About Forbiden Owin

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When you know me, you will either love / loathe me due to my intelligence, wisdom, weirdness and level of sights . Pocket of surprises & fun . High quality & quantity of living & humor . Great taste for fashion, food, drinks & living . Enjoys gaining new knowledge and skills . Someone who love & appreciate to her heart . Indifferent to strangers' opinions about me . Only care about whom I love & how thy look at me. Straightforward . Unkind with words but kind at heart . Witty . Cunning . Romantic . Secretive . Could be Irritating . Outgoing . Humorous . Bubbly . Artistic . Creative . Stubborn . Ambitious . Mischievous . Love myself . Dislike complexity . Truth-seeker . Could say that I am jacks of most trade, yet to be master of one . The rest of her is for u to find out =)

Friday, March 26, 2010

人不为己天诛地灭

From today onwards, I will be blogging what I have been learning in life together with some politics until I decide to start my school with better knowledge, discipline, and me.

As one is really ageing as everyday pass by, I see flashbacks of the kind of people I used to mix around, situations of my shameful side and who I was. Although, I did regretted, cried, got upset about the things that myself, people and situations put me to, still I am very glad and contented about everything that had happened to me for the past 20 years.

Today, I look at myself proudly and dare say that I have learnt well. It is not because I am highly educated or intelligent. The fact is that I only got some street smartness and a pair of sharp eyes. Then why am I proud of myself?

I feel proud every time I look back at;
1. the day I was mocked because of my poor English, hence with anger I pass it with an unexpected grade and learning extra language;
2. the day I made a mistake and teachers started to avoid me, hence with some pity I promise that I never trust and depend on any one fully in life;
3. the day I gotten back my first GCE ‘O’ level result, hence with tears I promised myself that I wont fail any examination; and
4. the day I have to beg for schools to accept me, hence with shame I promised myself that I will never fail myself again.

Because without all of these above wrong I had made, my life would not be so right now that I learnt well about my blog title of this entry.

Ren bu wei ji, tian zhu di mie - When one do not protect own self, heaven will expel and earth will destroy one.

This sentence is very misleading and cunning, as it help plenty of people in this world to succeed yet at the same time many people falls because of it. Some people cannot interpret rightly; some knows it but never try understood it; some understood it but never try applying it; and some applied it but never seem to get it right.

However so, this sentence is very simple and it need not required us to kill a single brain cell to ponder this. How Come?

Whenever I am tempted to do something not right, this sentence will flow out at the back of my mind. Similarly, when I want to do good which could appear to be but in fact stupid. The most priority in my list is to protect myself with the minimum harm to others or if possible without hurting anyone. Now, are you getting the pieces of it?

It might make no sense to you today, but trust me, down the road it will have make some impacts on you. Look at me; I totally changed from a lost teenager to a wiser lady, all thanks to this sentence.

I am trying to make things right; repaying all the wrongs I have done after repenting. At the same time, I look forward too because that is the reason why I am still alive today; Living for a better tomorrow. My dreams will soar high with me even when the whole wide world looks down on me. Today, those who look down on me should be looking at themselves.

Being a very humble person, I have to be very proud in front of them. Why? They need to realize how a failure they are after the continuation of gossiping about me. The confidence, creditable, creative, cunning and cool is the outer layer of me and they will never get pass to see the inner side of me. That is why my life does not stop but start here. I merely make it contestant for this marathon and the destination of this chapter is LINCLON’S INN.

So if you are interested to do something for your life, start now. As sang like this Korean song that how rough may be for you, you can still soar high and stands out amongst the crowd.

