Waited for so SO long & it is finally here

I'm in the mist of confusion emotions..Can someone tell me why I'm feelin so weird? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE CHILL ME DOWN!!

As though I'm walkin down the aisle where peeps are glarin at me or to be exact, just like a Freshman attendin College. haha I AM ATTENDING SCHOOL, is the so so near that make me barely feeling REAL. Is it jus me?

I waited patiently for this day, I stick to my dream which is so vain. I still never forget the moment I broke out cos of HAPPINESS alone. I can NEVER forget..never will I..

I always think Dreaming is so not like me, though it keeps us living. It's a theory like "Women loves to eat Chocolate, cos it makes us Happy" - It is a sterotype, I dont really fancy chocolate A LOT. I feel dishearted at times, I do have times whereby I wan to / break down cos Hopes are shattered. However, after a reflection /findin solutions time, I managed to regain myself or even shielded myself more.

I was emailing wit my Secondary Mentor, Mr Tan recently in Facebook. He is surprised & relieved for wht I am now, he was worried about me then. It jus make life so worthy cos it proved that someone still cares about me at somewhere in this world.

I find my life very magical cos seem like God nv forsake me though at times I do let him down. He make sure I'm making the correct choice I'm supposed to choose for life. I wanted to be someone different so I buried my past & started anew. Not saying my past is very bad, just not as good as you think I am.. Well, I exprienced the moments of LOVE, LUST, TEMPTATION, GREED, BETRAYAL, SORROW, JEALOUSLY & etc when I was young at least I can be proud to tell others I was stupid. They are my lessons taught & I nv will forget all cos I paid a big price for it. I nv regret not being a good girl who I supposed to be, I am grateful for what I am today.

I achieved something which I eagerly longed for..My English foundation, is not perfect yet but is gettin to somewhere, I will work harder for this. haha, now people thought tht I am a Korean who came from States, haha..Moveover, the price I paid is everything I established before. When I recalled abt all, I felt something inside pricking my heart. I need to say it's worthy, cos I bought a lesson which allowed me not to depend so so much on friends; to see my family is still here for me. My current clique are really fun just like who I hope to meet, I gladded they come into my life. THANKS GUYS=)

Again, plenty of people I always feel so thankful inside my heart, alot of times you will see me repeating / repeated the list cos without them you probably wouldnt know the current me now. They gave me a chance to repent & learn, I cant imagine wht will I be without them..

My Dad - He showered adaquate love & freedom to me=)
My Mum - Though she is a nagger & not so smart, I do get sick of her at times; she is a nice person still
My Siblings - Thank you for lettin me come in front of all of you, as I exprienced much much things compared to you, KEEP GROWING!
Austin - Someone whom I never forget in my entire life, he is my angel when I needed someone badly.
My Cousin - Thank you for being such a nice advisor as always
Ms Chee - You are probably the best teacher I ever know, who is still here for me

My Close Friend who wont fail to be there
Hui Shan
Liyana
Leah
Joyce
Su Fang
Zachary
Fabian
Yong An
Shine
& A few more=)

Something Important I need to clarify..People are doubting my choice of guy who I fancy now. I wont deny looks is important to me, I never thought I will like him in the first sight, NEVER!! Hearts counts most, compared to looks. He is a nice person though he may looks retarded a bit. He is funny & fun. When he is serious, he looks very cool. Even we wont end up being together, I am happy to know someone like him=)

Thursday, after my school @ 8.30pm, supposed to meet William @ 8.45pm but he came onli @ 9.57pm!! Overslept in the bus, cool reason! I went shoppin for a while, bought a PUMA Bag & a Bottle..So Dummy & I went to HMV for our own time. So I was enjoyin my music & he is lookin at some DVDs. Please buy Mariah Carey E=MC2!!! Awesome songs, She is my inspiration, just by listenin to her songs, I will stay strong=)

Friday, Went for lunch with Hui Shan & Chill @ Brewerkz wit Su Fang..& talked to Desmond & Zac at night=)

Saturday, Jogging & had dinner wit my family aftermath went to the nearby beach myself=) Chatting with Fabian till 4am, nonsense & serious talks, haha.. We are clubbin on Wednesday haha

Sunday, now..My family are at home, My Sister was teachin Fei Fei how to play Chopstick using keyboard. He is really smart, I still not playin weel till now=(

But I really really can sing well.. My Sister, Sofina & I was in our school choir like 7 years back, was actually something I am very proud of, though I missed a chance to sing the solo part cos of outbreak of sickness. I managed to find something I love to do, memorable time during the graduating Primary School . Sofina played the CD which kept all the music (I'll post the Piano Solo next time) As I am bloggin here, about my dreams etc, the musical play was named as "Follow the Dream" so nice..She / The Cd sort of tellin me to contiune to follow my dream, it has been years & the lyrics of the song is still so alive, I can sing to you guy next time but remember to pay & so the chorus goes like this;

"Follow the dream
The dream I know
So clearly in my spirit & my soul
Follow the dream
Dont let it go
It will echo throught the ages
Break down all strong defences
Unfold the hope & power
Follow the Dream"

& A certain part I really love & sing it when I am lost;-

"Dont be afraid
Dont be discouraged
Our hope lies in your hand
It may not seem what it seems to be now
We have not reached the end
There's sky that's not yet open
The rain has yet to fall
And a rainbow to be painted
A sun that shines for all
And a dream to be remembered
But you would have to
See it in your heart"

Now there is a piece of good news to share, Sofina who quitted school jus before her Major GCE "N" Level told me she wants to go back to school.. So we probably be sendin her to Chec / MDIS / YCMA / Night School =) Hopefully Suvin would think the same way too.

I goin for a movie wit Shine in Town=) Then I will prepared my stuff for tml=) AWWWW, I blog tml abt school, OKIE?

BTW, Is Random.. I was surfing Facebook & searched my own name "Sandral" to my surprise that girls whois given / maiden name is "Sandral" all looks very attractive...

Hehehehehehehehe

May the peace be wit ya!!
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