My life & I

I not sick & tired of Blogging, is just that the happy moments were too short to capture & too much too much sorrows. Knowing that this is part & parcel of life; interminable, I had faced almost everything strongly.

This time, I hope I can but *sign* try my best. In everybody's eyes, I am always the happy, independent, voluble, petite girl. Can you believe that I am this fragile? I went to see the doctor, wanted to get the pill for my period from him. For the time being, stopped all my exercises, recover my diet (maybe too much MSG cos I often eat outside), however I am still unable to distress; pitiful soul. Doc said he is unable to give me the pill cos I have Hypertension.

What is hypertension? Primary High Blood Pressure (HBP), my BP rate is 135/85 & the HBP rate is 140/90. OMG, right? Is a gift from heaven I guessed. I am emotionally unstable nowadays, living in my very isolate world. I think my parents are heart-broken when I told them about it. I should have realize it, & consult a doc; is hard for myself, let alone them.

After a long day of pondering, I will really isolate myself from him, I dont wan to burden him. The song is dedicated for him, is true that my dreams came true wen I found him, he is my miracle. For such a good person, I should not be so selfish, feasible to be ill for my entire life; Heart Attack, Kidney failure or etc? haha, though I am not convinced but still accept it.

Before going back to checkup, have a few thing to keep in mind:

I will try to stable myself.
I belong to me; I complete myself.
I will take care of my diet.
I will be happy myself.
I will restrict myself from alcohol.
I will control my temper.
I will be strong myself, being happy is my priority!
I rocks!! haha~~, seem fake!

Avaline helped me a lot, she wants to go out with mi tomorrow, to share my stress. She will be back to Singapore tml morning. I longed for a elder sister so when she treats me nice, I'm on cloud nine.

Will be helping Eileen with her Marketing Homework yesterday & today, haha~ funny right. I am only a stupid O level graduate who fails English. Whatever, I will just try my best & got my cousin for help.

Last Saturday, the OSIM Corporate Triathlon was damn cool. My team by left got the first within my Company & Position 7 in the whole Relay Mixed team. Surprisingly, Why "by left"? No comments, merely lucky!

FACEBOOK IS SO FUN & POPULAR!! AWWW~~ YEAH!! I crave for singing, dancing & everything. Wednesday, dinner with my faby. We aint together, we wont! I am sick, will be cruel to keep him wit me. We had North Indian Food, quite delicious & definitely healthy! Recently, Zachary & i are very close!! Talking on the phone etc, weee~~ I am his Love! Went out wit Clement to have a drink @ Swiss hotel, 72 Floor. He is fcuking cool!! As always Caucasian family will have divorce case & etc! haha!

Talkin about food, I gotten restrict myself from Chawanmushi & etc. I planned my diet & exercising schedule properly, cos I have to help to cure myself. Sodium will kills me & if I dont cherish myself, who will? My period is no big deal, wan to come it will come; dont come better still forever dont. I am tired to be short-tempered cos of it. My major concern is my Blood Pressure, I will do everything to prevent it from rising. Everything~

Well, I am kinky busy with my montage & etc, feel like quiting my job. I dont like I could managed the stress too. See how then! My shop is 20% done, will probably be launchin on the 1 Dec.=) Drawing is my interests, probably might not be the best but I believe I could be if I wan to=) Own bossy~~, own time own target, Life is great!

I guessed God really wants me to reflect my life & myself. I been in my zenith & often been thinking what if I have some serious illness? I told myself before, if I have illness, wont wan to indulge myself in pain. I will use a very fast & easy way to runaway from it. Today, I realised that moving on & be strong is not a bad thing. Who knows, you might find someone to be there "till your death bed". Silly silly me is jus hypertension. I jus have to balance my lifestyle, for what I want to cry.

I almost breakdown when I heard that "The normal BP should be ranging about 120/70 below & the HBP rate is about 140/90. Miss, your BP is about 135/85 & is pretty serious."

Hmm, I have a neighbour. His spouse & him are childless,cos he is contracted with Kidney Failure. The spouse have been faithfully with her for all this while; is bonafide love. Though he is unable to give her many thing, he managed to keep her with love. Every morning, I noticed that he sent her to the bus stop to work, i am extremely envious.

From nowadays, I will make my own breakfast & lunch; RESTRICT ALL MSG FOOD & EAT MY MEDICINE!! I MUST BE VIGILANT!! ARGH!! HEALTHY LIFESTYLE TO BEAUTIFUL MIND & BEAUTIFUL SOUL!! Found a private Law school in Singapore, will contact me asap!! Cool~~

Penal Code 377A =)
I think is a good decision made by the parliament still, but I dont discriminate Gays! I HAVE GAY FRIEND~~ thy are kind & nice. Repenting 377A is jusa matter of time. Take it slowly, I am liberal however many out there aint still. I have a lot to say, however mood-less to talk=).

Love my family and Shine alot!! Thanks GOD!!
ASSHOLE IS ME!! Tons of pictures to upload! BUT SORRY NOT TODAY!! Enjoy my BLOG Song!

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