Forgiveness...

I did not miss blogging too much cos of the hectic timetable..

On 21 May (Last Wed).. Met Liyana to Kallang for the waveboarding thing.. Hmm, crazy place..I named that as "A walk to remember"...then we went to HBF coffeehouse to munch & meet Hui Shan.. Then Sentosa...

Hi all...

Hi loves..

Sweet sweet loves<3

Confession - The first Malay name I learnt to remember is "Liyana"...

Thursday, I went to school to go research..

Friday, met Rachel to school but before that..We headed to Cheenatown to munch & went to Subordinate Court of Singapore for a tour..

24 May (Sat)

Planned to go work @ home & then Clara asked me to join her to Sentosa with Wayne & Desmy.. I was overjoyed..But just before I want to go set off, Clara told me her is not going..so well..

Anyway, Ben asked me out to chill & then we watched movie "Indiana Jones & the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull".. I was pondering will there be Indiana Jones 5 since Harrison Ford is old, luckily wee~~ Shia LaBeouf (Transformer guy) is Indi's son.. haha~~

25 May (Sun)

I have a mini conflict online but no injuries at all=) I managed to talk to Joyce, the sexy, bitchy love of mine!!..Awww, I missed her so so much..She is in Aust. & totally forgetten abt me..hah, kidding.. She is like a older sister to me, good confidant..

Out for Project Meeting @ CoffeeBean.. Bla Bla Bla...STRESS... Tracy still owes me the Group name!! School work is stressful but luckily I have someone to whine to=) Went to church to pray for my family, victims of the disasters, friends & love(in general)..

Went home for dinner & watch the Charity show "Love for Sichuan"..Daddy was generous to call & donate, love the show even my BIG DADDY cried secretly.. Not a very big sum but compared to the needy we are far fortunate.. I asked him to dock 50 bucks for the donation amount..

Life & Love

I love my dad, my family.. With them I am in one, I have yet to contribute to this family of mine..

I respect the survivors bravery to continue their life, I feel for them for the apart from their individual family..

People whine & hate God for the disasters, I dont.. Life isnt fair at all!! I'll treat it as a lesson & mark it inside me..

Be Grateful..

Hatred will leads us to nowhere.. I uploaded my song of the month & play
it here.. The meaningful lyrics made me in tears when I first heard it.. Thanks Morven for the dl=)

The Heart of the Matter sanged by Don Henley from the Eagles.. India.Arie is praised by him to sing it..

The more I know, the less I understand..All the things I thought I knew,
I'm learning them again..I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the
Matter, I wanna be happily everafter but my will gets weak & my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness

The meaning & love of the song is magnificent, are you able to absorb & understand?

It took a man 42 years to write, can you appreciate it?

I dont want to assume, just try your best..Maybe One fine day you will=)

I am supposed to do my work but I guessed I will need to ponder more!!.. Need to think how to write the Essay, whether I should join Triathlon. My brain needs a rest.. People are rushing me for the Sentosa pictures & songs, then I realised my BLOG is loved..=)

This week I have a lot to look forward to, the run with you, the camp wit my school mates & I am looking for job!!..So am I..

Hope you guys enjoy the song cos Im loving it..

Bid Here

Adious

A day to remember...

If you have not viewed yesterday's entry stroll down first, before reading this=)

I often wondered why I am pondering so much at times / Why it seems like I am conplicating stuff at times, etc...

Million of questions I've asked myself, some answers come to be effortlessly, some answers I explored, some answers are yet to be found, some I might not be able to find in my entire life..

I met Rachel to munch first as Tracy was late.. We were talking about the disasters issues, some people may thinks "It's none of my biz". Think about, WHAT IF it happens here, etc..

Thousands of lives were taken away, every human beings COUNTS.

As a Singaporean, I felt pretty ashamed now. No doubt that isnt my fault to be so bliss, but EVERYDAY everyday my heart hurts so so much jus be reading the news. Can someone tell me how can I help to do something for the people, excluding donating (which I did) ? I am so angry with myself thinking that;

"I am born at the right time to speculate the disaster, not anticipating"

For Cyclone Nargis in Myammar, I am speechless about the government's hardwork..

