My heart of the matter II

Hey, if you have not read yesterday entry, stroll down FIRST! Then come back to read this entry=)

I always so envious of Joyce, she is so beautiful & demure in my eyes. I am so happy for her cos her bf is proposing to her. I always think proposal should be a secret but he chose to keep her in suspense which literally makes me really excited too. I asked Joyce, when that will be my turn to be with a guy who truely loves me as much as I love him? I guessed each individual will have their different ilk to luck. My love luck is not here yet=)

Though I am a fussy person but to a certain extent, I dont set a overboard criteria. I wanted my "him" very simple than alot of them, unfortunately I seldom meet the correct one. I was looking forward for someone to fill the imperfection of me. In him, I learnt, I think, I observed & I am changing. He might be unware about it, but with him I am just ME. The normal girl who is so normal, & in his arms I feel very safe. =)

This song & entry is for a special person living inside my heart. I was struggling what to blog for him. If you are reading this, I jus wan you to know:

You are not a secret, well if you are, you are an OPEN SECRET. I dont know how much I stood in your heart, is not that I wouldnt care but I think I should share mine cos I wanted to. The little things you done which might seem tiny to you / others but somehow, sometimes it just brighten up my day. I really hate & love you=)

"Someone gonna make the first move" So I choose to be the one, cos I couldnt afford to lose such dearly person. I am silly to try not to offend a friend of mine, but I think I should respect my heart. I could let go of my pride for once, cos I never wan to live with regrets again.

I hope to keep you in my pocket forever but forever is still so far. I hope to be the one you are waiting for. I hope my method of loving you would be right for you. I hope you felt the same as me, but it never will. & Hope you will enjoy the song.

I chose this song very wisely for you & JUST FOR YOU. It tells how I feel for you & wit your intelligence I am sure you can feel it too. I never regret knowing you, I never will cos you are the most wonderful SOULMATE I ever know. Though I think there is alot more for me to say but I think I shall stop here.

& Sir, I want my ESSAY asap<3

Sometimes when we touch by Olivia (Original singer - Dan Hill)

You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

In what you say or do

I'm only just beginning

To see the real you

(Chorus)

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold you till I die

Till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me
subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through all the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

Im just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

(Chorus)

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

And I know how hard you try

I watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

(Chorus)

Going to eat dinny wit Chris & then to work=)

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