Love

Today, Im quite disappointed because the BKK trip with desmy is going to be cancelled. As his parents mentioned that the chaos there now will be more chaotic by Dec. So how I am celebrating my birthday now? I aint too sure, so lets wait & see.

Secondly, Im very sad cos I cant figured out the reasons why we are not talking much. Im not sure what is going on within him but I know I shouldnt add more fuel in him. In a relationship we are bound to quarrel so I should stay positive.

Subsequencely, I had a chat with Shine. He told me that I am probably not sure of what is love & love happens once only in a lifetime. Adding on he said he only loved once in his life, that was me. When you love & your partner breaks your heart, it aches, is tht a sign of love?

When your partner doesnt treat you well, but you dont want to leave him, is that love / reliance?

Then I started to question myself whether I really know what is love? & what is it? I dated 11 bloody times in my life plus still dating 1, but did I loved someone before or now? I am so confused, so I started to recall from 1 to 11 & the 12 who is desmy.

Zac is nonetheless the first love but it is counted more as puppy love.

Jameson is the first guy who broke my heart, I did begged him to stay but I should say it is reliance. I relied on him cos I needed love.

Prinsten is my secret love but it is more like admiring cos I didnt came cross such perfect guy.

The rest of the guys in the 10 should classified as like.

As for Shine, I am still going to insist that it is love & I am so sorry I broke the promise cos there werent signs from you so I thought you have moved on. I not trying to pin point any mistake but I just wan you to know if you had show me some sign to wait, things could be different.

Desmond is doubtless the love, I do love him from my mind, heart & soul. This song describes how I confused I am. I am so fearful that all this will come to a stop one day. I know even I have the strength & courage to continue, the question is do my partner has?

I am going to school at least to do some work, so less time to ponder the confusion. I recieved a msg today & felt kinda terrified, I cant help but figuring what lies within the heart & mind of one. I hope to finish my summary of Criminal Law this week!! Although Exam has been postponed a month back, it will not going to make me stop working hard!

女儿红 (给我一首歌的时间) by Jay Chow

[Phrase I]
The rain has fallen from the sky destructively poetic.
You say you don’t understand why we hold hands now.
I’ve dried myself off in silence, Regretfully rinsed off.
Considering that if I’ve done wrong, that is because I’m afraid to make mistakes again.
Being together is called a dream.
Having broken up is called pain.
Is it that the painful part is not having to complete the dream?
The aftermath of losing my way is something I can bear.
But where is the final exportation liking only then having.

[Chorus]
Can you give me the time to sing this song?
To make the tight embrace I give you becomes forever
In my heart, You do not need the fear to lose sleep.
If you want to forget I also can lose recalled.
Can you give me time to sing this song?
Only after hearing the end of the story then say “goodbye.”
The tears you've given me, lets keep it till the rainy day
Crossed line which you delimit, I've decided to have a brave ending

Repeat [Phrase I] & [Chorus]

You said I shouldn’t I shouldn’t shouldn’t have told you that I love you now.
How must I prove that I don’t have the strength to lie to you?
Oh please tell me whether can act of suspending calculates to the act of forsaking?
I only have the sweet memories of that one day.

[Chorus]

The End

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