For Earthquake in Sichuan, thankful to see that the government's are anticipating to re-build the entire city..

Hmm, went to school & wanted to get the draft which were corrected by Mr Muraalii (My lecturer), sadly according to him it is so not ready for collection. Is okie, tht doesnt stop me from asking him questions.. After discussing with him (having Rachel & Tracy sitting beside myself), we realised that the mistakes we made in question 1 & 2.. Well, so we are Re-DOING it, it will be splitting my head into two..

Well, after the group discussion, please include Grace (she came late)..Hmm, I headed come to Meriden Hotel to Monster Cue to visit my Favourite Uncle..haha.. It has been awhile since I last visit him, so he was saying "Aiyo, I thought you marry to some distance / unknown countries already, bla bla bla" . Well, when I asked him how is he doing, he said:

"I am contented with what I am, compared to the people I sees it the news.
Everyday, I see myself as very fortunate."

Though he is age-ing already, STILL his brain still works very well. Well, it seem like I doing alot of brainstorming everyday whilst I walked thru the park. Bla bla bla~~~ Was talking to Desmy yesterday, I love to talk to him cos he sorta understand me=p haha

This dog here is a HE, cos he loves me!!

Now, I need to rush to prepare my things & head to Sentosa with my Lovely dovey..haha~~

God bless & pray hard..Mercy upon the Post Cyclone & Earthquake victims & situation

Bid Here

Adious

Exhuasted Week

Hi peeps..Sorry I blogged late again..

Joke of today
I asked Morven to download a song by a singer(who I mentioned the name to him) but when he send me the song it is actually a 27 min of preaching by a priet. So both of us was sayin or rather laughin like "Hey, this is not the song man~~"...

To Morven : Whatever it is, Thanks for the songs=)

Nth much though..

Start from 12 May(Mon)
Did some research for project & then I went AMK to look for Chris

Went for the cheapest Menicure I had ever done

Went back to her place to chill for awhile

I randomly took a pic of her whilst talkin to Desmy

13 May (Tues)

Went to school to return the book I borrowed LONG LONG AGO

Rush to City Hall Station to meet Rachel & Tracy & then headed down to Coffee Bean

When Grace arrives then we started off discussin..till 8+ / 9pm then we set off..

I brought Tracy to Esp wanted to eat @ Makansutra, sadly it was closed for renovation I guessed..& also I went to Harris Bar for an interview whihc was quite a success (but not a single call yet)

14 May (Wed aka. Ladies Night)

I did touched on a bit on the draft of the project cos my brain was thinkin about Clubbing

Met Chris @ 10.30pm but I reached Clarke Quay @ 10.50pm (As usual)

Went to Lunar, MOS & Attica to collect chops on our arms

We decided to stay put @ Attica at last=)

DANCING IS MY LIFE

Super fun & we enjoyed the music throughout the night!! I danced wit a couple of guys & a hot lady whom Chris & myself both agreed that she is quite hot. Though she look young, you actually can tell that she isnt & she probably in her late thirties..BTW she did jobs on her face!!

Apology to Fabian a thousand times!!

Picture for that day

15 May (Thur)

Was stayin @ home to my project for the entire day till 11plus

Desmy called to ask me whether I wan to go Will's place to drink..I agreed which I was a bit regretted..hah..

Anyway it was fun still wit you. Thanks to Desmy for the reason why Im not able to sleep..

16 May (Fri)

Reach home from Will's place about 10am

Best part, I cant sleep cos I need to be in school @ 2pm..

@ School, short discussion & notification of the 2 day Camp..etc..a bit of kick start lesson..like breachin of social / legal rules.. Finished @ 3.30pm

Grace, Rachel, Tracy & myself wanted to munch however someone decided to watch movie..& so we went to purchase the tickets @ Grand Cathay then headed to PS - Cafe Cartel for lunch..

Maid of Honour

Super hilarious moive & heartwarming too..

To Grace, Rachel & Tracy

Thank you & many more happening events to come!!

