit "THIS IS WHY I'M HOT!!"=x NEVER tell him!!=)

Anyway we are more than fine now!!still very very love him!!-->is tht english?!
nah!!is okie to made a small mistake!!

I goin out wit Liyana aka Princess Fiona later for dinny...i love her
Pei ee and FOC dun get too jealous okie!! Especially FOC you see me almost EVERYDAY!!I'm *S&T of you=) As for Pei,she hear my beautiful voice almost everyday so allrite!!

*p.s SICK & TIRED!!

Tht King of Fcuker is really one!!LEF he can forget his brothers' housewarming so whatsoever is on SATURDAY..fcuk..FOC is happy for NTH!! we change the outing to NEXT SAT 16 OF JUNE!! Tht Smelly Shrek is another king!!He keep on tellin me he has to work!!he is so fcuk! ARGH!

THIS IS WHY I'M HOT!!

Chatted wit SL, BLINK BLINK, LEF(short chat), NAZ, Liyana
I could tell who are the real friends!

hmm,anything i abit concerned abt got something to do wit last firday after Cafe Delma!!FOC should know about it..
The conversation started when i said "A guy who wan to know mi from Friendster is drivin a PORCHE".
Someone shouted "DRIVING A PORCHE IS SO LOW CLASS!!" when she isnt drivin a car though her BF could afford it cos RICH MAN KID!! of course my reaction was "WTF".So i told her there is onli 100 - 150 PORCHE-ian in Sg is whereas the NISSAN-ian is countless!! Then little cute someone made me wanna strangle her when she didnt answer my question PLUS tells me this "NO,People who drives TOYOYA is more than People who drives NISSAN!!"

wah..she talks like an ASS!!i can stand girls who is stupid but not when girls who are STUPID and wan to act sophisticated!! I FULL TIME LOATHE THEM!! plus she is like freakin proud when her BF seem useless to mi=) Never debates wit a Lawyer!!

I released the anger i owned!!=) hmm..ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!!
Missing baby and i dyin to see Liyana!!=)

Interject Love

My heart is inert and elusive now..ytd some symptomatic told mi something is imminent between US.. MY WHOLE BRAIN is thinkin about Mary J.Blige..

TOO STRONG FOR TOO LONG,AND I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU BABY!
AND I WAITING FOR YOU TO GET HOME, COS I CANT SLEEP WITHOUT YOU BABY
IF ANYBODY WHO'S EVER LOVE, WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN

ARGH!! WHERE IS THE ROOT OF THE CONFLICT? MY PAST/ ME NOW / WHT?!! i never wan to leave you why you crashed my heart like nobody's business again!!

Be it no. 10 or not is never important and matters to me or i truely loved who too..BUT I LOVE YOU NOW..i losin half of me cos i've jus lose you..it matters too much to me..i love you more than anyone/anything in the world can you feel that?

I hope to se you later!! Let GOD decide my fate..