Welcome to my life

I am really very moody now. dont bother to ask me why, cos I will say. I swear tht I am fallin apart right now, but noone there to lift me up.

I know my last blog was 2 weeks ago. I jus goin to cover a bit here & there. I apologised for this vey late entry, been mugging for my Exam. For my dream, everything I wan to be. However, I am disappointed wit my performance. I am not going to judge how I will be doin, let GOD do it. Also, I wan to thank GOD, the people he sent to comfort me; My family, Shine, Ms Chee, Hui Shan, Aqilah. Thank you, if wasnt because of you people, I doubt I could make it through. The faith, hope & love (with help), you contributed to me is PRICELESS.

I especially need to thank this person, he had been there for the past 7 month & 13 days. I kinda dependent on him, especially the Pre-Exam period; hav been treat him meanly. I cant imagine my life without him, though I really need to adapt now. How am I supposed to do it, I not very sure either. "Good Friends", my brain is spining now. Yea, jus broke up! cos I not an indian girl, tht wht he said. I doubt so, is it cos I am too sticky to him. It happens onli this time, I told him tht I am willing to giv him a break; but he rejected it. I dont know wht I hav said & done wrong, all I wan is to keep him back.

當世界，不知不覺的變了 (When everything in the world start to change)
有時後，我懷念以前的我 (Sometime I often miss the old ME)
作的夢雖然遠遠的 (Although dreams were faraway from the reality)
想像是一種快樂 (Lesser possession is a bliss)
擁有了，同時也失去什麼 (However, by gaining something, we will often lose another thing)
而眷戀，原來會帶來軟弱 (Eventually tireness will make us more vulnerable)
你讓我在霧裡成熟 (You had matured me by using your heart)
心開始曲折 (However you tore my heart apart)
我不想捨得，不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
是誰惹誰，言不由衷 (Pointless to push the blames to whoever)
說謊傷害，都是不安犯的錯 (By saying the lies because of the fear we have within)
怕抱不緊什麼 (fear of losing something important)
我不想捨得，不想懂得 (I dont wan to forget everything, I dont wan to face it)
誰說割愛，才更深刻 (The moment you broke my heart is an unforgetting one)
彼此依賴是愛不是負荷 (I hoped this love is not a burden to you)
能握著手就是感動的 (By holding your hands had made me contented)

I am torn, I tried to sleep to forget everything. But I discovered I cant, in fact I was thinkin about those moments wit him. Then tears dripped, how many lonely night then I will recovered? I probably shouldnt hab love, it never been smooth. Tht is why I stayed single for 1 year plus. I am still young, should explore more first=) I need to stop thinkin about him, & move on.
I love you, Shine. Maybe good friend is better, we can still hang out. Anyway the communication thing wit your folks is another problem.

At least, I have a loving home, quarelling does happen. I am far better than the unfortunate ones. Well, EXAM OVER~~!! I need to plan for my extended study route!! Wht if i not qualified for the L&M course in Singapore? *sigh* ANYWAY, I goin to revamp my room. Buyin paints etc!!

Last Saturday, I went for the Samsung torchbearer. haha~~ "Is not easy horx, cos the blood flows downwards" haha~~ the DJ's are dashing. Met an old friend too=) Kai long~

Yesterday night, went to Oreth's house. Had lots of fun. haha~~

My next entry will be talkin abt Penal Code 377A!!, maybe tml or this weekend.

Lastly, Take care people. Especially Faby who is runnin a fever. I love you=)
Tml, goin out wit Clement

Bid here,
Adious