17 May (Sat)

Chatted with Sino & he randomly ask me out cos of boredom

So..

I went to bugis to meet him & friends to service his cue & played pool till 7pm

Then..

I headed down to Pasir Ris to meet Nazlie & Abdul to Oreth's family chalet

Shan managed to piss me a little but anyway is fine now..

Well, reached home @ about 1am.. bathe & wanted to sleep whilst Sino msged myself..

So I talked to him & meanwhile packed my stuff for Sentosa till 5am

18 May (Sun)

Sino woke me up @ 7am while he shouldnt have cos

Then

I will be able to be LATE like the REST

Then

I need to have to sit down @ the Coffee Bean (Vivo) to eat the half smoked Salmon

Then

The best is we set of to Sentosa @ noon!! Thanks to Desmy..

Went to Cafe Del Mar... A bit of tanning & a lot of babes / hunks..

I was obsessed wit a lady with gold colour bikini cos she has got the eyes & lip of Angelina Jolie's & nice breast, however too pretty to be real..Jobs does help to make a different..

Chris & Wayne left earlier to attend Wayne's granpa burstday celebration..so Desmy & myself stayed there for a while then we headed to the Palawan food court to munch..

Aftermath, he took quite alot of pictures (will post it after he is willing to send it to me)

To stupid, is not that I really loathed the camera..Is jus tht I dont know how to face you & your camera<3

Very sorry to Shine, is my bad to not remembering to msg him etc..I didnt mean it to giv you a unhappy birthday & I promised to mend it=(

19 May Aka Vesak Day cum Jun Long Birthday (Mon)

I am extrmely grateful to William for intruding my comfy sleep @ 4am in the morning=)

All Celebration have a tedious preparation.. My baby bro is 6 year old now.. Sooner or later he will be growing rapidly..

Lastly, let us prayed hard to God for the victims of Cyclone & Earthquake which happened in Myammar & China respectively & Thanks God for us who are so lucky..

Thats all

Bid here

Adious

Pondering my Philosophy

Hey Hi peeps!! I am having insomnia right now cos I ....... talking to someone!! Well, also I send email to Grace, Rachel & Tracy for project thingy!!

Well, I think I will change a bit on my style of Bloggin cos Kola made a point that I'm indeed too detailed; is not like doing thesis etc!! duh..I enjoyed the my style of bloggin now but no harm to take a chance to change (Its good to take good advices @ times)

[When the pain of change is greater than the pain of remaining the same; people will CHOOSE TO REMAIN THE SAME]

Last Monday to Thursday
Basically slacking & looking for jobs..I did shortlisted 2 jobs but was rejected back my dad!! Bla bla bla~~ I will continue to find a job in the pub / clubs=)

& Wed..When to find Desmy (*Ahem he is super touched) watch Freedom Writers(Dvd)..

9.5.08 Friday, was super bored, as I promised myself to go Sentosa to relax (since I am freaking bored) So I DID WENT..BEFORE THAT I went to CHEENATOWN to look for Ya Ting for lunchy...

As usual, Cafe Del Mar to read, swim & sleep..good thing is I knew more people who enjoy spending time with ourselves...

The pictures I took before leaving Beach Station






[Sometimes, it is good to spend time to bond with yourself]

Reach Orchard later a bit then I supposed to, hah!! We (My sister & myself) went to Takashimaya to shop Mothers' Day present..Bla bla bla

Saturday, Met Chris up for Lunchy @ Bishan - Chicken Rice!!..Met Cousin to buy present & Met Ya Ting for me to go home & for her to take her driving lesson..Lastly home to slack with my dad!!=)

Sunday, Mothers' Day 11.5.08
Went to Party World to sing in the noon with my family (sorta a celebration) Met WeiLi durin his break time..Cook & dined @ home..Lastly, went for movie "WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS" with Fabian & 4 more of his hairstyling firends!! hmmph~~The Movie is AWESOMELY SWEET & FUNNY!! Plus the main leads are HOTTIES; Cameron Diaz & Ashton Kutcher!!