I am inexperienced instead of being worried for me; I just wish someone would hug me silently.
I know it is hard for me but my dreams can get me back on my feet.
I am feeling exhausted at times but I cannot give up now.
When the birds fly to the sky, they are like the stars than shines brightly in the night sky.
This is my beginning, telling the world with all my strength then I would not be the same as yesterday anymore.
After saying goodbye to tears and pain, I will spread the wings and try to fly to the sky.
My dream, future, hope and faith are precious jewels. Hence, I will risk everything for that day I achieved them.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Happiness

Hey, I am back from the longest vacation. Learning how to live is my favourite education and I am very pleased to be able to say that, so far I have done well. Well, Law is definitely the second favourite education of mine. Many people actually doubted my ability of attaining it, and at times even myself too. To some people who are reading this may be thinking: "oh, you only pass it with the bare minimum marks". You will probably never see miracles in your pathetic life then, unable to achieve great things in life.

I am regarded as a person with the least problem and carries plently of smile on this pretty face girl. I mean, are you that navie to think that I am happy too or it is because I hid it so well? I think it is the second one, and today I am sharing some little facts about me.

1. I am a very secretive person and so far, none of the people I've known / known me including myself can see more than half of me.
2. I may appeared to be a person who cannot hide secrets yet, I kept 5 VIP secrets for appx 8 years.
3. I may behave weirdly thru the way I behaves and those stupid and funny questions, but I manages to find / observes the things I want to see on people.
4. I may be looking as though I am without a brain, but the brain is working herself even when I am sleeping.
5. I may look stupid but I am not because I am smart and cunning.
6. I may be mean in my words but I am very kind in my soul.
7. I like to make idiots look smart and throw them down from the sky.
8. I may display that I hate actually I only indifference them.
9. I may look weak but I am very strong and cruel when I need to.
10. I never fed myself with hatred but always thankful.
11. I will never speak of problems which I cannot solve because I have an ego of a tiger where I will want to solve it first before getting help from people.

This are some part which make me who I am.

I am a success in my own life as far as I am concerned and truely no disputes about it. When people looks down on me, I prove them wrong. When people pulls me down, I drag them down to their despair.I makes countless mistake which I will not proud of and will be inside my heart as long as I lives. Apart from that, I holds ample of merits like learning english well in my own, complete my diploma, self-study lives, make and find solutions on my own. Yet, at times I am unhappy about my life.

For quite some time, I was seeking for an answer to this particular question which has been left there for all of my life. I am so bliss; blessed with Brain, Brawn and Beauty. If you think that I am not contented with my life there, I dare say that you are so wrong. I am at the stage knowing to count my bliss every single day but I never dare to face my own family. I shut down my door and make sure I dont have to deal with them, knowing that if I do, I will have everlasting problems.

Recently, I have nothing much to deal with, probably my driving lesson and some issues in work. Hence, it enables me to try to accept them and help to give them solution like a family. I know it is hard because of her but I am very glad that the rest of them actually comes together and commits like a family. I have set a target for myself that this crisis will be over before I starts school in December.

To Mrs Chong,

One hope that you are doing well and you are right to say that one was so wrong to run away from my destiny knowing that one can never do it because it will definitely comes back to me. One truely misses you=) Now, whilst trying to find solutions to help this family crisis, one am truely happy even when one am exhausted at times. Thank you for your teachings.

Your Love,
Sandral


To my other beloved besties,

You guys claimed that I am your strength and laughter and yet the very truth is you are the ones who are my strengths and laughters whenever I am on my verge of giving up. I am kind to you because you are very kind to me. I am very bliss to have you as a friend to be able to stand and love my queer character. It does not matter how many miles we are separated, the heart is the one which matters the most. Thank you for your patience.

Your Love,
Sandral


To my dearest loved Desmond,

One may be giving you luck but you definitely gave me more than and one is indebted to you. Being able to cry, smile, joke, show temper with someone was a little dream of mine, and still being loved by you. You helped me to see many of my potential and encourage me on whatever things one wants to do. Listen to me whine for nothing and tolerate my ugly-ness. Thank you for being an angel.

Your sweetest love,
Sandral


Lastly, Thank you Lord for seeing me thru everyday of my insignificant life. If three year ago I did not get to know these peers, I could not find myself and be so bliss right now. Also thank you for helping me to sort out my heart of the matter and will teach me to fulfil this again.

You people are my everything.
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Merci
Owin