Deary Life

I am not bothered about anything right now as I typed this blog, in fact I am very calm. My Grandmother's husband just passed away, what really sadden me is her. I often wondered why she has to lead such a sad life but she is a strong woman. All her children thinks that they are better than her in a lot of aspect and they are simply wrong. She might be silly at time to feeds her son who is the age of 45 year old but that is because she felt guilty then she wasnt able to give them a good life. I started my blog with "Have you ever tried to be in my shoes?" for a purpose. It does not takes a genuis to do this; understanding others. However, many simply refuses to even try. All they know is to grumble, feel sad over their life and looking for people to take some pity on them. What hurts me badly is that I, over my 19 years never seen or hear my grandmother grumble about her life; seeing 2 husband passed away and needed to bring up all her child. So who are you to grumble?

Hence, when I pray for her to God. I asked him to watch over us & help me to watch over her. I want her to be there when I soar like an eagle most because I dont want to live my life with regrets. She is my Dear Mother, a true example of a Mum. Trust me, I have no mercy to my own so-called mother when she step on my back.

Dear Rach, thank you for this wonderful song although I said to you that "this song is not meant for me". I would like to get this sentence back because I really have a wonderful grandmother and dad. I survived so long and i will survive as long as I need to because of them. I cannot be bothered about others' eyes, they have a choice as to how they look at me and I made the choice at the point I want to change. This is all about me at this point of time, although the thought of giving up came pass me the other day. That is not going to happen, to grow and soar is all I am concerned of, because it came to my realisation of ONE THING!!

I am very enriched now, other than studying for my exam the only thing I love most is read. I am excited over able to purchase 'Men in white'. Also, Screw the system here & it is all crap & bullshit. Government in general are bulls******* and selfish in nature, hence never trust a politican too much.

Lastly, I will have a nice weekend today although work is not too good today. I misses my friends a lot and will type the list of books to buy for me for my BURSTDAY. haha, thanks huh peeps!! We are bbq-ing later, yeahness!!

I love my beloved friends & baby.

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Adious