PS. Fabian Kumar - I'm Sorry, I hoped I didnt whack you too hard & get well soon!!=)

I wan to address something stupid~~ A causal contact in my MSN suddenly PM-ed me;
[Ivan]: Hey
[Me]: Ya
[Ivan]: Happy Mothers' Day
[Me]: WTH, Im not even attached!!DUH!!
[Ivan]: Oh, I know!! In Advance!!
tsk tsk~~ He is just too bored!!

PHILOSOPHY

Was chatting with Zherui who studyin in States & I asked him "Hey sweet, why are you still up @ such time!!"
He replied "I thinkin about Philosophy"
I said "Comon, the inspiration doesnt come @ such time, so go sleep soon"

I will like to apologise for that remark!! cos the same thing running inside me now too...

I remember I was advicing Fabian on his personal stuff. He asked me whether I'm feel lonely now as I am in my Singlehood. I told him to master THE TRUE ART OF LONELINESS & the loneliness which contributed by love is nothing..

Now, I am thinkin how did I manage to master the Art of Loneliness? It was a long lesson but I am better off now=)

I managed to understand the importance of Kinship compared to alot of people; is it not teenagers alone in fact people who are older than myself is struggling / cant be bothered about it. I appreciated Shine, who was there during those time.=)

I learnt how to moderate the Friendship placing in myself, how to differ the range of Friends..Who is worthy enough for me to befriend etc (Desmy did add in a bit of ideas for me too)

[So without Friends as a pillar I could still stand strong, without Friends I still enjoy myself in Sentosa & the couple of True Friends I keepin are the one who will always be there when I needed help etc..]

I wont want to deny that I miss my Secondary mates / life badly; LIFE STILL GOES ON! Nazile was asking me to organise gathering, I told him will giv him a plan next time cos I'll be busy wit my project this week..

My major concern is the percentage of attendence, people will find all sorts of excuses like "BUSY WITH MY CURRENT LIFE / WORK / FRIEND.."GONNA WORK MAN".. to tell us they cant make it!!

Trust me, I kinda dishearted by it though...

I thinking how many people BOTHERS to recall the good times we had?
How many will make an effort to text a Birthday Wish on individual birthday?
How many will try to ask "Hey, are you good?"
How many would appreciates & do something about the aboves?
How many people will do the same?

[Sometimes we just have to admit that Human being are selfish]

I not whinning but do make an effort to stop & recall the joy we had during those days, rather than DONT BOTHER about it.. I moved on & stop to look back for a while too..

I have to thank Morven for sending me M.C Album!! Congrats to Mariah Carey, she finally found someone, Nick Cannon to want to spend their life together..You have my utimate blessings=)

I dedicating this song "Bye Bye" - M.C to all my Secondary Mates, be it my close peeps, or I had an arguement with, etc.. I really do miss you guys & try to keep in close contact alright!!

I am exhuasted now, gotta prepare my project stuff tml!! Deadline is on Thursday!! Argh~~~~

Lastly, this is for my mum..

Though I am not the apple in your eyes, never I hate you for loving / caring for me a bit lesser than the rest. I find talkin to you is exhuasting but never irritating. People questioned our way of communication, Quarreling does make you grow & I am proud as a daughter to assist you too.

I have to admit that I am not the perfect daughter yet but I am still trying. I cannot bear myself to hate you cos your life is about this family. I do love you though we might get hostile in the arguement. I am sorry for the wrong I have done & for the good I have not do. As a daughter & in future I will be a parent of someone will hope that I will do something to make myself not to regret for not playing my part.

Thanks Mum!!

I miss you, Stupid=p
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Adious

Sunday - A day to renew & gain love day=)

If you have not read the previous entry, SCROLL DOWN TO READ FIRST!!! =P

This entry is relatively SHORT & SWEET.. YESTERDAY............

Fabin & I went to Vivo City to watch Harold & Kumar 2, it has been MONTHS since I went out with him!! haha~~ As usual I am late however this time was jus abit later than him!! =)

Hmm, we bought the tickets & went to find Clara for dinner. The Bak Ku Teh sellin in Food Republic is delicious, BUT TOO EXPENSIVE..6 BUCKS jus for a small bowl of soup (excluding the rice)... Threesome isnt that bad sometimes, we had crapping chats dinner aftermath (for digestion purpose)

Hmmm, our movie kicked off @ 6.40pm, departed from Clara then we scrolled there...
I told Fabin "When I laughed I tend to hit someone!! haha"
He was like "Oh Man!!"
Anyway, Harold & Kumar 2 is really funny; it is not so good people who jus turned 18.. Hmm, G. Bay - Cock Sandwich is EEEEEEE-kky!! haha, I named Fabin as Fabin Kumar after the movie; tht is our secret!! haha~~

Anyway, as a friend I feel the presure when I go out with him, cos most of the girls will reflects their eyes @ him & stared @ me. Forget it, I kinda used to it!
We took A picture randomly - I shouldnt have lay backward man!!

The original


The old school


The Pop Mixture


We strolled back to LG shop to find Clara, then Fabin went to Chinatown to meet a guyfriend=) Waited for Clara to knock off & we went to Daiso..I grabbed a packet of snack; how SINFUL!! haha~~ Once in a blue moon is fine man, then sat down @ Starbuck and started our Girl's Talk; I always enjoyed that cos I have only a small pool of girlfriend..I really appreciates that!!

It takes time to realize, that your warmth is crashing down on in.
It really take time to realize, that I'm on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you? But I can't spell it out for you, it's never gonna be that simple..

Now, with this pool of Girlfriends I have, even if I only left with today I am Contented..I really do...

We took train back @ about 11.20pm, both of us were pretty exhuasted!! I reached home @ 12.30pm; recieved a sweet msg from this sweet lady=) & lalala-land I went..

Today, I woke up aimlessly again, I will look for job / read the paper / do housework & homework to kill time. Maybe catch a movie by myself=)

Bleahz, Blog again!!
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Youthful Week

Have you wondered how many things will come to your realization time after time?

Recently I lost ALL my Documents which were stored in my Desktop, I guessed GOD really wants me to forget everyone who should be long ago forgotten.. The Fun was Kid-ish but happy..

I realised how lucky am I to be blessed so so much. About a year ago, I was beaten down by reality & stood up, I am I have gotten into my Dream Course; knowing the Best People who I ever know. Losing most of the Long-term Friendship but NOW I have the Best of the Best Friends in this Whole Wide World. THANK YOU GOD, DAD & PEEPS=)

My life is so interesting Cos of the people who stood there with me throughout & came but gone away from me.. I appreciates all of that..

My Blog Song is for the Love=) I hate to come to my realization that we are so close to each other.. Thus, thanks for being here..

Enjoy the song Realize by Ms Colbie Caillat.. Now shall I do a recap?

29.4.08 (Tues)
Eileen's Burstday
Woke up in the morning, read the paper & I was disgusted. "Monster Dad" in Austria - He is inhuman to rape his OWN DAUGHTER when she was 11 & kept her in the BASEMENT when she is 18 till now she is 42. He had 6 children with his Daughter (Eliz), i wondered the process of givin birth without Medical Aid. The Worst of thing he did was, he burnt one of the twin who dead during birth!!

During the Online Meeting wit my Team mates (Tracy cant make it), I voiced out & then we were all swearing @ the guy!! Then we decided the meeting date @ venue..

Lastly, Talkin on phone with Desmy..The end of my day...

30.4.08 (Wed)
Met Tracy online in the morning, briefed her thru (At least I did wht a Leader should do)

Out to eat Brunch with My dad, mum & bro @ Crystal Jade & went to NTUC shop around...

Met Desmy @ 8.45pm (supposed to be 8.30pm; I was late) @ the Junction between Cine & Herren, strolled to Shaw House cos Harold & Kumar tickets were sold out in Cine=( Same thing happened in Shaw's, then CHANGE OF PLAN to watch Forbidden Kingdom.. Both of us kept on say "Forbidden CITY"..Silly though=) Went to Cold Storage to buy Cherry Tomatoes; My favourite Snack!! Then a friend of his called & said he wanted to join us for movie..

The movie was okie.. Movie Aftermath, Desmy introduced Clement (The guy who joined us).. Then Desmy called William saying that He want to go to his place to DRINK.. I was like tsk tsk, but we still went.. Something stupid happened to me..

1.5.08 (Thur)
Well, after finishing the half / quater Bottle of Rum, we headed down to Holland V to buy Whisky (pretty cheap) Hmmm, went back to Will's place & start playin the poker card game!! Clement not drinkin so down wit Desmy, William & myself.. CHRIST~~ I was the unluckiest person on that day!! Forfeit is to drink & drink..I got to puke & then I was high & K.O!! haha~~ an hour later, got waken up & we are supposed to go.. While waiting for a stupid cabby to stop, I tried hard to make myself puke.. But I cant, was outta my image & "Fcuk" word is the word I kept on using.. Pretty angry wit myself & I havin Menses so pretty bad-tempered!! So I went to Desmy place to rest then about 1.30pm went to the nearest coffeeshop to munch & home I go!!.. but I did enjoy myself=) *Wink*

Shine is back=)

2.5.08 (Fri)
My Indulging with my love
Woke up @ 9am aimlessly, wanted to go Sun-tannin @ Sentosa but thinkin that "I doubt I can find someone, so FORGET IT" Chatting wit Ya Ting & out of blue Alvina PM myself asking whether I want to go Sun-tanning. HAHA~~ Sweet Sweet Love OF COS..I SAID ALRGIHT!! Met up under her block & took train to HabourFront meanwhile we catch up within..hah~~

Reach Cafe Delma, we were delighted!! Cos the awesome sun is shinning brightly & we are TANNED! Then Chris called about 2-3 plus..I asked her whether she wanted to join us..she said alright!! Coolness~~ Alvina & I played volleyball with this bunch of Air-force Army guys (her friend's friends)..Basically I jus stood down only..HAHA..

Alvina needed to leave for her Cell-group thingy so I brought Chris to Palawan Beach to eat our dinner (cheaper).. Desmy wanted to meet us so @ 9pm we decided to meet @ AMK to play pool, Chris went to bathe first. Well, she took quite a long time so I swim about 8 laps in the pool & chatted with Mr Bartander.

Let the picture say the fun!!

From left - Alvina, Chris & Myself


Sunset taken by Chris


Chris & Myself @ the beach


Chris & myself @ the bar





Reach AMK @ 10.30pm, but Desmy & Clement (C&D = CD) were later than us..Pool Centre were packed so I left my no. then we went to Mac'dy to chill.. Went up to play pool for a couple of hours & was abit pissed by my mistake!! Desmy's sandal was spoil so he wadding like a Penguin!!

3.5.08 (Sat)
Chris went go cos she is leaving to KL in the morning, Desmy is goin to Will's place, Clement & myself are goin home.. I have got Project meeting @ 10am~~

Was tryin to rush some work out so I slept for only 2 hours..Bla bla bla... On my journey to Bugis, met Yu Fan & chatted...

We barely start our work, not until 1pm..Haha, Tracy & Grace went to library to collect their research while Rachel & myself were thinking how to encounter their Questions by thinking the loopholes & the debating was good=) We went up to find them & visited the Level 11 Library which all the Singapore Law book are inside.. Huge man!! @ about 5 plus we parted!! Msged Clara to check whether she needs someone for dinner but she cant hav dinner so home I go.. Well, I was damn shag so I lay on my bed after bathing..Messages were coming in & I replied until 10.30pm I realised I have not eaten my dinner..Luckily there were leftover soup & rice for me still=)

4.5.08 (Sun) Now!!
Nothing to do so i blogged!! Maybe I go Vivo to meet Clara for Dinner..See how first ya=)

I goin to find Past-time job tml!! & I missed some friendo who I have not meet for a while; hopefully they feel the same too=) Looking forward to so Hui Shan & Liyana on 17 May..

That is all!!
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